Author's Note :
First of all , I want to thank you guys for reading my story and leaving a review! I really enjoy reading your thoughts. And 100 followers! Are you kidding me? I'M SO HAPPY! I just can't tell how much I love you all. When I posted the very first chapter of my story , I told my best friend that I didn't have any expectations and 10 followers would do just fine. And now seeing that I have 100 makes me want to jump around and show you all my best smile! I would love to meet all of you but the distance is far too long. Distance sucks!
This chapter doesn't have much Klaroline but there is always more to come because as you all know I'm not Julie. She ruined my Stelena love and now Klaroline! So as to be polite I'm not even going to bother talking about Hayley being pregnant. But here is a chapter full of pregnancy stuff. I didn't know anything about pregnancies since my best friend came to my life. This idea is completely hers. Love her. And all of you! PLEASE REVIEW!
CHAPTER 11
You're just a small bump, I know you'll grow into your skin
With a smile like hers and a dimple beneath your chin
Fingernails the size of a half grain of rice
And eyelids closed to be soon open wide
A small bump, in four months you'll open your eyes
And I'll hold you tightly and tell you nothing but truth
If you're not inside me, I'll put my future in you
…
'Cos you are my one and only
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb
And hold me tight
You are my one and only
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb
And hold me tight
And you'll be alright
'Cos you were just a small bump unborn for four months, then torn from life
Maybe you were needed up there but we're still unaware as why.
…
ONE MONTH LATER
It had been one month. One month since Caroline was left , without him. She hadn't seen his face , even once. Maybe that was because Caroline hadn't left her house since. She was too scared to face him or any sight of the new family that everyone adored. Alex , Mason and Evelyn… They were out every day as Stefan told her. They played in the only playground that Mystic Falls had and went to the Grill together.
They did everything that Klaus and Caroline couldn't do. They became a true family. And that was the main reason that she didn't go out. She always ordered food and only opened the door to the delivery guy , Stefan and Bonnie. Stefan was with her since Caroline left the house with the things that belonged to her and Klaus. He left everything behind and Caroline couldn't help but take them all. Because taking them meant that she was going to see him again. Perhaps one day , in a year or even in a century just like he promised her.
She missed him. But she knew that they were both not ready to see each other. Even though she believed that she wasn't ready , every night she came cross to that. The nights were all a blur. She hadn't slept properly since he left. Every night she found herself wearing his Henley t-shirt , breathing his scent. It looked like a dress on her but she didn't mind. Because that was the only way that she could sleep for a couple of hours , imagining his arms around her.
When she closed her eyes all the memories came flooding back to her. The memories that she shared with Evelyn and Klaus. She wondered when would those small moments stop haunting her. She tried to take them off her mind all the time but it never worked. They were a piece of her now and it didn't matter if she wanted them to be a part of her or not. She still woke up in the middle of the night to check if Evelyn was sleeping , only to see that she was not with her now. Neither was he…
They were away from each other but Klaus felt the same things that Caroline felt. He was angry , dark. He didn't feel safe and didn't know what to do about it. He wished he could control his demons instead of having his demons control him. He wished he could stop seeing her reflection when he closed his eyes. He wished he could take everything back. He was lost , alone. He was left infinitely and utterly alone.
He spent his last month painting. His paintings were always dark but after Caroline he found himself adding a glimpse of light to every painting. But now with her gone , that white color faded to grey. It was like she never came to his life. It was all dark again. Because he felt like it. He felt betrayed. He felt like he did everything to her but she never wanted a life with him and that night she told him that she loved him was all a lie. He wanted to believe with all his heart that she truly loved him but his insecurities didn't let him.
He didn't go back for her. It was her time now. He gave her everything he got but she never gave back. He would wait forever for her to come back to him. But Evelyn… He could never see her again and that hurt. He realized that he saw himself as the father of Evelyn too late. He realized it when he let her go. Now it was just too late. He left a crying Caroline and a clueless innocent Evelyn behind. He left his dreams and moved on. It all faded like the color white. Burnt to ashes and faded to grey.
Alex smiled at herself when she saw the result. It was positive. She was pregnant. She actually suspected pregnancy 3 weeks ago but wanted to be sure. She was happy with Evelyn but this result took everything to another level. She was going to be a mother. A real one. She has never felt more happy in her whole life. She was so excited for this and wanted to tell Mason as soon as possible. She made her way downstairs where Mason was watching TV while Evelyn was sleeping peacefully.
She jumped next to Mason on the couch and snuggled closed to him. He noticed some sort of change in her. He actually noticed this different glow on her a lot of time ago but never bothered to ask. He thought that it was probably because she was living her dream with Evelyn. But today she was more different than ever and he decided to ask.
"What is going on with you , Alex?"
Alex smiled courageously and popped the news.
"You are becoming a dad."
When she said those words his face lit up immediately. He kissed her fiercely and softly at the same time. They had dreamt about this moment for so long… And now it was finally happening. Now they were finally becoming a family. Like they have always desired.
"What are we going to do with Evelyn , honey?"
"Nothing Mace , she is still our daughter… She will still be with us when we raise our baby."
They both smiled at each other. That moment was the happiest moments of their lives. Mason hugged her tighter now. Now all they had to do was going to the doctor to find out if the baby was fine. Mason called and got an appointment for the next day. As hospital's were not good for a baby like Evelyn , Mason would stay home with her and Alex would go with the only friend that she made in Mystic Falls , Larissa.
The next day came fast and Larissa came to pick Alex up. Alex was pretty nervous about this. She would be fine but she had something inside of her denying it. Larissa kissed Evelyn before taking Alex by the arm and leading her to her car. The ride was rather quite. They arrived soon and Alex got out of the car. They entered the hospital and checked in. Then the waiting started to get in. 5 minutes later the nurse informed them that they could get in. When they got in , the brunette doctor was waiting for them. She asked Alex to lay down and she did as she was asked.
"Now , this might feel a little cold Mrs. Harris."
She said when she rubbed the gel on Alex's belly. Soon she started to monitor. Alex dreamed about this appointed million times and now it was coming true. She started staring at the monitor but didn't get a thing. The brunette doctor explained everything to her as she listened excitedly. Larissa was standing right beside her , supporting her.
"Doctor , is my baby fine?"
"Everything looks really normal , Mrs. Harris. You have a healthy baby. The baby is 7 weeks old so you should come back for me to check the baby every month from now on."
The doctor smiled at her as Alex's face lit up at her words. Alex was too happy. She thought that this happiness would never be real but now she was there , living the dream. All she wanted was to share this happiness of hers with Mason. So as soon as the appointment finished , she called Mason. Mason opened the phone immediately , as nervous as Alex was leaving the house.
"Hey Mace…"
"Babe , please tell me you have good news!"
"I indeed have good news Mason! Our baby is okay!"
Mason cried from happiness and joy. They both deserved that. When Alex came home , she said her goodbyes to Larissa and thanked her for coming with her. She jumped on Mason's lap and kissed him. They kissed until they were both breathless. She smiled at him once again as he opened his mouth to say something.
"Well , than we have to go to shopping for our little baby and her beautiful mother."
Alex smiled at her husband. She believed that they deserved happiness more than anyone and in that moment those words came true.
"Well then we have to get ready! Let me get the stroller for Evelyn."
"No , no Alex. I'll do it. You should be careful now. You are carrying our precious baby."
They were fully ready 10 minutes later. Alex opened the door and stepped outside. She was wearing shorts and a tank top. She had her sunglasses on and she looked good. They made Evelyn wear a summer dress with floral print on it. She also had a hat. She looked completely adorable. Mason opened the car's backdoor to make Evelyn sit on her own seat. Alex sat right next to her. Mason started to drive to the only mall near Mystic Falls.
They found a couple of stores there and Alex got into the most colorful one. Mason followed her with Evelyn in the stroller. He was extremely happy to see Alex like that. Because every time they tried and failed , she was getting more depressed and Mason would do anything to get her wife back. And all of a sudden it happened. Alex was happy again.
The saleswoman tried to help her out but now that they didn't know about the baby's gender , they would have to stick to some basic colors that would be proper for both genders. They ended up getting 5 bags of stuff. They were like those parents who started to spoil their kids even before they were born. Alex was all tired in the end and Mason suggested to go home. Alex agreed and they made their way home.
The next couple of days for Alex was a disaster. She felt dizzy all the time and vomited more than a lot. And the cramps were killing her. She never imagined pregnancy like that. She knew she would go through all of these but had no idea that she could feel this bad. Mason took care of Evelyn all the time so that she could rest a bit. She also couldn't even step in the kitchen. The smell of everything made her want to puke. Larissa tried to come as much as possible to help her and Mason out.
Alex crawled under the blanket and closed her eyes. She didn't want to feel dizzy anymore. Mason wanted to go to the hospital after seeing Alex like that but she insisted not to go. She claimed they all were normal things that happened in most of the pregnancies. Mason came in to the room , holding Evelyn in his arms. He sat on the other side of the bed and leaned to kiss Alex's forehead. Alex didn't even bother to open her eyes. She was so tired and couldn't even try to lift her eyelids. She wanted these 9 months to pass more than anything. Then she would hold her baby and everything would be a lot better. Well , at least that was what she believed sincerely. She would have a baby that she could brag about. A miracle baby.
Alex didn't realize that she slept just like that and Mason left the room. She saw the blanket still surrounding her. She slowly got up , trying to open her eyes. She was bored of waking up like that. As she still sat on the bed , her eyes were pinned at the red mark on the bright white blanket. Blood. It was blood. She yelled in pain. She didn't want to believe in her eyes. She started to cry as fast as Mason climbed the stairs. Alex yelled more when she saw Evelyn and tears rushed down her cheeks as fast as they could.
"Mason , TAKE ME TO THE HOSPITAL!"
Mason's eyes opened wide when he noticed the blood. He took Alex out of the room with Evelyn still in his arms. Alex was still yelling like crazy , they were lucky that they didn't have any neighbors. Because if they had , everyone would be out wondering by then. Mason started driving as soon as possible. They got out to enter the hospital's ER , where it was surprisingly quite. The nurses took care of them and Alex started to explain the situation between her unstoppable tears and sobs.
The doctor came rushing in and set the ultrasound. She had to perform the ultrasound to view the uterus' condition and fallopian tubes. Everything was ready a few minutes later. The doctor checked everything carefully and always had a look of concern. She furrowed her brows when she finally spotted what she was looking for. She looked back to Alex and started to speak.
"We have to get you to the surgery."
Alex cried more with that sentence. She was so ready to finally be happy. Everything was ruined once again. She lost everything. She couldn't imagine worse.
"Is my baby okay?"
"We don't have time to discuss this , if we don't want to lose both of you."
She said and rushed out of the room leaving Alex with the nurses that prepared her for the surgery. She was still screaming and muttering the same words to herself since she first saw the blood. It is going to be okay. Even though she knew that there was something wrong. Something was very wrong.
They took her to the surgery. Mason freaked out when he got the news. He was not inside the room so he didn't know what had happened inside there. He only saw a crying Alex leaving the room on a hospital bed. The room wouldn't be safe for Evelyn so he waited outside. He had no idea what was happening. He waited for a couple of hours and called Larissa to pick Evelyn up. Larissa came running and took Evelyn from his arms , asking him to call her about Alex and the baby's condition. And then she left , leaving a messed up Mason behind.
After Larissa was gone , Mason lost the track of time. He closed his face with his hands and started to cry silently. And then he saw the doctor getting out. He looked at her face , hopeful and asked the question that he was dying to know. He stood up and spoke silently.
"Doctor… Are they okay?"
"Why don't we sit down for a moment Mr. Harris?"
Mason sat down and looked at her face once gain. She was trying hard not to hurt the man with the words that she practiced during the surgery.
"Your wife , Mrs. Harris , she had a ruptured ectopic pregnancy."
Mason stumbled. He had no idea what she meant but that just didn't sound right.
"What … What are you talking about?"
"A ruptured ectopic pregnancy is the breaking or bursting of a fallopian tube that contains a fertilized egg. This can cause life-threatening bleeding which your wife had…"
With Mason's shocked face she continued.
"In a normal pregnancy, the fertilized egg implants in the uterus, which easily expands as the fetus grows. Most ectopic pregnancies implant in a woman's fallopian tube. This narrow structure is likely to rupture in the first few months of an ectopic pregnancy unless treated. We couldn't see this in your first appointment so the ectopic pregnancy continued and the fallopian tube implanted. That was the blood you saw when you woke up. We had to remove your wife's fallopian tube segment. "
"Are they okay , doctor?"
"Your wife will be okay after everything. She can leave the hospital in 2 days."
"What about our baby?"
Mason started crying with that last question of his. He knew there was something wrong. He could sense it.
"We did everything we could Mr. Harris. I'm so sorry for your loss."
The doctor left with those last words. Mason finally broke down and started to cry. Even though that baby wasn't even born , they were already ready for its presence. He wondered what he would tell Alex when she woke up. He wondered how screwed up their lives would be from then. Alex would never be the same.
He stayed like that for a couple of minutes and then he remembered that he had to call Larissa. He called her and explained everything. Alex would spend the night in the ICU and be transferred to a normal room in the morning. Mason couldn't sleep the whole night. He waited until Alex woke up.
When she woke up , she wasn't herself. She lost it completely. When they told her that she lost her child , she didn't react. She stood looking at the ceiling like a stone. Not even a tear was shed. She was numb. It was like she was trying to bury the feeling of hurt , deep inside of her. She didn't talk , she didn't eat. She only answered the necessary questions.
2 days passed quickly and it was the time Alex could leave the hospital. The ride was awkward. They didn't speak at all. She hadn't spoken to Mason since she got out. Mason really tried but gave up after he didn't get any reaction out of her. As they reached home , Alex waited for a second to turn the lock. Mason thought it was a good idea to bring Evelyn to cheer her up. So he asked Larissa to bring her after they got out of the hospital. He thought it would be good to get a reaction out of her.
Alex moved to the bedroom , to change. Then she saw the things that they had bought for their baby. She held them in her hands and hugged them. Those clothes were like the trigger to a reaction for the baby's death. She cried and cried , holding them closer than ever. She wanted to forget about all this. She wanted to go back to her life when everything was normal. Where no pain occurred in her life. She tried to stop crying but when she failed miserably , she moved to the bathroom to splashed the cold water to her face.
She got out of the bathroom and saw Evelyn on the floor , playing with her toys. And that was when she lost control of every cell of her body. She didn't move as Evelyn got up slowly and moved towards her. She felt every muscle of her body tighten. She didn't know what to do. She started crying again when she saw Evelyn walking without stumbling.
This child wasn't hers and never was. She understood that after losing her baby. Her real baby. She took Evelyn in her arms , she had to. But it didn't feel right. She didn't seem to fit in her arms. And then Alex started talking to herself. This new person looked like her but she was far from that. She only felt hatred.
"I lost my baby… I lost my baby… And you were supposed to be the perfect baby and make me forget about my past. But you could never. You only bring me pain Evelyn… More and more pain!"
She shook Evelyn harshly as she finished her sentence. She put Evelyn on the floor. It was time for Evelyn to cry. They both didn't shut up. Mason looked at the 2 people stunned. He didn't know what to do. He caused this. He knew Alex didn't mean them. He knew she would regret that moment but it was too late. Evelyn deserved better.
Alex found herself on the floor. She felt everything now. She knew she regretted it. She saw the look on Mason's face and knew that they could never be the same. She found Mason moving toward Evelyn and she wanted to reach her first. To prove Mason that she could get better. But as she leaned to get Evelyn , she felt a hand pushing her hardly.
"I'm NEVER going to let you touch her again!" Mason yelled. Alex came running to him.
"No , no , no… Mace… Don't do this. Don't leave me…"
Mason saw the look on Alex's face. He knew he couldn't leave her but he also knew that he wouldn't let Evelyn stay either.
"I'm not leaving you." He whispered. He knew she was more broken than ever. He knew she would need her husband and he would be there for her. But they needed help. He needed to take her to the hospital. She had to get a psychological treatment. Because Mason knew that this wasn't the caring and loving Alex that he knew.
Mason had to call Klaus. He left the room , leaving the crying Alex alone for a minute. He dialed the number of Klaus. When Mason heard Klaus asking who the hell he was , he saw the irony. They had met just like this and this was their goodbye.
"Hey , Klaus. I'm Mason Harris. There is a problem. You should take Evelyn back."
"What are you talking about?" Klaus said yelling. He didn't like this man at all. They had stolen their happy life away from them and left both him and Caroline in pain. And now they were willingly giving her away. That just didn't sound right.
Mason explained everything over the phone and as Klaus heard Evelyn crying from the phone. He knew he wouldn't stop loving and caring for her. Mason said that he was taking Evelyn and Alex back to the hospital. Evelyn only needed a check and Alex needed a lot more than that. Klaus closed the phone. He knew he had to call Caroline. But decided against it. He remembered that her house was on the way to the hospital and decided to take her from her house.
He got out of his car and walked her porch. He knocked the door and heard Caroline yelling.
"Go away. I'm busy!"
"Caroline , open the door sweetheart. It's me…"
Caroline knew this voice. In fact she knew this voice very well. She was stunned. She didn't expect him to come back. She moved towards the door. Her voice trembled as she said his name after a long time.
"Klaus…"
