Ok, so it took me a long time to update. Sorry. But hopefully I made up for it with a nice long chapter. I've finally figured out how I want this story to end. And all the events that lead to it. I'm going to stop typing and let you guys get to the story.
Disclaimer: I do not own CCS. But I do plan on going to see the Beastie Boys concert coming out in theaters. I can't wait!
High School Drama
Chapter Eleven:
Late Night Visits
Syaoran POV
"I fucking hate school. This good for nothing piece of crap they teach us. We come in here every godamn day for more useless shit we won't need. They should all fucking go to hell."
I could see Eriol was looking at me. "Syaoran that's a lot of swearing, even for you. Is something bothering you?"
"Someone."
Eriol went back into his caring mode. I know I shouldn't have said anything.
"That someone wouldn't happen to be Ren would it?"
I was ready to burst, "Eriol. Would you lay off the Ren discussion already? I'm tired of talking about her. She's the last person on my mind."
Lie. One big lie.
We made our way to lunch sitting at the same table.
"Ok, what about that girl? I heard she got with Mitch last year."
Great, Jason again with his 'I can get any girl in the world' attitude. One day, I would like some girl to put him in his place.
I looked up from my overly mashed potatoes and saw Tomoyo walking to her table. But when I looked at the table I didn't see Sakura there.
"Where is she?"
"Where is who?" I turned to see Ryu sitting next to me. Weird, I didn't even know he was there.
"No one special."
I took a glimpse over at Eriol. He was looking at me, like he was trying to read my mind or something. But I know what he was doing. He was looking for Sakura just like I was. Except he thought I knew where she was.
That fool. Wasting all his time on a useless girl.
I got up ignoring the guys as I threw away my lunch, which I didn't even eat, and walked outside. I needed space. I have way too much on my mind right now.
Sakura POV
"Ok class, tomorrow we will finish the rest of the presentations."
The bell rang.
I can't believe that I stayed up last night to finish this stupid project and the teacher doesn't even call on us to present today.
Plus to add onto it one of my teachers wrote me up for skipping and now I have to go meet with the principal tomorrow morning to 'straighten things out.' What that really means is that I'm going to sit in the chair while the principal lectures me about how a good education is important, and then he will give me detention.
I left class without looking for Syaoran. I don't see why I would look for him anyway. It's not like we have anything planned. I guess I'm just used to seeing him.
As I was walking home from school I heard a familiar voice calling out my name.
"Sakura!"
When I turned around I saw Eriol running up to me. The first thing I looked at was his eye. The swelling went away and at least it was looking better.
"Didn't see you at lunch, is everything alright?"
I looked into his caring eyes.
How could I be so evil? How could I use an innocent guy that actually likes me just to get with some arrogant jerk? I am truly a horrible person.
But I tried pushing all my guilty thoughts away. I didn't want Eriol worrying about me, especially since I don't deserve his care.
"Yeah, I'm a little tired from working all night."
He held my hand as he walked me home. He is so sweet.
"Yeah, Syaoran was tired too. He slept in most of his classes today."
"Well, we were up all night finishing the project. Too bad we didn't get to present it."
He stopped walking. I wouldn't have noticed if he wasn't holding my hand.
"You and Syaoran were up last night? Together?"
Oh no. What did I just do? I wasn't thinking.
"Well…yeah, but we were only working on the project. That's it. In fact when I woke up this morning he was gone."
I could see him processing what I said.
"Please believe me nothing happened. We're just friends, nothing more I promise."
Both of my hands were holding Eriol's hand. I was looking deep into his sea blue eyes hoping that he wouldn't dump me.
"Don't worry about it. I trust you." He gave me a reassuring hug and we began to walk again.
But now I didn't know what to think. Why was I so concerned with losing Eriol? I thought the only reason I was with him was so that I could get with Syaoran? Not to say that it was planned but…do I like him?
We finally reached my front door. He even waited for me to pick up the mail. He's such a sweet guy. Why wouldn't I like him?
We were standing in front the door in somewhat of an awkward silence. It was weird, being awkward around Eriol. Is dating him going to affect out friendship?
"Sakura, I was thinking. Maybe we could go out tomorrow night, if you're not busy."
"Yeah, tomorrow is perfect."
I could see the relief on his face. What did he think I was going to say?
"What time?"
He looked at his watch.
"No I mean," I began giggling, "I mean what time is out date?"
I saw him turning different shades of red. "How about seven?"
I smiled, it was different having someone blush around me for a change. "Seven is fine."
Then I leaned giving him a light kiss on the cheek before I went into my house. When I went inside I looked out the window watching Eriol's hand touch the spot where I kissed him as he started to walk home.
Syaoran POV
When I got home I saw something I never wanted to see. My mother sitting with Ren drinking tea in the backyard.
Really, how could she just pop into Japan and act like this? And with my mother! Does she have no shame for what she's done?
I tried ignoring everything by going up into my room. Again I lie on my bed and think. I've been doing this a lot lately. It would help if I thought of something useful, something besides Ren.
I opened my eyes to Eriol dumping some cold water on my face.
"What the fuck was that for?"
He tossed the cup at me.
"Why were you at Sakura's house last night?"
I put my head back down on my wet pillow. I didn't know being around Sakura could bother him so much. It's not like he loves her.
"Answer me. What were you doing over there in the middle of the night?"
I tried to keep calm. This is my cousin and no girl is going to come between us. But I swear to god if he pulls something like this again I'll fucking kill him.
"Nothing happened. We were working on a project due today. Nothing much."
"Nothing much? You think being in a girl's room for most of the night is nothing much."
He looked weird. Almost hysterical. He doesn't love her right?
I got up from my bed dripping water onto my green carpet. "Are you jealous?" I couldn't help but let a smirk creep up to my face. This has to be the first time Eriol was jealous of me since…since forever.
"You're jealous that I was the one in her room last night and not you."
He rolled his eyes trying to play it off, but I knew better. I knew the truth.
"Just admit it Eriol, you are jealous of me."
He stood there silent, shifting his eyes away from me.
"Come on Eriol. Say it. Say it."
"I don't care about you being with her last night. I worry that you were there."
"What's the fucking difference?"
"The fucking difference is…" Eriol stopped, as if he was realizing something. All the anger and what I assume to be jealously was fading. He looked to be in a state of shock mixed in with confusion.
Looking at his expression told me everything he was feeling. Soon that mixed expression turned into disbelief. And then finally acceptance.
He turned and left my room shutting the door behind him. I was going to go bother him for barging into my room, but he looked dazed. I've never seen him dazed before.
I dropped back onto my bed not caring about the wet pillows and sheets. I began to think again. Everything seemed different. Eriol was acting different. He never did fight until that day he stood up for Sakura.
And me, I don't care about anyone. So why was I drawn to Sakura yesterday, when she was walking down the hall like a zombie?
What is it about her that's different?
The laughter from outside crept through the closed window snapping me out of my thoughts.
Immediately I changed out of my clothes and put on a pair of dark green sweat pants and a white tee-shirt. I grabbed my phone and my keys and in no time I was out the door.
Sakura POV
"Sakura."
I opened my eyes and all I could see is the darkness of my room. I looked over at my alarm clock. It was 2:30 AM.
I could've sworn I heard someone calling me.
I got up from my bed opening the door but no one was there. I walked out into the hall feeling a cold draft hit my body.
"Touya? Dad?" When no one answered I crept back into my room.
This was creepy.
I got in my bed ready to drift by to sleep when I heard it again.
"Sakura."
My eyes popped open. I gripped onto my covers. Please, please don't let this be a ghost.
Then I heard a knocking. It wasn't my door, it sounded like it was coming from…my window?
And there he was. Syaoran Li was sitting in the tree tapping at my window. I went to open it.
"What are you doing here? You know what time it is?"
He came in without a word, passed me and sat on my bed. He kept his head down running his hands through his thick hair.
"Sakura I-I need to talk to someone."
He wasn't himself. He was so…so serious. This had to be big.
I grabbed my chair pulling it up to my bed as I wiped the sleep from my eyes.
"Are you hurt? Is everything ok?"
"Yeah, it's nothing like that. I…I can really use some advice."
He kept his head down as if he was avoiding looking at me. But that would be silly, right?
"I heard you have a date with Eriol tomorrow."
The room was dark so he didn't really see the confused expression I had.
"Um…yeah…"
He was staring at his hands, hesitating to continue.
"So…do you…um…know where he's taking you?"
I sat back in the chair. There is no way that he woke me up in the middle of the night just to ask me about my date with Eriol. NO WAY!
"Syaoran if you're just going to interrogate me then…"
"Ren is back."
My room went dead silent. Even thought I didn't know who Ren was I still had a bad feeling about this.
"Who's…"
"Remember when I told you I couldn't go out with you because I liked someone else?"
Remember? I think about it everyday. Because of you I compare myself to every girl in that stupid school trying to figure out which on has stolen your heart from me.
I shock my head. I've got to stop thinking like this. He doesn't like me. I've got Eriol. I've moved on…I hope.
"I remember."
"Yeah well, she's the stupid bitch that's got me wrapped around her finger."
Wow, is it just me or does he not want her back?
It was hard to see much except the outline of his body. I relied on the moon to see since the thought to turn on any lights never occurred to me.
"So if you still like her…then way don't you just get back together?"
"She…She cheated on me."
Cheated? On him? What guy out there is possibly better than Syaoran? Ok, so maybe she managed to find someone that doesn't swear that much. Someone that didn't call her a bitch and chase her around his house just for a stupid remote. Yeah, sure MAYBE there was a guy out there like that but I'm pretty sure he didn't have those amber eyes that…that can threaten you and make you melt all at once.
Ok, getting way off track.
I got up off my chair and went to sit next to him. He seemed really broken up about this.
"So are you going to get back together with her?"
His head was still turned towards the floor. And I could tell that his male ego was taking a big hit by even talking about this.
I rubbed his back trying to comfort him. This is all so new to me. I'm no use to him. I know Tomoyo would have the right answers. Maybe he wouldn't mind explaining this all over again to Tomoyo.
"Get back together with her? She cheated on me. Why in hell would I want to get back together with her?"
Duh, Sakura. Why would he want to get with a girl that cheated on him? I have to be like the biggest idiot for even asking. It's not like he's in love with her or something.
"Sakura"
Thump.
"Sakura."
Thump.
"Sakura!"
Thump.
"Huh?"
"Are you ok?"
I looked at his face. For once it wasn't looking down at my floor. He was staring right at me. The moon shinning on his handsome features, making those ambers sparkle.
"What?"
"You froze for a second there. You scared me."
"I froze?"
"Yeah you kinda went dead on me."
Dead? How could I be dead with the deafening beat of my heart ringing through me? With this burning sensation on my eyes. With these deep breaths I keep taking.
No, I'm not dead. I'm stupid. How could I think that I ever had a chance with him? Like he didn't have a life before I came along. Of course, a guy like him would find love. Women practically throw themselves at his feet.
And what's worse is that somewhere in my twisted head I had this crazy notion that he would like me one day. That he would wake up tomorrow and forget about this girl. That he would climb up to my window and charm me like Romeo did Juliet.
"Sakura."
He was still looking at me. No smirk, no anger. He looked like he was trying to understand me. As of he was trying to read my thoughts.
"Syaoran…do…do you…"
I swallowed hard trying to comprehend the reality of this situation. I have to ask him. I need to know.
"Do you…"
Wait, do I need to know? Can I handle it if he said yes? But if he said no…then…then I still have a chance. I could be the one he falls in love with.
Love?
Am I ready for love? I just like the guy for heaven's sake. I'm not ready for love. I'm not even ready for college.
I need time. I need more time then what God is giving me.
"Syaoran do you love her?"
My eyes opened wide. I didn't mean to say that. I really, REALLY didn't mean to say that. I wasn't ready for the answer. Yes or no, I still wasn't ready.
He turned away looking towards the window he came in, "I don't know."
"You don't know?"
He got up angry, "Yeah I don't know. What is that a crime now? I'm a man. I'm not that in tune with my feelings."
Believe me neither are women.
"Don't get all defensive with me. I'm just trying to help."
He neared the window looking out into the night sky. I have a feeling that he's been thinking about this long before he considered talking to me. He needs help. Serious help, and here I am thinking about how I feel.
If this was Tomoyo coming to me I know what I would say. I'd know how to make her feel better.
"Listen…I'm not really good at this relationship stuff…but…"
I saw him turn to me. He was filled with hope. And I had to do my best to help him. After all we are friends…in our own weird way.
"I know you don't want to get back with her because she broke your heart. And that makes perfect sense. How will you ever be able to trust her again?"
I could see he was hanging onto every word.
"But if you don't give it chance, at least one more chance, you'll live the rest of your life thinking about what could've been. You're not sure for a fact that she would cheat on you again. She might have changed, maybe she loves you. Maybe you love her. But if you don't find out you'll never be able to move on with your life."
He stood there soaking in everything. Then out of nowhere he picked me off the bed hugging me tight.
"I don't know what I'd do without you. It's a good thing we became friends."
I stood there stiff letting him squeeze me one more time before he left.
I watched him climb down the tree and into his car. I stayed in that window long after he left realizing how much of a fool I was.
I just told the guy I'm nuts over to go with another girl. To go and find love with someone else.
I leaned my head on the window looking out at the stars.
Syaoran POV
"And those were the most important parts of American history."
The class clapped and the teacher complemented us. I can't stand public speaking. Not that I'm afraid to do it or anything. I just hate to do it.
We made our way back to our seats waiting for the bell to ring.
Finally this day was over. I can't wait to get home and sit my lazy ass in front the TV.
"Hello sweetie!"
"…"
No fucking way.
As soon as I stepped out of this damn school I see Ren standing out front in a light green dress waving at me.
I hate it that she knows my favorite color.
"You don't want to keep her waiting."
I turned to see Sakura standing next to me.
"Is that her? Is that Ren?"
Her face. She looked…sad.
"Yeah, that's…her."
"Do you love her?"
She kept standing there staring at her. It was like she was in some kind of trance.
"I-I…a…I don't exactly…I…a…"
"I get it. You need more time."
Idiot, I know the answer. I knew the answer before I even barged into her room last night. So why can't I just tell her? She's the one I'm supposed to be honest with.
She patted me on the back giving me a little nudge forward.
"Go find out."
I looked back at her. She had a small smile on her face but her emerald eyes didn't shine like they always do.
"Syaoran honey, are you coming?"
I waved to Sakura before going with Ren.
Sakura POV
I watched Syaoran walk away from me. More like I pushed him away. Why am I still encouraging this relationship between him and that girl?
She is pretty. She has beautiful ruby eyes that compliment her jet black hair.
She's prettier than me.
"Sakura!"
I turned to see Eriol coming at me with his arms open wide.
I quickly put on a fake smile. The last thing I want to do is make him feel bad.
"Hey," He hugged me so tight. It reminded me of how my brother hugs me when he wants me to know that he loves me.
Loves me? Does Eriol love me? No, no I'm just thinking crazy. He's done nothing to show me that he loves me. Except maybe sticking up for me and always being so caring.
I'm over thinking this hug way too much.
We pulled away and my eyes immediately went to the many people walking by. He was the first to speak.
"I have to get home but I'll definitely see you at seven?"
"Yeah, I'll be waiting."
I didn't bother to watch him walk away. Even if I was going to see him later, I don't think I could take having two men walk away from me in one day.
Later that night…
Tomoyo was sitting on my bed watching me scatter my clothes all over my room.
"Sakura relax. You already know he likes you…a lot…so just calm down."
I turned to her, "Calm down? I have a date with Eriol who is possibly the only boy on this planet that likes me."
She got up picking out a white tube top and a dark green skirt that reached to her knees.
I looked down at the outfit. It was absolutely perfect! How come I couldn't think of that?
"Wait, isn't this too casual? He didn't tell me where we were going? What if we go to some fancy place? What if he wants to go horse back riding? I need pants for that."
She rolled her eyes. Normally she would be as worked up as I am but…she just doesn't seem that interested? What does she not like Eriol? She always so nice to him.
"I'm sure if he was going to take you to any of those places he would warn you first. He's not one to surprise you with something like that."
How would she know what he's like? She's known him for as long as I have?
"I should probably get going before he comes here."
She kissed me on the cheek and wished me good luck before she left.
I hope I can make it though tonight without messing things up.
Syaoran POV
Here I am lying on my bed in the dark. I looked at the clock. It was pass eight. 8:42 PM to be exact.
Eriol went to pick up Sakura at seven. What could HE possibly do with her for over an hour?
They go to dinner, that takes thirty minuets tops. But if they go to see a movie…
I shook my head trying to get all thoughts of those two out.
Eriol and Sakura can do whatever they want. I've got Ren now. I don't have to think about other girls. Everything is going perfectly, I have Ren and Eriol has…
I went over to the window looking at the full moon shining down on me. Memories of Ren chatting with my mother played back.
Maybe getting back with Ren isn't a big mistake. Maybe she could possibly, somehow be the one.
I should get some sleep. Clear my head.
As my head hits the soft fabric my eyes instantly close.
My heart skipped a beat. My eyes flew open staring into the darkness.
Her emerald eyes. Her sad, dull emerald eyes.
The next day…
Why do I even bother coming to school. It's not like I learn anything either. This is just a place for all these teenagers to be dramatic.
"Hey Syaoran."
Jason was sitting in the desk next to me.
"That's Eriol's seat."
"I'll move when he comes." I put my head down waiting for the teacher to come. I rather sit through some boring math then listen to him talk.
"So…no staring at Kinomoto today huh?"
"Shut the fuck up."
I couldn't see it but I just knew he was wearing that stupid smirk. Makes me want to punch him.
"What? You gave up on her already? Is she that hard to catch? Well…maybe for you anyway."
Ok, I know I should be the bigger man and just let everything he says slide off my back but…he's a fucking asshole and I need to put him in his place.
"Actually, I'm saving Sakura for a rainy day if you know what I mean."
He raised a brow. "A rainy day?"
"Yeah, until then…" I reached inside my wallet pulling out a picture of Ren in a bikini.
"Damn that girl is fine!" he grabbed the picture from my hand eyeing my girl.
I know I should me mad. Jason shouldn't be looking at MY girl. But…it really didn't bother me.
He plopped the picture back on my desk and left so that Eriol could sit down.
"Is that a picture of Ren?" He picked up the photo as he dropped his bag on the floor.
"Yeah, she gave it to me."
He handed me back the photo and started to unpack his books.
"I didn't know you guys were that close."
The teacher walked into the room.
"We're not."
"Then why are you carrying around that…"
"Eriol just…just shut up about it ok?"
Maybe I will listen to class today. I could use a break from my thoughts.
I glanced over at Sakura. She was diligently taking notes, as usual.
I can use a big break.
Sakura POV
I can't believe this. It's been three days and not once, not once has Tomoyo called me to find out how my date went.
I'm standing behind the pastor waiting to sing a pray.
Why didn't Tomoyo call? She's the one always telling me to date. I thought she would be the first one on my phone.
"And now our beautiful choir will sing the prayer. Please feel free to sing along."
Ok, that's my queue to start.
On my way home I couldn't get Tomoyo out of my head. It was bothering me that my best friend didn't even call to see how my date went.
I decided to take the long way home. I have a lot of thoughts to walk off.
I leaning up against a nearby tree, "But if Tomoyo did call, what would I tell her?"
"You'd tell her about me."
My first instinct was to look left and right. But no one was there.
"I know I heard someone."
I circled around the tree and still…no one.
"I give."
I went back to my original spot. I took a deep breath and let my head fall back hitting the tree as I closed my eyes.
"Were you looking for me?"
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