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(Language, adult humor, violence for warning)
Keep Moving
Karma
Its April eighth, two hundred and thirty-six days since they've died. I wake up every morning around seven, remembering how many days it's been. Sometimes one of my brothers asks me how long its been because they know I silently keep count. Since I've been to see my parents, I've gone almost every day since then. Darry through a few fits about it, until Ruth told him it was good for me. I'm not so sure she really meant it, except to get him off my back. She's really helped him, and myself. He seems a lot more laid back after he talks to her. The down side about getting better is that she doesn't come by as often. Ruth is one of my best friends, even if she is my therapist. She's the only real girl friend I've had since Natalia, I miss her.
Rocky and I haven't really seen each other since Natalia left. I'm okay with that. Anyway, I've gotten a lot better in the last few weeks. My weight is pretty much back to normal, one hundred and nineteen. When Darry doesn't work, he helps me build up my muscle. On Pony's free time, he helps me with my speed. Who would be better than him, he is on the track team. Soda usually just talks to me while I do pull ups on the bar out back.
Everything is pretty much back to normal, except for a few things. But I can go without those few things. Like the way Dally and I used to be, we have gotten a lot closer. He comes by almost everyday while everyone is out, we talk. But mostly we kiss and flirt like the teenagers we are. The gang doesn't know to much about our relationship because we don't express it while they are around. They don't really know there is a relationship, Darry might. I don't care if Dally hasn't said anything, I don't care about a lot of things. I'm very passive theses days, just really chill. More chill then I was before. In fact, I haven't lost my temper in a while. Except for today.
The gang was over after work and school, we were waiting around for Darry to get home. I was sitting on Dally's lap leaning my back onto his chest, his arms were wrapped around my middle. We were all watching Steve and Soda wrestle over Soda cheating in a card game or some shit. Two-bit was howling loudly for Steve to get Soda right before he made the worst comment possible. Steve and Soda soon turned it into a arm wrestling contest, as Two-bit motioned to Dally and me."So what's this?" I looked at Dally, then over to Ponyboy who was silently joining our conversation.
"What?" Dally hissed, annoyed with Two-bit. I patted his arm to calm him down.
"You two have been closer than flies on turds in the summer time, what's goin' on?"
I grimaced at the comparison. "Two-y, that's gross."
"I'm serious though, Dal is she your girl or something? What happened to Rocky, I thought you two were seeing each other." I stiffened at the mention of Rocky and Dallas together. Dally placed his head on my shoulder to keep me still and sane. Already my blood had begun to boil at the thought of him with her.
"No, I thought he was with Sylvia. He was with her a Buck's a while back." Johnny added.
"Umm, you're both wrong, he was with Trish." Pony argued. I wanted to tell them to shut the fuck up.
"No, Rocky was the one who was mainly with him the past few months." Two-bit retorted. When I went to stand up and get out of the room, Dallas tightened his hold on me. I turned to look him in the face, he was frowning angrily.
"That was months ago guys." Dally commented.
"Rocky was with Steve, remember Two-bit." they ignored Dally as Pony tried to prove Two-bit wrong.
Steve and Soda joined in after they gave each other sportsmen like handshake. "Yeah, but not anymore. Evie and I are back together."
"Johnny, I thought Rocky tried to get with you?" Soda asked.
"She tried but I told her I don't date trash, in a nicer way of course. So she went for Dally."
"Shut the fuck up!" I growled as everyone jumped at my outburst.
Taking a deep breath, I closed my eyes. "Steve, did you fuck her? What was your relationship?"
"Not that it's your business but yes, I did. A few times too. She dumped me, said I was an asshole or something like that. Told me to go fuck myself.""Sorry pal, did she hurt your feelings?" Soda asked patting him on the back.
"Yeah." Steve admitted like it was no big deal. The mention of it made me even more angry.
"Johnny, what she do to you?""Uh…" he sounded nervous, probably feeling my anger. "She slapped me for denying her. She's really changed Luc, you should stay clear of her.""Yeah." Pony agreed. I turned to Dally.
"Truth." I told him as he scoffed.
"Nothing but a fuck." he said. I closed my eyes, unable to not picture him grinding on top of her. I stood up from him, looking at my friends.
"The other day, she saw me and called me a no good hood. Do I look like a hood?" Two-bit cackled. "So I called her a slut, bitch had to bring up our relationship. She deserves to live in the dirt like a worm.""So she's a worm now, Two-bit?" Ponyboy laughed. The more they talked about her, even if it was making fun of her, it made me mad. Just thinking about her fucking face, made my fist shake with fury. The bitch waited until I was gone to make a move on my guys. The most that bothered me was her going after Dally, but that was just me. Johnny too, he's just a fifteen year old kid. She slapped him! Bitch gonna pay, I leaned on the far wall looking at the air. They were still talking about her when my ears began to work again.
"She tried to get with Darry." Soda laughed with everyone else.
"No shit, wow." Two-bit laughed. "Bet his dick was too tense to pleasure her ass." they laughed harder as Two-bit slung an arm around Pony.
"What about you Ponyboy, she go after you?"
"Nope, but she went after Soda about a month ago, right Soda?" Soda chuckled.
"Oh yeah, she wanted me to break up with Sandy. Made a huge fuss about it too, wanted to fight Sandy for me." Steve laughed at the thought.
"Slapped me real good too, just like she slapped Johnny." that was it, no one fucking hits my family and gets away with it. I started to stomp into Darry's room, looking for something to swing with. Two-bit called after me with a laugh.
"What's wrong Lucy, don't like us talking about your friend?" FRIEND!? She is not my friend. Rocky will pay; for hitting my boys, for fucking my boys and for hurting their feelings. I was over the edge. My fist were tight, my face hot and red. Steam was boiling inside of me, ready to explode on Rocky. Finally I found Darry's old bat in his closet, I grabbed it in my right hand. As I stomped out of Darry's room, the gang jumped up.
"WOAH!" Pony gasped looking at my fury. Soda dashed in front of me as did Steve.
"Where do you think your going with a bat and looking like that?" Soda asked in a rush, no longer laughing. I tired to push past them, but was unsuccessful. Dally went over to the door, to block my way if I did. Johnny joined him as Two-bit and Pony came up from behind me, blocking me to move."You boys best move out of my way." I hissed as Soda place hands on my shoulders.
"What's going through your mind Twiny?"
"Let me through!" I shrugged him off, lifting the bat at them.
"NO!" Soda said firmly.
"Sodapop Patrick Curtis, that bitch is gonna get what she deserves! Now move."
"Rocky?" Soda said in question. "We were just foo….""Sodapop! She slapped you and Johnny. She fucked with everyone's feelings and screwed them, after I told her to never come near my boys again. You're my boys that I have to protect! You hear me! No one gets away with that stuff….not if I have anything to say about it!"
"That was months ago Luc, everything is forgiven. So just put the bat down, give it to me." I knew there was no way I was getting out of there, unless I play along. Rocky was going to be taught a lesson, whether they agreed with me or not. I can't remember the last time I've been this angry, but I am.
Glancing at Dallas, I saw a small smirk on his face. He was enjoying my anger, it gave him adrenaline. He told me once that it did. The other day he said he wished I would get angry, because it turned him on. I looked back to Soda, handing him the bat. Everyone calmed down as I went into the kitchen to grab a beer, the only alcohol I've had since March. From around the corner, I saw everyone relax into their positions in the living room. This was my chance. With beer in hand, I rushed towards the door. Soda jumped up after me.
"NO LUCY!" I was down the street and on the prowl, where was that bitch? Sipping beer, I jogged around. Soon Two-bit's car came up beside me with him, Johnny and Dallas inside. On the other side of the park, I saw Darry's truck. Pony was in the passenger side with Darry as driver, he must of gotten home right after I left. Neither of them looked happy. That just leave Steve and Soda, they must be on foot. Unless they took Steve's car. I took a sip of beer looking around for them. Shit boy, can't a girl fucking commit a murder in peace!
"Come on babe, it's no big deal." Dally yelled out the passenger window.
"Maybe not to you guys, but Rocky has been deceptive and distrusting for the last time. I'm tired of her bullshit.""So are we, but that doesn't mean you need to get into a fight with her.""Shut up Dallas, it's not like you wouldn't do the same if some dick head did that to me. Or if you saw some guy hit Johnny or Soda! It's not the same if a girl does it, RIGHT! But I know this girl, she was my friend. She hurt my family! Screwed and seduced my boys! Think about it, if it was a guy, you all would feel the same way!" I jogged off annoyed with them. I didn't think they would drive through the park, but Two-bit followed behind me. Darry backed the truck up so it was in front of me when I got to the other side of the park.
"Lucy, get in this car now!"
"Darry, she tried to get with you. She fucking slapped Soda and Johnny. She played with everyone's emotions. SHE FUCKED DALLAS!" so if finally came out. Truly, I didn't care about her and Steve but I did. Not as much as her and Dallas though, he was mine. He should feel guilty about it, I hope he does! He probably doesn't though, which makes it all the worse.
"Why would you care anyway? Dallas gets with lots of women." Two-bit said getting out of his car.
"I meant she fucked Steve and Dallas, who cares what I said. I'm beating the shit out of her, that's it!"
"Lucy, think smart. You've just recovered from a lot of shit, do you want to be taken away or run away again. If the police are called on you, that's it. We're finished!" Darry screamed stepping out of the truck. I made a quick dash past him, jumping into the bed of the truck to look down at him.
"If Steve were here he would say 'Nobody calls the fuzz in this neighborhood.'" that seemed to lighten up the mood, until I turned back to the subject.
"If I don't beat the shit out of her now, I will later." I jumped off the other side of the truck and ran away from them, in search for the bitch. The Dingo was my next destination. I went through yards to avoid anymore run ins with the gang. When I got to the Dingo, they told me she would be at Buck's that night. So I head to Buck's, with still no trouble from the gang. When I got to Buck's he opened the door with a smile.
"Sodapop told me you would show up, how is my Louie Bird?""Buck, I'm not in the mood. Where is Rocky?"
"She's at the bar, if your avoiding Sodapop and Steve go around the back to the kitchen." he hawked his thumb to the other side of the house. I nodded, eyeing him suspiciously.
"How do you know I'm avoiding them?""They told me you were, said you wanted to fight with Rocky. They came to warn her and keep you away from her. But I think it's a great idea, bitch needs something to wake her up."
"Yeah, tell her to meet me out back. I've gotta talk with her, make sure Soda and Steve don't know I'm here." Buck nodded as I smiled at him going around the back. By now, I have calmed down a great deal. I'm still mad, but not on the verge of killing some one. I'm not sure what I'm going to do. Probably talk to her about her actions, beat the shit out of her or set up a time for a fair fight. I'll probably go for the fair fight thing but, God I fucking hate her.
She walked out the door looking happy but a little frightened. When I looked at her without expression, she spoke first."Lucy, how goes it girl?" I walked right up to her, grabbing her by the napkin she called a shirt.
"You listen good Rocky! I'm very upset with you. You played with my boys heads while I was gone! He fucked them! Seduced them! And slapped them. That shit doesn't slid with me, I'm half tempted to just beat the shit out of you right here!" her eyes grew wide with fear.
"But, I'm not like that…usually. So I'm gonna schedule a fair fight with you, later tonight. Around ten, in the park. If you don't show, I will come and find you. Then I will beat the shit out of you, without any hold backs. No heaters, no blades, just our fists. I don't care who you tell, but it's between you an me!" I said shoving her slightly.
"Jeez Lucy, I'm really…"
"No you aren't, so don't bull shit me. Even if you were sorry, it wouldn't matter. I've already told you to stay way from my boys, so you just waited until I was gone. Did you not think I was going to hear about it?" I snarled.
"No, I just.."
"I don't want to hear what you have to say. Be there at ten, or watch your back."
"Lucy, why are you doing this? Weren't we friends? I thought we were friends."
"Rocky, karma sucks doesn't it." I started to walk away, as she cursed me out on my journey. The fight was going to be the best, I love fights. Especially if it's for something I think is right. Or if it's sticking up in what I believe in. It's like rumbles, the gang eats that shit up.
More than halfway home, I wished I had a cigarette. I'm sure one of the gang will give me one, if they have one. Walking, I started to plan out the evening. Get home. Get smoke. Get yelled at. Get food for dinner. Get in shower. Get dressed for fight. Get smoke on the way to fight. Kick the hell out of Rocky. Go home. Go to sleep with a smile. Hopefully the night goes as planned. Headlights of a car coming up behind me brought me out of my thoughts. Soda's torso popped out of Steve's car, yelling at me almost.
"Get in!"
"I'm on my way home, I'll meet you there. I want to think." I told him without looking at him.
"No, it's getting dar..."
"Soda, the house is right there." I pointed to the house in view, the sunset blazing behind it. Soda jumped out of the vehicle.
"Keep going Steve, I'm walking with her." Steve drove off and parked in front of the house. Leaning on his car, waiting for us."Lucy, what are you thinking?"
"I'm thinking, karma is a bitch." I said smirking at myself.
"Buck said you came by and left, did you see Rocky?" he asked not amused.
"Yeah, I have a fight with her later.." Soda sighed throwing his hand through his hair.
"At least I didn't attack her, like I was planning on doing." he nodded as he waved to Steve to follow us through the gate.
"She fighting Rocky later."
"Hell yeah!" Steve hollered as we entered the house. Everyone stood up, even Dallas. Darry shot out of the kitchen, I put my hand up.
"Save it, Brother." he calmed down a bit but snarled at Steve.
"Why the hell are you smiling?"
"She's got a fight with Rocky."
"I thought you didn't want me to fight." I said walking past Darry, who had a sharp look in his eyes.
"I didn't want you to attack her, this is different. Now we have something to get a revved up over, WE COULD TAKE BETS!" Steve said as Two-bit joined in with his happiness.
"Shit yeah, we could!"
"Are we all going?" Pony asked a little excited, but was shot down by a glare from Darry."No one is going, she's not going." Darry pointed to me."Yeah I am, no Curtis flakes out on a fight." I said motioning to Johnny for a smoke. He handed me one after lighting it for me. Darry sighed.
"Fine. Hell Lucy, you sure get into a lot of shit." he said in defeat, even he knew I wouldn't let him make me not fight.
"What time is the fight?" Two-bit asked.
"Ten, at the park." I answered. "It's a clean fight, no weapons."
"Keep your guard up kid, she wont play fair." Steve said pretending to hit Soda. The two were laughing as they started to play fight. At least they were sort of okay with it now, it's like a rumble.
"Smoke that in the backyard." Darry said before walking to the kitchen, mumbling to himself. I smirked at myself as I headed for the back door, Dallas right behind me. As much as I hate the idea of fighting someone that used to be my friend, I can't help but feel the rush of it. Besides, she deserves what is coming…right?
