Hello beautiful readers! Yes, I'm back... Thank you so much for your comments, for following this fic, for made this fic one of your fav, to the visitors and guests, you have no idea how happy I am to know that you are out there.
First; I want to apologize, I know it's been more than two months and I didn't think it would take me that much to update.
Second; I love to know you liked the last chapter, especially the letter part. I know some of you want to know what would happen in the next four months and I hope this chapter fill your expectations about it.
Third; this is a long chapter BUT in my opinion a kind of slow one. Still, I hope you like it.
Ok, so... I leave you a new chapter. Enjoy...
Don't forget: "No Hate, No Cyberbulling, Just Lindshay's and PLL' love"
"I say you should go for it"
Shay and Michaela were sitting on Shay's living room making some random conversation until Lindsey's name came out as one of their subjects.
"I sent her flowers Blaney, I told her what I want and what I feel about her, if she'd want to talk to me she'd have call already, don't you think?"
"Sure… yeah, you're right. Let me know if you also need a change of diapers because I can help you whit that"
"Could you stop with the baby connotations?"
"Then stop acting like a baby… 'Oh, if she hit me I hit her, if she stole my lunch I stole hers, if she doesn't call me then I'm not calling her' yeah that's very mature"
"It's been a week Blaney; I can't just call her like nothing happened. What am I supposed to tell her?"
Suddenly, a huge grin appeared on Michaela's face. For some reason she was smiling and Shay couldn't figure out why
"I don't know but you should start thinking about what to say because her phone is already ringing"
Shay looked at her with her eyes wild open. She didn't know when Michaela took her phone but now it was in her hand and Lindsey's name was on the screen as an outgoing call
"Hello" Lindsey's voice sounded across the room. She was on speaker
"Yeah! Very mature Blaney, very mature" Shay whisper irritated, taking her phone from Michaela's hand
"Hello… Shay?" Lindsey's tried again
"Hi… Linds… hi…" Shay rumbled and Michaela laughed at the other side of the room looking at her friend getting so nervous. Shay glared at her and then took the speaker off to have a more private conversation. Michaela took this as a sign to leave so; she made a final sign to Shay before she took her things and walked out the house
"Hi, how've you been?" Lindsey asked trying to cover the small silence at the other side of the line
"Good… Everything ok"
The conversation started on an awfully awkward place. Both taken by surprise for the unexpected call
"Good, that's good. How's work going?" Lindsey continued
"Great, it's been long hours of shooting but this season is almost over" Shay replied, trying to keep her sentences as short as she could. She didn't want to say the wrong thing
"That sounds great"
"Yeah…"
It was ridiculous the level of awkwardness between them, how could they act like strangers when they already confessed to each other their feelings? There was a painful silence that settled between them until Lindsey couldn't take it anymore
"This is ridiculous, you know…"
"What is?" Shay asked, a little afraid of the answer
"This situation, the stupid tension between us. Just a few weeks ago we could tell each other everything and now…" Lindsey's voice had a hint of sadness
"I know. I… honestly don't know how to handle this" Shay admitted
"Well, what about a fresh start. Let's pretend my phone just rang, I look at it to see who it is and… oh, it's Shay calling, what a beautiful surprise. I'm going to answer and I'm going to tell her all about my trip… Hello?" Lindsey said playfully, making her best effort to break the tension, her words going out so naturally that Shay was feeling less nervous but still a little uncomfortable
"Hi, Lindsey, it's me…" Shay answered in a low voice, which made Lindsey interrupt her
"Come on, Mitchell" Shay could hear Lindsey's soft laugh at the other side "I know you can do it better than that. A little more enthusiasm would be good" Shay laughed at Lindsey's excitement and immediately felt the big weight stocked in her heart, disappearing
"Hi, Linds. How are you?" Shay was acting now like that sweet, caring, free and comfortable woman she always was when she was talking with Lindsey
"That's so much better… it's nice to hear your voice…" Lindsey was feeling more confident now that Shay sounded more relax at the other side of the line "I'm fine, how about you?"
"I can say that I'm fine to make things a bit easier but… things have been a little tough actually" Shay confessed, her fears now gone for good
"Why? Is everything, ok?" Lindsey asked concern
"Yeah, everything's fine, just feeling a bit down lately"
"Is there a reason for that?"
"Honestly?"
"Please"
"I've been busy with work but I've been feeling a little lonely"
"Lonely? Why? I'm sure there are a lot of people you can share your time with"
"Maybe but… there's a person in particular I want to have here with me"
"Really?" Lindsey couldn't help the big smile that appeared on her face. Good thing Shay couldn't see her
"Yeah" Shay confirmed
"And who's the lucky human being?" Lindsey asked, though she had a pretty good idea of Shay's answer she wanted to hear it from the other girl's mouth
"You're going to make me say it, isn't it?" Shay's asked playfully
"Well…"
"I miss you" Shay let it out softly "I miss having you here to talk, have breakfast, take lunch and a very long list of things we could probably be doing right now if you weren't so far from here"
The mood had clearly changed between them; they settled on a kind of flirting mode, making everything feel natural
"So you miss me huh?" Lindsey was very excited for hearing those words, to know that Shay misses her just as much as she does make her feel really happy
"Yes dummy. I do"
"It's been only a week, you know?"
"I know but you can't blame me for missing you already, can you?"
"I guess not"
There was another silence but this one was nothing compare to the previous one. It was like Shay and Lindsey were taking a second to process the feeling of hearing each other's voices, just knowing that the other one was at the other side of the line made them feel excited
"So… how's North Carolina going?" Shay asked wanting to know about Lindsey's job
"Cold. It has nothing to do with the weather in California. It's not that bad but I miss some heat"
"Well, I can give you some ideas to keep yourself warm" Shay offered
"Oh, really? I'm listening" Lindsey asked with a cocky tone
"Not in the way you're thinking, perv" Shay laughed "I'm talking about hot chocolate, or more blankets in your bed or maybe talking through the phone the whole night so you can distract yourself from the cold weather"
"Mmm… talking through the phone sounds a lot better" Lindsey could hear Shay smiling through the phone "Listen… now that we have the chance to talk, there is something I wanted to ask you since I left"
"You should have called me then" Shay's intentions weren't to sound so hard but she couldn't deny she was feeling a little hurt for the lack of news since Lindsey left
"I know and I'm really sorry for that. I… wasn't trying to avoid you if that's what you think in fact, I was dying to talk to you but I wasn't sure if that was ok with you"
"I'm sorry too. I don't blame you for not calling, I know we didn't leave things in the right place, to be honest I would love to tell you those words instead of just writing them in that letter but we didn't have enough time to have a proper good bye or talk about things"
"Yeah, I… have to confess that I was pretty disappointed when I had to leave without even a hug but then I got home and there was this beautiful surprise and I didn't know what to do. I thought that sending a text or making a call weren't good enough to thank you for that. I would rather do it in person"
"At least I know you liked that little detail"
"It could be little for you but it kind of made regret to have sign the contract that brought me here"
"Damn! If I would it know, I would send it sooner" Shay made it sound like a joke but she actually wished she would have send it sooner
"You sent it and it's all that matters" but Lindsey's tone was serious and full of sincerity, though she didn't want to break the moment they were sharing so she changed her tone to a playful one again and continued "So, is Shay Mitchell going to share her secret?"
"About?" Shay asked confused
"How did you manage to get into my apartment to leave those beautiful flowers and such a romantic letter?"
Shay let out a soft laugh "I have my ways. A romantic girl never shares her secrets"
"I see… at least you're going to tell me, how did you know lilies are my favorite flowers?"
"I pay attention. Remember we were talking about our 'perfect dates'? Just when we were getting ready for the picnic scene" Shay listened to Lindsey's confirmation before she talked again "well, you said you like simple things, that the details are the real protagonist of every moment with you. A walk for the beach, looking at the sunset, a romantic dinner in a small place full of lilies, things like that would be perfect to have the best date, and that's when I figured lilies where your favorites"
"Beautiful, smart and she knows how to listen. Is there something you can't do, Miss Mitchell?"
"Actually, there is…" Shay said sadly; she knew the real reason for them to not being together and it sounded almost painful to have the chance in front of her and not jump into it. Lindsey noticed this and changed the subject immediately
"Well, whatever that is, you're going to have plenty of time to solve it, now that the season is almost over I bet you have a lot of things you want to do in your free time"
Shay did notice the change of subject but was thankful with Lindsey for try not to ruin the moment
"Not much really. I've being thinking about going home to visit my family for a while, I promised my brother to be there for his graduation so…"
"I bet your family will be very happy to see you"
"Yeah, it's been a while"
"So, how's everybody over there, did they miss me?"
"Of course but not as much as I do…" Shay affirmed
And what started as a joke become into a two hours conversation and they only hang up because Lindsey had a call on set, otherwise, they would spend the whole day just talking. It wasn't easy for them to be apart from each, even if whatever they have was a secret, it was difficult to just talk through a cold phone and even when it was obvious things were getting better between them, it was clear that something was still missing, something to finally make this whole 'relationship' real and Shay had a pretty good idea how to make that happens. Distance shouldn't be an obstacle, right?
(Next Day on set)
The day was almost over; Shay was crazy to go back home and rest a little but before she leaves, she had one last thing to do
"Sammy, could you make a favor. Could you… get me a flight ticket, please?"
"Don't worry. I already bought it"
"Uhm… no. Not the one to Canada. I need one to… North Carolina" Shay mumbled, almost begging for Sammy to not realize her real intentions
"North Carolina? Why would you want to flight there? You hate the cold weather"
"It's not that I hate it, after all I grew up with cold weather. It's just that I learn to love the sun"
"Well, there's no sun over there right now"
"I know. It's… uhm… I just want to visit a friend"
"A friend…?" Sammy looked at her pensive at first but then her expression change as if she has just discover a big secret "Oh… I see… 'a friend'. Good call, Mitchell"
"No, it's not what you…"
"It's ok, nobody has to know, just be careful nobody sees you with this guy, you know the media and its beautiful ways to ruin everything"
"Yeah, I know, thanks" Shay was feeling kind of uncomfortable by Sammy's idea but it was better for her to think that way and not to discover the truth
"Don't mention it. So, when are you going?"
"Well, shooting is over in two weeks and then I'm going to Sean's graduation. How many days am I going to spend at parents' home?"
"A whole week but if you want I can get an extension"
"No, it's ok. Just get me the ticket to Carolina but consider I'm going back here first so, it has to be at least two days after I came back from my parents' and… uhm… could you get me… Alice's number" Shay's voice was so low when she said the name that Sammy barely hear it
"Alice, as in Lindsey's assistant?" Sammy looked at her confused
"Yeah. I…" Shay was so excited about her plan that she actually forgot to have a good reason to call Lindsey's assistant, thankfully for her a name came up to her mind "Troi. Yeah, Troi asked me to get the number for her, she… uhm… wanted to talk about something with her. I'm not sure"
But Sammy wasn't buying it "Then why Troian's assistant didn't ask me herself?"
"She is… not here. She had a reunion for a new project Troi is going to work or something like that. It doesn't matter anyway, since when did you get so nosey?"
"Hey! Rude much…"
"Sorry, but you're asking me things I don't have answers for. I don't know why Troian needs the number. I just know that she needs it"
"Ok… no need to get so hype. I'll get it"
"Thanks" and just when Shay was about to get her stuff to leave, her phone rang. When she took her phone from her pocket and saw the name on the screen, she couldn't help the smile that immediately appeared on her face
"Hi…" Shay's voice was almost dreamy
"Hey, are you busy? I just finish shooting for today and I wanted to talk to you. Am I interrupting something?"
"No. Not at all. I finished for today too. I was about to head home, actually"
"Oh, then let's make a deal. Text me when you get home and I call you back"
"Ok, deal. Half hour, forty minutes tops"
"Take all the time you need. I'll wait for you"
Shay's heart was bumping like crazy in her chest; it was like the girl at the other side of the line had always the right words to make her feel great, not to mention that husky, sexy and sweet voice was always doing something to her. Being in love was new for her but it was definitely the most amazing feeling.
"Ok, talk to you in a bit… Bye" Shay said almost whispering
She hang up and saved her phone on her pocket again, trying to hurry up to get home as soon as she could but in her excitement she completely forgot the other presence in the room and when she saw Sammy looking at her intently, she panicked
"Who was that?"
"Uhm…" she had to think fast "Blaney. She wants to talk and was asking if I was already heading home"
"Didn't you see her this morning?"
"Yeah… so?"
"Nothing. To be just Michaela and considering you already saw her, you got pretty… excited"
"What's your point, Sammy?"
"I don't have one but… you've been acting a little weird lately… and before you called me nosey again…" Sammy added quickly when she noticed Shay wanted to cut her off "I just want to know you're ok"
"I know and I'm really thankful for always look out for me but I promise you I'm fine, more than fine actually so don't worry, if something bad happens I would tell you for sure"
"And if is something good? Would you also tell me about it?" Sammy had a sad tone in her voice; it was obvious she was feeling a little hurt knowing Shay was hiding something from her. But Shay was too afraid to say what was happening out loud, even if she was happier than ever before, she couldn't avoid the fear of telling her secret to other people.
"Of course" Shay answered forcing a smile but her words weren't so convincing
"Ok" Sammy didn't want to push the subject any further
They said their last good bye before Shay leave the set for good, trying to avoid everyone in her way out to not take more time than necessary to get home. In the way she couldn't avoid to think that's how her relationship with Lindsey would have to be from now on; just them, hiding from the rest of the world, lying to the people around them, hiding behind the walls of some lonely place. Immediately, she felt discomfort at the whole idea. She parked her car in the garage, still a little uneasy and run into the kitchen to take a glass of wine before headed to the living room, getting comfortable before taking her phone to send a text. She needed a reassurance that this was going to work, that it doesn't matter how hard it will be they would stay together, that her love was strong enough to make big sacrifices and that those sacrifices will be totally worth it.
Finally, and before her thoughts started to driving her crazy, Shay's phone rang
"Hello, beautiful lady" Just to hear Lindsey's voice was making her feel a lot calmer
"Someone is in a very good mood"
"Well, I just had a great day at work and…" Lindsey was excited to share her news
"Oh… really…?" And suddenly a weight stuck in Shay's chest. It was difficult enough to be apart but hear Lindsey say she had a great day without her, drive her mind to dark places she didn't want to go. What if she met someone else? What if someone else is hitting on her? What if she is already forgetting about me? There were a lot of questions in her head she actually didn't want to ask but really wanted the answers. So instead she just played dumb "Something or maybe someone in particular there put you in such a good mood?"
"Yes to both. Yes, something put me in a very good mood and yes, someone also put me in a very good mood" Lindsey just couldn't hide her joy
"That's great…" Shay's voice was carrying too much disappointment for her like and for Lindsey this didn't go unnoticed
"Hey, what's wrong? Did I say something that upset you?" Lindsey asked carefully
"No, no, it's just… I'm glad you're having a blast over there but…"
"But…?"
"Nothing, it's really stupid" Shay was feeling a little embarrassed for making a big deal over nothing but she couldn't help herself
"Nothing you say could be stupid, tell me what's bothering you" Lindsey's words were soft and reassuring
"It's just… you're surrounding by this incredible people and I'm just afraid… you know what… forget it"
"No, I'm not going to forget it. Come on, whatever it is you can tell me, you know that"
"Fine. I'm afraid you meet someone else…" Shay just blurted out, her words almost tripping one after the other "there, I said it" and the next thing she could hear was Lindsey's laugh at the other side of the line "see, I told you it was stupid"
"I'm not laughing about you. I'm laughing at the whole picture. Why would I be interest in someone else when all I could do is to think about you the whole day?"
"Really?" Shay felt a huge relief in her heart but for some reason she still had her doubts
"I would never lie to you"
"Then, what and who got you so happy?"
"The what; is actually good news. The director told us today that if we keep the same schedule we could finish the shooting earlier which means…"
"You'll be coming back earlier" Shay cut her off
"Exactly…"
"Those are great news" Shay was now overjoyed
"I know, right?"
But then she remembered there was one more question to ask and even if the answer would be hard to hear, she knew she had to do it "And… what about the… someone"
"That's easy. I never said the person that got me so happy was here"
"What you mean?"
"What I mean is; why would I need somebody else when the most beautiful woman in the world is in California and, if her letter doesn't lie, she is actually waiting for me. You know how many people would kill to be me, right now?"
"Oh, so you were talking about…"
"I was talking about you. Just to know I was going to talk to you at the end of the day made me ridiculously happy" Lindsey admitted
"You're not just saying that to distract my attention from you meeting sexy girls over there aren't you?"
"Oh, there are a lot of sexy girls here but none of them looks as hot as you do" Shay immediately blush. It amazed her how Lindsey with the simplest words could make her feel so special
"Ok. I believe you; you don't need to raise my ego anymore. Though, you will be very helpful on the days I feel down"
"Whatever you need…" Lindsey trailed off
To say they spent the whole night talking and flirting with each other was just an understatement. Things were definitely going great so far, there were no more awkward silences or misunderstood words. They were very comfortable with each other; Lindsey was complimenting Shay every time she got the chance and Shay, was always reminding Lindsey how much she misses her. Their feelings could be a secret for the rest of the world but between them, there was nothing they weren't saying to each other.
And the next two weeks passed under the same rhythm. Every time they had the chance to talk to each other they took it, although it wasn't as easy as the beginning. Some days Shay had long shooting nights, some others Lindsey couldn't talk because her schedule was so tight, the production didn't even take a break during the whole day, not to mention time difference wasn't helping them at all. But thankfully they made it, they went through those difficult two weeks and now Shay was over with the show and getting ready for her trip to Canada, which of course Lindsey was already aware of.
Once she arrived to her parents' house, the joy around them was inevitable, they were so happy to be together after such a long time, all they wanted was to spend as much time as possible as a family. Though, Shay's time was completely dedicated to her family and to help her brother prepare for her big day, she didn't let Lindsey out of her plans, now that she was free from any kind of work; their pact was that Lindsey would be the one to let her know when she had some time to talk. Those moments mostly came at night when she was over with her shooting or a few times on her break lunch and Shay was more than available to talk to her.
Her family of course, was suspecting something when at the middle of any reunion they were having; Shay would excuse herself to pick up some 'business call' which basically consisted in talking for twenty minutes or so and then coming back to her family again with the biggest smile on her face, following by a 'everything is amazing' every time their parents asked about it.
It wasn't that Shay was scared about her family's opinion, at the end, they already knew the truth about her sexuality, but she didn't want to imply she was seeing someone when she didn't even had the chance to talk properly with Lindsey and their status as a 'couple'. She knew her happiness was very important for her parents so she didn't want to drop the bomb before discuss with Lindsey how they're going to handle the whole situation. She was convince it was healthy for all the parts to keep this for herself, at least for the moment, because once Lindsey and her talk about it, she will definitely take her to Canada to meet her family, that was a promise she did to herself.
"I wish you could have seen him. He looks so cute in his tux"
It was Thursday night, and like almost every night Shay made a pause in her activities to answer Lindsey's call. She and Sean just came back from the mall after buying his brother's tuxedo for his graduation night and she was telling Lindsey all about their adventure
"I hope you at least took a picture of him" Lindsey asked, sharing her enthusiasm with Shay
"Lots of them, he was so shy though… most of them are going to be about the tux and not his face" they laughed
"And what about you…? You know what are you going to wear already?"
"Of course. I have the sexiest dress ever. Too bad you won't see how I look in it" Shay was teasing Lindsey, happy to hear her groan at the other side of the line
"Man! I wish I could be there. At least you're going to take pictures right?"
"Mmm… I don't know if I should. You know those things could leak on the internet. It's too dangerous" Shay was definitely enjoying the little power she was having over the situation and over the other girl
"Come on… don't make me go there Mitchell. You know I will"
"Promise…?" Shay trailed off. The line went silent for a couple of seconds, it was a silence they hadn't experimented in a while but for Shay was very difficult to think about all the time they were missing away from each other and she knew Lindsey was feeling the same way "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to ruin the mood but… I really wish you could be here. I really miss you"
"I know is hard. I miss you like crazy too but once I go back to California we would spend as much time as possible together. I promise"
"I love how that sounds" Shay's mood was starting to change just to remember her secret plan. Maybe she wouldn't have to way that long
"So, about that dress…" Lindsey changed completely the subject and Shay smiled at the action; that was one of the things she loves so much about Lindsey, she could improvise about any subject and make it sound so natural. It was amazing to have a person by her side that was always looking at the positive side of everything. Lindsey was the Hope Shay was so desperately looking for.
Weekend arrive pretty quickly. Sean's graduation on Friday night was a blast, of course Shay took the pictures Lindsey was asking for but besides them she got a better idea to show her how she looked on the dress she wore. Shay was enjoying her last days with her family, her flight back to California was leaving tomorrow afternoon and she didn't want to waste a single minute of it so she took her family to have dinner with her and then go around town 'just like the old times' she told them.
After spend the whole day together, it was time for them to go back home. The plan was to make a movie marathon and order pizza for dinner but Shay's parents were so tired about the activities of the day than after the first movie they decided it was time for them to go to bed, leaving Shay and Sean on the living room ready for the next movie.
They were in the beginning of their third one when Shay's phone rang but this time she wasn't sure if she should take the call or not, after all, she didn't want to leave her brother alone
"Are you going to take that?" Sean asked, pressing the pause button in the remote before looking at her sister and her insistent phone
"Later… I just going to send a text and…" Shay took her phone and typed really quick "There, we're ready" before placing the phone on the couch next to her
Sean just look at her with inquisitive eyes and then just brought back his attention to the movie now playing again on the screen, reminding himself to talk to Shay before she leaves.
It was almost midnight when Shay was finally lying on her bed with her phone on one hand (she just hang up with Lindsey), a dreamy look in her eyes and a huge smile on her face. She was just there thinking about the next few days and her next trip to North Carolina, when she heard a knock on her door. When she allowed the person to come inside, Sean appeared in front of her.
"Hey, baby bro" Shay left her phone aside and took a sitting position, leaving space on the bed for her brother
"I told you not to call me that" Sean answered annoyed, sitting on the edge of the bed facing her sister
"But is so cute" Shay insisted
"Fine, but if you keep calling me like that then I will post on Instagram that beautiful picture of you without your teeth and I'm going to tell everybody that mom and dad still call you Mimi"
"You wouldn't dare…" Shay fake indignation
"Try me"
"Ok, ok. I give up" Shay raised her hands in a surrender way "What's up?"
"What's up with you?" Shay looked at him confused "You've being acting… weird these past few days… All those 'business' phone calls you get, you've been awfully giggly and I haven't see you smile like that since they casted you on the show" Sean pointed at the smile plaster on Shay's face "No, wait. Not even then. What's going on?"
"Nothing, everything…"
"Is amazing… Yeah, I know. That's all you say after every phone call. Shay, I'm your brother… don't you trust me anymore?" Sean's voice sounded a little hurt
"Of course I trust you… It's not that…"
"Then what is it? I know is not something bad or you wouldn't be so excited about everything but even if is something good I would like to share it with you. Come on… we used to tell each other everything"
Shay looked at him and smiled, sometimes it impress her how mature her younger brother could be
"Fine. But this has to stay between us, at least for now"
"To the grave" Shay frowned at him
"You're seeing the show, don't you?"
"To the point Mimi"
"Ugh, ok, ok" Shay rolled her eyes "I'm dating someone… well, dating is a euphemism right now" Shay clarify, thinking about her current relationship with Lindsey
"Seriously…? That's amazing, sis!" Sean hugged her and then looked at her a little confuse "Well the dating part at least"
"Yeah, it is"
"Who is she?"
"I met her on the sets of PLL. She is… my co-start actually"
"Wait! You and Ashley finally…"
"Ha-ha very funny. No, is not Ashley, you know she is like the sister I never had, same goes for Luce and Troi"
"I know. I was just messing with you. But stop going in circles and tell me who is she"
"It's… Lindsey" Just to say her name made a smile appear on Shay's face
"Paige?"
"No, no Paige. Lindsey, way too different" Shay corrected him
"I know but I'm a Paily shipper already" He sounded so serious that Shay couldn't help but laugh
"Seriously dude, stop watching the show… at least for a while"
"No until I find out who A is"
"Dumb"
"Looser"
"Fine, this looser is going to keep her story to herself" Shay started to turn around, pretending to go to sleep
"No, no, no. I won't interrupt anymore. I promise" Shay smirked a little. Sean's curiosity could be stronger than him sometimes
"I thought so. Like I was saying… I met her on set. Like you already know, she got the role of Paige on the show so we started talking, at first it was just about work but then we started to feel more comfortable around each other, we became good friends but suddenly I had this huge crush on her. No…" Sean was about to say something but Shay cut him off immediately "you're not allow, shut up and listen, questions at the end"
Sean pouted at her sister's statement but wait patiently for Shay to continue with the story. Shay kept talking about how she and Lindsey got together and how things drove them to the spot they were standing right now. Once she told him everything, Sean looked at her sister searching for her approval to talk, which Shay gave him with a nod.
"Wow, that's pretty crazy and kind of stupid" Sean dropped
"Hey!" Shay protested
"I'm sorry, sis but you know this would be different if you…"
"Please don't say it. I know what are you going to say and I really don't want to hear it, not again. You think I don't know how things could be? You think I'm not aware of that? But I can't just go and…" Shay was starting to feel agitated now. She hated it when people remind her all the time about reality, no matter how much she loves them or how much right they have, she wishes she could stay in her bubble just for a little longer.
"Hey, it's ok. I'm sorry; I didn't mean to upset you, I just… I just don't want to see you suffer. Lindsey sounds like a pretty amazing girl and for the things you say about her it looks like she's the one you've being looking for. Why keep you're happiness away from everyone else?"
"It's not that simple, Sean. I have a long term contract with the network, the show depends of the fans and it depend on us to keep them happy, what if they don't took my coming out as well as everybody thinks"
"Everybody…?"
"Blaney knows about Lindsey too"
"Well at least you're not alone"
"I'm never alone, that's exactly the problem, if I were a girl with a different career then nobody would probably be looking at me but I chose this. I chose this because this is what I want to do and I worked really hard for it…" there it was again, the defensive side Shay was used to use every time her sexuality and her career popped out on the same conversation
"Shay, relax. I know how hard it was, I was there, remember? Of course I got very sad when you told us you would be travelling to follow your dreams. I knew I wouldn't be able to see you as much as I used to but I'm so proud of you for it. You're the person I'm always looking at. I want to be like you after I finish high school… well not an actor and that stuff but I do want to follow my dreams just as you did. Now, if you say things are ok the way they are then I believe you. I don't know if would make things the same way but I guess you have to be in the other person's shoes to know exactly how it feels. Maybe right now I not agree with you but I respect whatever decision you take. I just want to let you know I'm happy you finally found someone who really cares about you"
Shay smiled at her brother, relief finally settling on her. She was worried Sean got judgmental with her and disregards her relationship but thankfully that didn't happen.
"Thank you" She leaned forward and embrace her brother warmly "You know… you could still be a little baby but you're the best brother ever"
"Ok, that's it. I'm going to Instagram…" they broke the hug, now laughing at each other
They spend almost all night talking about random things, including Shay's plans with Lindsey and Sean's next visit to California. They agreed it would be nice if he could be the first person in her family to meet Lindsey so that way she could have an ally when she finally met their parents.
Sadly, the night passed too fast for their like and all too soon, the family was taking Shay to the airport. Of course the good bye this time wasn't as hard as when Shay had to leave home for the first time so, after making the promise of coming back soon to visit them again, Shay boarded her plane to go back to California and prepared herself for her next trip.
(International Airport Charlotte Douglas – 2 days later)
After picking up her luggage, Shay was on her way to the Hotel. The same hotel she worked really hard to get the name from Alice without having to give the other woman too much explanation. But she was finally there and neither the five hours flight nor the lack of sleep was going to stop her from her objective.
Once the cab parked outside the Hotel, Shay waited for the bellman to carry her luggage into the hall. It was the first time she was visiting North Carolina and she didn't know exactly what to expect but the city and the Hotel looked pretty nice so far and the people were really polite.
"Did you make it?" It was a text from Sean, he was the only one who knew about her plans and for the look of it he was as excited as Shay was
"About to talk with the receptionist"
"Go get your girl"
-That's exactly what I'm going to do- She thought
"Thanks… Love you baby bro"
"Ugh. XD" Shay laugh at her brother's answer and then put her phone back on her jacket, walking to the front desk
That was another difficult task at hand; to ask for an actress who was currently shooting a movie and keep a low profile was a complete challenge. By this point there were only a few options and none of them seem useful. She could pretend to be a fan and ask for her, which was the stupidest idea ever because that would make the receptionist to automatically call security. She could pretend to be a friend and give a fake name but that only would make the receptionist to call to the room and confirm the information which in front of a negative answer would make her call security again, so the only choice was for her to say who she really was and ask to the girl behind the front desk to keep the secret.
Finally, after asked the receptionist if the person she was looking for was in fact in her room, Shay took the elevator to the eighth floor and headed to the room the lady behind the desk indicated her. Once in front of the door and just when she was about to knock new fears started to build inside her, maybe the fact that she arrived unnoticed wasn't such a good idea… what if she wasn't alone? What if someone else is in there, making her company? The only idea was making Shay feel a hole in her stomach
"Come on Mitchell, put yourself together, you didn't come all the way here to ruin everything with your stupid ideas" Shay whispered, trying to gain some self-control
She took a deep breath and knock at the door, a smile automatically appearing in her face when the door finally opened. Just the person she was eagerly waiting to see.
"Hey…"
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