Disclaimer: I Don't own Big Time Rush only Autumn but obviously not her second name :)
I grabbed my backpack and started stuffing some important items into it. I only took food and water, not wanting useless items to weigh me down. I was able to get off the bus without attracting any attention to myself. As soon as I was off the bus, I bolted, running as fast as my legs would carry me. I needed to get away from here as fast as possible. No one stopped me, which was good because I didn't want to be stopped. As soon as my legs felt weak, I knew that I had been running for many miles, so I could probably walk for a while now. I still needed to keep moving.
Way too soon for my liking, the darkness consumed the small town that I was in. It was dark enough that I couldn't see what was in front of me, so I knew that I had to stop for the night. I began to look for somewhere safe to sleep. I found an alley, not a scary alley, one that no one came to anymore, it looked safe enough for one night. In the alley, I found an old mattress. I sat down on it, debating whether or not I should spend the night here. When I decided I had no choice, I laid down on the old mattress. It wasn't very comfortable, nor was it the safest place, or the cleanest for that matter, but I needed sleep, and this was where I was going to sleep.
That night, I had horrible nightmares, none of which made any sense. They swirled in my head, one after another. One stuck out, though. It was of everyone who had become a part of my life. They were telling me that I wasn't good enough, that I didn't deserve to be alive, or have someone love me or care about me. But I already knew that, I was never good enough, and I never will be. I would never be beautiful, smart or talented. I would always be a mute freak.
