kimochi

feelings

Sango stared broodingly over the edge of the boat. Most people would have been taken in awe with the way the boat gracefully glided along the endless seam of azure. However, she wasn't in the mood. If anything, she wanted to throw something in the damn water.

Everything between her and Miroku had been going along smoothly like a delicately carved gemstone. Until that witch had come along. That woman was just something else. If she was even a human being, Sango wasn't quite sure. Either way, everything had transformed into a crumpled mess.

"Sango-chan," a voice called softly from behind her. The sudden sound felt like a bee sting to her.

"Oh Kagome-chan. You startled me."

"Look Sango-chan," Kagome said urgently, "I want to talk you about the Dimension Witch."

"Wonderful," Sango thought, "Just what I need."

"I know you don't like her," Kagome continued.

"Well OF COURSE I don't like her," Sango snapped irritably," All she does is boss everyone around and flirt with all the men."

"I know," Kagome said understandingly in an almost maternal way, "I don't like her either. But you're the one with problems. If I were you I'd stop her before she successfully seduces your fiancé." Sango was silent for a minute.

"What should I say?" Sango asked slowly. "I can't be too rude to her. We're stuck with her now." Kagome observed the Dimension Witch, who was happily chatting with that bird, from a distance with keen eyes.

"Hmmm….I think you should tell her how much Miroku-sama means to you and how she has absolutely no right to steal him away from you, especially since you're engaged now," Kagome answered.

Sango took a deep breath. "I'll talk to her in a minute."

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"How long am I stuck with you guys?" the bird moaned. They had been on the ship for three hours. It had actually been a rather peaceful trip so far. There was nothing but the occasional breeze in the way. It was a nice change from the hurried pace they had been going at so far.

"As long as it takes for our mission to complete," Yuuko said lazily as she leaned unconcernedly on the railing, "It all depends on what happens next."

"Dammit," the bird whined, "Why? Why? Why the hell do I always have to be the one to suffer?"

"Hitsuzen," Yuuko said unveiling her well-known devilish smirk.

"Well screw hitsuzen."

"Watanuki!" Yuuko called cheerily while ignoring the bird's last comment. Her indentured servant hurriedly came over to her holding a platter of sashimi.

"Yay! The sashimi is here!" Mokona chirped cheerfully as it bounced around giving an impression that it was as light as air, "Yum! Yum!"

"What the hell took you so long kid," the bird snapped.

"I didn't know you wanted sashimi," Watanuki replied calmly.

"Well what am I supposed to eat?"

"I actually thought you were going to eat worms," Watanuki said quietly to himself. Nevertheless the bird heard him.

"WHAT THE FUCK?"

Watanuki ignored the bird's continuous complains and looked out. It was a beautiful day. The sun shone down on the ocean giving Watanuki's eyes the effect of a glittering blue blanket. The weather was extremely mild. Watanuki enjoyed the sea breeze as it gently caressed his face.

"You really like it out here," Yuuko said softly as she leaned closer to him to get the sashimi.

"Yeah…it's such a nice day today," Watanuki said dreamily. Yuuko smiled as she watched him happily gaze out towards the ocean. She knew that nothing lasted forever yet for the slightest moment she had a fleeting wish that they would be frozen. It would be something if they could stay happy forever. Yes, it was completely illogical and ridiculous but she didn't deny it to herself just the same. Especially since she knew what was coming next.

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After what felt like forever, Sango finally store over furiously to the Dimension Witch. The more she looked at the Dimension Witch, the more her rage blazed inside. Admittedly, Miroku was talking with Inuyasha on another part of the deck that was away from the Dimension Witch. It wouldn't stop that Dimension Witch though. It would take her two seconds for her to turn him on. That Dimension Witch just couldn't take a hint.

"Miroku is my fiancé. He is NOT her plaything."

Sango glanced back at Kagome who seemed to be looking forward the scene that was about to come. She suspected Kagome hated the Dimension Witch because of the whole Osuwarii incident. She knew how much that bond meant to Kagome. It was Kagome's special connection to Inuyasha that no one else had. She understood perfectly what Kagome felt like when the Dimension Witch shattered that special bond within two seconds. How could someone be so inconsiderate? Well Naraku was one person but Yuuko was their ally. She took a deep breath. The more she focused in on these thoughts, the more confident she felt. They were her supplement, her fuel. She was ready to face the Dimension Witch.

"Excuse me Yuuko-san," Sango said in a tone of barely concealed bitterness, "I would like to have a word with you." Yuuko simply nodded and lead her off to another corner of the ship as Watanuki, Mokona, and the bird eyed her with curious expressions. It was unclear whether Yuuko noticed the fury but if she did she made no sign of showing. She simply brushed Kudakitsune off the railing and turned around to face Sango with a rather stern expression.

"Now tell me what this discussion is about."

"Well you see," Sango started hesitantly, "I think you should um…lay off…houshi-sama."

"Why should I?" Yuuko asked calmly.

"Because," Sango stammered with a look of being completely taken aback, "He's my fiancé."

"Yet that didn't prevent him from stopping himself. He was the one who proposed our little agreement," Yuuko continued in the same irritating calm tone of hers, "If he comes up with the right amount of payment, then I will grant his wish. That's the way it works. It is up to hitsuzen. It's not necessarily up to my desire contrary to what you think."

"Not necessarily up to my desire," Sango repeated incredulously raising her voice, "You were leading him on the whole time. You even took off your dress strap right in front of him!"

"I have a right to crave what temptation delivers," Yuuko said in a somewhat cold tone that made Sango shudder slightly.

"You should still consider other people's feelings," Sango retorted as each word escalated in rage and volume, "All you do is just sit around and flirt with all the men while you send people off to do your dirty work. YOU'RE NOTHING BUT A GODDAMNED BITCH."

The Dimension Witch just stood there with the same calm expression as she stepped forward. Sango braced herself thinking that the Dimension Witch would slap her on the face or something like that. Instead, the Dimension Witch leaned towards Sango until her face was inches from her own.

"You're acting childish. This is your problem that it between you and Miroku. There was no reason for you to drag me into this. Someone who is brave enough to face reality tries to figure out a way to solve their problem on their own. You chose to put the blame on someone else. You need to learn to not always rely on your first instincts. The same thing goes to you Higurashi-san," the Dimension Witch said nodding at Kagome who was standing nearby. Sango just glared at the Dimension Witch.

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When Sango finally walked away, Yuuko sighed silently to herself. It had been a long time since someone had called her a prostitute or a whore. Of course the times had changed since then. Those words didn't hurt anymore. She had power and control now. People grow from their experiences.

I owe that all to you Midorkio-sama. You helped me rise to the position I am in today. Defeating Naraku should be adequate payment. Don't you think so?

"Yuuko-san…." Yuuko snapped out of her dreamlike trance and turned her head slowly around.

"What is it Watanuki?"

"What happened between you and Sango-san? I heard her screaming at you a minute ago and now she looks really depressed. What did you say to her?" Watanuki asked hesitantly.

"I told her the truth," Yuuko answered in an almost pitying tone, "Sometimes it's hard for people to awake in reality. This may be because reality is too harsh for them. Or it may be because they themselves are too weak. We'll see what the case is soon." Watanuki looked at the ground focusing in on his thoughts.

"You don't fall in either category," Yuuko said smiling, "Thee proof of that is your existence. Don't sacrifice it so easily. Watanuki looked up at Yuuko. For just a moment, he thought he saw Himawari, Kohane, and Doumeki stand next to Yuuko. He put a hand to his head. He must have been seeing a mirage or something.

"I won't Yuuko-san. I promise I won't…."

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"You really blew it this time monk," Inuyasha muttered as he eyed Kagome and Sango from another part of the deck.

"I know I did," Miroku said sighing.

"Why'd you do it anyways?" Inuyasha asked gruffly, "That which is just an annoying, creepy, and bossy lady who had a lot of power."

"And your point is…."

"He's saying your taste is seriously messed up," Shippou said hopping onto Miroku's shoulder, 'I was just with Kagome and Sango. Sango sounds really depressed."

"I know, I know," Miroku said exasperatedly.

"Kagome sounds kind of mad too," Shippou continued.

"WHAT?" Inuyasha exclaimed. "Why is she? I didn't do anything unlike this hentai here."

"Well don't ask me," Shippou said exasperatedly, "This is just from what I heard."

"You've got to know something," Inuyasha growled impatiently grabbing Shippou by the collar.

"KAGOME!" Shippou screamed as he flailed his arms around.

"Osuwarii," Kagome muttered dejectedly.

As Miroku quietly watched the commotion he wondered why he asked Yuuko to bear his child in the first place. It all happened so fast. He was finding it harder to make out the truth. There were just distant recollections at how he couldn't resist when he saw how erotic Yuuko looked, the guilt when he saw Sango's anger, and that was pretty much it. One thing was for sure. He had fallen into a bottomless pit thanks to her exotic beauty and his own nature.

But it wasn't just that. Part of it was because of Sango herself. Deep inside, he knew that he would die in battle. He didn't want to cause Sango any more pain. How many times can a heart last if it is constantly being stabbed? Sango had experienced more pain in her life than most people could take. To hurt her even more as she lost another person she cherished…that would just be too cruel of him. But as he looked at Sango he wondered if it was even crueler to treat her this way.

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"What the hell is that?" the bird asked as the boat started to shake uncontrollably.

"Something's rocking the boat," Watanuki cried worriedly.

"Rocking, rocking, rocking on a boat in the sea," Mokona sang cheerfully.

"THIS ISN'T THE TIME FOR SINGING!" Watanuki hollered at a giggling Mokona as he braced himself by holding a wooden pole. It seemed as if someone was controlling the boat to make him fall off. As the boat tilted drastically from side to side, Watanuki felt an overwhelming urge to throw up as an unknown aura was shrouded around him.

Suddenly a sea of white emerged from the water and loomed over his head.

"I'm doomed," Watanuki thought as the wave's force dragged him away from the pole and shot at him with full force. He felt himself being swept hurriedly along a mass of white. After what felt like an hour of two, he finally slammed into a hard wall that could potentially shatter his spine.

"Are you all right Watanuki?"

Hell he was not alright. His whole body was numbed with cold and pain from the wave. He now knew what it felt like to have someone beat you with a wooden bat and have them chuck you into a freezer afterwards. He was also dripping so much water he had formed a miniature pond around him. As he looked around him, everyone looked equally wet and miserable (except for Yuuko and Mokona).

"I'm fine," he lied as he tried to get up. He looked up and saw that he appeared to be inside some type of building made out of hard glass. After about one second, he couldn't look up any longer. Whatever was lingering in his stomach was heaving to get out right now. As Watanuki was on his knees looking down at the floor a moment later, he realized he was vomiting blood.

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If you're reading this you're probably beyond pissed at me for not updating for so long. Well the truth is…I've been busy. Trust me, when you get a sore throat and a diarrhea you're in pain. I was also in Washington D.C and NYC for Winter Break and I just got back yesterday.

So yeah….That's my crappy excuse. I am also going to be realistic and say that I'm probably not going to update for a while. Like for a month. I have finals coming up and I'm getting the lowest grades that I've gotten in three years. No joke. My parents are going to slaughter me if I get one B and I currently have two. So I'm dead. Basically.

This chapter is….short. Sorry about that but I just had to give some much needed character development. They've been running around like marijuana-dosed jackasses for the past ten chapters, they really need a break to bitch around in short. I feel like I leave a lot of character out for some chapters. But anyways….I hope you liked it. Yeah and pardon my rudeness but I'm seriously jetlack. I need an aspirn. Thanks for reading and hope you'll read the next one. I'm out.

P.S: My beta reader looked at the comments and told me "bi-polar..much". After finding out what bi-polar meant I have to agree. Forgive me, forgive me. Now out.