Sorry I haven't made a new chapter in like a week. I've been really busy, but that will change in about a week, so that's good, expect more chapters.


Ted

Barney's apartment

I decided that the best thing for me to do right now is if I just tell Barney. I don't want to wait with this hanging over my head, and Lily isn't answering any of my calls to see if Robin is okay with me telling him. So I'm just going to go tell him. I knock on his door waiting. "Ted?"

"Yeah, Barney I need to talk to you." I say walking into his apartment. I didn't notice but Quinn is there sitting on his sofa. This is the first time I've seen her since this whole pregnancy thing. "Hi Quinn." I don't know if congratulations are in order, so I don't say anything else.

"Hey Ted. I haven't seen you in a while, are you still with that Victoria girl?"

"No. We broke up a couple months ago."

"Oh, i'm sorry." Awkward silence.

"So Ted what did you need to tell me?" Barney asks. I don't really want to tell him in front of Quinn.

"Um its kind of personal."

"Oh, well I'll go into the bedroom then. Sorry, don't want to intrude or anything." Quinn says, getting the message and hurrying into the bedroom.

"Barney, please don't get mad. But I slept with Robin." I say, just getting it over with. I was fully expecting him to kick me in the nuts or something. But he didn't.

"Are you guys, like, back together now? Or..."

"No. She said she didn't want to date me again. What we did was a mistake. And I think i'm finally over her, but Barney she isn't over you."

"Then why hasn't she been answer any of my calls? I'm trying Ted. I have called her so many time and left so many messages, but she hasn't even tried to contact me once. I don't know what to do anymore." His phone starts ringing and he reaches into his pocket. He holds it out in front of him and I glance at the screen, it was Robin.


Robin

Robin's apartment, but earlier, so when Ted was at Barney's this was happening at Robin's.

"I'm such a bitch. I can't believe I did that. Oh god. Why do I always do this." I sit down on the sofa, Lily is right. There is something wrong with me. I'm such a selfish person.

"What do you mean always do this?" Lily asks.

"I always push people away. I've been like that my whole life, I just don't know how to deal with other people's emotions, damnit I can't even deal with myself."

"Robin you just need to talk to him. Tell him you are sorry. That you will be there for him."

"But I can't."

"Why not, isn't that what you want?"

"Well." What do I want. I want to be with him, but I can't do that if I never talk to him. I guess there is a small possibility that I will be able to talk to him and that I will help him. I don't know. But I think I just need to talk to him. "Okay. I think I'm just going to call him."

"Do you want me to go then?"

"No, umm. You can stay. But is it okay if I go into my room to do this. Please don't leave Lil. I might need a shoulder to cry on later." I try to laugh, but it comes out more as a strange strangling sound, which basically describes my life right now.


Barney

On the phone

"Uh, hey Robin, how are you?" Ted decides to give us some privacy so he goes into the bedroom with Quinn.

"Barney, I. I'm sorry. I should have called, I just, I didn't know what to say, and I was selfish. But I hope you are okay, and that Quinn is okay. And that maybe we could be okay."

"Robin are you okay?" I thought I would be mad at her for not answering my calls, but I couldn't be mad at her.

"Barney, you don't have to ask me how I am. It doesn't matter. How are you?"

"Robin of course it matters how you are." Okay, this conversation is going nowhere, she's not going to tell me how she really feels. "Do you think it might be too soon to hang out sometime?"

"Uh.." I caught her off guard.

"I miss you Robin."

"Yeah, yes we can hang out sometime." I hear something caught in the back of her throught, like maybe she is going to cry, or maybe she was trying to say something more.

"So I heard about you and Ted." Crap, why did I bring that up. That was not the right thing to say. She probably hates me now, "Sorry, I don't know why I brought that up, you don't have to answer if you don't want to!"

"No, its. Fine. I. Yeah. It just happened once though. And its not going to happen again. But yeah. Umm hey Barney I think I have to go." This time I think she definitely was going to cry.

"Robin, are you sure you are okay?" She's not. She's just going to tell me she is though.

"Yeah, i'm fine. I have to go. I'm sorry." She ends the call. Sorry for what?


Ted

In Barney's Bedroom

I walk into Barney's room and see Quinn sitting on the bed watching tv. It looked like she lived there, and this was a normal thing for her to do. Wait? Did she actually live here now? She must have just walked right back into Barney's life and made herself at home, not even realizing what she did to Barney.

"Hey Ted." Quinn mutes the tv. "Can I talk to you?"

"Uh sure." I say. Awkwardly standing next to the bed. Why doesn't Barney have a sofa in his room?

"I didn't mean to mess up his life." What? "I really didn't want to be pregnant."

I give in and sit on the bed next to her. "What do you mean?"

"I mean, I messed up his life. He didn't want this, he never wanted any of this. I can tell. He wants to be there for me, but he deep down wishes this never happened. Ted I sometimes, I. I don't want to have this baby." She takes a couple of deep breathes, suppressing tears.

"Quinn its not your fault. He's the one who got you pregnant." Wait, but really is he? We never did get those paternity test results yet. I take a look at Quinn and she had started to cry now. Her cheeks had tears running down them, and she was kind of looking away trying to cover them up. Suddenly it doesn't matter who's baby it is. We have to stop blaming all this on Quinn "Hey don't cry." I put my arm around her.

"But the thing is, I don't think I'm ready to have a kid. When I told my friends they said I should just have an abortion and not even tell Barney. But I couldn't do that. I didn't want to have the reminder of what could have been. And then I came here and I kind of got use to the idea of being a mom, and when Barney wanted to get rid of it I was upset. But now that i'm thinking about it, I can't raise a baby. I don't have a house, its been super awkward living here with Barney. I don't have a job anymore since I quit stripping again, so its not like i'll ever be able to get a home of my own. I don't even know what to do with a baby. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm going to be a horrible mother" This time I give her a hug, and she cries into my shoulder.

"Quinn, its going to be okay. You might think you are going to be a bad mother now, but once you hold that child in your arms there is going to be nothing in this world that you will ever want to protect more. Barney will help you, I will help you, Lily and Marshall will even help you. Everything will work out in the end." Barney walked in, and saw me holding Quinn. Silently he went outside.


Lily

Robin's apartment

It's been about twenty minutes, and I haven't heard Robin say anything in a while. Either Barney is doing all the talking, her walls are really really thick, or they hung up. I'm guessing its the last one. So I knock on the door. "Hey Robin is everything okay?"

"You can come in Lil". I open up the door and she's sitting on her bed, with a blank expression.

"What happened?"

"He wants to hang out." She was still staring out into space. What is going on here. I sit down on the bed next to her, carefully because I have a feeling that she might explode or something.

"Isn't that a good thing?"

"Yes." She still hasn't moved.

"Robin, what else did he say."

"He misses me, and he asked if I was okay."

"Are you?" She finally turns to look at me, and she has that crying expression on her face.

"No." She rests her head on my shoulder as she breaks down.


Sorry if basically everyone seems super out of character, I don't know how that happened. I also know that this like barely moved the story at all, but like Barney and Robin talked, this is a big deals guys. Also what do you think about Ted and Quinn, I mean I wasn't planning on making them a couple, like at all, but it might, possibly POSSIBLY, be a good idea? Maybe, i don't know. Please give me feedback on that, because that would be awesome. Thanks for reading. love you guys.