Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters used in this story. Stephenie Meyer owns them all (lucky). I am just having some fun and gathering entertainment from them.

A/N…Song for this chapter: LoveGame by Lady GaGa…listen here…

http://www(dot)youtube(dot)com/watch?v=1mB0tP1I-14

Chapter 11

EPOV

December 24, 2008

I was in shock that Bella asked me to take her home. I was also nervous about being in close proximity to her in the truck with my raging erection. The woman was making my body crazy.

I opened the truck door for her and made sure she was safely inside before I shut the door. I made my way to the driver's side talking to myself the entire way.

Just drive her home Cullen…drive her home and leave…quickly.

We were in the truck for barely two seconds when she turned on the radio. Lady GaGa's LoveGame sounded through the truck. Just great. This song is all sex! Bella squealed. Never heard her squeal before…it was seriously cute.

"I LOVE this song!" She exclaimed.

She was dancing in her seat…very seductively. My already slightly aroused cock was now completely straining against my pants. I loosened the tie around my neck that currently felt like a fucking noose.

"Let me help you with that," Bella said. She reached over and started pulling my tie off while staring at me with lust in her eyes. Then she…licked her lips.

Oh shit.

"Wow, is it hot in here Edward? I am so…hot."

She pulled off her jacket and I had to watch her dancing in the passenger seat in that sexy as sin dress Alice put her in for the wedding.

"Bella…put…y…your jacket back on…it's not good for…ou…your babies if you get hypothermia. It's December in Washington!"

"I'm fine Edward…this feels much…better."

Her voice was dripping with sex as she sang along to this song that was making me insane. Then…she did something that was going to get us fucking killed. She leaned over and whispered in my ear, "So…Edward…can I?"

"Can…you…w…what?" I asked in fear. I had a feeling I knew what she was going to say.

She placed her hand on my painfully hard cock and said in my ear, "Can I take a ride on your disco stick?"

Then she fucking nibbled on my earlobe as she started palming my cock through my pants.

"Jesus Christ Bella!" I yelled as I pulled the truck over to the side of the road. I gently pushed her back to her side of the truck.

"You can't fucking do that Bella! You're going to get us killed! I almost wrecked the truck."

She started sniffling, "I'm…sorry. These pregnancy hormones are driving me insane Edward! I am SO fucking horny! You don't understand how bad it is!"

"I'll buy you a vibrator," I said as I pulled back onto the main road.

"It's not the same…it's not as good…as what I know you…can do," she admitted shyly.

Damn it to fucking hell! I can't have sex with her. That's all it would be for me…I couldn't do that to her. Could I?

No…I made my resolve…I was absolutely…positively…completely…not having sex with Bella tonight…or ever again. That door was…closed.

The rest of the ride to her house was quiet and uneventful. After I had basically scolded her…she shut the radio off completely.

I felt like the biggest asshole.

When we pulled into the driveway, she opened her door and got out before I could get over there. She was already on the porch, unlocking the front door as I called out to her, "Bella…come on. Don't be upset. Please?"

"It's fine…Edward…I'm just going to go in…and pleasure myself I guess…since there is no one else to do it for me. Maybe I'll call Alex and see what he's doing. Thanks for the ride. I'll see you later."

Oh…hell…no…Alex was not putting his dick inside of her and getting it anywhere near my…er…I mean…her babies. It wouldn't be good for…them.

"Wait…Bella! Why don't I just come in for a minute…I mean…I'm kind of tired." I stretched my arms above my head and faked a yawn to make it look good. "Do you think I could crash on your couch?"

She shrugged her shoulders. "Sure…but I am still pleasuring myself Edward, whether you are in the house or not. You have no idea how worked up I am right now."

Oh, I think I have some idea.

"Just so you know…I am quite loud…since you don't remember anything. I hope I won't…keep…you…up," she said with a smirk.

I knew crossing the threshold and closing the door was a bad fucking idea but I did it anyway. I was so screwed…in more ways than one.

"Um…go have a seat on the couch…I'll pour you a glass of wine," Bella said with a sexy smile.

I hesitantly went into the living room and sat down on the couch. I laid my head on the back of the couch and closed my eyes.

"Edward," said the sexiest fucking voice…ever. "I've got something for you."

I opened my eyes…and…holy…fuck.

Bella was standing in front of me…still in that sexy dress…with the top rolled down to her waist with her plump, luscious breasts exposed.

She…was…killing…me. How the fuck was I supposed to do the right thing now?

Before I could protest, she lifted up the bottom of the dress to expose her very naked and bare lower half of her body. Then she fucking straddled my lap!

I tried to push her off me. But she was very strong for a tiny pregnant woman! "Bella…please get off me…this isn't right…pretty please?" I whimpered. Yes, me Edward Cullen, fucking whimpered.

She had reduced me to tears.

Bella started kissing me forcefully. She was trying to put her tongue in my mouth…but I wouldn't let her. This wasn't right. It wasn't. Stop this. I kept telling these things to myself.

Then she started biting on my lip. "Come on Edward…just give it up already," she said as she started unbuttoning my pants.

"Bella…no…I am begging you."

"Oooh…I like begging," she giggled.

"No Bella! I am begging you…to…st…stooppp…oh FUCK!" I yelled as she had managed to free my cock from my pants and started stroking it up and down…roughly.

I couldn't help myself. She pushed my face into her breasts, as she continued to stroke me up and down, and I fucking let her. I am weak I know.

I started suckling on her beautiful breasts…one at a time…giving them both equal attention. She was mewling and grinding her hips on my lap while she played with my cock.

She was making me crazy. I needed to be inside of her. I tried once more to reason with her before this went any further.

"Bella…please stop…this isn't right…you know it's not."

She pulled my face up forcefully by my chin and said, "Edward…would please shut the hell up and just FUCK me!"

I couldn't take it anymore. "Fine…you win," I said as I let my exposed cock thrust upwards into her wet and ready pussy."

We both screamed out in the pleasure. She started to bounce on top of me…but I placed my hands on her hips and stopped her. "Wait…just…let me…feel this…because it feels fucking amazing!"

"I know…I remember what it felt like the first time," she said sadly.

Our eyes locked for a minute and then she shook her head as if she was clearing her thoughts. "Enough…if I don't cum soon…I am going to lose my mind. So just sit there and let me fuck you!"

"Yes, ma'am," I told her.

She placed her hands on my shoulders and pushed herself up and down on my cock…hard. Thank god Charlie wasn't home because I am sure the sounds we were making would have definitely woken him from his slumber.

I can't believe I didn't remember having sex with her the first time. This was the best feeling I had ever felt…and I've had a lot of sex.

"God, Bella…you feel really good."

I kept trying to kiss her, but she kept pulling away.

I started to say something else and she placed her fingers over my mouth. "Don't talk…just thrust."

Okay.

It wasn't long before we both had reached our climax and I was spilling inside of her. She jumped off me and pulled the bottom of her dress down while putting the top part back in place.

I couldn't take my eyes off her. She was so beautiful. She was standing there with her freshly fucked look…glowing…her small bump showing beautifully. She was absolutely hands down a vision of perfection.

I missed her warmth as soon as she left my body. Weren't we going to cuddle? I mean…I don't…cuddle…but isn't that what chicks like?

She pointed towards the door and said, "Thanks…you can go now."

"Excuse me?" I asked her in shock.

"Jesus Edward. I didn't fucking stutter. I said…you…can….go…now," she said very slowly.

"But…I thought I was spending the night?"

"This was just sex Edward…and I'm done with you. You served your purpose. I'm going up to take a shower and go to bed. Don't let the door hit you in the ass on your way out."

Then she headed upstairs. I sat there with my cock hanging out and my pants undone…in total shock.

I felt so fucking used. She…just…screwed my brains out and kicked me to the curb! What the hell?

What was this feeling I had in my chest? It fucking hurt.

I had never felt this in my entire life. Then, it was as if a light bulb went off in my thick head.

This is how Bella felt. The night I married her and slept with her…this is how I made her feel. Oh god. I never wanted anyone to feel like this…let alone her.

Except…what I did to her was much worse. I lied to her and made her think I felt things that I didn't…well I did…but I denied them.

I was so confused now…more than ever.

One thing was certain…I had to make this right. Things had to get better between us. I could not go on knowing I had made her feel this way. I had some fences to mend.

I held my head up high, tucked my cock back into my pants, and did the 'walk of shame' back to the tavern.

BPOV

December 24, 2008

I didn't want to do that to him…but it had to be done. He needed to know what it felt like to be used…and thrown away…like garbage.

The sex…was…amazing…again. It would have been better though…if I hadn't known the whole time what I was going to have to do afterwards.

As soon as I made it upstairs into my bedroom…I shut the door…leaned against it and collapsed to the floor, sobbing.

It hurt so bad that he didn't want our babies…or me.

I knew we could be good for each other…but he needed to see this and feel this in his heart before anything would ever work for us.

I just had to have faith.