Sam had never told ali that jason was her father. Ali never asked about her father either. Sam and jason had been spending some time together but not much. most of the time they were talking about ali or spending time with ali together. Jason wanted to tell ali that he was her father but sam wasn't sure about it right now. But if sam wasn't working, with ali or jason she was with sonny. She didn't know how to explain her and sonny. They spend time together and had an occasional kiss but neither one of them pushed it further. Sam wasn't sure what she really felt for sonny, if it was just old feelings or was she falling all over again. But then there is jason. The more time she spent with him and watched him with their child who was made with so much love at the time, and her heart melt and the love was their and it was getting harder and harder to deny jason of the family he wanted. Sam was so confused and didn't know what to do. But she knew that she had to find out what was going on with her and sonny and had to tell ali that jason was her father. So after a long morning at metrocourt sam went home. She listened to the messages on the machine and sonny wanted dinner tonight. sam called him back and agreed to it. This might be the chance sam has been waitign for to find out whats happening between them. Sam had arranged it where Ali would be staying the night with alexis and the girl. Alexis had picked up ali on her way home so sam was all alone in her house. It was about 3 in the afternoon and sam had to be at sonny at 9 so she had time. Sam went upstairs and took a long hot bath. she got out after awhile and put a robe on. She did her hair it was easier to do now than later. she grabbed some polish and went downstiars turning on the radio and started painting her toe nails. She finished her nails and went to the kitchen and pourd herself a glass of wine and headed back to the living room when their was a knock on the door. She sat her glass on the table and walked to the door. She saw through the glass that it was jason and she opened the door.
"hey, i wasn't expecting to see you today"
"hey sam, i was wondering if you and ali was wanting to go to the park today"
"oh im sorry jason, ali isn't here"
"when will she be home?"
"not till tomorrow, she is staying the night with alexis"
"oh, i knew i should of called"
"im sorry jason"
jason noticed sam's hair and realized she was looking good like she was going out.
"you going some place?"
"i have dinner plans tonight, wanna come in"
"sure, oh dinner plans with anyone we know?"
sam looked down not saying anything as she shut the door.
"oh sonny"
"ya im so sorry, if i have known i would of waited for ali to go over to alexis"
jason sat down on the couch and sam sat down next to him.
"its ok sam, do you mind if i ask you a question"
"ya sure ask away" she siad taking a drink out of her wine glass
"whats going on between you and sonny"
sam sat her glass down.
"i don't know i was planning on finding out tonight"
"do yo love him?" jason looked over at sam. sam looked at him.
"no"
"you sure?"
"i care about him jason a lot but i don't know if i'd let myself love him again"
jason looked down and sam put her hand underneath his head and lifted his head. "you ok?"
"ya, um i should go ill call" jason got up and headed for the door
"jason wait" sam was up just as fast
sam got inbetween the door and him and could see the hurt in his eyes. and her heart ached for him. She looked up into his eyes.
"im sorry jason i truely am"
"don't be sam its all my fault that this happened in the first place"
he tried to go around her but sam stepped infront of him.
"sam, let me leave"
"not like this"
"sam i can't be here right now"
"why, is it because i care for sonny"
"no, i knew you did"
"then what"
"its because i want you sam, i'm fighting everything inside of me to stop myself from kissing you"
sam wasn't expecting that.
"see thats why i can't be here with you sam"
he tried moving around her and she stopped him again.
"sam move"
sam didn't say anything she just looked up into jason's eyes and he looked back at hers. They couldn't fight the feeling and emotion that flowed between them. Before either knew it their lips were meeting. Sams arms went around jasons neck and wrapped around him and jason pulled her body close to his as they kissed each other like they once did many years ago. Jason pushed sam up against the wall. Kissing her neck. Sam bite her bottom lip as she remembered what it was like to be touch by jason and she lost all control as their lips meet again. The passion between them ignited. as jason picked her up and carried her to the couch. He layed her softly on the couch before laying next to her. his hand traced her face before gently kissing her lips. Soon her robe came off along with jason's clothes and they made love. Neither one forgetting what the other one liked. Sam layed their her head on jason's chest covered in a blanket. She layed thier listening to his heart beat. Jason was playing with her hair. He was trying to figure out what she was thinking but he had no clue. He didn't know sam like he use to. Sam looked at the clock and it was 8. Jason caught her looking at the clock.
"you have to go don't you"
"ya but not yet" she said looking up at him and giving him a kiss before laying her head on his chest again. holding on to him tight. jason wrapped his arms around her holding her. they layed thier for awhile before they got up. sam put her robe back on and jason got dressed. she walked him to the door. he kissed her.
"bye sam"
"bye jason"
with that he turned and walked out the door. Sam shut the door behind him leaning against it before going upstairs to finish getting ready. Jason knew he had something with sam but didn't know what is happen next. Sam finish getting ready adn headed to sonny when she walked through his front door she was 20 minutes late. When she walked into the living room he was on the phone taking care of business. sam smiled at sonny as she walked to the terrace doors and opened them and walked out on to it. she leaned agains the stone wall looking out onto sonnys land. she was off in her own little world remembering the time she just spent with jason. Was sam's heart still with jason or was it just something else. sam was thinking. She didn't know if she should tell sonny. if she did would he be mad? what would happen. Sam jumped when sonny touched her shoulder.
"sorry i was late sonny, i got distracted"
"its ok, that gave me time to finish up a few business deals"
he kissed her cheek and sam smiled at him. SHe looked at sonny but the feelings the felt had subsided was this due to jason or was she just realizing that this can't be more than a friendship.
"you ok sam?"
"ya of course"
"ok well lets go eat" he grabbed her hand and lead her to the dining room. During eatting sam had been quite, normal she did all the talking but sonny did it this time. He noticed her playing with her food.
"everything ok sam?"
she looked up at sonny.
"ya of course"
"are you sure?"
sam didn't know what to say. her heart was being torn in to different directions. She also didn't know if she should tell sonny about sleeping with jason or not. Sam didn't konw anything. Sam looked at sonny and sonny could tell their was something wrong.
"Sam just tell me"
"i can't do this sonny, im sorry" she put her napkin and fork down and she got up and left the room. Sonny took off after her.
"sam wait"
"sonny i can't"
sonny caught
up to her and grabbed her arm stopping her and making her look at
him. She had tears rolling down her face.
"sam tell me whats
wrong"
she tried to get free. but couldn't
"let go sonny"
"not till you tell me whats wrong"
she ripped her arm out of his hands.
"I CAN'T DO US SONNY"
they were out side and she was yelling tears rolling down her face.
"sam just calm down and tell me why"
"BECAUSE I SLEPT WITH HIM"
it took sonny a moment to catch what she said.
"who jason?"
"yes, im so sorry sonny, i never ment to, im such a horrible person"
sonny walked up to her. he thought that what she said would change things for him but it didn't
"your not a horrible person sam, your just confused"
sonny pulled sam into a hug and sam was all confused. she looked up at sonny, and he moved her hair out of her face and wipped away the tears. He leaned in and kissed her. Sam didn't understand. She was lost and didn't know what to do but it felt right kissing him but it felt right kissing and being with jason as well. she broke the kiss.
"sam
its all going to be ok, i always knew you loved jason deep down and
it was just a matter of time before you realized it"
"but
i love you too sonny"
they both froze when sam said that.
"i got to go"
sam headed towards her car again this time getting in and driving away. Sonny standing thier in shock. Sam drove home, she'd been crying again. she got inside she never turned any lights on and went up to her room shutting the door behind her. She leaned against it and slid down it crying into the night.
the next morning after ali got home sam and here went to the park and then went to the docks and sat down and talked.
"what do you think of jasons sweetheart"
"i like him but he doesn't talk much" sam laughed.
"why mommy?"
"well theirs something i need to tell you about jason"
"what are you guys dating?"
"no sweety, its more complicated then that"
"ok"
"jason well he well" this was hard. "he is your father ali"
"jason is my daddy?"
"yes"
ali laid agains her mother as they looked out inot the habor.
"does this mean were going to be a family mommy?"
"i dont know sweet heart maybe we will just have to wait and see"
"ok"
they sat their looking out in silence.
