"Hey El, come on up" Olivia was cooking dinner in her apartment; this was a special night in her mind. She and Elliot had been together for almost six months (sometimes going on double dates with Munch and Gemma), and they were taking things so slowly as to not spook each other. Sometimes it was strange when they were together and they found themselves flirting shamelessly and felt the compulsive need to stop and back paddle. One of them usually laughed and made an off the collar remark and things were smooth again. She had felt terrible about leaving Brian, but surprisingly he had taken it well saying that he always knew somewhere that she loved Elliot more than anyone else.
He made his way over her, wrapping his arms around her waist and kissing her neck. "Hey, I missed you". She felt him smile against her shoulder which instantly triggered her to laugh. He turned her around and kissed her forehead. She positioned herself closer to him, feeling all the stress wash away. She rarely had a moment where her mind wasn't clouded with work, cases or death but when she was with Elliot he helped share the burden and it was easy. He was different now, mellower, and he actually cared what she had to say. They worked through problems together, were able to talk and be themselves. Their relationship was natural and unlike anything that she had ever had before.
"Kiss me already" she leaned forward, feeling the heat between them.
He smiled, that face splitting grin that automatically made her smile. He was beyond elated that she had taken him back; he was the luckiest man alive. Every day was better than the last, and even though they still had their famous fights, the ending of the fight was way better than before; now they didn't have to walk around awkwardly fighting off the tension. Now, they tried to talk it out, or just make out.
Their lips met, slow fire spreading down her arms. She was ready to take that next step and she felt that Elliot was too. He started kissing her neck whispering something in her ear, he was taking a chance in saying this and it might backfire totally but he had to do it. He felt the warmth spreading in his chest, the adrenaline making his hair stand on end and his hands tremble.
"I love you Liv, so much"…
She felt her eyes welling up. She had known for years that he loved her, but now she knew the extent. She knew that it was a different kind of love now; their love had transformed from friendship to a deep partnership now to romantic love and more. For the first time she was allowing herself to be completely uninhibited because Elliot already knew all the worst things about her and he was still here.
"I love you too…always" she felt herself choke up
He held her face in his hands and they kissed again, passion growing and finally allowed to be embraced. He continued kissing her, pulling her shirt off over her head and letting himself take her in. She smiled, casting her eyes down and tucking her hair behind her ear.
"You're beautiful" he murmured, tracing his fingers down her chest and her stomach, stopping at her jean button. He looked in her eyes, silently asking for permission. She put her hands over his and together they unbuttoned the jeans. She pulled the hem of his shirt up and over his head, showing off the sculpted chest that she had seen so many times but was now able to admire. She mimicked Elliot's movements and he helped her unbutton his jeans.
"Come with me, please" she whispered against his ear, pulling him towards the bedroom.
His heart was racing, he had so much apprehension but he was excited. He was finally going to make love to her but he didn't want it to be cheap and tawdry. He was sure she could get rowdy in the bedroom, but right now he wanted it to be sweet and slow.
She flipped Elliot over, and started kissing each and every scar, remembering the moments that each of them happened. The knife marks from that idiot Stuckey, the bullet mark from Bushido as well as the racists, and she giggled when she saw the mark from where Dana had shot him by proxy. She wiggled out of her panties, slowly slid Elliot's down, wanting to prolong this moment since she had thought about it for years even though she would never admit it.
"Are you ready Liv?" he was ready but he didn't want to rush her
"More than ever" she positioned herself on top of him and slowly lowered herself down.
He inhaled and had to talk himself down and make himself go slow and enjoy this. Olivia felt the tears coming; she was being assaulted with so many emotions all at once. She realized how much she loved Elliot, how horribly she missed him and just how wonderfully they fit together.
"Never leave me again" she begged him
"Forever Liv" he uttered back, as he came pulling her as close to him as he could and memorizing the feel of her body against his. She rolled off and found her spot against his side feeling secure and perfectly content for the first time in a long while.
