I walked in a world of darkness. There was no path, no floor; I just seemed to walk on air. I searched, but saw nothing, just the black surrounding me. I called out, but there was no sound. My voice wasn't working and the silence was becoming deafening. I crouched down and put my head in my hands. Tears stung my eyes and stained my cheeks. My sobs were even silent in this unknown world.

Looking up slightly I noticed a mirror now standing only two feet away. It seemed it had appeared before me out of nowhere. I stared into the mirror shocked at what met my eyes. My reflection wasn't mine, or at least it wasn't anymore. The reflection of my seven year old self sat before me crouched on the ground, eyes peeking just over their tiny hands. My short ringlets only reached my shoulders and I was wearing the same blue dress from that horrible day. I crawled toward the mirror and raised my hand to place it on the glass. My reflection did the same and our hands met. What is going on?

From the corner of the mirror I noticed him. Out of the darkness he appeared, slowly coming closer and closer. To terrified to turn around I watched in horror through the glass as he walked up behind me. His face was just as I remember it. That crooked smile that was nothing short from sick and his eyes were just as evil as ten years ago. His eyes, my eyes, they were the same. The same damn hazel color. I hate them. I HATE THEM!

"I can't say, I promised her I would keep it a secret!" Rin's voice filled my ears. Slitting my eyes open I could see her standing before Sesshomaru. He didn't look happy.

My lids began to droop and I was fighting a losing battle to keep them open. I gave in and let the darkness consume me once again.

"I'm so glad you're safe!" Kagome said hugging me for the tenth time. We had run into them outside a village they had been staying at. Her, Sango and I shared a group hug while the boys smiled relived. Inuyasha surprised me with his actions. He apologized and seemed extremely guilty. I was confused and looked to Kagome and Sango for answers. Kagome was looking to the ground her bangs covering her eyes while Sango just shook her head in what appeared to be disappointment.

It wasn't soon after this that insults were thrown and two half-brothers were tearing up the field like from the first time I met them. While they battled it out I told the rest of them of my adventures in the feudal era as we ate lunch. They seemed shocked that Sesshomaru had saved me and even more stunned he didn't kill me and allowed me to travel with him.

"I'm sort of like a babysitter for Rin." I nodded my head in her direction. Shippo and her were off tormenting Jaken with a game of tag. "By the way Kagome, do you have my backpack?"

"Oh ya! I packed it with an extra change of clothes your meds and some toiletries." She smiled brightly handing me my teal colored Jansport backpack. "I also brought something else you might like." She reached inside her colossal yellow bag that seemed to have no end and pulled out my plain, black, oversized sweater.

"My baby!" I exclaimed jokingly grabbing it and quickly throwing it over my head. They all laughed as my head popped out of the hole in the top and I giggled along with them.

"My grandpa went ahead and called the school for you too, and your grandma is well…ya know." Kagome shrugged her shoulders looking somewhat sad. I was happy that her grandpa called for me because my grandmother would be incapable of doing such a small task. She was very forgetful. She would forget she had a granddaughter sometimes.

Soon after that the battle was done with Sesshomaru as the victor. Miroku and Sango stood in front of a bloody Inuyasha as means to shield him from Sesshomaru. Kagome kneeled beside him while I hovered over behind her. From the corner of my eyes I saw Sesshomaru turn to walk away. I starred at his back wondering if I should follow. I was reunited with Kagome and didn't need to go with him, but I wanted to. The question was, will he let me?

As if he could feel my gaze he paused and turned to look over his shoulder at me. His brow rose slightly as if to say 'are you coming?' I smiled back to him and said some quick goodbyes to everyone.

"Don't worry I'll see you all again! Ha-ha I can't leave Rin." It was the truth…not the whole truth, but still the truth.

"Alright…stay safe." Kagome hugged me one last time before going to tend to Inuyasha's wounds.

"When he wakes up flick him in the nose and tell him it's from Yuuki!" I shouted over my shoulder smiling as I ran off to follow Sesshomaru. Kagome laughed and waved goodbye.

Should I have stayed with them? Was this the right choice? Can I survive without Kagome? Am I really welcomed? Can I face him now?

I gasped as my eyes flew open and were met with the sight of the dark forest. I scanned the unfamiliar area to find a sleeping Rin curled up next to me and a loudly snoring Jaken passed out by a dyeing fire. I must have been out for a while because it seemed we had continued to travel and it was now night time. Sesshomaru was nowhere in sight as far as I could tell and it made me feel somewhat relived. I wasn't ready to face him after what happened at the hot springs.

My hands flew to my chest once I remembered that I had passed out in my bra, but I found that my shirt was already in its place. How did that happen? Someone must have put it on for me. A blush rose to my cheeks when I thought of whom it may have been that dressed me. It was most likely Rin. There's no need to freak out; no way was it him it was just Rin. Or Jaken. That's disgusting.

I gently removed Rin's head from my shoulder and placed it against Ah-Un. I stood silently and decided to take a quick walk. I wasn't planning on going far, but I needed to sort out some thoughts and Jaken wasn't exactly providing a peaceful atmosphere with this loud breathing.

I walked until I could faintly hear Jaken's snores and plopped down on a log. It sat at the top of a small hill that lead down to a tiny stream. My head rested in my hands and I let out a long sigh. I listened to the soothing sounds of the water hoping it would help clear my mind.

I thought back to when we had run into Kagome. I could have just stayed with her. Maybe if I did I would never have run into a perverted demon. Maybe I wouldn't have had to protect myself. Maybe I wouldn't have had to repeat my past.

"Quite foolish of you to wonder around." I squeaked at the sound of Sesshomaru's voice and shot my head from side to side looking for him. He was nowhere to be found and I wondered for a moment if I had imagined it. That was until he jumped down from a tree just above me. The sudden movement made me jump again, but this time I lost my balance on the log and fell backwards. Smooth.

I pulled myself back up to find Sesshomaru standing at the end of the log I had sat on. "I wasn't wondering around. I can still hear Jaken so I'm fine." At that moment Jaken proved my point by letting out a loud snore that echoed through the trees. "See." I said proudly.

"Hn." And here we go with that again. He took a step in front of the log and sat down leaning his back up against the wood. Here we sat only a foot and a half apart. You really need to get ahold of yourself.

I slid down to sit on the ground like him instead of the log. My head turned slightly to face him, but his eyes were closed. Biting my bottom lip I contemplated on saying something. I remembered what I said after killing the demon and I know he heard it. I also vaguely remembered him talking to Rin about a secret when I woke for a short time earlier today. I assumed it was my secret.

"If you wish to speak then do so." My eyes widened, but his remained closed. That's it he has to have the ability to read minds!

"I just don't know what to say." I replied tearing my gaze from his face to stare at the stream. It wasn't like I needed to apologize because I hadn't put Rin's life in danger this time. I needed to say something though, but I couldn't exactly just come out and tell him my past like I did Rin. Or can you?

"I found the incarnation Akumu." I didn't look away from the stream, but my heartbeat sped up at the information. So that sound had had something to do with the nightmare demon. "What is it that you are hiding that even Rin refuses to tell me?" His head turned and those gold eyes burned right through me.

I pulled my knees up and wrapped my arms around me while resting my chin on one of my knees. "I'm not hiding." I barely whispered never taking my eyes off of the stream.

"Then what would you call it?" I turned to face him with a glare forgetting about my nervousness from before.

"Am I supposed to confide in everyone I meet my secrets?" Sarcasm was evident in my question and it was his turn now to narrow his eyes.

"Humans can't keep secrets. It is among many of they're weaknesses." I closed my eyes before I could roll them and have him slice my head off. I supposed some of his statement was true because I had told Rin, but not because I couldn't keep it a secret. I took a deep breath to calm my nerves and looked back in front of me to the stream.

"I do. I keep everything in. It's what I do."

"Why?"

"Why do you care?" I found it strange he seemed interested. He didn't seem like one that took others problems into consideration.

"I don't care I'm just curious." Of course.

"Because I'd rather the pain destroy me, than everyone else." The words were out of my mouth before I had time to think them over. It was funny, though, that I didn't regret saying them at all. Somehow I knew that if there was one person in the world that wouldn't pity me it would be him.

"Foolish." I smiled at his reply knowing he would say something like that. It was pretty stupid to try and survive this all on my own, but I wasn't alone.

"It is foolish, but it's also me."

"Then you are a fool. A rather irritating one." He turned his head to face in front of him while closing his eyes at the same time.

I laughed lightly at his last statement. "And you're infuriating." I said through my giggles. "Haven't we already been over this?" He opened one golden eye to look me over before closing it once more. We continued to sit in peaceful silence together letting the sound of the stream and Jaken's loud snores fill forest.

The days flew by rather quickly and I had successfully survived an entire month in the feudal era. The weather was changing drastically each day and I thanked the heavens that Kagome brought my sweater along with her. Rin began wearing, or should say was forced to wear, an inner kimono under her original one. She still refused to wear shoes, though. Jaken and Sesshomaru's attire never changed. Jaken made sure to inform me that demons such as them aren't as weak as us pathetic humans and that the cold doesn't affect them. Lucky bastards.

I had almost successfully gotten myself killed by Sesshomaru during this time period as well. The morning after our little conversation by the log he demanded I tell him my secret. Obviously I refused and that didn't necessarily go over well with him. Rin came to my rescue, but I was terrified for the next two days to be left without the protection of Rin. Eventually I had grown tired of tip toeing around him that I stubbornly confronted him. It was a miracle that I was still alive right now. At first I was brave and told him that my past was my business and I would overcome it on my own. I lost some of my courageousness when he didn't answer, but instead let those menacing golden eyes weigh me down. After what seemed like an eternity he replied with an 'hn' and walked away.

The man was absolutely infuriating and I made sure to remind him whenever I felt he was in a good enough mood to not kill me. Once he replied with my own comeback saying how I was irritating and we'd already been over this. It was funny and also frightening how at times he would seem approachable and other times if you looked at him wrong your life was in danger. I found it even funnier how I would test him and see how much I could get away with. I concluded that I was in fact insane. We knew that already.

"Where's lord Sesshomaru?" Rin whined one chilly afternoon. We were resting underneath some trees by a small river and once again Sesshomaru had disappeared.

"You don't need to know!" Jaken replied turning his head upward. He didn't know where he had gone either.

"Don't worry Rin, he'll be back soon." I reassured her. There was no doubt that he would be back and she knew that, but it still didn't stop her from being upset about his absence. I may have been a little upset too. "In the meantime why don't you put some shoes on!"

A wide smile spread on her face as she jumped up to run around me. "I don't like shoes!" She exclaimed.

"Well I say you need to wear some!" I lunged at her and she squealed running away from me. "If I catch you then you're going to start wearing some shoes!" I chased after her not running as fast as I could. I didn't want to catch her just yet. We laughed loudly as I chased her down the river and back to our little camp.

"AHHHHHHH!" I stopped in my tracks and whipped my head toward the scream. Rin ran over to me grabbing my hand looking in the same direction .It was a women and it wasn't coming from too far off. Two parts of me battled it out on what to do. One told me to stay put and stay safe while the other yelled for me to go and help.

"Don't think about it!" I heard Jaken yell coming up behind me.

"Someone's in trouble." I looked down at him pleading him with my eyes to do something.

"It's none of our business." He turned back around walking away ignoring anything else I was prepared to say. Fine then. I won't say anything. I whispered quietly to Rin to stay put and ran.

I followed the loud screams of pain through the trees until I found a small clearing. Before bursting through I crouched behind a tree and peered around it view the situation. My eyes widened and my heart beat quickened at the site that played out before me. He held her in place by her shoulders and even though she struggled she couldn't break free. Her eyes were glowing white as some kind of mist came out of them and entered into his mouth. Her screams were all I was able to hear, but my legs weren't working. She crumbled to the ground at Akumu's feet as he sighed in what sounded like satisfaction.

Before I could run away a hand was around my mouth and pulled me fully behind the tree. My back was forced against my captor's body as my hands flew up to try and remove the one over my mouth. The thumping in my chest was loud and I needed to gain control over it. Now was certainly not a good time for a seizure.

"Silence." I froze realizing who it was. I didn't remove my hands from Sesshomaru's arm, but instead held onto it for dear life as Akumu made his way around the tree to face us.