Not So Innocent

Disclaimer: I don't own Big Time Rush.

The italicizes are James's thoughts in this chapter, but I'm sure you would have caught on.

Velandrae: Well Kendall has a problem with keeping things to himself, that's why. Yeah, he may end up redeeming himself…but stuff happens. Thanks

Mrs. Zach Porter: I know right! Not to the Jett thing but to the he doesn't deserve them thing.

Veryjaneeyre: No, Kendall should be miserable. Logan always ends up being hurt, it's sad really. As for the making up and keep going, I'm not sure how yet.

Nerdy-Mochi22: I would have punched Kendall and hugged Logan too. Thanks

xUndisclosed: I know, Kendall's very greatly disliked by most of the people right now. Thanks

Lewkis: Well it's fun writing the angst and the smut. Thanks

Miss. MaslowHenderson: Oh trust me, it was easy for Kendall. Thanks

Aqua786: Yeah, school's been pretty hard on me too. The answer to why Kendall asked James to have sex with him is simply because…Kendall is a man-whore. Oh, I hate it when I forget stuff I'm sorry. And yeah the story's going to keep going for a while.

Jazckson: It's funny that most people just hate Kendall in this story. It reminds me of my friend. So my friend had this other friend, and the other friend was talking trash behind her back and eventually my friend heard about it. So they stopped talking and were very mad with each other. And now like five months later my friend got a text that said: OMG, all of my other friends SUCK, so I need you to talk tome. I don't care how mad you are at me, just text me back! It made me laugh so hard.

Anyways just a warning Kendall's mean streak will still keep going in this chapter…sort of…in a way…you'll see what I mean next chapter. Well, the story's kind of depressing right now but it will get better. Anyways onto my personal problems…if you don't care just start reading the story. Back to my personal problems, last night on America's Got Talent Anna Graceman got kicked off and it made me very upset. It's not that I don't like Landau (The contestant that beat her to be in the final 4) he seems pretty cool but now 2 of the 4 acts are ones that I don't like, the other one's okay, and then there's Landau. It just pissed me off, I was waiting for Nick to say just kidding or something, maybe even like "Haha we tricked you Landau" but then it started to roll the credits and I was all "You can say it any time now Nick…Nick…Nick…NICK!" Then it changed to the next show and I was like "He's coming back…right? He'll be back." And after about watching three minutes of the next show I finally said. "He's not coming back is he?" So first Melissa Villasenor gets kicked off for a HILARIOUS comedy act, and now the eleven year old super voice Anna Graceman gets booted…yeah, I'm done with America's Got Talent.


James rushed into the apartment of 2J on his cell phone, pacing around like a mad man.

"Logan pick up please! We can work this out…I don't want to do this to you." James hung up his phone again, leaving yet another voicemail. James and Carlos have been looking everywhere for Logan. James searched the Lobby, pool, and the first three floors. Carlos searched the other three floors, Camille's apartment, and the roof. As for Kendall, he spent the whole time watching TV, not making an effort at all. "Could you do something?" James asked very annoyed.

"Okay, I'll go get the keys to the car, drive it, and park it in your ass!" Kendall flipped the channel.

"What's your problem?" James asked. "If anybody's pissed here, it should be me! You ruined my relationship and made the person I love run off to Neverland! Why did you even tell him anyway?" Kendall stayed silent for a minute.

"After you guys offered to stay back me and Carlos went out to the car and had a little make-out session. Soon we were rubbing each other and I offered to have sex I the back seat. He said no, which got me kind of mad. Then on our way back up to the room, I offered again and he said no. I asked why and he said that he still has a girl friend…that was kind of saddening to hear."

"You're kidding right?" James started. "You were crying because your not-boyfriend refused to have sex with you after the whole day you've been 'together'?" James asked. "I am getting ready to wrap both of my arms around your neck and strangle you."

"Whatever, I'm not used to being told no."

"I tell you no all of the time." James pointed out. He noticed Kendall slide closer to him.

"No all of the time. Let's face it. If I'm meant to be with someone, they need to be willing to have sex with me every day." Kendall moved onto James's lap. "Preferably on with dark hair and some very great looks." Kendall leaned into a punch to the face.

"Get off of me!" James threw him off. "You always want what you can't have! Carlos won't have sex with you so shouldn't you want him? No, you choose the person that won't even kiss you." Kendall stopped to think of the current situation. He realized that James was right. He always wanted what he couldn't have. "You can't have me, you shouldn't have Carlos, I'm just glad that Logan's smart enough." Kendall's face lit up with an idea.

"I wonder if Logan's good at sex?" Kendall asked. "I really love that brown hair and those eyes."

"Don't you dare touch Logan! Your head will be on a silver platter and you'll be hung by your uvula! I don't care how bad it hurts NEVER TOUCH HIM!" James threatened.

"Seems like Logan is my new target." Kendall smirked.

"Kendall, this is the line you don't want to cross." James's eyes pierced right into Kendall's skin, leaving a lasting impression.

"Bye." Kendall got up and dashed out of the door.

Ugh, that shit son of a fucking bitch!

James grabbed his cell phone again and quickly dialed Logan's number. There were a few rings but no one ever answered, it went to the answering machine.

"Logan please come back, we can work this out. Don't do this to me, I love you." He hung up on another machine. Shortly after Carlos entered. "You, keep your boyfriend away from me and Logie!" James shouted.

"What happened?" Carlos asked and rushed next to James.

"He was going after me, then you, back to me, and now he's running off to Logan. It wasn't bad enough that he broke us up?" James threw his hands up in the air and plopped down on the couch.

"Oh buddy, it'll be okay." Carlos dropped next to James. "Wait, why did he break you up?" James sighed of grief and wrapped an arm around Carlos.

"He said that you completely refused to have sex with him. Then you mentioned how you have a girlfriend." James ran a hand though his hair. Carlos rolled his eyes.

"That's not what I said at all! Yes, I said I wanted to wait until I get married for sex, but I never mentioned Stephanie!" Carlos shouted. "That lying little hoe bag!"

"All I know is that he was crying and completely ruined everything…Carlos?"

"Yeah."

"I told him I loved him…" James said, he eyes started filling with tears. Carlos could have sworn his own heart broke at the sight. He hugged James in his arms. Carlos thought that the love part was cute, but James was crying.

"Aww, I would kill to have someone like you love me. Unfortunately, Kendall's nothing like you." Carlos sighed. Suddenly James got a text message. It was from Logan! James opened it and it read: LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE! James threw his phone across the room.

"Now he hates me!" James broke down in his tears. "I put everything I had into that relationship. I'll never love anyone the same ever again!" Carlos had never seen James so weak and vulnerable before. "I want to hold him like my teddy bear on Christmas…and kiss him when the time is right…I want to spend my life with him…I love him so much…and I fucked it up." James said between sobs. Carlos couldn't help but feel bad for him.

"He doesn't hate you." Carlos hugged him again. "No one could ever hate you."

"He said he loved me too, but he doesn't anymore." James shoved his face in Carlos's hair. "How could I be so stupid?"

"You're not stupid." Carlos patted his friends back. "Logan's the stupid one then."

"Don't EVER say that again!" James still defended Logan in any way he could. "He's the smartest living being I've ever met, and I hope his dreams come true." James still wished the best for him too. It's obvious that there isn't one centimeter in his heart that doesn't love Logan. Suddenly the door opened, and it was Kendall and Logan. James quickly wiped the remainder of his tears away. The room fell quiet for a few moments, and unbearable quiet. Kendall mouthed 'he's mine' to James. Logan didn't noticed however. Logan continued to walk into his and James's room and Kendall followed behind him, air humping him and sticking his tongue out at James. Curiosity got the best of James; he moved to the door and cracked it open a little.

"Don't worry," Kendall said. His hand was on Logan's cheek. "He won't hurt you anymore." He bent down and kissed Logan's cheek. Suddenly Kendall was turning around and James bolted back to the couch.

"I'm going to bed." James announced right as soon as Kendall entered the room. He walked into the room and found Logan dressing for bed. His shirt was still off and his sweatpants were on. Obviously James seeing Logan getting dressed made him feel a little tighter down 'there'. Logan caught James staring at him.

"Do you mind?" Logan started. "You don't get to stare at me. I'm not your boyfriend." Of course what Kendall did was real. Why else would Logan say it like that?

"Loges-,"

"Never call me that!" Logan hastily cut him off. "Go get dressed." He quickly pulled his shirt on. James did as he was told and went and got dressed in his favorite muscle shirt and sweat pants. He came back out and saw Logan in their bed…probably just because it was the only bed in the room.

"Logan, can we at least talk about this?" James asked, he strolled to the other side of the bed.

"There's nothing to say." Logan replied, his tone irritated.

"I don't want us to go like this, not this easily, after everything we've been through." James stated. Logan always seemed to bring out the vulnerability in him.

"Do you want me to run away again?" Logan threatened.

"Whatever," James stopped. "Just know I love you." He dragged his feet over to his side of the bed and slid under the sheets. Once he entered, Logan immediately turned away from him. But James couldn't keep his eyes off of him. He extended his arm and gently rubbed Logan's arm.

"Don't touch me!" Logan exclaimed. James ripped it off of him.

"Sorry." James lied frozen in the bed, hoping that there was something, anything to make it better…when an idea hit him.


Anyways, I hope you guys liked it, please review and I will still answer any questions you have.