Lavender - just for you lol

Thank you as usual.

Marian laid on her bed face up, on top of the covers, one hand by her head the other by her side. She had been lying there for hours

Robin came in from work at 5. Another new guy had started work and he changed shifts to spend more time with Marian who incidentally was off work this week. He went upstairs to get changed from his uniform. He saw Marian on the bed.

"Hey" he kissed her forehead but she didn't move "what a day I've had. The new guy set his apron alight and he had to go to A&E so I had to do all his tables as well as mine." Robin said sighing. Marian just lay there as if he were a ghost.

He might as well be now she thought to herself.

"Marian are you ok?" she turned over on her side and Robin left feeling very concerned for her. She had been fine yesterday. What had changed? Marian started to cry silently when she heard the door close. How could she be so cruel?

Robin sat downstairs thinking what was wrong with his beloved. She would of told Djaq if anything was bothering her he thought but Djaq wouldn't tell him even if she had. Still, it was worth a try. Robin took the phone into the garden so Marian wouldn't hear. He felt bad from keeping secrets but it was for her own good.

"Hey it's me" Robin said when Djaq answered the phone "have you talked to Marian recently?"

"No I've actually just got back from a week conference why?"

"I don't know, she's acting really weird today and she was fine yesterday"

"It's probably just PMS, she'll get over it"

"No it's different, she's different" Robin was really concerned now. Djaq didn't know what was going on and Marian told her everything.

"Put her on the phone I'll talk to her" Djaq said. Robin went back inside and upstairs but when he went into the bedroom she was asleep. He told Djaq in a whisper and hung up the phone before taking one last look at his sleeping beauty and closing the door.

Marian opened her eyes again when she knew he was gone and let the tears roll. She hated this.

She must have actually fallen to sleep because when she next looked at the clock it was 12:30 and Robin was next to her asleep. She was wide-awake now so went downstairs and poured herself a shot of vodka. She grabbed her coat and sat on the outside bench it was a cold November night but her heart felt lighter for it. She downed the contents of the glass and sighed she couldn't do this to herself. She rummaged in her pockets and flipped her phone open. She called the new but familiar number.

"Can I come over in half an hour?" she waited for a reply "ok" she flipped it shut again, got up, washed her glass and put it back in its place.

Half an hour later she was stood at a street lamp down a quite street searching for signs of life anywhere. Not that there needed to be anymore.

A man stepped out of shadows into the yellow light of the street lamp

"Is this a booty call?" the man asked with a laugh

"Shut up Nicky let's go" she hated him when he was cute and she was frustrated.

Marian followed the man to his house she'd have to remember how to get back to the main street and back to the house again. She felt lots of visits in the near future but prayed she wouldn't need to for this and if she did come again it would be under different circumstances and not in the secrecy of the night. They had been there for hours and it was starting to get light again.

"And your not going to tell?" Nicky asked

"Nope, well not yet anyway" Marian sighed "I don't know I've fucked it all up"

"Stop thinking about it chicken, just for tonight, come here" he held his arms out from his flat position on the bed.

"Ok" she fell into the nook that his arm and body made and breathed his sweet scent he wrapped his arms around her and they fell asleep together.

Marian woke up to her phone vibrating on the bare wood floorboards. She searched for her phone in the bundle of clothes on the bedroom floor. It was Robin. She flipped it open sleepily

"Hello?" she sat up rubbing her neck when it has rested on Nicky's arm through the night.

"Where the hell are you!"

"At..." she paused "a friends" she looked at Nicky they had slept in their underwear and she smiled forgetting Robin was on the phone

"Well I'm shitting myself here. It's 7 in the morning, empty bed, no girlfriend no note, no nothing. What the fuck are you doing?" Robin sounded truly angry but upset.

"I just needed some time" Marian tried to hold back the tears as talk "to think"

"Is there something you want to tell me Maz?" Robin heard the tears and pulled off the angry boyfriend mask and put on the concerned friend one.

"No it's ok I'm coming home" she hung up before he could say goodbye. Nicky had heard the conversation and propped himself up on his elbow. Marian turned round whipping her bed head locks round her neck. She collected them and tied them in a loose ponytail. She slipped on her black jeans back and tank top and slung her coat over her arm.

She kissed Nicky on the nose playfully "Last night was fun, could we do it again?"

"Anytime" Nicky smiled back and watched her go out the door "See you later"

Marian walked all the way home like she had walked all the way there. It took over an hour to get back home. She literally ran last night. She took her time this morning not wanting to see Robin like this. She would run upstairs and take a shower and wash the smell of him off her. He smoked and she hated that but didn't hold it against him. She smiled as she remembered him. She turned down the street and through the gate and in the front door.

Robin jumped on her almost immediately.

"Thank god you're ok" Robin said holding her "You are ok aren't you?" Marian faked a laugh trying to calm things down so she could get out of there she didn't want Robin like this it was too much for her at the moment.

"I'm fine!" she said as she made her way upstairs heading straight for the bathroom and locking to door. When she got out of the shower she went into the bedroom and lay down on the bed sighing to herself. Robin came in when her heard her get out of the shower.

"I'm going to work now sweetie I'll see you tonight" Marian sat up and pulled the towel closer to her then slackened it up. "Don't ever do that to me again ok?" Robin said kissing her forehead then her lips "see you tonight" Marian smiled weakly then flopped back on the bed.

"Is this what its going to be like?" she asked herself when she heard the door slam downstairs. "Guilt, Anger, Frustration, Ecstasy all in one day" she ran her fingers through her dam hair and spread it around the pillow "This is Amazing but bad so bad" Marian went back to crying.

Why her?

Why him?

Why them?

Why now?