AN: I am so so sorry I haven't uploaded! I was on holidays! But now I am back and I should be able to update once a week easily. Just so you guys all know, this fanfic is most likely going to have 25 chapters (that I've planned). I am also thinking of making a separate fanfic with an M rating as some little, special chapters :P So, if anyone would be interested in that please let me know! AND REMEMBER TO REVIEW!
The feelings Sweeney was having for Nellie grew more and more each day. He wasn't shut off from her anymore, he was experiencing a completely different woman. Of course she had always been enthusiastic, eccentric and utterly adoring of him but now he saw more sides to her. He saw her dark side, before to overcome by his own selfish needs to see just how his actions and his nature had changed her ways as much as he changed his own. The dark side of Mrs Lovett drew him in more than anything, he found it dangerous, mysterious, intriguing. Then, on the complete other spectrum of the scale was her soft side, the side that loved him unconditionally. Every night they spent together she would say that she loved him, he though, was not yet ready to say the same back to her. The soft side also brought out a whole new side to Sweeney himself, he always thought that he'd lost his ability to be happy, to be loving when he was shipped off to Australia, spending a gruelling 15 years in the country and then when he came home to find out that Lucy had poisoned herself because of that damned Judge and that his daughter was now under said Judges guardianship. All those events led him to believe that he could never grasp the human emotion again, yet here he was, experiencing happiness, amusement and love of sorts to Mrs Lovett. It scared him, as much as he was unwilling to admit it.
Mrs Lovett was having the same experiences herself. She had been in love with Sweeney before he became Sweeney, before he was falsely accused and even before he married Lucy. She had vaguely known Benjamin Barker, a kind, honourable barber. Always looking out for the people of London, always being such a gentleman to every lady he met, including herself. She had begun to get close to him when Lucy came along, like an angel sent from heaven, he used to say. She remembered with bitterness how slowly Benjamin forgot she existed and had eyes only for his yellow haired angel but it never stopped Nellie from loving him. When he came back, he was different, he wasn't that kind, honourable man anymore, he was Sweeney Todd, the demon barber of Fleet Street and she loved it. She loved it, him, more then she had ever loved Benjamin. His passion, even for revenge overpowered her and she became what she was, his assistant, his companion, the only one who would never betray him. Yet, now she was seeing aspects of Benjamin in him. Sometimes, when they made love, his tenderness would shine through. That's what she loved most about him, the ability he had to have such different and unique personalities in different situations.
The couple had been going strong for a few days now, spending each night in each other's arms. Giving the occasional wink around the store, a small smile here and there, a peck on the lips when no one was in the room. It was a bittersweet romance, and neither of them would have suspected it to be so. And neither of them had really thought about how such a romance would affect anyone else living in the quarters, which of course was only Lucy. Lucy knew that Sweeney's heart had lied somewhere else even when she had first come back, as herself, not as the mad woman that Bedlam had turned her into. Sweeney too had made love to Lucy in their early weeks, only it wasn't like what it used to be. She had missed him and she knew that he missed her, after all he did kill the Judge to avenge her "death". But each night he had a vacant look in his eyes, as if not completely there, or, imagining something or someone else. Lucy didn't care to question it, she was just happy to be back and Sweeney was just happy to think he still loved her. But 15 years changes a lot of things, love especially, no matter how true and how deep.
Sweeney decided with great caution to approach Lucy and just talk to her about his feelings, even though he hated it. She deserved at least that much from him, after the way he acted and the way he ditched her. He was sitting in his shop, twiddling with one of the razors, thinking of how to approach the situation. And as if fate Lucy slowly walked up the stairs. He had been on her mind for a long time, especially as he was now with Mrs Lovett. She knocked on the door before opening it and stepping into the shop attentively.
"Lucy…" Sweeney said, standing and quickly putting the razor in his belt.
"Hello… Mr Todd. I have seen that you and Nellie have worked out something" she whispered, not wanting to sound too forward but then again she was so nervous she had no idea how to put what she was saying.
"Yes. Mrs Lovett and I are now, seeing each other if you will." He said with a curt nod, "I actually wanted to speak to you about that exact thing, Lucy"
"I thought you might" she said, sitting on the large chest by the door.
"I wanted to apologise, for the way I just, ditched you when Mrs Lovett was taken away. It was wrong and I am sorry" he said quickly, he hated apologies. They had never been his strong point.
"Oh, that's okay… I knew it would happen sooner or later but then after I saw the… the Judge and I went… mad again" she muttered fiddling with the hem of her dress, "I knew it would happen even sooner…"
"I know… But I want you to know that I will never not love you, Lucy. You were my first love, but times have changed… Things are no longer the same, we are no longer the same people" he said.
"Yes, this I know also. I loved you also, but you're heart, since I have been here has belonged to Nellie. I can tell, I do know you well enough to know that. And she has loved you for longer then you could imagine" Lucy said, now strong and the strength in which she spoke not only surprised Sweeney but also surprised herself.
"That she has, she's told me herself. I only wish I hadn't used you… You don't deserve that after everything that has happened"
"You never used me, Mr Todd! You thought you loved me, but you were mistaken. I do not regret anything that has happened here and neither should you" the confidence in Lucy's voice continued to build and it convinced Sweeney most assuring that she was correct.
"Of course, you're right… No regrets." He said with a nod, "I hope you wish to stay here"
"Yes, I do. I have nowhere else to go and Nellie is a good friend. And you, are an old one" Lucy said gently, walking up to Sweeney and placing a kiss on his cheek, "Thank you for everything you have done though, and thank you for loving me"
He smiled softly and looked at her, his eyes gentle, "No, thank you, for staying"
Lucy gave him a smile then walked to the door, "I best get back downstairs, Nellie wants me to learn the ways of making meat pies"
Sweeney couldn't help but let out a laugh, "Of course she would… Good luck"
"You too" Lucy replied, clearly not referring to the art of pie making but rather to his future with Nellie. Sweeney smiled to himself. That talk had gone much better then he thought it would and he felt a feeling of relief wash over him, knowing that Lucy and himself could now completely move on with their lives. That there were no hard feelings left behind. He felt that he actually had a chance of falling completely in love with Nellie now, more than ever and he knew he would.
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