AN/ Hey there guys thanks for the EPIC reviews. so I got like the best news ever and as a graduation gift this year my mom is going to help me pay to go to ENGLAND, Land of PUBS and faries! so I have also asked on my facebook if anyone would like me to blog my adventures in merry ol' england. so If you want me to blog it for you just leave a review. =]
(Sorry if my grammer is worse than normal I've been awake for going on 56 hours Studying for my SATs thank you Tea and 'all time low')
on with teh story
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Matthew looked up at the celing of his 'house', he felt better than he had the day before but that was because the doctor had given him medication but he still didn't want to move and all he wanted to do was cacoon himself in the many blankets that Feliciano, Alfred, and Gilbert had brought him.
He noticed the change in Gilbert, when Gil looked at him, he looked as though he was waging a war inside himself. But not like the ones being fought out on the fields of Europe, no it was one that tore him up more than anything else. Everytime Matthew looked at him his heart ached, sure he was mad at Gilbert for doing this to him in the first place but, he had to do it.
And Matthew forgave him.
Gilbert would come in and Matthew would smile at him and the albino would look so confused. His mind would be racing asking him why the small blond would smile at him because he was the reason said blond was lying in his bed in pain.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" he asked and Matthew blinked a bit confused. "Why do you look at me like you don't hate me? I know you do, it's my fault your in this situation" he growled his eyes looked like fire and Matthew slunk away into the corner of his bed still looking up at Gilbert with a content look in his eyes.
"you came back to make sure I was okay, you wern't going to let me die" he said his eyes tearing up as the memories of the other camps came back to him. Gilbert looked at him and his expression instantly softened. He sat on the side of the bed just looking at the small Canadian as tears continued down his face. "Your not like they were. they used to just leave me there until Al found me and...and it hurt so much..."He trailed off into his memories shutting his eyes tightly taking his hands and gripping his hair looking as if he was about to scream. Gilbert looked at him concern in his eyes as he moved over towards the now shaking blond,but the moment he touched him Matthew yelled trying to move into the corner more than he already was.
"Shhh Matthew calm down it's me, what did they do to you Matthew?" He asked. The blond opened his eyes but the violet irises were glazed over, he shook Matthew's shoulders making him look up "What. Did. They. Do?" he asked growling. Matthew flinched as more tears crawled down his face.
"I can't tell you they'll find me and it'll hurt worse than before, They can still find me, even though I'm so far away." he was whispering now gripping tightly to Gilbert's arm. Gilbert looked at him sighing. He would ask Alfred later.
"Matthew you need to sleep, If they come back yell for me okay I'll make sure they leave you alone." Matthew looked up at him and nodded curling tighter into the blankets before closing his eyes. Gilbert left to go talk to Alfred.
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Walking up to Alfred I saw him taliking to Feliciano. The Italian looked up and smiled at me before running towards me and hugging me. I let a small smile onto my face but pushed him off lightly.
"I need to talk to Alfred, Can you go see your Bruder for a bit until I'm done?" Feliciano nodded and skipped off to see his brother. Afred looked at me and sighed. "What do you need?" he asked looking me in the eye. I bit my lip thinking how to word my question after finding no easy way to I just blurted it out.
"What happened to Matthew in the old camps?" Alfred looked down placing his hands in his pockets.
"I can't tell you that, Only Mattie can." He whispered. It had to be bad. I put my hands on Alfred's shoulders and he looked back at me.
"Dammit tell me, What. Happened. To. Matthew?" Each word was puncuated with a violent shake to Alfred's shoulders on my part. He glares up at me.
"You really wanna fucking know. Fine I'll tell you, those fucking Nazi bastards Raped him because he was so girly looking, Dammit he almost died!" he yelled and my hands fell to my sides. Fuck why didn't I see the signs it was so fucking obvious and after Feli showed the same signs, staying beside only me Ludwig Lovino and Lars. I wanted to just punch myself in the head.
There was only one thing on my mind now.
I wanted to get out of here. Me my brother Feliciano Lars Lovino Alfred and.
Matthew most of all.
Because I knew what was happening inside me now.
I was in love with Matthew and now I needed to get him out of this place. Needed to make him safe and needed to make him see that I, Gilbert Beilschmidt, Cared for him and him alone. because that small Canadian blond had stolen my heart with just one look.
I looked at Alfred and gave him a look that made him freeze but I could tell he understood. He slinked off back towards his cabin and I went towards mine. Now the planing could begin.
