So, chapter 11. One of you guys asked for a scene change. So, here it is. I hope you like it!
Disclaimer: I do NOT own VicTORious.
Conversaţii cu ea însăşi (Conversations with herself)-Cat's POV
Jade looked pretty tired today, I guess that's why she left immediately after we got out of Sikowitz's Improv class. She had mumbled something about her head hurting and Cimmerian training her every night. He must be pretty tough on her, seeing as she had purple, yellow and brown bruises mottling her skin. I don't understand; Halo's been so nice to me.
My brother has a mean streak, but he means well. He is simply preparing her for what is coming. Halo's voice oozed into my consciousness, feather-light and soft.
"He could take it easy on her, she's only a demonite." I spoke out loud. I hate thought-speak, it sounds crazier than just talking to myself. People already thought that I was far off in the deep end, so I didn't take any caution. I heard Halo sigh, and I twisted the gold ring around my finger.
She has much to learn, and so do you. If it will make you feel better, why don't we go pay her a visit? Halo suggested, her voice was so soothing and kind. Every time she talked was like she was massaging my temples. She brought a feeling of relaxation and calm.
"That's a great idea! Too bad I don't have a car. Guess I'll just have to go the more conventional way." I was in the sanctity of my own room with the curtains pulled; nobody could see me. I changed from my human disguise to my angelic form, my white gown appeared along with my wings. My vibrant red hair turned to the milk chocolate natural brunette locks. No longer feeling trapped, I looked in my mirror and stretched my wings. Just as I hoped, my silhouette was nowhere to be found. As an angel, I can't be seen by humans, so I have the natural tendency to be invisible. This way, I could do my good deeds and not be caught. Demons did not have this ability, which is why there are stories of monsters, ghouls and ghosts. They had the power of changing shape, and they commonly chose the look of animals, it helped them blend in better. I walked over to my window, pulled back the curtains and pushed the window pane out. I hopped up onto the ledge, and straightened up. Looking out, I saw the quiet neighborhood with little kids playing out in their front yards. Dogs were yipping at their heels and chasing after bouncing tennis balls. I saw a dad and a son throwing a baseball to each other. It was so peaceful, and I couldn't imagine what would want to destroy this. Not giving it anymore thought, I leapt from the windowsill, spreading my wings to catch the air. I flapped twice, moving higher up in the blue sky. I loved the feeling of flying, the wind blowing through my hair and flowing through my dress. It gave me a sense of freedom that I was hardly allowed. No humans could know what I actually was, so I spent a lot of time in human form. I had to deal with how dramatic and traumatizing human life is, all while doing what I was told by the higher ups. I didn't interact demons, well, except for Andre, Robbie and Jade. Mom and Dad kept telling me that they are evil creatures who deserved being kicked out of heaven. I don't really see why, because Andre and Robbie don't have a mean bone in their bodies. Jade, on the other hand, has a mean spirit, but a kind soul. She's angry and harsh, violent obviously, but she never was towards me. I could see how she hated being trapped as a human, the tortured look in her eyes was all the evidence I need. She couldn't stand dealing with the human species, and it took all of her willpower not to scare off Tori at times. I could see right down to her heart, that she really was a good demon on the inside. I could see how she interacted with innocents, mainly children. Her voice would be sweet, and harmonic, soothing to their automatic fear of her. She couldn't scare them, because she always felt terrible afterwards. She would be laughing and smiling, totally care free. I know that she would do anything to keep innocents safe. She wasn't like the kind of demons that lived to terrorize the human race. She was the type that would brush away the tears from a crying child, clean off a scrape or a bump on a knee. She hated seeing innocents suffer, she just acted like she did. I could see the mask that she would put up to fit in. The other demons kept an eye on her, because her family was a big hot shot in the demon realm. Her life was hell because she had a reputation to upkeep, and it was not making her reality any better.
Cat, you need to watch where you are going. You are passing over her house now. Halo's voice ebbed into my thoughts again. I looked down to see the black roof of the almost castle-like structure of the West Manor zipping past. I giggled before spiraling down to where Jade's window was hanging open. I slipped in, my wings tucked in close to my back. I landed gracefully after floating for a few seconds. Her room was dark, the red and black walls echoing her dark view on life. I glanced around, trying to locate where she was at. My eyes stopped on her twitching figure lying on her bed. I rushed to her side, noticing how she was having trouble breathing at frequent intervals. Her pale skin was showing bruises that had a pattern to them, almost like chains were pressed against her skin. Her hands varied from fists, open and claws as she struggled to breathe. Sometimes she would open her eyes, and they would unseeingly gaze around the room. Her irises changed colors, from red to grey to blue and back to her natural yellow. I moved to kneel next to her, and I clasped one of her hands in mine. Her reaction was volatile, as she shot up to a sitting position, one of her hands clenched around my throat.
"What a pretty little angel that has come to my door step." Jade hissed at me. Her voice wasn't normal, it had many different voices threaded into it. Her fingers tightened, and I squeaked. "Oh, a toy that makes noises. How hard to I have to go to make it stop?"
"J-Jade…s-stop" I was trying hard to catch a breath, but her pale fingers halted my attempts.
"You foolish creature, she cannot hear you. We are in control now. We do not like your kind trifling in our affairs. You will not leave this place without a new wound to that pretty little face." Her eyes shifted between the new colors, blue, white, red and grey, never her normal yellow.
"Who…are…you?" It was getting harder to talk, and my head was starting to feel light. A smirk flickered across Jade's face, while her muscles twitched.
"We are her, she is us. Sebastian, Farina, Ramontes, Sarima, Dmytro, Iryna, Marko. We are the seven previous hosts. We are what your kind fears. We represent the sins. Wrath, lust, gluttony, pride, sloth, envy, greed. We are the entities that destroy humanity. We will bring humanity to its knees so that it may serve its true purpose. Life is only so short for them, why not make their time miserable?" Her voice thrummed with the others. It was gravelly and sinister under the pressure of the other demons' control. "We ought to kill you, simply close our hand until your body stops struggling. The death would do well, so our host would no longer be hampered by her affections for you."
"No, you cannot do that. I've felt that pain. It is too much to bear, especially for one so young." Jade's eyes flickered to a white. This voice was distraught, and wrought with pain. Her eyes were pure, blank, almost like they had rolled into the back of her head. The shadows around them showed a dark red. "Let the angel live, she will do well for our host. I assure you, an upset demon is one not to be messed with."
"Shut it, Sarima. You are weak, you should be ashamed to be admitting such things." A heavily accented voice overtook the rest. Her eyes changed again, a pale yellow instead of her vibrant marigold. I couldn't believe what I was witnessing, Jade was talking to herself, exhibiting schizophrenia. Her head was twisted to the side as she argued at the other personality.
"I am only stating the fact that she will be of no use to us if she is broken. Do you want the world to end as we know it? It is happening in this day and age. I can feel it, even within my prison deep inside the depths of her mind." The color changed back to white and red. Fear seeped into the voice, and terror was evident in her eyes.
"Hush, Sarima, you are giving too much away." A harsh undertone hissed as her head turned to the side. Dark blue eyes reflected anger as they flicked back to me. "Perhaps we should relinquish control back to our host. Now is not the time for her friend to see us. We are very unstable, and unable to agree on anything. Fellow demons, retreat back to your domains, our host awakens."
I felt the grasp on my neck cease and Jade's hand slipped away. She gasped as she shook her head. She opened her eyes, now the familiar marigold I had grown used to staring into. Her eyes swept across the room, finally landing on me, and where her hand was positioned.
"Cat! What are you doing here?" She scooted back, waving her hand frantically as if it was on fire. I rubbed my neck, trying to ease the discomfort and the slowly fading pain.
"I came to visit you, and I was given a nice neck massage in the process." Jade's fingers deftly prodded at the flesh on my neck. "Do you normally talk to yourself during your sessions?"
"What? I was talking? First I hurt you, the next I'm crazy. Cat, what did I do?" She soothed the traumatized skin, rubbing the pain away. She looked terrified that she had caused me any hurt.
"I'm fine, just a little flustered. How are you though? You looked like you were arguing amongst yourself. Different hosts not agreeing or something? A Sarima seemed to take precedence over the others. Something about not harming me?" Jade's eyes showed recognition, but the flash disappeared.
"I wouldn't worry too much about it. Cat, you need to be more careful. Cimmerian's sessions are rough, and I don't know if I'll be able to pull out next time." She gave me a hug, and I relished in the feeling of her arms around me. For once, it seemed like she actually cared about one thing in the world. I'm just glad that it was me.
So, you guys get to see how Cat feels for once. Did you like it? Yes, no? Maybe so? Give a dog a bone here! Review, please? O.o…
