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Song: Jealousy

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He wasn't even drunk any more, but he wished he was. His head was spinning so bad he just wanted to lie down on the ground and never get up again….and it wasn't even caused by alcohol. But instead of curling himself down on the ground he just quietly put his clothes back on, doing the same thing she did. In silence, mortifying silence.

Just last week they were bests of friends, going to a game together, laughing at the same things, pretending they weren't about to have sex when they come back to his apartment.

And now what? They'll start pretending again? Pretending it didn't just happen?

He sighed deeply as he finally made himself decent. He leaned against the cliff and stared at her quietly. She was muttering something under her breath, trying to separate the necklace stuck on her dress apart from it. She was a nervous wreck. This shouldn't have happened, he could see regret written all over her face. All he wanted to do was make her feel better and convince her that it was okay.

He walked over her and pulled her hands away. She looked up at him, her eyes watery. There was a track of hope that maybe; just maybe she was tearing up because this was ending. A bigger part of him realized it was because she just cheated on her boyfriend with him and felt sorry.

He remained quiet while he unhooked the piece of fabric from the chain it was stuck on.

''Nate-'' she said with shaky voice ''-this….this-'' gosh she was a mess

''-It's okay Blair. Don't-'' he said pulling a strand of her hair behind her ear ''-just don't'' he said, his voice sharp, hurt. He moved away and Blair felt a need to reach for him. Her hand ended up dropping in mid air. He was out of her reach.

He felt so lost, so empty inside right now. He couldn't comprehend why. For a moment he hated her. He hated her for making him feel this way. What was he feeling at all? Hurt? Anger? Regret? No, not the last one. He has never been so messed up in his entire life. Just few hours ago he was okay with everything. He was okay with her ''leaving'' him. He was okay with moving on (even though he had nothing to move on from, this was just a casual fling). He was okay with being just friends, he wanted that. But then they slept together and all of his feelings changed.

He wasn't okay with being just friends, he wasn't okay with moving on, he wasn't okay with her leaving him.

And then she decided to add fuel to the fire.

''I don't want to lose you. That was not a part of the deal'' her small voice said in the background

And he really didn't want to lose her either. But she was the one who pushed away first. He had to decide right now, either break her heart or break his own.

''You won't-'' he said sounding more cold that he intended to , he shook his head and turned around to face her, his voice softer this time ''- you'll never lose me. I'll always be your... friend'' he said almost bitterly.

For some reason, her body flinched at the word friend.

She nodded and offered him a fake smile, even though she was breaking inside. Why was he so cold with her again? He was never harsh with her like he was with other people. Was he punishing her? And what if she misunderstood his words. The word was you can't lose something you never had, what if she never had him?

She dared to step closer and put her arms around his shoulders, hugging him from behind. She knew he wouldn't retrieve to her, just like he didn't. He was trying to be tough and pretending like he doesn't care. She knew him better than that. And she knew that when he was the most quiet and most tough, he was hurting a lot.

So she just stayed put there, enjoying being this close to him for the possibly last time. She sensed him turning around and quickly wiped her tears so he wouldn't see it. She smiled and looked at him.

''I think it's time to go home now'' she whispered sadly. It was time to go home, each of them to their own home, alone. Leaving this place meant going back to reality where they were just friends, she had someone else and he was sleeping around.

''Blair-'' he said quietly looking at her watery eyes, he knew she was trying not to cry in front of him, he saw her wiping that tear away thinking he wouldn't see. ''- I really meant what I said. You won't lose me. And if anyone ever dares to do anything wrong to you-'' he pressed his forehead against her and smiled down ''-I will end them''

She smiled hearing his words and embraced him once more. This time his arms were around her too.

''That includes your new boyfriend'' he added annoyingly, only half joking. She laughed and ruffled his hair, pushing it back, it's the way she liked it most, she could see his beautiful eyes clear then.

''Behave yourself Archibald-'' she smiled. They headed towards the city ''-besides, he really is a great guy''

She saw him raise an eyebrow and laughed quietly to herself '' Let me be the one to judge that'' he said and grinned to her.

The rest of their walk home was quiet. They almost found themselves in that comfortable friendly kind of silence everyone wants. That is until she broke it.

''Nate, no one can find out about tonight'' she said, her voice serious. He nodded quietly

''I know. No one won't. Not from me'' he tried to convince her. Who would he blab anyway, Chuck?

''Thank you'' she whispered, slowly leading them in to another wave of relaxing silence.


''Oh God I'm so close-'' he grunted against her neck

''Yeah-'' she panted almost poorly ''-me too baby'' when in truth she wasn't even feeling it. Was this karma? Of course something wouldn't work, why would she have a normal relationship for once in her life? Impossible.

She got caught up in her own thoughts again and almost forgot she was supposed to be panting and scratching and orgasming or whatever…fake orgasming, mind you.

Marco was in all words perfect, nice, caring. He never forgot to bring her flowers. He was always there when she needed him. He would sit through with her during a Audrey Hepburn marathon.

Nate would never do that, no. He would get of the bed, grunt a bit of how all Hepburn movies were an unrealistic plot to create big expectations in minds of young girls watching them, and told her he was in the living room watching the game until she's ready to have sex.

What was wrong with her? Did she really want a guy like that instead of a sweet caring person like Marco? Yes she did. Deep inside she knew she wasn't supposed to be with him and she missed Nate dearly, not just in a sex kind of way. She missed her best friend.

They were still great friends and all, but now with a boyfriend she had less time to spend with him. She'd be lying if she said it didn't bother her where he was or who he was with, if he had someone new she wanted to know. As his best friend of course….yeah right.

And also, she missed the sex. Having intercourse with Marco was numbingly boring. After the ride of her life called Nathanial Archibald she was not ready to transfer to this almost pathetic ruffle.

It wasn't that it was that bad…it was just….so boring. The same effin thing every time. With Nate she got elevator, office, shower, handcuffs…freaking cliffs on the beach. It was hard to adjust to the bed thing, it was somewhat too comfortable and not at all arousing.

Marco was zero points to Nate. He had a great body but had no idea how to use it, she had to take control every time…it got annoying. Nate made her pant in no time just by staring at her.

If she pictured Nate panting over her right now it wouldn't be so wrong, would it…just once (although she did it far more than once)

It definitely helped. She got so into the character she almost made a fatal mistake

''Oh yeah Na-'' she stopped dead in her tracks, her mind going overdrive, she had no idea how to get herself out of this ''Marco'' she yelled quickly, hoping he bought it.

She gathered he was done when he pulled himself out and smiled satisfyingly. So he didn't notice she almost yelled out Nate, thanks God. It would put her in a lot of trouble since Marco already met Nate. Even better, he met him tonight. So Blair spent the whole evening with Nate, no wonder she was fantasizing about him, too bad she spent the whole evening with her boyfriend too, but had no sexual interest in him.

And after everything that's happened tonight, she still wanted that damn Archibald more.

Her mind immediately went to rethinkn tonight events.

Nate sat quietly sipping his scotch, his evil smirk in place, listening to Marco's experience as a pediatrician. She could see him rolling his eyes while her boyfriend talked about the joy of seeing a kid smile and all the lollipops he had to give out. She knew Nate was judging him right now, and it didn't look too well for Marco. When he finally excused himself to take a call she eyed Nate, piercing him with her chocolate eyes.

''Wow-'' he said sarcastically ''-who knew you were dating a librarian'' he said and smirked. She put on an insulted face right away

''He is not a librarian type of guy'' she defended herself

''Blair, probably the biggest highlight of his life is winning a game of chess, aren't' you bored? I don't think he's good enough for you'' he saw right through her. She refused to blush and went back to her poker face.

''Stop it. Just because he doesn't ride a Harley and party all night long doesn't mean he's worthless'' she spat at him, still angry.

He saw that she was really hurt and cursed himself quietly. He was out of line. Not towards the guy, he really was a bore and he already couldn't stand him. Blair didn't deserve his attitude and he was sorry.

And then again, maybe he was just jealous.

Life is much too short
To while away with tears
If only you could see just what you do to me
Oh jealousy you tripped me up
Jealousy you brought me down
You bring me sorrow you cause me pain
Jealousy when will you let go?
Gotta hold of my possessive mind
Turned me into a jealous kind

Right when he was about to apologize Marco returned. Blair stood up immediately and took a hold of Marco's hand. He looked at her surprised.

''You know what, I think we're going now'' she said, her tone still hurt, but sharp. She didn't even glance at Nate

''Blair come on, you know I was-'' he started, not even caring about that asshole

''No actually Nate, I don't'' she cut him off ''Enjoy the rest of your night'' she said coldly and left the bar with Marco.

Damn him and his arrogant attitude to hell.


To be continued


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