Chapter 10

Renesmee's POV

My dad and I sat on the floor together, our arms remained around each other as we sobbed. I was crying for many different reasons, for the video I just saw, for my dad's loss and for the fact that me and my father, the man I have been aching to meet for all of my life, was sitting next to me giving me a hug.

I could sense my family still sitting in the room watching us, I heard Esme sob. This definitely was a happy moment and a sad moment all in one. We all just sat there grieving my mother's death.

Eventually I spoke, "I'm sorry, so, so, so sorry, Edward." My dad pulled away from me looking me in the eyes. I completely forgot about last night and why I was mad at him.

"No, Renesmee, I'm sorry. Watching you grow up on tape makes me regret leaving. I wish I was there to see my own daughter grow up. No words can describe how sorry I am."

I wanted to tell him I forgave him and that I wanted to love him like he never even left but I knew it would take time. I wanted nothing more than to have a normal relationship with my dad but I knew it couldn't instantly happen. Time was a key element here, and that's exactly what we had to do, just wait.

"I understand." Edward said responding to my thoughts. I forgot, once again, that I should monitor my thoughts.

"It's not that I don't want to just start a normal father-daughter relationship with you right away, it's just that I don't know if that can happen so quickly. You have 5 years of my life to catch up on. You can't just love someone instantly." I couldn't meet my dad's eyes.

"You two should just spend time together, just the two of you." Rosalie suggested.

My father and I both looked at each other.

"We should." To my surprise, my father said. We were making progress. I nodded in agreement. This was a major breaking point in our new relationship and I liked the looks of things.

Everyone went off and did their own thing after we were done with the home videos and the little talk between me and my dad. I had one place left to go to that I've been waiting to say goodbye too. My father's piano. I remembered distinctly the first day I decided I wanted to play the piano. I asked Rosalie about my father and she told me her loved music and he played the piano. I instantly wanted to learn, I figured then my father would have at least one thing to be proud of me for. I've been playing the piano for 3 years now. Rosalie helped me learn for the first year or so and then I just played whenever I wanted or wanted some alone time.

The room that had my father's piano was special to me because my Aunt Rosalie told me it was where my father took my mom the first time she ever came over to this house. He played his lullaby he's written for her.

I entered the small, quiet room with one lone couch against the wall and a beautiful grand piano. The floors were hardwood and the walls were a basic light blue.

I sat down at the piano's stool and lifted the piano's cover. I placed my fingers on the keys and started to play my heart out.

Edward's POV

The TV's screen went blue, the DVD was over. That was it, home video's of my daughter is what snapped some sense into me. I wanted to reverse time and take back all that I have done to her.

Seeing Bella in the video created a pain in my chest, like I was being stabbed. I missed her so much. I would give anything to see her one last time and give her a proper goodbye, I wanted to tell her I loved her and she changed my life forever. Seeing Bella and I kiss on video made me want to melt, if I only knew then that that was one of our very last kisses.

I heard a sob, I saw Renesmee's shoulders shaking violently up and down. If my heart was beating, it would have stopped completely seeing this poor little girl crying so hard.

Before I even realized what I was doing I moved to sit next to her and wrapped my arms around her. I let out a sob but no tears fell of course. I would have streams of tears rolling down my face just how Renesmee had right now.

My daughter laid her head on my shoulder and wrapped her arms tightly around me. Our first hug, ever. She started hysterically crying. Reading her thoughts, I found out she was crying because she was happy and sad. She was upset after seeing her mother on video and happy because I showed a sign of affection. My heart cracked for what seemed to be the 100th time today.

"I'm sorry, so, so, so sorry, Edward." My daughter said. I pulled away to look at her. I realized that she called me 'Edward' rather than 'dad'.

"No, Renesmee, I'm sorry. Watching you grow up on tape makes me regret leaving. I wish I was there to see my own daughter grow up. No words can describe how sorry I am." I said. She didn't answer so I read her thoughts. She was thinking about how she wanted to have a father-daughter relationship with me but it needed time. I completely agreed. There would be no way we could just snap our fingers and just have a bond that we should have had by now if I stayed when she was born. As much I wished that was true, it wasn't and never would be. We had 5 years to make up.

Rosalie suggested Renesmee and I should spend more time together and we both agreed. After that everyone went off and prepared themselves for the big move tomorrow.

I went upstairs to my old bedroom, curious to see what my family might have done with it. I opened the door and was surprised to see it exactly how I left it. I walked in and sat down on the bed I set up for Bella when she stayed over one night, the night I officially proposed to her.

I laid down for a little then I heard music. It sounded like a piano. I figured it was Rosalie playing since she was the only one in the family who knew how to play other than me, but I got up to look anyway. I walked to the very room I brought Bella to play her lullaby the first time she came to this house. I slowly and quietly opened the door. My jaw almost dropped to the floor when I saw Renesmee playing. I was amazed, I didn't know she played. Then again, I remembered I really didn't know much about her at all. I stood there quietly, and listened to her finish playing "Dope Zebra" beautifully then she transitioned into playing "Fur Elise" my favorite song to play on the piano after Bella's Lullaby. She was playing perfectly and then her fingers slipped causing the song to go off tempo, I heard her groan with impatience.

"Slow it down, you're trying to go too fast and losing control of your fingers." I walked over to her side. She jumped at my voice; I forgot she didn't know I was there.

She placed her hand on her chest, "You scared the crap out of me, Edward." She laughed.

"You know, you don't have to call me Edward. You can go back to calling me 'dad'." She nodded "Unless you don't want to of course you don't have to!" I quickly corrected myself.

"No, no! I will! I just wasn't really sure what to call you after our argument…." She looked at a loss for words.

I quickly changed the subject, "You sounded great. When did you start playing?"

She smiled, "Thanks. Uhh… I guess I started about 3 years ago. I asked Aunt Rosalie about you one day and she told me that you played the piano so I wanted to learn. It sounds silly now but I thought you'd have a reason to be proud of me if you heard me play one time. Stupid, I know." She shook her head.

"Not at all. I am proud of you." I was touched that she learned to play just for me.

"You don't have to say that just to make me feel better." She didn't look at me.

"Renesmee, I'm being honest. I was really stupid to just walk out on you. I'm so proud of you for just being this strong your whole life."

"You can't be proud of someone you don't know." She sighed. Then she realized what she said.

"I-I'm sorry! I didn't mean it like that!" She panicked.

"It's fine, I understand this is confusing for you. It is for me too, but I'm willing to get to know you." I smiled at her, she gave me a soft smile back.

I wanted to tell her I loved her, but I would be lying. I did care about her, but I didn't quite love her just yet.

"You're a lot like your mother. She loved you, Renesmee. I hope you know that. She loved you so much."

Tears started to form in her beautiful eyes, "Really?"

"Absolutely." I smiled at her. I moved closer to her, wrapped my arm around her side and pulled her so she was leaning against my chest. She leaned her head against my shoulder. For the first time in years I was happy. I had a part of Bella here with me. I was happy knowing that Bella and I created this girl together.

"Dad?" She looked up at me.

"Yes?"

"Could you play mom's lullaby?"

I smiled, "Sure" She scooted over to give me space to play and I started to play the song that would forever be etched in my brain.


AN: Sorry it took so long! I got side tracked and never found time! WE DID IT! Double digit chapters! WOoOO! Next chapter should be posted in a few days! We're getting closer to some more dramatic events in this story hahah! Hope you liked!