Started: 10:08 PM 1/16/2009
Finished: 8:59 PM 2/8/2009
Posted: 6:24 PM 2/27/2009
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A/n: The last chapter was a major fluff overload at the end. Sorry if you expected more than that, but I'm not quite ready for a full blownlemon yet. please be paitent with me! Arigato gozaimasu!\
Oh, there's more of a reason for me not ot be able to update any quicker, my English teacher, as much as I love her, is assigning me more and more work because of the stupid people in my class. Unfortunally, I could not transpher out of that class because of the fact my grades aren't anything to brag about, mostly because I'm a cobination of a procrastinator and OCD. Yeah, she assigned us to write a Journal, in which only discuss school appropriete things, and my mind is far from school appropriate. After all the day she assigned this journal, I was thinking about shoving someone down the tree grinder for being too loud and obnoxious when I was writing my Original fic.
Also, that's another reason I'm going to be slightly late in updateing anything, my current obsession fic is not from the world of Fandom, instead it's taken place in an original setting. I've already written two and a half chapter on it, but I'm not going to post it anytime soon. Sorry.
Enjoy this chapter, this was a PSA From the mind of Lynette Lynn Carson.
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Chapter 10- I hate this part of us
"Demons'll charm you with a smile, for a while,
But in time...
Nothing's gonna harm you,
Not while I'm around...(1) " A young womans voice floated over her Nephew and her son. "Good night my little darlings, sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bite. Sweet dreams, my baby boys, I'll keep you safe and warm."
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"You know it's unhealthy to always have your head in the clouds, Kitaru?" Sasuke said as he came up behind his blonde friend.
"You know it's unhealthy to always be so emo, right, Sasu-chan?" The raven's hand connected sharply with the back of Kitaru's head. The tinkleling laughter that followed, calmed Sasuke from his worried state that he had been when he came into the living room with Kitaru just staring at the plain white wall without blinking.
"Everyone, food's ready!" Kitaru brigthened up like a seven year old on christmas day and skipped over to Naruto's side to help him serve the food. Gaara and Kunairu set the table and chided the others when they made to help with it. (Neji, Kouta, and Gaara had arrived in the early Saturday morning.)
There were only the teenagers int eh house for Kakashi and Iruka grabbed breakfast on-the-go for they were needed at the parent's day at the school. The seating arrangement went something like this; (going clockwise) at the head of the table sat Kitaru, next to him was Kunairu, then Naruto, Sasuke was sitting across from Kitaru, then it was Gaara, Neji and to wrap it all up was Kouta sitting next to his love.
It was too quiet so Naruto smiled and nuged Kunairu, who was startled so she shouted out loud, "Cuttlefish!?" Everyone stared at her and Kitaru burst out in laughter. Gaara chuckled and then they were staring at him.
"Cuttlefish?" Kitaru asked gasping for breath. Kunairu blushed and ducked her head.
"Umm, anyway, how did you sleep Uchiha-san?" He turned to glare at her. She shrunk back into her seat still recovering from her initial embaressment. "Never mind..."
Kitaru laughed and wrapped his arm around the lithe blonde girl. "Poor dear, You're just fucking up today aren't you?"
She glared at him and swiped at his hand. "Besides that, you know that thing that I talked to you about in the restraunt last night?"
"Which one? About not breaking people up? Being serious? Plannning an attack plan? Bringing ReiOnii-" She glared at him and threw her spoon at him. Everyone was paying attention to her now though.
When he rubbed at his forehead, and glared back at her, she sighed, "The other one, about me going to school here?"
"Oh, that." He waved his hand lazily, and shrugged his shoulder, "You would have to find a apartment for that, also you can't go running off on a whim like usual. But then again, it's not like I care." He shrugged his shoulders and Kouta gave her the glare of death. Naruto's eyes widened and stared at Kitaru. Gaara smirked and was glancing back and forth to Kitaru and Kunairu. Sasuke and Neji stared at them with less than vauge interest.
"Oh, come on, Kita you said that I could! Besides I think that Niki-" Kitaru looked up sharply when he heard the name begin on her lips, and threw his water at her quickly. He glared at her.
He stood and slamed down his hands on the table. "Takishima, I'm only going to say this once, Don't ever mention that name here!!" He then turned and left the room. Naruto glanced up worriedly. Sasuke squeezed his hand and nodded. He ran off after his only cousin. Gaara stared at Kunairu who dropped her head when Kitaru ran out of the room. He motioned for Neji and them to leave.
It was only after they did that he spoke to the little blonde girl, "You know you fucked up right?" She nodded and lifted her head to look into the redhead's eyes. His eyes widened and they forgot about the others in the room. She was after all crying.
Kunairu lifted her hands and tried to wipe at her tears. "I'm sorry... I'm really sorry..." She sobbed and laid her head on the table infront of the food.
"It's not me you should be apoligizing to, child." Gaara said calmly, glancing at the door.
"I'm just so useless... all I ever do is cause problems for him." She cried. Her shoulders were shaking.
Gaara sighed and picked up his water and took a sip, before saying, "That's all you ever did, but you wouldn't be you if you didn't." He smirked at her as she rose her head from it's place on the table. "And We wouldn't love you if you weren't so hopeless." She smiled at him through her tears, making Gaara stop and glare at her, "What?!"
"It's just this is the first time you comforted me..." She said, blushing slightly.
Gaara glared at her, and folded his arms over his chest. "Shut up. What kind of weirdo would get excited over that anyway?!" She just smiled and got up just to walk up to the redhead and hug him. He froze, "Kunairu?"
"I'm so glad I met you Gaara-sama." He just smiled softly and pushed her away.
"Shut up."
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"Kitaru?" Naruto whispered as he caught up to his cousin in the park at least 38 blocks from the house. "Are you okay?" He panted slightly.
The other blonde didn't answer so he asked again. This time he got a response as Kitaru looked down at him from his perch in the oak tree.
"You know, Naru, (2)Part of me won't go away
Everyday reminded how much I hate it" He said it calmly, and leaned back against the tree that Naruto found him up in. Naruto flinched in surprise at the words.
Then he sighed, "Kitaru..."
Kitaru ignored this interjection and continued on glaring at his hand that he brought up to his face. "Weighted against the consequences
Can't live without it so it's senseless" He shook his head and looked down toward his cousin, "Wanna cut it out of my soul
And just live with a gaping hole"
Naruto closed his eyes strangly sad but understanding what his cousin was getting at, "Take control of my life
And wash out all the burnt taste" Kitaru looked back at his younger cousin and nodded.
They both ended up singing the next part, "I made the problems in the first place
Hang my head low 'cause it's part of me
Ya hardly see right next to the heart of me
Heard of me the routine scar
New cuts cover where the old ones are
And now I'm sick of this" Naruto leaned back against the trunk of the tree,a nd slid down to the ground, looking at his feet to hide his tears. The other blonde starerd straight ahead without a purpose.
Kitaru sang out loud, continuing the song, "I can't stand the sandpaper thoughts that grate on my sanity"
When he broke off, Naruto lifted his head and glance up wile saying the next part. "I rather not even be then the man that's staring in the mirror through me"
"Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me" They both sang softly, avoiding looking at one another,
"Stop just what's killing me" Naruto Repeated once and looked toward the morning sun.
"Stop just what's killing me" Kitaru repeated after his cousin.
"Stop just what's killing me" They both said for the last time. Then they both continued with, "I feel it everyday
I feel I made my way
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
Swallowing me"
"Freedom can be frightening if you've never felt it" Naruto sang softly and looked down toward his left hand that was laying right beside him,
"Once it's been dealt with you feel like you've been touched by something angelic
And then melted down into a pool of peace" Kitaru said as he leaned back into his seat on the branch again.
"Cease to be the animal you used to be
Remove the broken parts you know were wrong" Naruto's voice came out cool and clear.
"And feel the karma when the problem's all gone" Kitaru continued on, slightly more high pitched than usual. He jumped down from his perch in the great oak tree.
Naruot looked up to his Cousin, calm as he could be with tears running down his face, "And then you start to see another piece of yourself that you can't let be"
Kitaru strugged with the next part and trying to make it sound calm and smooth, "Memories of the last fight to free yourself
Take it to the depths of the bottom of the well" He reached down to offer his hand to his younger cousin.
Naruto reached up with a hesitant hand, while singing, "And now you know you can choose to lose the part in your heart
Where your insides bruised"
Kitaru pulled him up forcefully and spoke into the younger blonde's ear, "You can live if you're willing to
Put a stop to just what's killing you"
"Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me" They both began once more,
"Stop just what's killing me" Kitaru repeated, his voice barly reaching Naruto's ears.
"Stop just what's killing me" Naruto Spoke whimpering slightly. He was still crying and being heald by his older cousin. Neither of them were councious of the eyes watching them, silently in the darkness.
"Stop just what's killing me" They both said for the last time. Then they both continued, pulling apart to look each other in the eyes, "I feel it everyday
I feel I made my way
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
Swallowing me"
Just as suddenly, they both pulled away from one another and jumped away. Soon they were both at least 7 meters away. Just barely noticing the rain comeing down in buckets. Naruto was the first to break the silence, and he yelled, no longer singing, "Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams away silently
This part of me won't go away, part of me won't go away"
Kitaru threw his arms in front of him, just like he would as if he was to break a fall, and replied in the same loud voice and tone, "Everywhere I look around I see how everyone aught to be
Every time I see myself I see there's always something wrong with me"
Naruto turned away from Kitaru and lifted his hand to his mouth. "I feel it everyday
I feel I made my way
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
Swallowing me"
The tears that were running down both of their faces were mixing with the rain.
And they stared at one another till Kitaru repeated back to him, "I feel it everyday
I feel I made my way
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
Swallowing me"
Naruto looked down and toward his right, crossed his arms and sang softly to his cousin, "I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside, swallowing me"
Kitaru watched him through his bangs and cried softly back, "I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside, swallowing me"
They're eyes both closed at the same time and they dropped to their knees, the people watching them ram top catch them, but they were too late. When Naruto looked up through his bangs his eyes were the darkest color of red, and his scars on his cheeks were darker. His blonde hair was more furried than usual.
Kitaru was one in the same, his eyes were once more green and purple, while his hair was more spiky than usual, as well.
"Kyuubi..."
"Nikimara..."
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"Uchiha-san, it's been at least an hour since Kitaru ran out of the room, don't you think we should go look for them? Plus it's raining, and Kitaru hates the thunder." Sasuke glared at the small blonde girl. She was really starting to get on his nerves. Gaara sighed.
"I agree with that, but how are we going to find them. They could be anywhere!" Kouta said calmly. He seemed a little unnerved.
Kunairu suddenly became silent and thoughtful. She turned toward the tiny redhead to her left on the loveseat with his boyfriend, "Hey, Gaara where's the park? It's been a while since I've been here last."
Gaara glanced at her, "It's about fourty one blocks to the west of here, why?"
She smiled and everyone else glared at her, this wasn't a time to play! Ignoring all the looks, she stated her analysis of the situation. "Hey if you were really those two's friends when they were younger, you would know, Kita's favorite place in the world is that huge oak tree in the center of Miracle Park. It's the place he feels the safest at, therefore-"
"Kitaru and Naruto must be there!" Neji said cutting off Kunairu, who pouted but instantly brightened up hwen Gaara nodded.
"I guess we'd have to go in two cars to all fit..." Kouta said calmly. Kunairu shrugged, everyone else nodded.
Grabbing the keys from the table they left the house, locked the door and made their way to Miracle park. When they arrived there They spotted Naruto and Kitaru holding one another, before they tore away from each other violently, and started to scream at one another. They watched dazedly, as Kitaru and Naruto hunched over. Kouta, Kunairu, and Sasuke snapped out of it and ran toward them when they saw that the two blonde boys were going to collapse.
When they reached within five feet of their chosen blonde, Naruto raised his head up, at the same time as did Kitaru. They both ignored the onlookers and smiled evilly.
Gaara's eyes widened, "Kyuubi..."
Kunairu gasped, "Nikimara..."
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1- "Not While I'm Around" by Sweeny Todd, the Demon Barber of Fleet Street
2- "Part of Me" by Linkin Park
