* * * Lilah * * *
His hand touched her cheek and she closed her eyes at the sensation, the equality between temperatures. They meshed, she couldn't have asked for more.
Then why had she waited so long? Was it really her fault? She just didn't want to open up and be crushed, she wouldn't let him. His eyes said he wouldn't, but she couldn't risk it.
"Lilah...I love you" he said, eyes widening at his words.
Had she just heard him right, was this a dream? Was this a nightmare, sent to taunt her with what she wanted, just to have her wake up and none of it be real?
Staring into his eyes she tried to hold on to reality "What?" Lilah whispered. She didn't want to be wrong about this; had to be sure she wasn't just hearing things.
* * Lindsey * * *
Lindsey imagined that she'd be feeling quite delusional.
His pale blue eyes stared into hers, soft and sweet. He leaned down to whisper in her ear. "I said 'I love you'. Is that so hard to believe, or is it just because I'm the one saying it?"
Lindsey tilted his head, waiting for her answer, gazing down at her body under his. This couldn't possibly be helping her warm temperature, being separated like they were. He kissed her cheek; wanting to show her that sex wasn't the only thing he wanted from her. Lindsey's intentions had never been to use her; he didn't use the people he loved.
"It's not a trick, just take a deep breath. You're not dreaming either." He took her hand flattening it to his chest, heartbeat faster then normal but still evident. "See? This is real.
"
* * * Lilah * * *
He leaned down and whispered in her ear, she couldn't breath. Air refused to fill her lungs, staring at him blankly. It was like her mind was having trouble catching up. Lilah wanted to say it back, desperately, it would be true too. She knew it was true because even if her mind was on hyper drive, her body craved his; organs on fire, not liking being a distance from him almost as much as she disliked it.
With the contact of his skin to hers, she could breath, her throat opening to him. "No ones ever said that to me before" she said truthfully.
Almost closing her eyes at the feeling but not allowing them to; Lilah didn't want to close her eyes ever again. Blinking only took away from the time. She didn't want to open her eyes and things change. Even though he said he was real, she had her doubts.
Putting a hand to the other side of his face so that she could look into his eyes without him looking away, so that she could hold him closer to her "I feel like your going to disappear" almost whispering from the closeness between them. Like in the bat of an eye she would be alone, grasping for an imaginary sense of happiness.
* * * Lindsey * * *
Lindsey nodded, he figured by how surprised she was that no one had ever told her that before. He knew how strong and independent Lilah was, no one but him had ever taken the time to get close to her, and in the end it was paying off.
"I don't think anyone's ever made you feel the way I make you feel either." Lindsey stayed close to her, just loving the fact that she didn't want him to slow down with all of it.
Shaking his head with a grin, he wasn't going to run away from his feelings for her. "No, I'm not leaving you, not ever. I promise, and despite what Wolfram & Hart has been preaching since the dawn of time, promises are not meant to be broken. I love you Lilah Morgan and you are the best thing that's ever happened to me." Lindsey didn't lie to her, he wouldn't. He spoke every word to her from his heart, and until earlier this evening he hadn't even been sure he still had one. Lindsey was sure that she'd melted the ice around it.
* * * Lilah * * *
She froze in motion; just his words were enough to break the heat front she was emanating. No one had ever felt this way about her and knowing that someone did now was just so surreal. If you had asked her if she needed something like this in her life just a few hours ago, Lilah would have laughed. But now that she knew what it felt like, what it meant, she couldn't live without it.
Something she didn't even know was missing became whole again with his words and her eyes hazed over but she sucked back in the emotion. That's one thing she had promised herself since that day when she was 11, that she would never cry again, not after what had happened, never, and she had kept true to that promise.
Lindsey just happened to say the perfect thing at the perfect time, right when she needed to hear it most. He said he wouldn't leave her and she knew he wouldn't.
For the first time, she trusted someone. Lilah hadn't been able to do that since…well it had been a very long time, to many years to count.
Her chest clenched and tightened, it hurt to speak but she had to tell him, even if she wasn't ready too. She would say it because it was true, because it was and had been eating her from the inside, because he deserved it.
Shaking off her nerves, looking up at him, bringing her hands down to his shoulders "Lindsey…" she began.
