A/N: Sorry it has taken so long...... Enjoy.
Bold= Eric inside Alexandra's head
Italic= Alexandra inside her head
I heard my dad say my name three times. I was dreaming. It was like I was in another world. I saw someone walk over to me.
"Dad." I said.
The person got closer it wasn't my dad. It was John. My heart stopped. I screamed and took off running. Then he caught me and held me down. I struggled against him.
Then the dream stopped and everything around me cam into view. I saw Lance standing by my bed.
"Where's Eric?" I asked.
I tried to sit up but I felt to tired and dizzy.
"He's downstairs. Are you okay?" he asked.
I nodded. I tried to get up but Lance held me down.
"Dont move to much you are still weak." Lance said.
"I want to see Eric." I whined.
"Okay, I'll go get him but dont move." Lance said slowly.
I nodded. He left the room and in a second Eric was by my side.
"Alex, I am so sorry! Please forgive me." Eric whispered.
I looked at him with confusion.
"I'm not mad." I said.
"Well you should be! I could of killed you." Eric growled.
"But you didn't!" I said.
He rolled his eyes and started to leave the room.
"Don't go." I whispered.
He turned around and looked at me. He looked torn.
"Please." I said.
He walked over and sat down next to me. I smiled and stared up at him. He was staring at the white wall.
"Eric?" I said.
He didn't look down at me.
"What?" he asked.
I sat up slowly.
"Please don't be mad at yourself." I said quietly.
"Alex, I almost killed you." he mumbled.
I reached for his hand but he pulled away.
"Stop" I said.
I reached for his hand again and this time he didn't pull away. I leaned against him.
"Alex, I'm really sorry." he whispered.
I nodded.
I turned to face him. Man I felt dizzy.
"Eric, if you say you are sorry one more time I am going to hit you." I said.
He looked into my eyes and realized I wasn't bluffing. He leaned back against the the headboard. I tried to get off the bed but Eric grabbed my arm.
"Where do you think you are going?" he asked.
"I just want to get up. I'm getting bored just sitting there." I said.
"Alex, you're really dizzy you shouldn't be walking around." Eric explained.
"And I'm hungry." I added.
He rolled his eyes.
"You're always hungry." he said jokingly.
I laughed.
"Yea I am. So get me something" I agreed.
"Fine." he mumbled as he got up.
"You're coming back right?" I asked.
He nodded not looking back at me.
"Eric!" I said.
He turned.
"What?" he asked.
"You're coming back right?" I asked again.
"Yea" he said.
"Okay." I said.
He rolled his eyes and turned around and left. About two minutes later he came back.
"What took you so long?" I asked sounding irritated.
He walked over to me and dropped six blood bags in front of me. My mouth started watering. I noticed Eric was leaving again.
"No!" I shouted and I jumped off the bed and blocked the door.
"Don't leave" I said.
"Alex move." he said.
"No." I growled.
He rolled his eyes.
"Fine!" He growled.
He walked over to my bed and laid down. He put his hands to his head.
"Why don't you want to be with me?" I asked quietly.
He didn't say anything. I sat down on the floor in front of the door.
"Eric, answer the question and maybe I'll let you leave." I said.
"What's the question?" he asked.
"Why dont you want to be with me?" I asked again.
He sat up and looked into my eyes. He probably saw how he was hurting me by wanting to leave. He looked mad at himself again.
"I'm sorry Alex." Eric said.
He came down next to me. Then I hit him playfully.
"I told you not to say sorry again." I said.
He laughed.
"Why do you keep trying to leave me?" I whispered.
"I dont want to hurt you again." he said.
"But you trying to leave hurts me." I said.
"I know." He agreed.
"Then why leave?" I asked.
"I dont want to feed from you again. I can't control myself. And If I killed you I dont think I would be able to live with myself." He admitted.
I sat on his lap.
"I'm sorry." I said.
"What are you apologizing for?" Eric asked sounding shocked.
"Because I am the problem." I whispered.
He grabbed my chin and made me look him in the eyes.
"No you ae not the problem. I want you to understand that." he said.
I nodded.
"Don't ever blame yourself. Promise you wont blame yourself." he said.
"I promise." I said.
He looked at my lips. He leaned forward and kissed my lips softly. I wrapped my arms around him. To my dismay he pulled away.
"Alex go drink the blood." he said as he pushed me off him.
"Dont push me away." I hissed as I shoved him.
He was taken aback by that.
"Just because I'm not made at you and you kissed me doesn't mean you can push me away from you. You also made a promise to never do that again. You just broke that promise!" I accused.
"Alex-" I cut him off.
"Dont say your sorry again." I warned.
"But I am." he said.
"I dont care!" I spat.
I stood up and walked over to over to the bed and started to drink a blood bag.
"Alex?" he said.
He was standing next to me.
"Go away. Thats want you wanted wasn't it? You wanted me to tell you to leave so you didn't look like the bad guy!! I cant believe you!" I said.
"You're wrong." he growled.
"Prove it!" I said.
I turned to face him.
"How?" he asked.
"Figure something out." I said.
He looked at me.
"Fine." he said.
He paced the room. He finally stopped and looked at me. He smirked.
"I know what you want me to do." he said.
"What are you talking about?" I asked confused.
What did I miss?
He walked over to me and smiled down at me. Then he pulled me in and kissed me. We fell onto the bed. I heard a knock on the door. Eric was about to push away but didn't he continued to kiss me. I wrapped my arms around him. His lips traveled down to my ear.
"I love you." he breathed.
His lips traveled back to mine. I heard someone knock on the door again.
"I know you two are in there." Lance yelled.
He opened the door and saw Eric and I making out on the bed.
"Stop!" Lance hissed.
He was mad. We stopped and Eric got off of me. Eric's eyes looked wild. We were both breathing heavily. Eric was smiling and I know I was too.
"Eric I thought I told you not to do anything that may make you do what you did before." Lance said.
"He was in control." I said.
"How do you know?" Lance asked me.
"Because he was and he said he loved me. And his eyes weren't black!" I said.
Lance stared at me.
"I was going to say, if you stuck with just the he told you he loved you part, he could of lied to you so you would trust him." Lance said.
Eric was staring at me with a weird look in his eyes.
"Eric are you yourself?" I asked.
He nodded.
"Are you positive?" I asked.
"Very." he said.
I looked at Lance. He was watching his son. Then he looked at me.
"I'm going to leave now." Lance said.
I nodded.
Eric was still staring at me when his dad left.
"Stop staring at me!" I said sounding embarrassed.
He chuckled.
I looked over at him in suspicion. He was still staring at me. I grabbed a pillow and threw it at him just like the time when we were at John's.
A/N: Hope you all like it. I promise it will get more interesting as we go along. Please review. ~ winged
p.s. sorry for not updating.
