EDWARD POV

Harry still had tears rolling down his face; he had lived such a hard life, for someone so young he has experienced too much pain in his short life. After he finished his story I carried him up to my room so that he would have some privacy.

"This is where you realise that I'm used and broken and return me" he said, wiping a tear from his eye.

"Why would you think that?" I asked, I was falling in love with him, or was in love with him. I don't know if the fact that I knew we would end in love is making the process speed up.

"Because you don't want a mate with a fucked up life" he said

"Hey, that's your past, and under the same circumstances I would have done the same things."

"Why? Why are you so understanding?" he asked staring directly at me "Why aren't you running from the room screaming? I've killed people Edward, killed them in cold blood because I was told to. That would send anyone out of the room never to look at me again" he was emotional and yelling now.

"Because what you have done, I have done. You don't think I haven't killed people before?" he asked "If anyone should be running out of the room screaming it should be you." I tell him back "I'm a monster Harry, you are not. You did what you did because you had too. I have no excuse" he was shaking his head

"I don't believe you, the fact that your sorry for what you did means that you are better than me" he jumped of the bed "I don't feel sorry for killing, and that drives me mad that the fact that I think killing was the only option, and that I'd kill all them again if I had too"

"You were at war you had to do what you did, to kill the evil that was killing all your friends and those who you consider your family."

"Not just those I killed in the war"

"Who? The Dursleys?"

"And Ron"

"They abused you, he was going to rape you, you did it to survive"

"I didn't have to kill them, I could have just left, I didn't have to kill them" he said starting to cry again.

"Look you did what you did there is no taking it back, but no one blames you for what you did, anyone else would have done it if they could have"

"Just drop it ok?" and I nod, sitting next to him and wrapping my arms around me,

"Harry why are you so cold?" he was to cold for a human, was the house not heated probably but Esme always made sure that the house would be warm enough in case we had unexpected visitors.

"It's the Veela bond" he tells me

"I don't understand, how does a bond make you cold?" I didn't understand much about magic but I didn't think that it would lower my body temperature.

"My body is preparing me to become a vampire"

"WHAT?"

A/N OK SO THIS WAS A WEIRD LITTLE CHAPTER THAT IM NOT SURE IS VERY GOOD, I KNOW THAT THERE HAS BEEN ALOT OF INFOMATION IN THE PAST FEW CHAPTERS BUT I SWEAR THAT THE NEXT ONE WILL BE THE LAST FOR A WHILE, AND WE WILL GET MORE OF A STORY LINE HAPPENING..