Chapter 11: Our Spot

Olivia and Fitz sat looking at each other in the dim lighting of the park.

She really came. He thought as he continued to hold onto her hand.

"I was conflicted over what to do right at the moment you showed up", he told her, "with each minute that passed the more doubtful I became that you were going to come."

Olivia smiled. "I almost didn't come. Even as I walked up to you I had thoughts of turning around..."

Thank god you didn't!

I feel a certain amount of relief now that she's here though what I plan to talk to her about has me more than a little nervous.

"...But after what happened the last couple of days I do believe we need to talk", Olivia continued, "I would hate for things to be awkward at work."


Olivia fought to keep her hands from shaking.

I'm feeling all kinds of nervous. I was beginning to want to have this talk but now that it's going to happen I'm scared of what he might say.

What if he says "I was horny that day and it was nothing more." What if for any reason he says "It was nothing." I don't know how I would handle that. Just the thought of it makes me hurt.

But maybe that would be for the best. I mean this isn't right. It shouldn't happen.

Olivia removed her hand from Fitz's grasp and placed it on her lap.

"Is something wrong?" She heard Fitz ask her.

"Uh...no."

Olivia took a deep breath. I'm here. I want to know. I'm going to ask.

"Fitz, what happened Friday at the dance?"

Olivia held her breath as she waited for his response.


Ok. I can pretty much go one of two ways. I can go the apology route or I can simply say "Damnit Olivia I can't resist you. I've tried but I can't" route.

Fitz looked closely at Olivia.

She won't look at me now. She seems really uncomfortable. Maybe the thought of what happened has made her feel that way. Guess that means it's best to go the apology route.

"Olivia I want to apologize for what happened. I'm sorry. I didn't mean for it to happen."

Now she's looking back at me but there's no look of forgiveness. What else can I say? Shit! I gotta think quickly!


"So then it was a mistake?" Olivia asked before she really thought about it.

I hope the disappointment I feel didn't come across in my voice. He apologized. I should be happy and satisfied with that but I'm not.

What's wrong with me? I'm not sure what I want hear. How can I be disappointed that he said sorry?

Olivia looked past Fitz and down at the ground.


"Was it a mistake?" Fitz repeated. "If you mean do I regret it. Honestly no. I didn't plan for it to happen but I'm not sorry that it did."

Olivia looked at him with a shocked expression.

"Uh...I mean...um...if you're sorry it happened then I'm sorry but not because I regret kissing you. It would only be because you didn't feel good about it.".

Well, I came clean about it. There's nothing more I can do then to be honest. Whatever-

Fitz paused his thoughts when he realized Olivia was smiling.


That's it! He doesn't regret what happened. That's what I needed to hear. He wanted to kiss me and I don't feel bad about it at all!

Do I have to admit that? Olivia thought it over for a few seconds. It would be safer to keep it to myself. Keep it guarded. It's risky to put myself out there. Though he was honest with me so I need to be honest with him no matter how vulnerable that makes me.

"Fitz I didn't feel bad about it. I was confused over it. I still am but mainly I felt excited." Olivia admitted.

She let out a giggle when his eyes lit up and he smiled.

"Something's happening Olivia and I really can't explain it. It happens every time I'm around you. I've tried hard to resist giving in but then I see you and I want you." Fitz said with a sudden serious tone.

"I know what you mean. I've never felt my body, my insides, my everything react the way it does when I'm near you," Her smile waned, "and it's not good."


Fitz thought about it and nodded in agreement.

She's right. No matter how much I wish she wasn't. She's right that it's not good.

"You're married..." He heard her quietly say.

He couldn't help but cringe.

"This has to end." she told him. "It has to end before we find ourselves in real trouble."

I can hear the disappointment in her voice. She doesn't want it to end. And let's be honest no matter what we say tonight what happened Friday night is bound to happen again. I'm going to be up front about that.

Why does he have to be married? The horrible part is I wished his being married affected me more. I don't feel as bad as I would expect to after making out with a married man. What is it about him? Are my morals no longer intact?

"Olivia you're right. We do really need to end this..."

Olivia let out a sigh. "But we're not going to are we." She stated more so than asked.


Fitz leaned in closer to her. She could feel his warm breath on her lips. "Do you really want it to? Do you think you could resist-"

Fitz never had a chance to finish his question.

Olivia captured his lips with hers as she wrapped her arms around his neck. She kissed him as if she was experiencing it for the first time.

I can't resist. I just want him...all of him. I want all of him to be mine.


Though caught off guard Fitz didn't resist. When she opened her mouth to him he didn't hesitate to dive in. Their tongues eagerly danced together.

Damn her mouth is so sweet. I can't get enough. I wonder if other parts of her taste this good.

Fitz pulled her onto his lap. Olivia placed kisses down his cheek to his neck.

"This isn't good is it?" She asked him between kisses.

"No, it's not."

"We should stop."

"Yes we should." He said before he brought her lips back to his.

The tightness in his pants was becoming unbearable. He was aching to be able to rid himself of them.


Olivia could feel his hardness against her.

Oh god he drives me crazy!

When the lack of air became to much they finally parted. They stared into each other's eyes. Only the fog from their breath in the increasing cold air stood between them.

Olivia moved off of his lap as reality crept its way back into her thoughts..

What are we going to do? How can this work?


The reality of everything also made its way into Fitz's thoughts...

Where do we go from here? This isn't just physical for me. I don't know if it is for her, but I want even more than this. I want to know all of her. Physically, emotionally, every possible way there could be.

"Olivia?"

"Yes..."

"I want you to know that this goes far beyond the physical for me. I want to get to know everything about you if you're willing to give me the chance."

If this were just physical it would probably be easier to step away...

"I feel the same way. I want to get to know you too but how do we go about it in our current situation?"

Fitz thought over her question.

"Why don't we start by continuing to meet here. This is at least one consistent time we can see each other. Give ourselves a chance to figure things out. It's innocent enough."

"Really? After what just happened a minute ago?" She asked him.

"It'll be innocent from now on." He told her with a mischievous grin. "You want to give it a chance?"


Do I want to give it a chance?

Why not see where things go? I think it'll be worth it. It'll be trouble but it'll be worth it.

"Yeah."

They both smiled.

"It's getting late. Well, it already is late." Olivia said. "We have school tomorrow!"

Fitz laughed.

Olivia hit him on the shoulder. "You know what I mean. We have work."

She started to get up when she decided to add "Stay away from me tomorrow. You're liable to get me in trouble."

She let him take her hand and help her up. He took her face in his hands and kissed her hard.

"I'll make sure I see you tomorrow!"


After having hit the snooze button one too many times, Olivia found herself rushing out of the door for work.

I finally fell asleep when I mine as well have just stayed up the whole night. Damn him for taking over my mind. Granted the thoughts of him and our second kiss were extremely pleasant...they prevented my mind from being able to relax until it was too late.

Olivia was relieved when she made it to work on time but found herself unable to get out of her car.

What's going to happen when we see each other? I know were going to see each other at some point in the day. I have to be able to stay calm and remember where I am.

I should've brought another pair of underwear in case a certain part of my body is overwhelmed. I mean if he touches me...

Olivia let her head fall back against the head rest.

Take a deep breath. You'll be ok. She tried to convince herself. It's going to be a long day...


"I bet you're excited for another school week." Was the first thing Mellie said to Fitz.

Fitz nodded his head. "You know what I am. I think it's going to be a great week!"

Mellie rolled her eyes. "Remember what we talked about Fitz. Don't f-" She glanced over at Jerry "mess with me."

Fitz turned his back to her. "You got all of your stuff together kiddo?" He asked Jerry as he headed to the door.

"Yeppers!"

"Remember if you do well in school this week we'll go looking for Halloween costumes this weekend."

"Oh I'll be the best this week. No spit balls, no gum in girls' hair, or anything!"

Fitz furrowed his eyebrows. "You stuck gum in a girl's hair? How come I didn't hear about this before?"

Jerry shrugged and looked at the floor. "I guess she never told on me. She's got a nice haircut now."

7yrs old. To think it's only the begininning. Fitz thought with a shake of his head.

"I have to go. If I hear one bad thing from your teacher. Trick or Treat is canceled. You got me?"

Jerry nodded his head.

"Ok. I love you and I will see you later." Fitz said before placing a kiss on his son's head.

On the way to work all Fitz could think about was Olivia.

What's going to happen when I see her? I know I'm going to see her at some point today. Should I say anything or just ignore her? Will she be offended or understanding if I do the latter? I'll just do my best to stay out of her way. If I see her coming, unless I'm forced to go in that direction, I'll just turn around. Even if this works for today I doubt it'll work for the next eight months!

As soon as Fitz walked into the building he headed straight for his office.

This is going to be a long day.


Olivia walked into the teacher's lounge at lunch time feeling pretty good.

I made it through the first have of my day! No problems! I haven't even seen him!

Then it sunk in.

I really haven't seen him. I wonder how his day has been. Has he seen me and avoided me? He's definitely here. If he wasn't I would have heard about it. I have this feeling of missing him.

How odd is that?

Olivia plopped down in a chair and took out her lunch.

If I could just see him from behind. I'll get the benefit of seeing him and yet be safe from his overwhelming heated gaze and that sexy smile. Oh what just his smile does to me it's enough to make me-

"Olivia!"

Olivia jumped as if suddenly awakened from a dream.

"Hi Abby."

Abby quickly slid into a chair and leaned over towards Olivia.

"So..."

"So what?"

"Did you go last night?"

Olivia sighed. "Abby we can't talk about that here."

Even if I could talk to her right now I wouldn't say much. I'm glad to have a friend to talk to but I feel I should keep most of it to myself.

It's between me and

"Fitz..."


"The morning has gone by fast today especially for a Monday." Fitz said as Cyrus walked into his office.

"Thankfully. Did you see Marco Brown's hair today?" Cyrus asked.

Fitz laughed. "I sure did."

"Boy looks like he put a damn fork in a socket."

"If only he worked as hard on his schoolwork as he obviously did on spiking all of that hair."

Cyrus ran his finger through his thinning hair. "You know I was thinking about changing up my look. Got any forks around?"

"We could check the lounge," Fitz said jokingly, " There's at least some coffee there."

"Alright. Let me grab my mug from my office."

"Ok."

I actually haven't seen Olivia at all this morning. Not even a glimpse of her. I thought I'd feel relieved about that but damn instead I feel like something's missing out of my day. I'm missing her.

"I'm good to go now." Fitz heard Cyrus say.

If I could just see her...from behind. That way I'll get to see her and know she's doing ok. I'll also benefit if I can watch her walk from behind. Those hips have a dangerous rhythmic sway to them. If I could see her from behind I won't risk getting lost in her doe-like brown eyes or being drawn in by that beautiful smile. And don't even let her say my name it makes me-

"Hello! Are you still on planet Earth Fitz?"

"Oh yeah. Sorry. I was thinking over some work I have to do this afternoon."

Fitz walked with Cyrus to the teacher's lounge. Without even looking around Fitz headed for the coffee.

"You should bring your own mug to work." Cyrus told him as Fitz grabbed a styrofoam cup.

"The only reason you bring a mug is so that you can have twenty ounces of coffee at one time."

Fitz finished adding sugar to his coffee and turned around to wait for Cyrus. He went to take a sip of his coffee when his eyes went wide and fixated on the woman he hadn't seen since last night.

"Fitz" he heard Olivia say and that's all it took for him to forget what he was doing and spill his coffee on his shirt..

Damnit. This is a perfect example of why at work I should only see her from behind!