Shugo: well, hi! This took way longer than it should of, considering its holidays and all. Sorry! So have a kind-of M chapter… but I'm not sure if it's a reward or not… 0^o
Sarah: thanks to everyone who favourited/ reviewed/ followed this story! Shugo does not own! Fufufu, Lavi humiliation… my favourite type of torture. :D
Bakura: extra love goes to BrokenHeartedExorcist and HaruhiTsukichi, one pointed out a flaw she's trying to correct and the other helped massively with the storyline. Thanks! Lavi is now forced to hug you.
Lavi: WHAT?
Shugo: :D hmm, I haven't done this in a while, so… Shoutouts to Bluecow, HaruhiTsukichi, Kurami-chan, BrokenHeartedExorcist, oceanicCrownClown, Safiiri-Havet12, blackirihawk and SarahJanes! thank you all for reviewing~ now, HUG!
Lavi: ugh… *hugs* There. Just hurry up and start already! I want Allen back. :(
Bakura: ohoho~ stopped denying you like him? :D
Lavi: …
Sarah: ;P so! Shugo has fiddled with her writing style once again, to try and correct some things that were pointed out. Part of the reason this took a while to write. Was it a flop or a success? Please let her know! She also experimented with paragraph placement! So yeah… critique even more welcome than usual on this one!
Bakura: the side-song for this is 'Chronophobia', the fear of time. Part of Lavi's problems are revealed…
Lavi POV~~~~~
Well, that confirms it. This week has been crap. Oh, don't believe me? Well, I feel bitchy enough to explain it convincingly. First Allen has to go on without me, then he didn't contact me, I had to spend a whole week studying cause I had nothing better to do, and now Timcampy just showed up at my window, confirming my suspicions that something was seriously wrong. So now I'm flying around the hotel room in a mad flap, trying to figure out how to get up there to him while not completely destroying the mission. Not that I have any problem blowing the whole mission if Allen's in danger, mind you. I'd just prefer to avoid the lecture that comes after it. Argh! I'm so pissed and stressed I could die… FOCUS! Dammit brain, pay attention!
Now, what to do? Well, there's always the chance that this is just a giant misunderstanding, so maybe I should just go check on him first. That's what I'll do! Okay, breathe… I can feel myself calming down now that I had a definite point of action. Hehehe… I tend to stress out when things are really uncertain in a mission… okay! No point rushing up there and worrying at him. Though if this is just a big misunderstanding, I'll probably yell at him. And hit him, then I'll drag him home, regardless of the mission. Allen can explain to Komui why he's back early. It's his fault for making me worry like this! Pwah… man, I really have to stop stressing out like that!
Hmm, I normally don't do that without a trigger… I wonder what set it off? Hehe, maybe it was my lovers concern for Allen! … God, I hope not. That would be really awkward… specially because of what I do after I completely freak out… okay, not going there. Again. God, is my brain trying to make me spaz out this morning? Jesus! It doesn't help I'm still a little edgy… well, staying here won't do anything! Time to go find him. Grabbing my adorable hammer from its sheath, I bolted out the door. Allen's knight in shining armour is coming! … Okay, that was really weird. I think I'll just shut up now…
~~~~~Allen POV~~~~~ (this is the sort of Lemon! (Lime?) Don't murder me for this…) ~~~~~~
Hot. Wet. I can't think, can't breathe. I…I need to breathe… gh! A dark chuckle pierces through my pleasure-induced fog like a ray of light; slick, tan skin sliding against my own.
"Well well… enjoying yourself, my dear Allen?" Namu purred, violet eyes glazed over with lust and God, I want to kiss him, I want him to break me violently, one jade green eye piercing my soul as milky pale skin trace over my every curve…wait. Who the hell was I imagining? I don't even know who he is… Plus I love Namu! H, how could I imagine anyone else? I'm so unfaithful… how could I repay masters kindness like that? How could I!
I think my confusion showed on my face as Namu, being the kind and sensitive master that he was smashed our lips together and God, all conscious thought just dissolved just then and I want to touch him, I want to touch him so badly… ahh! I, I can't stay silent, various purrs and moans leaking out and his skins so smooth, so slick, covered with the juices of the other 'maids' in this bed, the whole sheet a writhing mass of lust and sweat and grinding and pleasure and moans…
"Don't stay silent, Beansprout." He whispered seductively, a small proud smile dancing on his lips in honour of his new nickname. Something in me froze at that. Beansprout… suddenly it wasn't Namu on me anymore, it was a lean, laughing redhead with a captivating emerald eye and a kind smile, beautiful pale skin that clashed with the deep black of a cruel eyepatch that seemed so sad on his face, and he was laughing, laughing silently and I want to hear it, godammit, I want to pull him close and hug him and kiss him to wipe the hidden sad glimmer from his remaining eye, He shouldn't be like this! There was such a melancholy kindness about him, and he was still smiling, smiling, but his eye was alive with grief, betrayal and, worst of all, a depressed acceptance… no, don't look at me like that, you're tearing me apart!
And it's wavering, wavering, sometimes Namu, sometimes this mystery man with his sad eye and it's overriding the pleasure, the constant rhythm of pounding now painful in my ears… what am I doing? I don't know! Sparks flew between us but they hurt, they hurt, a guilty ecstasy no longer satisfying and what can I do? Purple, green, wanting, grieving, amethyst, jade, lust, tears… I'm so close, so close but I don't want to be, NoNoNo don't look at me like that! NO! Don't smile as you cry, and you're talking, speaking, I can't hear the words but they hurt anyway, STOP SMILING AT ME! STOP IT! A wave of pleasure crashes over my senses, making me cry out… but not from happiness. Oh God, it hurts, it hurts so badly… I don't even know who he is! So why do I feel guilty? Why do I feel like I've ripped something apart? I want to cry… Namu's staring at me, panting from his climax.
"Hey, Allen." I can't look at him right now. I, I can't… He'll just turn back into that face, one haunting eye filled with kindness and grief… no! I, I can't think about him… I guess Namu took my silence as an invitation to speak, as he continued on. "You shouted someone else's name when you climaxed." Oh my God, I did? Now Namu's going to know! I love him, I love him with all of my heart, I know I do! So who was that man that snuck in to my head? Why can't I just ignore it? Such a sad face… I wonder what happened to him. Namu reached down and kissed me, almost as if he was trying to push the other man out of my head through sheer force. Ahh… I'd forgotten how nice this felt, all tingly and warm. The tingles spread, flushing all through my body and slowly, slowly that haunting jade-green glow that had imprinted itself on my mind faded, faded and I'm floating… drifting in the heaven that is Namu. But somehow, this just doesn't seem very real anymore. I wonder why? Hmm… I wonder who that man was… huh? I… I can't remember what he looked like. Something to do with emerald… or was it amethyst? Yes, that was it, violent purple, with perfectly tan skin and blonde hair. Namu… slowly he pulled away, leaving me panting and almost begging for more.
"Now then, mind telling me who this person is?" Namu purred as he slipped his smooth hands down what was left of my shirt, tracing circles on my skin. Ahh… anything for my master…
"Namu… it was you." He nodded at that, a satisfied smile creeping on his face. He smiled at me… I'm so happy!
"Good… that's what I thought." Namu smirked and he's just so sexy, so wonderful, I can't take it anymore!
"Hey, Master Namu?"
"Yes?"
"Can you break me?" Namu raised an eyebrow at that, smirking as he slid on top of me again, sparking delicious feelings all through me. I want him, I want to belong to him only!
"Of course."
~~~Lavi POV and end of lime! Come to think of it, that was more like a proper lemon… sorry! ^^ ~~~~
Okay, I made it up the mountain, now I just have to find a way into this huge-ass mansion and contact Allen. Easier said than done… at least I have Timcampy for company! He's stuck around me ever since he left Allen. Right now he's fluttering around above my head, making funny little skeeing noises. Seriously. Timcampy roars, twitters and skees. That is how he communicates! I suppose I should take a note for my studies… eh. Can't be stuffed. So then… maybe I should knock? It can't hurt… taking a deep breath, I strode over to the door. Here goes… ratatat!
"Yes? Can I help you?" geez… the gruff voice sounded like it wanted to do anything but.
"Uh… hi. I'm wondering about a friend of mine, she was sent to work here…"
"She will be fine, thank you. Now please leave." The hell? Whoever is on the other side of this is a real jerk! Like hell Allen's all right, they wouldn't be this secretive unless something was going on! Still, they're not going to just let me waltz in it seems… whatever! Like I've ever let that stop me before! Especially not when it comes to someone I care about.
"…I see. Well, tell Lily I said hi!" I called, and then stormed away. Damn it all! It's going to be annoying, sneaking in and all of that… oh well! I'll find a way. Now, easiest option first! Have they left a window open? ...but then I'll need a disguise in case I'm seen while I'm in there. Crap. I didn't bring one up with me… well, I can at least scout out the place… no dammit, I want Allen back now! I don't wanna wait! Damn… this sucks! I'm pretty sure everything's still okay, but I can't help being a little worried… just a little!
I broke out in a light jog, passing one window, two windows, three windows… dammit maids, be lazy and leave one unlocked, for Gods sake! Four windows, five… oh? A flash of white and blonde caught my attention. What was that? I only know of one person with white hair, so it must be… Allen! My God, what luck! I'll just run back and knock on the window, getting his attention and I'll know whether he's okay or not! My excitement builded as I rushed back, Timcampy skeeing at me in protest. I'm so relieved… I was worried he might be seriously injured. I raced to the window and… was met with the sight of my true love and best friend making out with another man. …Fuck.
I, I don't get it… why? Allen loves me! He told me so! He told me! He, he promised… I see. Haha…I'm not the most interesting guy on the planet, am I? He probably got bored… Hell, I jumped him. That was what kept him here, the excitement. Once that was over… He was just being nice. He was playing me, acting all lovestruck to keep his best friend happy. I, I should be happy that he thought about me then, right? Even though he didn't care for me that way, he still wanted to make me smile. I, Isn't there an unspoken rule that if you really love someone, you'll love them enough to let them go if it makes them happy? But it hurts, dammit, it hurts! I don't want to let him go! He's mine, mine MINE! He was mine… was. He should've said something… rather than do this. Ah well… huh, it's raining. My cheeks are wet… and everything hurts.
Well, he always said I'd come to this, didn't he? Repeating the same moments over and over again. Haha… I'm a fool. I can't believe I thought I'd be different this time. You can't fight against fate, the clock, tick tock, tick tock… y, you can never… escape… tick. Huh… it's starting. For some reason, I don't care. Hehe, I can't fight it… tick, tick, tick… haha…it's a countdown, a countdown, I can't change anything! I'm just going to disappear! Nothing left but paper, paper, letters and numbers~ no difference at all. No one will care! No one will miss me! And time will just repeat, repeat, burying me and everything important in the sand of its hourglass. Tick, tick, tick, tick, tick… no, stop that, I hate it, hate that sound! It's laughing at me, laughing like that person, tipping sand over, and over, burying me in the hourglass, counting down to the time I will just disappear. I… I don't want to disappear. I want to be remembered, unburied, forever in a loop, a pattern, round, like a circle in a spiral, like a wheel within a wheel…
The world is spinning, spinning as I slump , but it won't stop! It will never stop! HAHAHA! I have to make it stop. I will make it stop for me! I will be remembered! Lalala~ a loop, loop, repeat, repeat… tick, tock, tick, tock… If I repeat, will I be remembered? Will this scar go away? Will he be proud of me? Will he stop me repeating? I wonder if time will freeze for me, like it did then, the everlasting pattern of time, the countdown to my death and disappearance from history…
"…Lavi? My God, you okay?" Oh? That's Yuu! Yuu will definitely be remembered, cause he's strong, strong, swimming against the flow and winning, everyone will remember him! But not me… I don't like that. He's burying me in the sand, the sand of the hourglass, I'll be forgotten so he can be remembered… that's how time works. The strongest are remembered, the weaker are forgotten. Hey, will he help me make time stop? Will he help me be remembered? If I stop his time, frozen, he will be forgotten. I will be remembered! Tick, tock, tick, tock, tick… I hate that sound! GET AWAY FROM ME! Yuu's got a watch! Nonono, he's trying to speed up my time, bringing time closer, and closer, erase me so I am buried… NO! Innocence, ACTIVATE!
"L, Lavi? What the fuck!" Yuu swore quietly, quietly , but not quietly enough and I'm dancing, dancing, ducking and weaving as time counts down the seconds, tick, tock until one of us is gone… slash, jab, dive, extend, kill, kill, so I may remain! Time shall not get to me! I shall…
SLAP!
…huh? What…
"Are you awake now? Snap out of it!" …Yuu? What's he doing… holy crap he's bleeding! The samurai was panting deeply, leaning on Mugen as blood gushed from a shallow cut on his stomach. Oh my God! I bolted over to him, only to have my legs give out halfway. Huh? What… Yuu gave a short bark of laughter, and by the wince on his face he immediately regretted it.
"Well, you really are an idiot rabbit. You don't realize what you just did, do you?" he weezed out. What? What did he mean by… Oh, God.
"Oh NoNoNoNoNo…" I pushed myself back from everyone, guilt and fear wracking my frame. I, I'd slipped into… How could I let myself do that? If Yuu hadn't shown up I would've killed people! And from the look of the cut on his stomach, I tried to kill him. Oh God, I, I… Yuu sighed loudly as he hobbled his way over, his enhanced healing ability already in effect.
"Oi, don't worry about it, okay? Your master already told me you were Chronophobic. It was my own fault for wearing a watch." He scowled at me as I flinched at the mention of the hated tool. Here, I bought you a tablet from Bookman and some new information on the mission." That's right, the mission… I couldn't help letting out a short bark of resentful laughter at that. Like the mission could go on now, Allen had fallen for the main suspect! H, he wouldn't help us at all… Yuu just frowned at my outburst, handing over a herbal tablet and his canteen. Ah. So that was why I was so touchy! I'd forgotten the things that keep me sane. Oops…
"Anyway, we got some more info from HQ. Turns out the enemy here is way more dangerous than we were led to believe, as he's actually a compatible human." My eyes widen at that. Well, at least Allen hadn't fallen for an Akuma. But what were the chances of fighting a non-Noah human? "we found out that his innocence manipulates people, and It can make people fall in love with him from just a touch. They forget the outside world and fall hard and fast for him. My guess is that he had a crush on someone who hated him, and the innocence responded to his desire to be loved." Yuu continued to rattle on about details, but I wasn't listening. He could make people fall in love? That meant, that just maybe… I bolted upright, startling Yuu who fell on his side with an undignified yelp.
"Yuu! Do you know of a way in?" he blinked at my sudden enthusiasm, then realization dawned and he jumped up as well.
"Yes, the vents. There's a high chance Allen has already been charmed, so we'll have to find a way to break the spell. Plus…" Yuu rummaged around in his bag, tongue just protruding his lips as he concentrated. Ooh, I might just have to take a photo of that… Lenalee will kill me for it! but not before stealing the picture. "Plus I brought disguises, in case we have to move in the open space." Aaand… done! Timcampy has the photo safely stored away… oh god, what are those? Yuu grinned evilly at my discomfort, finding great pleasure in shoving the outfits in my face. "You can pick. Rabbit or Alice?"
I said it once, I'll say it again. This has been a crappy week.
Shugo: there… ugh. I am sincerely sorry for the crap quality of this chapter, it's really obvious I'm experimenting. I'm sorry! Plus I didn't get in half the plot points I thought I would… yeah. *stabs Chapter with knife*
Bakura: Knives! :D I like knives, they make me feel all tingly~ anyway, Shugo has no idea what she's talking about with the panic attack bit, so if anyone is actually Chronophobic, please don't get offended. She means no harm. Also, bonus points if you recognise the song lyrics hidden in there from the song 'clockwork' by phrase. Best white rapper out there~
Sarah: well, anyway… comments? Fangirl moments? Horrible bits that you need to bitch about? Just drop a review!
Lavi: you sound like a salesperson.
Sarah: ^^ anyway, thanks for reading!
Shugo: wait wait WAIIIIIT! Um, personal request! Has anyone read an Allen X Lavi genderbend, in which (and this is the bit that kills it) Lavi becomes the girl? Cause I can't find one… just something I think would be funny. Anyway! Sorry! Thanks once again! *hands out cookies*
