Meant to Be?
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter.
Summary: In Lily Evans's fourth year, she fell in love with James Potter. Nothing ever came of it though, and he transferred to Durmstrang the next year. Finally, after years of trying, Lily believes she's over him, and is looking forward to her seventh year at Hogwarts, especially since this year she has a boyfriend. Yet, what happens when James comes back?
Chapter 10 - Someday
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James escorted Lily to the dance floor, then twirled her around. She smiled at him, but it didn't quite stop the tension. She leaned her head on his shoulder, lost in thought. "Are you angry with me?" James asked.
She moved her head off his shoulder, then said, "No, Jay. I'm not. How could I be." Lily knew that her smile would falter if she didn't get out of his arms soon. She knew that they were only dancing because Sirius and Dre put him up to it. Lily wasn't going to have any of that. Once the song was done, Lily released him, and said, "Thank you for the dance James, it was very sweet of you. I believe though, that you should get back to the pretty blonde sitting over there waiting for you."
"Your welcome," James said, and for a moment neither one moved. Then, James walked back over to his date. Lily watched him walk away, then decided to leave the ball.
Sirius sighed as he watched the two of them stop dancing. He could tell by the look on Lily's face she wasn't too happy with him, or Dre. He exchanged looks with Dre, and he knew she was thinking the same thing. Dre put her head on his shoulder, feeling miserable for her best friend.
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The second Lily got back to the Head Girl Room, she went straight into the bathroom. Lily wiped off all the make up, took down her hair, and then threw it up into a ponytail. She walked to her dresser, and pulled out an oversized shirt, and some pajama bottoms. Lily then took her journal out to write.
I highly doubt the date is important. All I know was the Yule Ball ended up a disaster, at least for me. I'm so sick of these games Jay and I seem to play. We dance around each other, then something happens. Of course it ends up being awkward again. It's not fair. Dre and Sirius didn't help either. In fact, getting the two back together was the only accomplishment I had made. For James, he has his newest conquest. I believe her name was Stephanie or Samantha. Something like that. I wish I had what Sirius and Dre share.
Lily would have written more, but there was a knock at the door. She didn't even bother to ask who it was. "Hey Dre," she said in a grim tone.
"Lily, I'm sorry," she stated, sitting next to Lily upon her bed.
"You have nothing to be sorry for," she commented.
"Yes I do, the James thing-"
"Don't worry about it," Lily interrupted. She didn't want to have any more of this conversation. She just wanted to forget James Potter and everything he was.
Dre noticed the look in her eyes, and knew she still had strong feelings for James. She suddenly felt guilty for all the times her and Sirius had acted in front of Lily, instead of noting how upset she was.
As if reading her mind, Lily said, "Stop acting so bloody guilty. You had nothing to do with it. You know Dre, not everything revolves around you." Dre looked at her, slightly hurt, but knew that Lily was just angry with James. Lily was shocked at what she had said. She didn't even realize it until after she said it.
"Dre, I-"
"I know Lily. You're just upset," she responded, "Lily, you should cry. I don't think you've let all your anger and frustration out."
"Can't," Lily told her.
"Why not?" Dre asked. As Lily began to open her mouth to reply, Dre said, "And don't give that crying is a sign of weakness thing." Lily smiled at Dre. It was a small one, but one none the less.
"You know me too well," was all she said. Dre knew that Lily would keep her emotions locked up inside of her, and knew it was up t her to make the waterworks happen, so that way Lily was finally okay.
"Tell me why Lily," Dre tried again.
"I can't."
"Why not?"
"It's-it. I don't know Dre," Lily said finally, " It's not fair."
"What's not fair," Dre questioned, hoping that Lily was beginning to open up.
That did it. All it took was one question, and Lily poured everything out. "It's not fair that I love him. It's not fair that I subconsciously sat there and pined for him for three years Dre, THREE BLOODY YEARS! It's not fair that he gives me a single kiss, and then says nothing about it. It's not fair that he can go around and act happy, while I have to sit here and cry. It's not fair that for the first time I finally get over him, and have a steady relationship, that he just had to come back in my life. It's not fair that he can label us as friends when we have always been so much more than that. It's not fair that he can go around screwing any girl he wants, when the only thing I can think about is him. Dre, I hate it. I can't take it anymore, I just want to forget him," Lily said as her eyes burned with such an intensity, that Dre was almost scared of them.
Dre could see that Lily had finally exploded, that everything that she had keep inside for the past few months, now had blew up. She hugged Lily, and didn't say a thing as Lily's tears began to fall.
"Will it ever stop Dre?" Lily asked suddenly.
"Will what stop?" Dre asked, glancing at the girl.
"The pain, Dre," Lily stated, "The pain from having lost something that you realized you never truly had in the first pace."
Dre gave her a bittersweet smile, "My mum always told me time was your best friend and your worst enemy. It's always there when you need it, but it never passes quite as fast as you want it to. For you Lil, I think it's becoming your worst enemy. But, someday Lily, someday everything will come to pass."
Lily looked up at Dre, then said in agreement, "Someday."
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Author's Note
- What did you guys think? Next chapter will have some more Lily and James interaction, some will be sad, some will be happy. Please review and tell me what you think.Thanks to my reviewers:
Nour - I'm glad u like it…I'm going to have James be "blind" for a few more chapters, but in the end, he'll get it. =)
Lil Bazza - don't worry, James just hasn't realized what he really what's yet.
prongsiegurl - James has a few more screw ups, but never fear they WILL end up together, just not yet. =)
pInKpIlLo6 - I'm sorry that you're feeling sick, but I'm honored that my story made you feel better.
DK Lili
Sweet Lory Black - nope it's not up imagination, he just completely blind.
firewalker32
all about me - the next chapter takes things back to James, so you'll get to see what he was thinking.
Song for this chapter - Faith Hill, Cry
If I had just one tear running down your cheek
Maybe I could cope maybe I'd get some sleep
If I had just one moment at your expense
Maybe all my misery would be well spent
Yeah.... Could you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that you're feeling a little more pain
I gave now I 'm wanting
Something in return
So cry just a little for me
If your love could be caged, honey I would hold the key
And conceal it underneath the pile of lies you handed me
And you'd hunt those lies
They'd be all you'd ever find
And that'd be all you'd have to know
For me to be fine
Yeah.... And you'd cry a little
Die just a little
and baby I would feel just a little less pain
I gave now I'm wanting
Something in return
So cry just a little for me
Give it up baby
I hear your goodbye
Nothins goin save me
I can see it it your eyes
Some kind of heartache
Darlin give it a try
I dont want pity
I just want what is mine
Yeah... Could you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that your're feeling a little more pain
I gave now I'm wanting
Something in retrun
So cry just a little for me
Yeah... Cry just a little for me
woo ooo, could you cry a little for me
yeah, yeah
