Catherine was asleep when she heard the first scream. She was instantly awake and she realized Sara was having a dream. She took her in her arms and started rocking her. "Sara, honey, shhh, it's ok. I got ya, baby. It's just a dream. Come on baby wake up." She just held her until her breathing became even again. "It's ok, I'm right here." She leaned back so she could look in Sara's eyes and was surprised by the fear she saw there. She pulled her back into her arms and continued the rocking and just held her.
Sara wrapped her arms around Catherine's waist and felt so safe. Catherine was rocking her as if she was a baby but somehow it felt right. No one had ever done that before. Her words were soothing and comforting. "See what you are getting yourself into?'
"It's going to take a whole lot more than this to get rid of me Sidle. Lindsey had nightmares after Eddie died and they were much worse than this. So you're going to have to try harder." She heard Sara's deep sigh and knew she was ok. "Want to talk about it?" Sara nodded her head. "Want something to drink first?" Sara nodded her head again. Catherine laughed at her childlike behavior. "You wait here and I will be right back."
"Promise?"
"What do you think I'm going to do? Run away because my girlfriend has a dream? No way Jose, besides this is my house. I'll be right back." She kissed her on the forehead and headed inside. She came back out with a couple of cokes and saw that Sara was asleep again. She set the drinks to the side, lay down beside her and gently wrapped her arms around her. She was bound and determined, if she could help it, that Sara would never be alone again when she had another dream. She too fell asleep.
"Hey sleepy head. Wake up." Catherine slowly opened her eyes to see Sara smiling down on her.
"What are you smiling about?"
"I fell asleep the second time and didn't dream." She looked so proud of herself. "I'm not going to kid myself and say it wont happen again but that is the first time in years that I slept and didn't dream. Thank you."
"For what? I just slept next to you."
"For being there." Sara leaned forward and gave her a kiss. When their lips met they instantly deepened the kiss. "What time is it?"
"Time to eat. Why is it we are always naked when it is time to eat?"
"Because we have only had clothes on for about 15 minutes since we entered the house this morning. Sure saves time if we don't have to get undressed doesn't it?"
"Sure does." And Catherine pulled her down for another kiss. They were both breathing harder when they pulled apart. Catherine's hand was in Sara's hair and she pulled her down for another kiss. "Whew, you are potent. I could do that all day and never get tired of it. But right now we both need the other kind of sustenance to give us strength for this kind activity. That is if you want to continue this activity."
"I want, I want, I definitely want." The site of her cute, tight ass running into the house made Catherine laugh. Yes, I could definitely get used to this, she thought. She started walking slowly back into the house. When she got to the kitchen doorway she once again caught site of Sara's cute tight ass but this time it was already dressed and sticking out of the refrigerator. "How did you get dressed so fast?"
Sara didn't even turn around when she started speaking. "Comes from waking up late and dressing as you are running out the door. Gives my neighbors something to talk about. You should see me putting on shoes and socks as I'm hopping down the hallway with breakfast in my mouth. What should we eat?"
"Did you know you have a very cute ass?"
"So I've been told. What's with all this green stuff in here?" She still had her head in the refrigerator.
"You're a vegetarian so I bought what I thought you would need. If you want something else we can go shopping. I hope you don't mind if Lindsey and I still have meat once in awhile. Today we can grill veggie shish ka bobs out back."
Sara finally turned around and Catherine was surprised to see tears in her eyes. Sara walked towards Catherine very slowly. Never breaking eye contact. "Catherine Willows, if I wasn't already in love with you I am now." She kissed her very soundly. "You are the most thoughtful person in the world. Not many would think about stocking veggies" She kissed her again. "I do believe we will get along in the food department. As well as other departments. We've already proven we get along in the sex department." She kissed her again. "Do you have marsh mellows? How about some candy bar?"
"A vegetarian with a sweet tooth. Yes, I have everything we need to make s'mores."
"Cool! I like this. I never thought of myself as domestic, I eat take out a lot, I don't usually fix complete meals for myself but I like the way this feels."
"Just wait until Lindsey gets home. She will drive you crazy. Sara do this. Sara do that. Sara can you help me with this? Sara I need cupcakes for school tomorrow. Sara my bike is broke can you fix it now? All of this while you are sleeping, after a double shift. Are you ready for that?"
"As you said, you're a package deal, as long as you are part of the package it will be worth it."
"You sure know how to get on a girls good side. Now let's go outside and get this food cooking then we can get something else cooking."
"Oh that was bad Catherine that was bad."
They made their dinner in companionable silence working well together. They took time to exchange kisses throughout the dinner. They cleared the table, rinsed the dishes and put them in the dish washer. "So what do you want to do tonight?" Asked Catherine.
"Can we cuddle on the couch? Watch TV and make out like teenagers?"
"Most definitely."
They sat down and playfully argued over what they were going to watch and then settled back to watch a comedy. They found that they really enjoyed just sitting together and doing nothing. Well, they weren't exactly doing nothing. Hands were roaming and the temperature in the house seemed to have gone up quite a few degrees. Catherine finally turned off the TV and sat on Sara's lap facing her. "I just want you to know that I have really enjoyed today. Eddie never liked to play. He was always into other things. With you I can play and have a good time. Thank you." She kissed her on the forehead and then leaned her forehead against Sara's.
They sat that way until Sara saw a tear drop onto her lap. "Hey, why the tears?"
"I'm scared. Scared that I will wake up and this was all a dream. No, let me finish." She said when Sara started to say something. "When I first saw you lying on that table, the first thing that entered my mind was that it wasn't fair. I was going to lose you before I even had the chance to have you. Then I saw what he had done to you, and for the first time in my life I really wanted to hurt someone. I still do. When I watched him do those things to you my hatred grew. But when he raped you, I wanted to kill. I have never felt such rage." She held Sara tight to her chest, but there was nothing sexual about it. It was done to comfort, she wasn't sure who she was comforting. Herself or Sara.
"Much of the same thoughts went through my mind. I thought that I was going to die in that hole and I was pissed that I never told you that I have loved you for years. I was angry that he made me feel defenseless. I swore I would never feel that way again. He took away my choices. When he raped me it brought back all of the memories that I have worked so hard to deal with. My father raped me when I was growing up and this brought all of that back. He's still out there Catherine, what if he comes back?"
"We'll just have to make sure we are ready for him. Sweetie, I am so sorry for what you've gone through.. If your father wasn't dead already I would kill him myself for what he did to you."
"Boy you're going to be a regular serial killer by the time you get through slaying all of my dragons."
"If I could I really would slay your dragons."
"I know you would and you have no idea how that makes me feel. No one has ever offered to take care of me, let alone kill for me." She leaned her head back and smiled up at Catherine. "I don't deserve you."
"Don't you dare ever let me hear you say that again!" Sara was surprised by the vehemence in her voice. "Don't ever put yourself down like that." Catherine leaned down to give her a kiss.
Sara deepened the kiss and then broke the connection and leaned back. "Catherine, I am just as scared as you are, I'm not very good at this relationship thing. As I told you, I'm afraid I'm going to screw up Lindsey but I promise you this. I will try as best as I can to be the best partner and parent that I can be. I know I will make mistakes, but I will try. I haven't had very many long term relationships but I want that with you."
Catherine was beaming down at Sara. "Baby, I want that too. We can learn as we go. Like I said, when a child is born they don't hand you an owners manual. It's all hit and miss and I have missed plenty of times and Lindsey survived. She'll survive us together. I promise. You can teach her all the geeky things you know."
"What do you mean geeky? Are you calling me a geek?" But she was laughing when she said it. She slowly moved her hand down Catherine's leg. "I seem to remember a spot, right about… here." And she reached the ticklish spot behind Catherine's knee and started tickling her.
"Hey watch out, remember where this led the last time you tickled me."
"What makes you think that's not why I'm doing it now?" She tickled her so much that they fell off the couch onto the floor. Sara was now straddling Catherine's lap.
"Doesn't that hurt your knee?"
"Not at all. As a matter of fact it's still kind of numb and I really can't feel it."
Catherine reached up to the waste band of her shorts and pulled. "Can we get these off?" There was a gleam in her eye and a smile on her lips to match. "I want to test that knee of yours."
"What do you have in mind?" Sara asked as she stood up to remove her shorts and her tank top. Then she reached for Catherine's shorts and pulled them off. "Let's get rid of some of these clothes shall we?" She sat back down on Catherine's lap.
Catherine sat up so she could take off her shirt. She kissed Sara very briefly. Then kissed her again, and deepened the kiss. She reached down between their bodies to where she could feel the heat from Sara's arousal. She lay back down but when Sara tried to lay down, Catherine stopped her. Catherine reached up to massage Sara erect nipples with both hands. "God Catherine, I can never get enough of you. I think I'll want you when we're old and gray."
"We may not be able to do this when we're old and gray but it sure will be fun trying." As she was saying this she lowered her hands to Sara hips. "Raise your hips." When Sara did as she was asked Catherine moved her body down so that her mouth was directly below Sara's body.
"What are you doing?"
"Relax, and enjoy." Catherine pulled Sara's body down so she could reach her and started sucking on her swollen nub.
"Oh my god! Shit that feels good. Where the hell did you learn this?"
"No one's ever done this to you before?" Catherine moved her mouth just far enough away from her clit to ask the question.
"Hell no! I'll give you about an hour to stop doing that." Her hips seemed to be moving of their own accord. Catherine watched as her lover moved gracefully above her and thought she had never seen anything as sexy as Sara at that moment.
"You are so sexy Sara, this is such a turn on to be able to watch you like this."
Sara leaned back far enough to be able to reach Catherine's throbbing clit. With no warning she plunged two fingers into her. The moan that came from Catherine caused a vibration on Sara's clit that almost sent her over the edge.
Catherine herself was so close to her climax but she wanted to see Sara have hers first. She reached up and put two fingers in and moved them in and out. "Catherine I'm so close."
"So am I, come for me Sara. Let go baby." Sara's climax was so strong she thought she was going to pass out. When she felt Catherine's climax even before her own body had stopped shuddering she almost climaxed again. She felt Catherine's body relax and she lay down beside her.
They were both silent for quite some time. Finally Sara turned on her side so she was facing Catherine and she propped her head on her hand. "That was amazing, no that's an understatement."
Catherine's hand rose up and dropped onto Sara's side. "How about stupendous? I have absolutely no strength left in my body. I have never had an orgasm that strong before."
"Ditto. That was a first for me. Hopefully not the last, but definitely the first. Where the hell did you learn that?"
"A long ago lover taught me that but I haven't used it very often."
"I'll have to remember that one. I would love to see your lithe body above me like that as you climax."
"Wow!"
Sara reached out and pulled Catherine closer. "Where have you been all of my life?"
"Well, for the last 6 years I've been right under your nose. Figuratively and sometimes literally, lord knows I've tried to make you notice me. I guess I just didn't drop the right hints. Or maybe it just wasn't our time yet."
"Oh, I noticed you alright. You have no idea how many nights I went home and took a very cold shower and other times I went home and masturbated to thoughts of you."
"You too? I can't count the times I've had to do that. You come sauntering in with those legs that go on forever and ever. With skin tight jeans, and skimpy shirts with that little patch of skin at the waist band. Drove me crazy."
"It was meant to. I'm so glad it worked. Too bad I didn't know it worked sooner. Let's go to bed."
They went to Catherine bedroom and Sara pulled her to her and they both fell into a deep asleep.
She was back in the hole, but this time it was her father that was her captor. She could see his face clearly. He moved towards her with the belt in his hand and the look of pure hatred in his eyes. She started to whimper as if she was that same little girl. He raised the belt and she felt the sting but tried not to scream because he would get mad. It hurts so bad and she started to scream and tried to get away but he wouldn't let her go. Then she heard a quiet, soothing voice calling her name. Someone was rocking her. Who is that, this is new?
Catherine woke up because she thought she heard a noise. When she sat up she realized that the noise she heard was Sara whimpering and cowering like a frightened child. She sat up and pulled Sara into her arms, she held her and started rocking her like she had yesterday outside. "It's ok, baby, wake up. He can't hurt you anymore. I've got you; I won't let him hurt you anymore. Shhh wake up baby." She just held her and rocked her and started humming a quiet song. The body in her arms was slowly beginning to relax. She just continued rocking, humming and running her fingers through her hair. "Honey it's ok, you're safe here." She continued humming.
"What song is that?"
"I have no idea if it even is a song."
"It's pretty. I've never come out of a dream to such sweetness. Thank you."
"It is my pleasure." She was still running her fingers through her hair.
"Mmmmm that feels nice." She fell asleep with Catherine still humming the same song. Catherine couldn't remember loving anyone as much as she loved the woman in her arms. If this is all it takes to help her through the night then it would be a small price to pay for peace of mind. She sat there and held her for a few more minutes before she lay down and fell asleep herself.
