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Note: This is M rated and will have future Yaoi so be WARNED and don't say I didn't warn you. I'll put this warning on every chapter just to be sure it gets through all those thick skulls out there. Thank you for reading.

CHAPTER 11.

Reno woke slowly, mind slowly waking up from sleep. He opened his eyes, but had to squint when sunlight from his window wall shown in his eyes. Looking around he saw he was alone in the bed. Pushing himself up into a sitting position, he rubbed his eyes. For once in the past few weeks, he wasn't exhausted after sleeping.

Looking around he saw Kadaj standing by the window, staring out into the city, unmoving. A smile crossed his face as memories from last night surfaces. "Kadaj." He called out softly.

The remnant stiffened than slowly turned. Reno blinked. Why did he have Souba in his hand? "Kadaj?" The question was out before he saw his face and knew what was coming.

His eyes were cold, hard, showing nothing, but hatred. He just glared at Reno from across the room. "You…" His voice shook as he tried to keep his emotions in check. "You used me, didn't you Reno? Just like everyone else, you used me to escape from the dreams. Why did you use me?" He screamed out. He felt his heart clench at the raw emotions in his voice.

"Kadaj, I didn't use you. I-"

"Shut up! I know your just lie. Your one of Shin-Ra's people after all. They all just lie. Why did I let myself think you were any different?" He was passing now, his hand clenched around his sword until his knuckles turned white. Reno kept perfectly still, trying to keep the remnant from becoming startled.

"Why, Reno?" There were tears in his eyes and when he realized this, he brushed them away with a swipe of his hand. Reno just stared, unsure of how to react to this emotional Kadaj. Angry, sadistic, even playful he could deal with, had dealt with it before. But hurt, broken Kadaj was unknown territory to him.

"Why?!" He screamed, running forward until he was in Reno's face, but he refused to move, to blink as the man stared at him. His hand shot out, wrapping pale fingers around his throat, lifting him up off the bed. His feet the only thing giving him any support. "I could kill you so easily, Shin-ra dog. Your defenseless before me. What's to keep me from killing you? I could easily snap you neck right now and no one would be the wiser or maybe you'd rather become acquainted with my blade, which would you prefer?"

Kadaj's eyes were becoming wild in his crazed state. But Reno refused to talk, he just hang there in his grip, fighting for air, face slowly turning a red to match his hair.

Kadaj just let out a feral shriek and threw him away from him, Reno's body slamming into the wall behind him and slumping to the floor, ragged breaths tearing through his chest as he inhaled much needed air.

By the time he finally looked up, Kadaj was gone, leaving the room eerily quiet after so long with company. The heavy atmosphere pressed down on him, making him just want to lie there. "Kadaj…" the whisper was barely even heard by him. "I never meant to use you." But the statement went unheard as the remnant raced away from the building on his bike, pushing the machine as fast as it would go.

"I still haven't been able to get through to him. Are you sure there's something wrong with Kadaj?" Tifa asked Yazoo and Loz as they crowded around her and the phone worriedly.

"Yes. We felt it this morning. Something has happened, but we can't tell what. His mind has been closed off to us for some reason, like he's hiding something." Yazoo explained.

"Well, you're probably going to have to go over there yourselves. Reno's not picking up, and I don't know if he's not there or if he's not picking up for some other reason." They nodded and ran from the room.

Where are you two going?" Cloud asked as they passed him.

"Something's wrong with Kadaj. We're going to see what happened." Yazoo called as the ran.

"I'll come with you than. I need to see Reno as it is." They looked at him briefly, than nodded. They would be able to stop him as it was.

They reached Reno's apartment building a few minutes later. Not even waiting for the elevator to arrive, they raced up the stairs. Cloud, just let them, standing in front of the elevator and going up the easier way.

He reached his floor a few seconds after them, but they hadn't gone inside. "What's the matter?" He asked as he walked over to them. He saw why as he stopped in front of the now open door. Something had gone down in here. It wasn't in shambles, but things were scattered around, knocked off of shelves. "Reno?" He called out as he stepped in.

He walked through the main room, looking in the kitchen and finally making his way to the bed room. The two remnants behind him, silent eyes scanning the rooms as the trailed behind him. He pushed open the door to Reno's bed room, and walked in slowly.

The one thing that caught his mako enhanced vision was a large dent in the wall to his right. It looked like something large had been thrown against it with a large amount of force, from the looks of the cracks in the dry wall. He looked closer and saw a strand of red hair stuck in one of the cracks.

"Where are they?" Loz's voice broke the silence that had settled over them.

"I don't know. You two, go look for Kadaj. His bike is gone, so he's somewhere in the city. I'll look for Reno." They nodded and ran out of the room, headed for the stairs.

Cloud followed them slowly. He knew Reno hadn't gotten far, if what he had seen in the room was what he thought it was. Something had set Kadaj off from the looks of it, and Reno had been on the receiving end.

Hazarding a guess, he went to the elevator and pushed the up button. Stepping in, he pushed the top floor and waited for the machine to ascend. When it opened on the roof, he knew he was right. He could smell the smoke from the cheap cigarettes that Reno always smoked.

Looking around, he saw a sliver of red showing between two air vents. Walking around them, he saw Reno leaning against them, head down as he took another drag from the cigarette. "Reno?" He asked softly.

He gave a snort of laughter. "I was wondering when someone was going to show up." He looked up at him. Cloud just stared at him. He looked like hell. There was a large purple bruise already spreading across the right side of his face and the one around his throat was in the distinctive shape of a hand.

"What happened?" He finally asked, dragging his eyes from the bruises to look at him.

He gave a soft sigh. "I made a mistake, and I paid for it. Oh and if your wondering where Kadaj is, he's probably already out of Midgar by now."

"Reno, what did you do?"

"I forgot who exactly he was and let my guard slip." His eyes were like steel when he said this. "I can't even begin to know why I let my guard down. I feel like an idiot." He lay his forehead down on his hand.

"What are you going to say to Rufus if he asks? You know he won't take this well if he finds out."

"I wasn't going to say anything. This is personal, not work related. And I know what will happen if Rufus finds out, but…it's not Kadaj's fault. It was probably the biggest mistake of my life. I guess I really did use him. Looks like he was right." Reno was just muttering to himself by now. Cloud had no idea what he was talking about, but what ever it was, had caused the Remnant to freak and run.

"Yazoo and Loz are looking for him right now. Maybe they'll be able to make sense of what your rambling about." Cloud, just turned around and left him there.

"If you see him, tell him I'm sorry. That I never meant for it to happen." Cloud nodded but continued to the elevator without looking back. This was going to take sometime to sort out, but first they had to find Kadaj.


Poor Kadaj, he's hurting. I know you guys were hoping for it to be a happy thing between them, but you must wait for that to come. I didn't plan for it to end right away with them being all sunshine and rainbows, you must wait for that to come. But it will be a happily ever after thing, since I suck at writing unhappy endings. So be patient for it to come.

The next chapter is focused mainly on Kadaj when they find him and it will give a look into Kadaj's thoughts on how he came to the conclusion that he was being used. Look forward to the next chapter.

Until Next Time

~Reiya