A/N I'm sorry for the wait, but I've been sick for the past month and I haven't felt like writing. The next update will probably be next week.
When the wolves came I immediately noticed that something was wrong. Seth was walking between Leah and Jake and I had a bad feeling about it. They halted in front of me and phased.
"What happened?" I asked Seth. The other two weren't looking at each other and Seth looked upset with them. Seeing as the other two ignored me it was Seth who answered me.
"They kissed and Leah doesn't want a relationship because she's convinced that he will imprint on someone else and Jacob told her that she could do the same and they haven't talked ever since. "
"Great. Are the kids save?"
"They are with their mother at the moment. She was happy to see them back after all she's been through."
I was glad to hear that. Children should never be taken from their parents, if they could stop it from happening.
"What happened while we were away?"
"They've been taken care of."
"Please, just tell me what's going on. I'm the one that's staying with you. I have the right to know."
I don't know why, but I felt my anger bubbling to the surface.
"You are here voluntarily, Seth. I never told you to stay, and I sure as hell didn't ask you to sacrifice your life for me."
I had to calm down. The burning was starting again and I didn't want to have a repeat performance. I took a deep breath and told the wolves to leave.
"What?" Seth exclaimed. "Why?"
"Our alliance was temporary. You are in danger as long as you're with me and I don't want you here."
I knew that it was pointless to argue with Seth, so I faced Jacob. He was the Alpha after all.
"You need to leave."
"I agree. You have to many enemies, and I don't trust you not to stab us in our backs."
"I will never kill someone from behind. I'm not a coward like you."
I needed to get them away from me. Wolves were not good company for our kind, and especially not ones like Jake.
"Fine, let's go."
It was an order of an Alpha and the other two couldn't refuse. I had no doubt in my mind that Seth was arguing with Jake and Leah at the very moment.
All of us took off and went east. I knew that they would be going south soon, though, where I would be heading north. I used my shield one last time to evade the Cullens and watched the puppies leave for Forks.
I was too engrossed to notice that I was not alone. Once I turned around, ready to run even further away from the Volturi, I came face to face with Jasper Cullen.
Seeing him this close up made me wince. I could see every single scar on his face and arms. He seemed confident enough to stand straight instead of crouched and I tilted my head to the side.
They were wearing their baseball attire and had frozen in the middle of the game. I could see Alice with the small ball in her hand and thought about our time together. The shopping trips, the sleepovers and the fact that she was my best friend.
I raised my shield to cover everyone except for Edward. I saw him look at me and he looked like I was the bane of his existence.
"What did you do?" he asked.
"In my experience, you are more likely to discover something when you have a lot of facts. You have your own observations and theirs. I don't like cheating, not when someone else does it."
"How did you do it?"
"It's my power. I'm pretty sure that it works on everyone."
"What are you talking about?" the petite girl with the ball shouted.
"I can't hear anyone."
"Are you deaf?" Emmett asked.
"His mind, Emmett," Rose whispered, crouching. She obviously didn't trust me.
"He's fine."
"Cara, thought that you'd gone to find your friends."
"It was necessary for them to leave. There will be a lot of trouble for them if they meet the Volturi."
"The Volturi will find them eventually," Carlisle said with a small smile.
"The Volturi is looking for me, I would like it if they could live a decade longer."
"What have you done?" Jasper was suspicious immediately, and the other started to get into a defensive position.
"I know something about Aro that others don't. He wants to erase the story by ending my existence."
"I am friends with Aro. I will talk to him if you stay with us."
"Do you have a death wish? Do you know what it would mean to them if I were to be found residing in your home? They have you on a list. You're a powerful and dangerous clan, they want to kill you all. They only need to know what you've been up to, and you're over. It doesn't matter if the human still lives or not."
I jumped to the side to evade Edward's right hand, but he had me pinned to a tree with his left in no time.
"What do you mean? Still lives or not."
"You don't know?"
I was surprised. I'd thought that he would at least let Alice keep an eye on me.
"Don't know what?" he asked angrily.
"It's the reason why the wolves joint me for a while, your human's truck was found at the cliff during a storm. Her body was never found."
A human would've collapsed, but Edward could do nothing but stare. I stared right back into his black eyes. My instinct got the better of me and I removed myself from his iron grip and made sure that he was still at the other end of the clearing.
He just stood there, the world forgotten. I haven't seen him express any other emotion besides sadness and anger. I suddenly heard him whisper.
"Why did she do it?" he asked.
"They found a note in her car, which was the main reason that they didn't look for her."
"Do you know what it says?" Alice asked me.
I closed my eyes, remembering what I'd written down and what the wolves had taken because of the references to our world, not what my father had found.
"It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all: From Alfred Lord Tennyson's poem In Memoriam. I don't really agree. You cannot miss what you never had. Life would've been easier for me if I hadn't fallen in love. I wouldn't be missing the world I never should've been part of in the first place. It hurts too much. My life has been lived. I have nothing left. I believed that immortality was a beautiful thing, and even though I haven't experienced it, I believe that it is a curse. To live forever like this is not a gift, not when you can't be with your family, when everyone you hold dear leaves. I was always the odd one out, even in their world. It is time to start anew, and I know of only one way. In three hours, I will no longer have a beating heart. I will no longer have to eat, which hurts my stomach all the time. I will no longer have responsibilities. In a few hours, I'll be free. "
We stood there silently, each grieving in their own way. I couldn't be angry seeing this. It is obvious that Edward lied to me that day in the forest. He loved me, and I didn't know how I felt about that.
One by one, they went to the house that I could see on the hill. Carlisle and Esme were the last two to leave and I followed them, wanting to make sure that they would get to ask some questions.
The whole house was silent for two days. We were seated at the dining room table and I kept the others shielded. If Edward did indeed love me, I wanted him to be alone in his thoughts.
"Did you meet her?" Carlisle asked.
"I've met her briefly. I see myself in her reflection. We were much alike."
It was time to get serious.
"Who knows about her?" I asked quietly.
"Why do you ask?" Rose glared at me. It was probably because she thought that I shouldn't have been there in the first place.
"Answer the question." I ordered
"We do, Victoria did and the Denali clan does." Emmett answered.
"Where are they?"
"In Denali, why do you think it's called the Denali clan." Edward said, his velvet voice laced with sarcasm.
"Eleazar is in Volterra though, Aro had an assignment for him. He probably meant you."
Shit. That was the first thought that entered my mind. The second was: I have no reason to leave.
"Why are you asking this."
"Aro's been looking for a reason to kill you for decades. If he's read Eleazar's mind, you're all dead for associating with a human and leaving her alone while she knows about who we are. "
"What!"
"We're all dead."
A/N If anything isn't clear just say so and I'll explain with a PM or in my next A/N. I've tried to explain that the pain that comes with Bella's firepower hurts so much that she doesn't want to use it. I will explain how this is not a second power in the next chapters. I don't know how long this is going to be, but I think at least another 4 chapters.
