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Last chapter about Santana's and Jessie's history! Sorry It got long but it only means we are getting closer to Faberry! [:
Santana's POV
"Ready to get wasted?" I asked Quinn
"Totally!" she said
"Alright." I said as I drove to Quinn's house with Chanel's hurt filled eyes was the only thought that filled my head it was something I wanted to erase with tequila shot for a moment because I couldn't take the pain and love it was bringing back not now at least. Specially not when she's with hobbit. That thought made the pain grow stronger and I began to be filled with the same rage Quinn had for Chanel except I wanted to murder Rachel Berry for being everything I wasn't with her. Brave.
"What's up?" Quinn asked as we pulled up to her driveway.
"Nothing, just need a drink."I say as I get out of the car. "You coming, right?"
"Of course, I only live here." She said as she got out of the car.
"Well cool open the door." I say
"San!" I heard some one scream and I turned
"Britt?" I say as I get closer.
"What's wrong?" I say when I'm in front of her.
"I can't do this any more." she says and leaves me dumbstruck
"What do you mean?" I ask.
"You left this at my house." She says as she hands me my wallet.
"Britt what does this have to do with anything?" I ask her confused.
"This fell out." she hands me a pink piece of paper and it all makes sense now.
Flashback
(Summer of 8th grade) (Disney World)
"Yeah San, I want to be my first. I know you won't hurt me." She said from under the latina. The latina returned to reclaim the girls neck. Soon enough clothing became a problem, clothing was soon taken off and tossed across the room. The Latina was gentle and loving with the girl asking if she was okay when ever she heard a groan of pain and will stop and kiss the pain away. After a bit of teasing the latina claimed the girl's virginity. She heard the girl give a small groan of pain and was than followed by a soft moan. When she reached her climax the latina climbed on top of the other girl and took her lip for a heated kiss. When the girl got the strength she needed she choose to return the latina the favor. Jessie was just as sweet as loving as the latina but she came to the surprise of her life when she to claimed the latina's virginity. "Oh my god, San." she said.
"I wanted you to be my first too." she said and gather the rest of her strength to pull the girl and into a deep kiss. They snuggled against. "I love you Chanel, your my best friend." The latina said placing a kiss on the girls bare shoulder.
"I love you too, Sanya." she said lifting the girls hand from her waist and placing a kiss. Than they drifted to sleep. In the morning the latina got up and saw the other girl sleeping soundly next to her and she took out her camera and took a picture of the girl sleeping soundly in the bed; with a pink sheet wrapped around her naked body and her softly laying on half of her face and the rest on pillow. After that she decided to pack and clean the room before the other girl woke up. When she was finally done she looked at the clock it said 10:45. She remembered that the girl parents will be back in an hour. She when back to the room and saw the girl still sweetly asleep she got on the on the bed and when near the other brunette and gave her a kiss. "Morning." She said with a voice full of sleep.
"Morning, Beautiful. You should get up and take a shower. Your parent's are gonna be back soon." She says.
"Okay." Chanel says giving the latina a soft kiss and walking off to the bathroom. Sanya gets up from the bed and grabs her laptop and camera and heads to the living room of their suite. She sets down the laptop and computer on the desk next to a printer. She plugs the camera and printer to the laptop and prints out the picture she had taken earlier on pink paper Chanel loved. Once the ink dried she cut the picture out and wrote. The morning after the best night of my life. Chanel, you don't only have my heart. Now you have all of me for as long as we live; and to how ever said Disney World was the happiest place on Earth, you left out magical! 3 After that the latina folded the picture and put it on her wallet.
End of Flashback
"Britt I'm sorry." I say
"No San, don't be sorry for loving some. That's why I'm breaking our deal, we both knew we are in love with other people. But you have a chance with her now that she's back." Britney said with a smile.
"When did you get so smart?" I ask her with a smile and tears in my eyes.
She hugs me and says, "If I knew who she was sooner, I would have told you she is as broken about you leaving as you are. You got some making up to do San. Jessie still loves Sanya. Why did you lie about your name?"
"I didn't britt, it's my middle name." I say with tears threating to run down.
"I should go before my Mom finds out." She says and I let go.
"I love you Britt, you're the best friend any one could ask for." I tell her as she walks away.
"Love you too S and I will always be here." she says, than I hear Quinn walk towards me.
"San, what's up?" she asked worriedly.
"Me and Britt just broke up." I simply say and I walk towards the car.
"What? Why?" she says "Where are you going!"
"I have to make it up to some one I love more than anything in the world." I tell her and start getting into my car.
"I'm coming!" she says and gets in the car.
Jessie's POV
"Sure." she said and I handed it to her before she looked at it she asked. "why did she called you Chanel?"
"It's my middle name but after that happen. I don't let any one but my parents call me that." I told her and she finally looked at the picture. Her expression showed happiness but soon was turn it to fear.
"OH MY BARBRA THIS IS FUCKING SANTANA LOPEZ!" she said and my heart stopped beating for a moment.
"No she can't be." I say
"Sweetie I known Santana since Pre-k and that is her!" She said and I finally broke down. She's moved on and I'm left all shattered into pieces. Rachel gets up and hugs me and whispers "Sshhhh. Its gonna be okay." and rubs my back.
Santana's POV
"I have to make it up to some one I love more than anything in the world." I tell her and start getting into my car.
"I'm coming!" she says and gets in the car.
"Okay." I say and I start my car and drive out the parking lot towards Chanel's house.
"Where are you going Britt's house is on the other side of the street." she says.
"I know, she's not the one I have the making up to do with." I tell her.
"What do you mean Santana? I lost as hell will you just please explain." She says.
"During 8th grade a meet this girl named Chanel and we became best friends and than I started falling for her. I couldn't help it she was the defenition of perfection. Than during the summer, her family was gonna go on a trip to Disney World and they took me with them. Our last night there I couldn't help myself so I kissed her." Quinn chuckled." Fabray! I'm spilling by guts here so shut it!" She nodded. "Than she kissed me back and after we pulled apart I freaked out cuz I realized what I did so I started apologizing and she said I didn't need to and kissed me again and than we sort of lost our virginities that night."Quinn gasped."I woke up with no regrets thats when I realized that I loved her and we started to sort of date I guess. We slept together a few times that summer but than I fucked it up like always." I laugh humorlessly. "It got to real and I got scared so the last time we did it I asked her what we were she said anything I wanted to be I felt sort of hurt and relieved but than I fucked it up with my natural bitch reflex and said friends with benefits and she told me a truth I didn't want to hear so I walked away like the bitch I am and probably left her broken. The fuck I did leave her broken. Stupid homophobic bitch thats what I was... probably still am" I say with tears running down my cheecks. I parked in the drive way of her house which is right under her room.
"San, you were scared and young everyone makes mistakes like that." She says
"YOU DON'T GET IT Q! I RIPPED HER APART WHEN I LEFT JUST LIKE I DID TO MYSELF DENYING WHO I WAS!" I screamed at her with more tears running down
"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN! I KNOW EXCTALY WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE... I BROKE RACHEL DOWN SINCE WE STARTED HIGH SCHOOL EVERY DAMN DAY I TOLD HER THINGS THAT AREN'T TRUE CUZ I WAS SCARED OF THE TRUTH!" She screams back at me. She's right I guess, we are just as fucked up.
"I didn't mean it like that Q, I'm sorry." I say wiping my tears.
"It's okay S, what are you doing outside the enemies house." she annoyingly said.
"Jessie is Chanel." I say
"WHAT THE FUCK?" She screamed
"I know I found out as soon as we saw her earlier. Since I meet her she looked familiar but I didn't want it to be true and than Britt told me to get head out my ass and actually try because she still loves me, Sanya. Before you ask it my middle name" I say
"oh, so what are you gonna do?" she asked softly.
"Apologize and hope for the best." I say.
"How exctaly?" she asked
"The only way. I know how singing." I tell her I get out of the car. "When I point to you start the music."
"Alrite." She says with a smiles at me. I walk a few feet away from her balcony and throw rocks at her window.
Jessie's POV
"Sweetie I known Santana since Pre-k and that is her!" She said and I finally broke down. She's moved on and I'm left all shattered into pieces. Rachel gets up and hugs me and whispers "Sshhhh. Its gonna be okay." and rubs my back. As I cry I could hear two girls yelling, than it stops than I hear my window banging and there was only one person that ever did that.
"I will see who is it." Rachel says.
"No, I know." I say and walk towards the balcony window I walk out with Rachel behind me."Sanya?" "Santana?"
"Yeah, it's me and I have something every important to say please here me out." She says
"Sure." I say weakly and she points to her car and music starts blasting and Quinn walks out the car. While San starts singing.
Omniscient POV
Santana-Italics Quinn-Bold
Santana stare at Jessie and realizes the girl have been crying. She offers her a weak smile and stares into those gray eyes she missed. She starts singing.
You make It hard for me to see somebody else
I'm calling her your name
Jessie realizes were this song is going and that santana hadn't moved on as she thought.
Yea it's messed up, cause I'm thinkin 'bout you
It's your fault babe
I never wanted us to break up
No not this way
But you don't understand it girl
Jessie gets mad because, she knows it's not her fault at least not all of it but she stares at Santana's eyes and sees she is hurt to.
When she touches me, I'm wishing that they were your hands
And when I'm with her it's only 'bout the sex
With you I had a bad romance
And if I could, just trade her in I would
Jessie realizes Santana is talking about Britney and Santana sees she is finally getting her point and smiles at her.
Cause nobody compares to ya
I think I better let her go
Cause I can't leave you alone
Every day that I'm with her, all I want is you
I wanna leave but I'm afraid
That you don't even feel the same
And now I realize that she ain't you
Santana puts the most emotion on that part of the song because that the part she mean the most. She notice Jessie trying to hide a smile that threaten to break across her face. Santana starts climbing to Jessie's balcony like she did a million times a few years back.
Oh(no she ain't you)
Whoa oh oh(Na na na)
Whoa oh oh(Na na na)
She ain't, no she ain't you
I've been sleeping out
For quite some nights now
It's not the same in my bed
But if she found out what's going on in my head
Santana is finally on the balcony walking towards Jessie.
It'll be all bad, have me right back
But you don't understand it girl
When she touches me, I'm wishing that they were your hands
And when I'm with her it's only 'bout the sex
With you I had a bad romance
And if I could, just trade her in I would
Santana locks eyes with Jessie and takes her hands in her and pures the rest of her strength in the song.
Cause nobody compares to ya
I think I better let her go
Cause I can't leave you alone
Every day that I'm with her, all I want is you
I wanna leave but I'm afraid
That you don't even feel the same
And now I realize that she ain't you
No she a-ain't she ain't you
I think I better let her go
Cause I can't leave you alone
Every day that I'm with her, all I want is you
I wanna leave but I'm afraid
Jessie realizes Santana is saying nothing but the truth.
That you don't even feel the same
And now I realize that she ain't you
Oh (no she ain't you)
Whoa oh oh (Na na na)
Whoa oh oh (Na na na)
She ain't, no she ain't you
Santana's POV
As I finish the song I feel a million pounds lighter and I realized she still hasn't pulled away.
"Do you mean it?" She asked softly.
"Every word Chay. I was stupid and scared. I should have done what I did because the truth is your the only person in my life I truely care about. But if you don't want me back. Quinn's waiting down there with a tequila bottle with my name written all over it." I tell her and she gets a smile an her face.
"How do I know you won't leave again?" She asked.
"Three reasons: One, I love you more than anything. Two, me and brit broke up, and three: is this." I say and I hold the pink paper up.
"What is that?" she asked and I handed it to her.
Before she opens it I ask her "Chanel will you officially be my girlfriend?"
Hope you guys liked how everything turned out and what do you guys think Jessie is gonna say to Santana? Read and Review! I love hearing from you guys :)
