RPOV
" you really like to scare me don't you" he said after we sat there for a while.
I laughed " sometimes". I put my hand on top of his that was on my stomach.
" I cant believe I was dehydrated" I said ashamed and the tears started coming down.
" aye, its okay, your all fine" he said stroking my hair trying to sooth me.
" I couldn't even keep them nourish with water when there in my stomach how can I do this" I said and I looked up him " how and I gonna be a mother dimitri?"
He laughed " if you read those books you'd see that this happens sometimes, it doesn't mean you not gonna be a good mother the best" he kept chuckling " besides your going to have me there every step of the way".
" are you sure?" I asked.
He nodded " I'm more than sure," he kept stroking my hair.
" does this mean your gonna be more strict and crazy?" I asked.
He laughed and kissed the top of my head and rubbed my stomach " you have no idea".
I whined " im scared, does this mean I can still have my doughnuts".
He laughed " I don't think you'd ever stop eating those even if it'd kill you". He drew circles on my stomach " there going to be fine I promise, healthy little babies".
" are you sure?" I asked nervous " I cant even drink enough water for them,". Crying coming harder " please don't leave me again, I cant, I couldn't live through it again".
He held on to me for dear life. " I'm never leaving you or our kids, I promise with my life you got that" he moved me to look him in the eyes " never again".
Are faces so close together, our lips just centemetes away from touching. Then the door opened to reveal Dr. O.
" ohh sorry did I interrupt something" she asked stunned.
I shook my head " no, no just me being too emotional as always".
" so, rose, you have dehydrated, stress and worry does that to you, I need you to relax," she turned towards dimitri " she needs to be the poster girl of calm got it," she then turned back to be " I will see you at your 8 month check up, and will decide form there if bed rest is nesscasry, I will be here a couple more times to check on you you can leave tommorw morning as well" she nodded and said her goddbyes and we were left there for him to scold me. great.
" rose" he said in that tone that he would use to scold a little kid. " what has you so worried,"
I took a deep breath trying to stop my tears but they just came more " I just," I took another deep breath " I just" ughh why wasn't it coming out. " nothing, I promise I will let go of my worries, I'll try to be more open". He kissed my forehead.
" tell me, roza" and the roza part blew me.
" I want to forgive you so bad, I practically am but there's just one part of me and its soo small that cant just yet, and I want to fully forgive you so bad, it hurts me and eats me up, I want to jumo on you and I tell you I love you over and over again but I cant". I felt his breath get caught.
He twisted himself so that he could see me he put his hands on ym face. " you can forgive me whenever you want, I don't want this to stress you out I will wait for you for a day, a month or 30 years, I'm not leaving you ever again".
I nodded my head " thank you" and I smiled as he did.
" and in the mean time if you want to jump me, feel free anytime". He smiled that dazzling smile.
" your not your usual self your more loose, I don't know what to think, why are you so sappy? I asked smiling.
" for one im not your teacher anymore" he pointed out " and for two I lost you once and while I was in Russia I thought about each day we had together, I've known whats its like to be away from you and I will never let that happen again, even though you haavent forgiven me I'm happy, so happy to be here with you, having my children, us a family something I've dreamed about everynight since I was gone". He kissed my hair and grabbed my stomach " I'm am so happy and so in love, I cant help but feel and act this way". He kissed my stomach and I felt butterflies " I'm going to be a dad, we're going to be parents, thank you for our children thank you".
" say it again" I whispered.
" our children" he whispered in my ear I sat back against him once more and cuddled into him. " our beautiful, half me half you amazing children".
" I love you," he said to me.
I put my hands on top of his that were cradling my stomach. " I love you too".
