I know I promised one a day last week because I was off from Uni, but I really struggled to write this chapter and I'm still not all that happy with it. But I hope you like it. Let me know what you think?


"It's going to be fine honey, just let her try to explain herself before you jump into anything okay?" Rick told her as he rounded the car, grabbing her hand and pulling her towards the elevator

"They're going to be 10 minutes" Jim stated as he looked towards a very flushed Johanna

"Plenty of time" She stated as she stalked towards him

"Seriously Jo, we can't" Jim replied as he watched his wife

"Why not?" She asked innocently

"I don't think Katie needs to walk in on us. She's still mad at you, honey" Jim told her

"You're right" She replied before stepping away from her husband "We should get dressed"

"We should" Jim agreed, neither of them moving

"Don't look at me like that if we have to stop" Johanna grumbled as Jims eyes travelled up and down her body

"Sorry, just still amazed" Jim whispered as he took a step towards her

"Well stop it. Our daughter is coming back, and you're right, she does not need to see this" Jo admitted

"Later?" Jim asks, his eyes shining as they lock with his wife's

"Later" Jo agrees as she grabs her clothes from the floor

"Jim? Johanna?" Rick shouted as they entered the loft.

"In the living room" Jim replied

"Thank god" Kate muttered to Rick

"Come on, coffee?" Rick asked as head to the kitchen

"That'd be great thanks. You think you could distract my dad for a while? Kind of want to talk to her on my own" Kate asked as they stood at the counter

"No problem honey" Rick replied as he placed a soft kiss to her lips "just come back in here when you're ready."

"Dad? Rick wants you in the kitchen" Kate shouted before walking into the living room

"You'll be okay" Jim whispered to his wife before placing a gentle kiss to her cheek

"Why are you home so early?" Johanna asks her daughter as she takes a seat at the opposite end of the couch

"You seem to have made quite the impression on my Captain" Kate replied "She put two and two together and gave me the day off to sort some things out"

"I see. So what do you want to know?" Johanna asks her daughter

"Why? And don't just give me the crap that you used last night" Kate replies harshly

"I don't know what else you want me to say. I can't tell you what you want to know. You want to know who took me. But I can't give you that Katie" she replied

"Why not, I think I deserve that much?" Kate quizzes

"Because it doesn't matter, they got the people behind this, there's no way they will ever be getting out of prison. I'm not even sure they got that far Katie" She admits as her eyes lock with her daughters

"What are you saying mum?" Kate ask, slightly surprised by herself for calling her mum

"I'm saying that the people I was with were CIA honey, and they don't mess around when it comes to getting what they want. The men they were looking for, they were powerful, controlled a lot of things, but they weren't smart enough for the CIA. I know it's been 14 years, trust me I know, but I couldn't get out"

"The CIA? What the hell did you get yourself in to mum?" Kate whispers harshly

"I don't know, it was one case, and then the next thing I know I'm being told that I have to leave the country, that I can't say anything to you or your dad, that I can't say goodbye. It hurt, I just had to leave, couldn't take anything with me, no pictures. Nothing" She quickly wiped at the tears running down her cheeks

"It wasn't easy for us either. Dad didn't take it well, he drank a lot, and I mean a lot, until I told him that I was pregnant, and then he sobered up for me. I went crazy, nights out, one night stands; until I found out I was pregnant. Jo was like a rock for me and dad, she's kept us together. I tried to find you, god I did, but it was always dead ends, nothing came up, you just disappeared. I came home one night, well early morning, after diving into your case, dad was looking after Jo, and she was supposed to be asleep. But I got home at around 3am to find her sat on my bed, tears streaming down her face, she'd waited up for me. She was 7, she shouldn't have seen me come home looking like a zombie because I'd spent all night drowning myself in your case files." Kate admits, the tears streaming down her face

"Katie, I'm so sorry, and I know no matter how many times I say it, it's not going to take away the hurt I caused. But at the time I thought it was for the best, I didn't have any other choice, it was either my life or yourself and your father, and I wasn't going to put you in danger over something I did." Her mother admits as she feels her arms wrap around her pulling her into a hug

"I know, and I understand, I do, but it hurt, and it's going to take some getting used to." Kate started, hugging her mother back before continuing, "The hugs are helping though"

"I've missed this too sweetie" She replies as they both remain in the others embrace, her hand coming to stroke through her daughters hair as the silent tears streamed down their faces "Your father and Rick will be getting worried"

"They're good, just a few more minutes please" Kate requests as she looks up at her mother

"No problem Katie, just let me know when you're ready to let them back into the living room, okay?" Her mother tells her

"Okay" Kate replied before falling silent once again, relaxing into her mother's embrace

"You can go back into the living room dad" Kate announces as she walks into the kitchen ten minutes later

"You okay?" Rick asks as he wraps his arms around her, his head resting on her shoulder

"Better. Talked it all out" She whispers back as he nuzzled his nose into her hair

"Good. You do realise you've been over an hour right?" Rick asked as he turned her around in his arms to face him, placing a gentle kiss to her forehead

"Really? Wow, I didn't even realise." Kate replied before looking up at him, his sky blue eyes shining back at her

"Yeah, your dad was getting a little worried that you might have done something drastic when it went quiet" Rick told her

"Just needed a minute for her to hold me" She admits before stepping up on her toes and pressing a soft kiss to his lips

"So you worked everything out?" Rick quizzed as she pressed her head into his chest, his arms wrapping around her

"I guess so. She understands that I'm still mad at her decision, but I can understand where she came from, I stayed away from you for three months because I thought you'd be safer and that's exactly what she did, on a larger scale." She finally admits as they stand in his kitchen

"If you feel like that again, will you just talk to me first?" Rick whispered against her head

"I will, but I don't think it's going to be necessary Rick, I can't stay away from you, no matter how hard I might try. Those three months were hell, but I thought it was better for you in the long run" Kate whispers against his chest, her hand clutching at his shirt

"I know, it's okay, we're okay, that's all that matters" Rick answered in response "I love you"

"I love you too" Kate replies before pulling back to crash her mouth to his once more

"You okay honey?" Jim asks as he enters the living room to find his wife curled up on the couch

"Yeah, I'm fine" Johanna replies, as stubborn as ever to admit how she's really feeling

"Honestly?" Jim pushes as he sits next to her, his arm wrapping around her shoulders and pulling her into a hug

"I'm so sorry" Johanna cries "I hurt you both so much, I don't deserve to have you take me back so easily, after the pain I caused, I'd understand why you'd never want to see me again"

"Honey, look at me" Jim interrupts, cupping her cheek with his hand "I love you, Katie loves you and Johanna is going to love you, you did what you did to protect us and we didn't take it well, we know that and yes those memories are always going to be there, but you're here now. That's all that matters to me, and Katie will see that soon"

"I've missed you so much. I missed everything, they let me know the news related information on Katie, and they told me that you were both still alive, but that was all, nothing. If I'd have known how badly you both reacted I would have fought to get away"

"And you may not be here today if you had. Katie is going to be mad, you weren't there for her when she had Jo she cried a lot when she was pregnant, your disappearance was still quite fresh and she just kept saying that she wished you were there. I was no help, god I was a mess, and that's putting it nicely. I should have been there for her more I should have pushed myself to look at what I had rather than what I'd lost. But I couldn't do it, until the day she came home with the sonogram, where you could actually her little girl inside not just some bean shaped black and white image. I'm not saying this to upset you, but I just want you to understand why Katie is being like she is, she needs to be able to trust you again, she was hurt after, pushed people away, really showed her Johanna sides, she's never let anyone come close to her, to truly let herself be loved or to love, until Rick."

"I know. I can see it in her eyes that she loves him it's the same way my mum says I look at you. I just want to be in her life, I know I have to gain everything back and I think we made some progress, for the last ten minutes she just let me hold her, asked me to hold her. It made me so mad at myself, for not being able to do that when she was pregnant, not being able to just hold her through the break-ups she's had. It made me wish that I'd never left, that I'd just stayed, maybe we would have been fine, maybe they would have left us alone and I just took that option away from you both."

"It's better that you left mum." Kate answers as Rick and her enter the living room "It was the right thing to do, and even though we didn't take it well, it's better than you not being here at all, than you actually being dead like Jo thought"

"Why did you tell her that?" Johanna asks, shocked that she'd actually spoken the words

"Didn't think you were coming back, it had been six years since you'd disappeared before she asked about you, asked who the woman in the photos was, asked why she didn't have a grams like everyone else she knew." Kate answers back

"Katie!" Jim scolded

"Sorry, still getting used to it all" Kate replied after seeing the look on her parents face

"It's going to take some time for everyone to get used to it, honey" Rick told her as he sat beside her parents, his arm wrapped around her shoulder