o.o Winter Break!!! Woot! :] So happy –parties- But then I do have homework! But I would be writing a lot more though.
I'm sorry for using some words over and over again… I'm only an eighth grader. And my vocabulary sucks =[ So try to ignore the repetition of words =D
Bella's Point Of View
I pulled the silver CD out of its case, and put it in my stereo.
Music that was played by my loving Edward filled the room. It was my lullaby… more or less. I closed my eyes, sat down on my bed, curling up into a ball, as usual, and think back to my blurry human years. My mind went to when he first showed me to his family, when Esme told me that Edward was a musician. I remembered how he showed off to me. All of these memories were one of the few things to keep me living.
I let a small cry escape my lips, because I could no longer hold it in.
It's been about ten years since he joined the Volturi with his one, and only true love, Melissa. They've been married to each other for about a hundred years.
In the beginning he hated me truly. But as time grew, he knew why I did that…. Not exactly, he didn't actually know exactly why I did it. He just thought that I was a really nice girl who doesn't want to kill innocence people. He thought that I made his wife join the Volturi because I didn't want anyone of his family hurt, because I was close to Alice. And he was half right… for the first time in ages, I added dryly.
My lullaby drifted to an end, and Esme's favorite piano piece played.
I closed my eyes and enjoyed the song.
I started to think about Edward, and it was a really bad thing to do….
I saw him currently making out with Melissa, and on the brink of turning it into something…worse.
I held tightly to my bed sheet, to try and stop the pain that was erupting from my heart right now.
Every single part of me, except my conscience, wanted him. They wanted him badly. They all missed him. They missed his touch, kisses, smile, and his laughs. But it was my thinking that kept me away from him. I thought about how happy he is. I felt their love. I see how close they were. And that was the reason why I stayed away from him. I wanted to give him what he wanted. I couldn't be selfish no matter what.
I shuddered and I started to think of 'happy' things. I started focusing on something else. But I failed, and more of their future – that I clearly did not need – showed up to me. I squeezed my eyes shut and clutched on my bed sheets tighter, hoping that it will go away, just as if I was watching them. But of course I didn't work….
I thought of another way to keep this out of my mind. Maybe going shopping with Jane would help me get it off of my head. But shopping with Jane was exactly like how I had to shop with Alice. And so I decided to go outside and hopefully get distracted by the thinking over everyone else instead of focusing on what they will be doing later….
I turned off the music that was playing because once I open this door; everyone will be able to hear it. And since these songs were the ones that Edward recorded for me. He would recognize it.
But it's not like it matters… He doesn't even care probably. Why should he? He left me… He didn't want me anymore! But it would just be freaky to have your ex-human girlfriend, still in love with you. And look into your mind to see all your glorious details. Yep, that wouldn't be shocking right?
I headed to my closet now, picking out an outfit to wear. I took out a light blue – color of my feelings, and also my favorite color of all time – tee that flowed smoothly downward and had a tie on it. A pare of slim, dark jeans, as I headed to the bathroom.
I turned the water in the shower, a little bit hot. But of course, it felt hot like it was to me when I was human when I turned it on hotter. It felt warm, the opposite way I was. I really enjoy staying in the shower, but I needed to get out before I started getting vision again…. They could be planning about their whole eternity if they tried.
I quickly changed and dried my hair. I left my hair alone, like I usually do and let it fall down to my waist.
I walked out of my room to see Edward and Melissa making out on the living room couch.
"Ahem," I coughed.
They stopped and stared at me, both of them looked annoyed. But, unlike me, I was hurt.
"Label," Edward whined, "Do you have to interrupt us?"
I fake a grin, "Yes, I do apparently."
"If you don't want to see this, then go back to your room." He suggested, annoyingly.
"Oh, I tried. But I saw worse things." I smirked. But on the inside, I swear I was eating myself for doing this.
"Label, stay out of our business." The way he said our… hurt me than seeing them like this already.
I rolled my eyes and answered, "Believe me, I tried."
"Whatever," Melissa mumbled.
Melissa is still mad at me for tearing her – yes her family – apart. At least Edward knew the half truth… I literally don't care what Melissa had to say, I just mainly cared about Edward. I also only look out for Melissa because Edward loved her, and would probably kill himself – again – if she died.
Speaking of Melissa… I always kind of hated her in a way…. She's not like Rosalie, but she is still mean. And not to mention the way she dress!
I took a quick glace at her. She was wearing an extremely short dress! Two tiny laces tied up on the top, and it left most of her upper half… exposed. It was tiny, and it fit her full curves, like she was showing them off. It was one of the dresses where they are wrinkled on purpose… to make it look hotter. But I had to admit, she did look good in it.
What wouldn't I give to be her? I sigh, a sign of depression.
Edward face snapped up to mines and he asked smugly, "Aren't you jealous today."
I smiled at him, knowing that he didn't know how much that joke hurts.
"No, I'm not jealous. I'm just tired of living." I smiled grimly.
He scoffed, "Said from the girl who told me not to suicide."
I glared at him, "I didn't say I wanted to suicide, now did I? I'm just saying I'm tired of living."
"It basically means the same thing." He shrugged.
Melissa tugged on him, Edward…She whined, you can hear the lust in her thinking too. Can we ignore her? I want to go back to what we were doing.
I winced a little bit, because in her mind, she gave me a glimpse of Edward….
"Melissa!" I screamed on the top of my lungs.
"Oops. Sorry." She smiled a fake apologetic smile. She was far from being sorry. She did that on purpose, I knew that.
"Watch yourself." I glared.
Sorry Label. Edward apologizes for her.
I rolled my eyes and muttered, "Teenagers." Though I acted, more as a teenager than ever.
Then suddenly, sets of vision and the thinking of Edward's and Melissa's are together – combined. It was worse coming out here! I heard what they were planning first, and then I saw how they'll be doing it. They won't take their sex life somewhere else! Somewhere, where I don't get jealous and rip her head off maybe?
I have to say I came close to many times to fighting with Melissa. With her attitude toward me, and with her having Edward. I don't know how much longer I could take this. I pinched my nose of the awful smell... of … you get the point. And went to the conference room.
"Label, you came just in time." Marcus said.
"When is she never here on time?" Caius rolled his eyes. Stupid girl, she keeps showing off her abilities.
I rolled my eyes are Caius, "Thank you for your greeting Caius."
I turned my attention back to Marcus and Aro, "What would you like me to do for you today?"
"We got information that a pack of wolves and some vampires are fighting with each other. And they left evidence for the human to discover. Do you mind go have a 'talk' with them?" Aro requested. You could see the little quotes he put in as he said talk.
"Make sure to kill some wolves while you're at it." Caius added. A lot more wolves, he told me mentally.
I gave him a deafening glare, "I don't kill innocence." I reminded him.
"Edward is coming with you too. If a fight happens it would be faster if he fights with you." Marcus told me.
"And Melissa is coming too, right?" I frowned.
"No," Aro shook his head, "The two of you will be enough."
I mentally cussed at them. I had to deal with Edward? How much harder can it get without Melissa?
"Okay. I'll go get Edward then," I walked out of the room.
When I was out, Edward was out of Melissa's arms. And he was dressed, ready to go.
"That was fast." I joked.
He just rolled his eyes.
I put on my cloak and ran out with him to the airport.
We were heading to Toronto in Canada.
The ride was awkward… We didn't really talk. And part of the time on the ride, we had to pretend we were sleeping. It would be weird if we did not sleep.
We walked out of the airport and Edward decided to make a conversation, "So, Label, where did you get your name?"
I looked up to him. This is a question I didn't expect. What am I suppose to say? 'Oh, where did I get my name? That's easy, I got it from Bella. I just switched the orders around. Do you have anymore question to ask?'
"Uhm… I don't know?" That wasn't what I was going for.
"Oh right, you must have forgotten your human memories. I'm sorry then." He apologized.
He was so wrong. I remember almost everything special about my life. I remembered the most him, though. But I decided to go along with what he said, since I can't come up with anything better.
"Yes. I don't really remember." I smiled.
"I want to ask something…." He trailed off.
"Shoot." I encourage as we ran into the forest, sniffing for smells of vampires and werewolves. We smelled them, but it was old.
"Why are you so grouchy when it comes to love?" He questioned with a smirk, trying his best to keep the conversation light.
I frowned. This is definitely not the subject I wanted to talk to him. Mostly when we're alone, it would make it harder for me not to just beg him to come back to me. I knew I couldn't lie to him – it's so hard to lie to him, he's so special, to me. But I am not going to be telling him everything, and make everything I did crumple into pieces.
I had to give him some half truths and lies. As long as my secrets aren't needed to be kept, why should I lie? I just wanted him to get to know me.... I really wanted to be his friend at least. We aren't really close yet. We're just teammates… And I wanted to be something more than that. But when I say more, I mean more than friends…. But of course that isn't going to be happening so, friends would be good.
"I remember some of my memories," I told him.
He stayed quiet waiting for me to go on.
"I had problems with love. The only one I loved left me." I laughed, with a hint of grief in it.
"And you can't move on?" He asked.
"No." I smiled, "Do you know what it's like to love someone you can't? Like they are so close for you to touch, but they're off limit?"
He frowned, "Yes. I know exactly how you feel."
Just like Be- He cut his thoughts short and started translating stuff into Ukrainian. I barely understand it. I didn't understand because I rarely learned other languages. I only learned the common ones. And I learned a little here and there in other languages, but not much.
What is he trying to hide from me? I really wanted to know what he wanted to say in his thinking. And knew I just broke the rule that I made for myself, about not reading his mind. But I couldn't help it! I really, really wanted to hear his thinking, always.
"Do you?" I murmured. I said mostly to myself, but he caught it.
"Yes, I've been in a lot of situation." He was trying his best not to concentrate on his thoughts, but a few glimpsed did pass through.
But, I respected his privacy that he wanted and stop reading his mind.
"Suck for us than," I gave a small smile, hoping it would convince him.
He rolled his eyes.
"What do you mean… the person you love is so close, yet you can't touch?" He asked, genuinely curious.
"Well… if the one you love the most that is so close to you. They are close enough for you to tell them the truth, beg them back. Do whatever it takes to get them back, what would you do?" I questioned him, hoping he'll understand how I feel.
"I would beg them to come back to me. Do whatever it takes. I would, as long as it is worth it." He answered simply, as if he'd been asked many times before.
"But what if, they're happy. They moved on. They've found someone they want to be with? Would you take away that happiness from them?"
"No, I guess I wouldn't." And then, his mind is filled with his piano music. But these songs, I've never heard them before.
They are a sorrowful song, yet beautiful in its way.
I listened intently and commented, "That's a good song."
"Thank you." He smiled, but the smile didn't touch his eyes.
We fell into an awkward silent. But I broke it first. I was always the first one to break it, "Have you called your family often?"
Family problems, it would rarely be a bad subject to go to.
"Yes, they miss Melissa and me very much. I miss them as much too." He said sorrowfully.
I felt a pang of sorrow hearing his sorrows. It was my fault that he's here. I forced him to join the Volturi. Not that it was a bad thing. I was just merely afraid that he'd get the whole entire family in great danger.
"What about your family? Don't you ever miss them?" He asked.
"Yes. I do, very much. But I have to try to move on." I said.
"Do you ever visit them?"
"No, they're not vampires. So they are technically, dead." I told him.
"Oh. You never had a coven beside the Volturi before?" He was trying to keep the conversation casual, at the same time – he wanted to get to know more about me.
I smiled. I was happy he wanted to know something about me. But I was pretty sure that it was because he wasn't able to read my mind. That's what's made him curious.
"No, I never had been in a real coven beside the Volturi." I answered simply. It was kind of a lie. Of course I've been with them. If that counted ever counted… It might not have counted, since… I wasn't a vampire after all. And his family didn't love me, I think.
"That sucks." He chuckled.
"What?" I faked as if I'm hurt.
"Who transformed you?"
"The Volturi changed me."
"And you were forced to stay with them?"
"No, I chose to stay with them. They didn't force me on anything, ever." My voice meant for the subject to drop. But he didn't seem to get it.
"Where were you born?" He asked.
"Forks." I answered as I always have. And I regretted it ever since it came out of my mouth.
He raised an eyebrow, "Rainiest place in United State?"
"Yep. I like the rain. It's so fun to dance around in." I lied. Of course, if I told him that I hated the rain, which would've been a give away.
"I like the sun, and the warmth," He informed me about himself. But sadly, this is something I already knew.
"Why?" I asked. When I was human, he told me this once before, but he never told me why.
He gave a short smile and answered, "Because it's related to something I miss."
The images in his mind didn't make sense. He was trying to convince himself to get over it. He was trying to get over something, and he brought sick picture into his mind and mines.
It was just him and Melissa. Doing something imaginable – for a couple like them.
I grimaced, "I didn't try to listen to your thoughts, but it still sick to see that."
"I know," He grinned, "But sometimes… I don't like to tell a lot about myself. And that was going to be too much."
"Oh, okay." I felt as if this conversation was going to end. And it did
- - -
We finally picked up a fresh batch of smell, the wolves' and the vampires'.
"I'm guessing around… five to six wolves." I informed Edward.
He snorted, "Guess?"
"Yes, guess." I sounded annoyed.
"About three vampires." He told me.
"Yes."
We sprinted up the hill to see, three vampires in their defenses position, with the wolves crouching – ready to pounce any minute.
They let out a snarl to each other and turned to us.
Of course the vampires knew who we were. We were wearing our cloaks. And wearing cloaks said that we were the Volturi. They immediately saw us and stood up straightly. But the dogs were clueless; they thought we were an ally of the other vampires.
But the three vampires were those who were familiar with Edward. And they knew… a little about me. They knew me because of my visit to them once.
"Hello, Edward and Label!" Tanya greeted us. She was happy that we were going to assist her in killing the dogs.
I gave her a glare, telling her that we weren't going to help her.
Of course she didn't take it, and she walked – flirtatiously – toward Edward. And she hugged him tightly. Edward showed no interest in her, but hugged her back.
"Good, you're here. Help us kill these mutts." Irina growled, going back to her fighting position.
"We won't be killing anyone. We want to talk." I snarled.
And then, the mutt with the rusty brown color haired turned to me and Edward, taking notice at us. He looked extremely familiar. I might have seen him sometime in my human past… that I didn't clearly remember.
He ran off into the woods.
"Hah! Chicken!" Tanya yelled, while still hanging on Edward's arm.
Edward was getting annoyed.
"Tanya, I have a wife. Please get off of me." He said with much authority.
Tanya obeyed.
Soon a figured I remembered walked back into the field. That wolf was Jacob. Jacob Black. My old best friend, who did not know I turned into a vampire. My friend who had a crush on me. My friend who saved me from some of my pain. But the friend who left me after he imprinted….
Edward seemed to recognize him and he hissed, "Jacob Black."
Jacob gave him a smirk, but his eyes were in pain, "Edward, what brings you here, bloodsucker?"
"I'm doing a job." Edward was trying to keep his voice smooth.
Jacob gave a snort, "So, who's your wife." He stared into Edward's eyes with great dark humor.
Edward unleashed a horrifying snarl – the one I would be extremely afraid of, if I were human.
"Hmm… I wonder who it is," Jacob played with him.
I was standing next to Edward, looking at both of them… speechless.
"That none of your business." Edward growled fiercely as he bent down to his crouch.
As much as I want to send out peaceful waves… I couldn't. I was in too much shock to even control my powers.
"I'm guessing you haven't heard of… Bella's death?" Jacob smirked.
My eyes widened in horror.
"No, death is better for her. You couldn't believe how she was." Jacob grinned.
In his mind, he was playing a set of clips of me, when I first came. And how much of a mess I was. He showed clips of me when he found me in the meadow. He showed a lot of clips to Edward. But I didn't feel anything from him. Edward's mind was blank. Edward was still trying to take in those images that Jacob had given him.
"That's none of your business, Black." He growled.
"She was my best friend," Jacob continued to brag, "I was so close to get her to fall for me. Until I imprinted of course. She had her heart broken twice."
Was he seriously that sick? Was he actually happy that I had to be sad? He was happy because he caused it?
But then, I felt his emotion. He was lying for some parts. He felt bad for because he caused me all of that. But part of him thinks that it's better, and he was thankful that he didn't have to put me in danger.
Edward was about to pounce on him when I spoke up, "No one better even have the thought of killing one or another…."
My eyes narrowed into slits and glared at Edward and Jacob.
"And who do you think you are?" Jacob challenged me.
I laughed hard at that statement, "Your worse nightmare."
Though, even if I wasn't a vampire with such strong powers. Just saying, 'Oh. I'm Isabella Swan. Why?'
That would definitely put them into shock.
Edward let out a huge musical laugh and said, "Label, you would like to torture him for me?"
He didn't think I was that cruel, did he?
"No." I said strictly. But I would've given in, if I was looking into his eyes.
His face fell into a frown. I want so badly to turn it into a smile, but I couldn't. Nothing I do can turn it into a smile. The best bet is to bring him home quickly.
"Bella never gave up on you. She loved you too much. When you left her. You literally killed her right then." Jacob said it so easily about my pain that it inflicted even more pain on me. I held on my thigh to hold in my cries.
"She was never the same. But she would've taken you back easily as long as you said three words." He smirked.
Edward growled, "I don't love her anymore."
Those words should have shaken me. Making me fall on the ground crying. But I kept my face up. I didn't release any emotion. But of course, on the inside, I was being torn apart harder than ever….
How could he do this? Why are they doing this to me? What have I done so badly that god wants to torture me like this? I want a way to get away from all of this horrifying pain!
I couldn't take it anymore. I had to release my anger into something. And they were rightfully to be blame, "Damn hell you guys. Just shut up! Stop blaming Bella. She didn't do anything. Why are you guys the worse of worse enemy?" My voice broke a little.
Edward stared back at me glaring at me, "I can say what I want."
I heard little words in the double meanings… Like how ugly I am. How he didn't love me.
I glared back at him, "But I rather not know it."
Which was true, I didn't want to know what he was thinking about me.
To know that he never loved me. And to know he could've been lying about his feelings. I felt used. I felt as if someone used me and thrown me around as a toy. I feel as a toy for them to use. A toy for them to make fun of.
"She was just a toy for you, wasn't she?" Jake gloated, the question I was dying to ask.
"Yes. She is, aren't you happy you know the truth now? No stick your ass out of my life." Edward voice was beginning to get calmer, but he still had venom in his sentence.
My answer was answered. I was a toy for him.
I thought leaches can't get any worse. But he definitely passes it. Jacob was disgusted of Edward.
"Your point?" Edward rose and eyebrow, answering Jacob's thoughts.
"Next person to say something about their personal life will get their ass kick." I announced, extremely annoyed.
I didn't want to hear any of these!
I couldn't even look at Edward now. I now knew how he felt about me. And I didn't like it. I too, was disgusted of him for doing something like that. I thought he was a person that his mom, Elizabeth, taught him. But I was wrong. I can see why he wanted Melissa now. She had all the figures I can never have.
Edward stared out into space. Trying to stop his anger.
"Now," I said curtly, "Since that is done. We can get down to business."
"What business?" Tanya asked, innocently.
"Save it. I don't buy those tricks, nor am I am a lesbian." I rolled my eyes.
"But, we didn't do anything." Pouting and looking at Edward.
She was hoping Edward would save her.
"You are from Denali. The wolves are from Forks. How does that make sense?" I asked.
"Uhm…" Tanya was trying to think of an excuse. But it was clear in her mind what she was trying to hide.
She was hiding that, Irina was trying to get revenge for Laurent… Because the wolves had killed him to protect me….
"Laurent was at Forks?!" Edward was shocked.
"Yes, he was, Einstein, and so was Victoria." Jacob smirked.
Edward was still shocked, but then quickly composed his expression.
He is now thinking in Arabic… so I wouldn't understand.
I should really learn Arabic, and all the other hundreds of languages….
Jacob let out a loud laugh, "No worries, we killed him before he got to your dolly."
Edward growled intensely.
"Ahem." I coughed, trying to remind them that I told them not to talk about this.
Edward just threw a glare at me, while I ignored it.
"Irina, you're putting your family in danger to kill someone that was going to kill a human? Not to mention that human had a history with your 'cousins'?" I asked her, keeping my voice calm. But I was hurt real bad when I said that I had a history with the Cullens.
"She wasn't worth it." She smeared.
That cut me so much. But I knew that I really… wasn't worth it.
"How the hell did you know she had a past with us?" Edward was shocked.
I shook my head in disbelief, "You gave too much information in your talks."
I turned to glare at him, "You also broke a rule. You exposed your family to her."
"But she died. It doesn't matter anymore." He retorted.
"It could've…." I trailed off.
I thought of what could've happen, if the Volturi found out before I was changed or before they left.
"I'm just here to warn you. Go back. The humans are finding evidences everywhere." I informed them.
"Not until I kill one of them." Irina snarled at me.
"Do you know who you're messing with?" I smirked.
"I'm pretty sure we can kick your ass." She smiled at me.
The wolves might helps. Or not get involve at all. And Edward would definitely be on our side.
Irina was making teams and plans.
I snorted and asked, "Edward, would you bail on me?"
"I'm going to sit out." He answered simply.
Tanya mouth was left hanging.
"But I do suggest not fight with her…." He thought back to the first time we actually fought.
They just stared wide eyes at me.
"She can't be that good…" Tanya muttered quietly.
"What will it be? Fighting with me… or going back to your homes?" I clearly gave them the choice.
"We'll… get out of here." Tanya said and kissed Edward on the cheeks.
Tanya and her family quickly left. After Tanya turned and ran, Edward wiped his cheeks.
I let out a laugh.
I turned to the wolves. They turned and left, since they saw there's nothing to fight for anyways.
I turned to Edward; his face was hard, full of agony. But I did not know the reason for this.
I said quietly, "Let's go…"
He took off with a sprint in front of me, and I followed behind.
I didn't have the speed to catch up to him. And I wasn't in the best mood to look at him – something that never happens.
Even though he broke my heart, harder than last time out there. I still love him. But I knew, knowing the thing they discussed here will bring me more pain than usual. These are the pains I have to endure being with him…
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If
you guys want this in Edward's point of view… I'll make it in
Edward's point of view =] So you can get more of an understanding
what Edward is thinking, and not think he's a total jerk o.o…
Cause he isn't. =P Yes, he seemed OOC. But you didn't hear his
thinking. Because he was thinking in Arabic. And Bella doesn't
understand =]
