*flash forward 90 years*
I couldn't be around him after tomorrow. I loved him so much, but my heart couldn't take the breakage that this situation will cause. Jaspers noticed a difference, everyone has- even Edward, but I try to hide it from him. My kisses have become more passionate, to try and remind him that I will always love him. I couldn't bear to see him hurt or torn, and I won't put him through that. I'll leave to make it easier for him. My pain will be nothing if both of us have to suffer. At least the story can get back to how it was supposed to be.
I went for the door. He was busy and Alice was with jasper. I ran but was too slow. Alice stood by the door heartbroken.
"You, you can't" she said her eyes looking betrayed, hurt and like they could cry. Jasper came in and it was too much. I fell to the floor crying and everyone came in. Edward picked me up and looked angry, so Alice had told him after all.
"You can't!" he yelled fuming "You can't!" he said breaking into sobs. He let go of my shoulders and I jumped him for the last time. I kissed with a vengeance, with a fury, and I could hear all of his thoughts as he could mine. 'She can't, why, I need her, now more than ever. I love her'
"I love you" I said roughly, fighting my tears. "You never forget that ok. I love you, but it's ok." I said grabbing his shoulders and he pinned me between him and the wall.
"It's NOT alright. You can't, I won't let you" he said his eyes burning into mine. I felt him die inside and for a second, I saw the image on that 17 year old, in the hospital all of those years ago. Those glistening green eyes and that perfect bronze hair.
"Yes you will" I whispered, trying to penetrate him.
"And why would I do that? Why would I just let you leave?" he growled.
"Because I'd been unhappy here" I said back. He put his forehead on the base of my throat. If there's one thing he do anything for, it was my happiness. Not my wellbeing, or my life, but my happiness. I felt our hearts break.
"I'm coming back" I tried to comfort him. "I'll be back, I just don't know when"
My mind flashed back to the letter he left me when he went to get his heirlooms, and he never said goodbye because he was coming back. I couldn't make that promise.
"Goodbye" I breathed.
"NO" he yelled and slammed me to the wall lightly. Alice would see me when I was ready to come back, but not before.
"Come on baby, we've got to live forever. I know we have to be together" he said shaking. I shook my head, because I wasn't for him. I had my time, and I'd never change a second, but to see the rest of eternity with him and –. No, I couldn't put myself through that. I slid out of his grasp and I planted my lips onto his for one more second of sanctuary.
"Goodbye Edward. I love you so much. So much" and I ran from the room. There was no time for more goodbyes. The tears that I had shed today would not be the last, but they would be the most painful.
Jasper once told me, that the love between me and Edward was unlike what he'd ever felt. It was unconditional of everything, could penetrate anything and break nothing. He said that it was more than the feelings of the house, even more than his and Alice's which was hard, because it was different, and bigger and better. But he was wrong.
He was wrong.
He said that it would never break anything, but in the space of 2 minutes it's broken everything. I only comfort myself in the fact that he will have something else to mend his heart.
And so the story returned to where it should be. I'm forgotten, and the hearts are bleeding. I now understand why Edward was so careful. He couldn't be trusted, but not with his self control, with his alliance to me.
So goodnight my sweet, goodnight my darling, and farewell for ever.
*back to the present*
I have to think about things. Do I love him? Damn it, I think I do! i knew he heard that so I ran form the room and to the lake, where I could think things through in peace.
This was a quickie. Any tears?? Lol. Enjoy – I might be teasing, that might not be how things finish!
