'Ello! It's been a minute since I last updated I honestly don't have an excuse other than procrastination, lack of motivation and I felt kinda sick picturing what I was writing in my head, had a couple of panic attacks while writing this... I was watching "Don't hug me I'm scared 5", you should go watch this whole series by the way, the other day and I got inspiration kinda in a morbid way.

Um yeah there is assault and sexual abuse in this chapter so this is your warning if your uncomfortable with that subject.

Without further ado here is the chapter...

The room was deadly silent and freezing cold, Ash jumped in surprise at the crackling sound when frost started forming over the blinds, creating icicles that touched the floor and slowly coated it in a thin layer of ice.

He shivered violently sitting up as the ice crept over the walls making the room continue to drop in temperature. He wrapped his blankets around him tightly and swung his legs over the bed intending to leave, cringing when his bare feet touched the icy floor.

He stood up wobbling on the slightly slippery surface, tripping and almost falling a few times before he finally made it to the door and grabbed the frozen doorknob, he grunted trying to turn it. He wriggled it and sighed when it didn't move.

'Great, I'm froze in' he thought irritably.

Ash turned around and gasped in fear when he came face to face with Kirai's malicious smile, he shook and dropped his blankets letting them pool around his ankles, Kirai smirked and stepped forward making Ash back up against the door.

"I told you I'd be back" Kirai said. Ash looked down in fear trying to think of ways to escape the man in front of him. Kirai grabbed his chin forcing him to stare into his piercing gray eyes.

"You know" Kirai whispered, "I've missed my fuck toy"

Ash jerked away wide eyed pushing himself further onto the door trying to escape Kirai's hungry stare. Kirai laughed at Ash's terrified expression, leaning forward he trapped Ash against the door letting his hands roam over the smaller boys body. One of his hands was alternating between groping Ash's butt and rubbing his thighs and crotch, the other was under his shirt squeezing and pinching his nipples. He pinned Ash's arms beside his head, his broken arm throbbed in pain as it was squeezed against the door, while licking and sucking on his neck. Ash had his head turned to the side with tears gathering in the corners of his eyes, whimpering as Kirai moved to nibble on his ear.

His eyes snapped open when he heard a zipper and shuffling of clothes, he squeezed his eyes shut in trepidation of what was to come. Ash grunted when he was pushed to his knees, he tentatively opened his eyes and stared fearfully at the erection in front his face.

He quickly moved away, slipping backwards on the ice. Kirai grabbed Ash by his hair forcefully and brought him back up rubbing his hardness against the boys lips.

"Suck it" he said plainly. Ash tried to pull away from the other. Kirai growled irritation, and slammed Ash's head into the door making him cry out in pain when a cut formed on his forehead. Ash tried to blink back his tears, whimpering when he felt the tip of the erection pressed against his slightly parted lips.

"Now suck it or else!" Kirai growled menacingly, "bite me and I'll do a lot worse"

Ash reluctantly let the length slowly slip halfway into his mouth. He gagged when Kirai suddenly slammed the rest of the way into his mouth, hitting the back of his throat. Ash struggled to breathe as Kirai's thrust sped up, tears were running down the side of his face as he let the man do what he pleased. He gagged on every rough thrust and every inch forced down his throat, his body went limp while the man continued to mouth fuck him. His eyes blanked and drifted around the room as it tilted and blurred in and out of his vision, blood sluggishly slid down his forehead over one of his eyes forcing him to shut it.

'Just like old times' he thought bitterly 'I'm so weak! I can't even defend myself against this monster!' He squeezed his eyes shut, coming back to reality as Kirai came, thrusting all the way into his mouth and came down his throat.

"Swallow it" he said while panting harshly. Ash choked trying to swallow the thick liquid, gagging at it's bitter salty taste. Kirai pulled away and tucked himself back into his pants, he let go of Ash's hair and watched him slide down the door panting trying to breathe, Kirai leant down and grasped Ash's chin. He put his lips on the boys, forcing them open and letting his tongue roam and taste every crevice. Ash tried to pull away from the thick appendage, the mans taste revolted him.

Kirai broke the 'kiss' and suddenly grabbed him by the throat lifting him up against the door, Ash's eyes widened at the lack of oxygen, he struggled clawing at the mans hand only to be pushed further into the door. Ash let his arm go limp while his vision turned black around the edges, his throat burned begging for air and his eyes started to roll back. Kirai threw Ash across the room, when he was just about to pass out, into the wall making heavy chunks of ice fall off of it onto him. Ash gasped for air grasping his throat, struggling to sit up on the slippery floor with his one arm occupied.

Ash whimpered in fear when the man suddenly appeared in front of him again, Kirai grabbed him by his hair and dragged him back to the bed, he roughly threw the terrified boy onto the bed and walked towards the window, Ash stared after him in confusion and relief.

"Don't worry this is only a very, very, VERY slow type of foreplay." Kirai turned around with a devilish grin, "You won't know when, or where or why, but I will have you again, wrapped around my finger" he said. Kirai sent him one last look before disappearing in a bright flash.

Ash closed his eyes from the harsh light, when he opened them the room was back to normal and room temp, but he still sat on the bed trembling like a leaf. He got up on shaky legs and cautiously made his way towards the door again.

When he got there he picked up his blanket and put it loosely over his head, while wrapping tightly around his body. He opened the door flinching when it creaked loudly in the silent hallway.

He slowly walked down the hallway leaning heavily on the wall, his eyes were cloudy and unfocused and his token arm hung limply at his side, twitching slightly. He stopped at the bathroom and flicked the light on before walking in and closing and locking the door behind him. He stood in front of the mirror and let his blanket drop to the ground, staring blankly at his reflection.

His hair was messier than usual standing out against his unusually pale skin, his eyes were slightly red and puffy from crying. He had a large purple hand print covering his neck and bright red hickeys trailing down to his collarbone.

He felt sick as the events replayed themselves in his mind, he quickly bent over the toilet as his stomach emptied its contents. He flushed the toilet and wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, he stood back up and rinsed his mouth out in the sink.

Ash splashed water on his face trying to calm down and rid himself of the images haunting him. He gripped the sides of the sink tightly and glared at his image in the mirror, water dripped down his face as shadows formed over his eyes. An image of Kirai flashed in the mirror startling Ash, he punched the mirror with his good hand watching a huge crack form in the middle and small pieces of glass fall in the sink slicing his hand slightly.

He backed away from the mirror his bleeding hand clutched to his chest trying to calm his racing heart. He put the toilet seat top down and sat on it letting his head fall in between his knees. Ash quickly sat up as a sharp pain made its way through his head.

'Your a monster...'

Ash shook harder at the phantom insults filling his head.

'A freak...'

'Abomination...'

'Worthless...'

Every insult caused as sharper pain to run through his head and filled him with self-hatred.

'You deserve to die'

'You should have never been born'

Ash began to unconsciously scratch at his broken arm causing it to become swollen, he was scratching so hard it began to bleed.

'Stupid...'

'Nobody wants you...'

Ash began to hyperventilate and cry, his head felt like it would split in half with the insults growing louder and echoing like claps of thunder.

'You...'

He began to mumbles under his breath, scratching at his arm harder.

"Shut up"

'Are...'

"Shut up!"

'A'

"SHUT UP!"

He was screaming at himself now gripping at his head tightly.

'MONSTER!'

Ash stood up and faced the mirror again gripping the sides tightly in his good hand not caring if the glass cut up his hands. He stared shocked at his reflection, his arm was hanging limply by his side covered in bloody gashes that were slowly healing letting off white steam.

The cut on his forehead steamed closed while the bruise and hickeys faded away, he brought his broken arm up and flexed his fingers to discover it was healed. He backed away from the mirror trembling harder as the voice turned into hushed whispers before disappearing. Ash covered his mouth with his hands with new tears gathering in his eyes, he let out an anguished whisper .

"I really AM a monster..."

We're done!

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