Chapter 11: Gone. Forever.
Zexion was gone already. He left a small note for me:I'm sorry. I wasn't able to wake you up since you seemed to sleep peaceful. If we ever have peaceful sleep. See you soon.
I thought a short moment. Did I dream anything at all? I couldn't remember at all… I took a shower and got my mission as always. At evening I was ready to tell Zexion about my interesting day and the new information I got, and so I went inside his room.
"Zexion… I-!" I entered his room and then realization hit me. Zexion was gone, still on his mission… I looked around the room and remembered the book he gave me once. I took it and started to write inside it, pretending to talk to Zexion.
This kind of talk left me busy for various days and I lost all my "feelings" of time…
After various time of accomplishing missions and telling everything the book, Demyx was looking at me on another day. "Yo! You heard? The whole team has been whipped out!"
"T-the…whole team…? Don't…mess with me…!" My whole world started to spin around me and I realized I have been falling to the floor, when suddenly a pair or arms caught me.
"Xivy! Hold on!" Demyx caught me in his arms, and I saw in the corners of my eyes Saïx appear.
"What is going on here?" He asked, looking at me and Demyx.
"Zexion… No… He isn't dead… Is he…?" I looked up to Saïx and he shook his head slightly.
"Accept it… He's gone. Maybe for the best… Who knows?" Saïx looked down at me and looked away again. "Looks like he wasn't supposed to get his heart back."
Instantly a hot feeling welled up inside me and I slapped my hand across his cheek. His cheek got burning red and my handprint was visible on it.
"Are you opposing me?" Saïx rubbed his cheek.
"I'm leaving." I said and opened the portal taking my hood on.
"You cannot leave the organization. You have assigned yourself here so you will stay." Saïx was about to grab my shoulder, but I was faster and fled the castle.
Various, especially sleepless, days have passed since I left the Organization. I haven't been able to sleep much, because every small noise woke me up and something Zexion explained me once as "fear" was something I "felt".
"Xivy! Where are you?" Axel's voice echoed through the forest I was hiding in.
I started to run through the forest, but Axel was faster and kicked me against a tree.
I coughed his name and he let go of me.
"I…am sorry… Xivy…" He whispered.
"What are you talking about…?" I sat up and leaned against the same tree, he was holding me to a moment ago.
"I killed Zexion. But I didn't have any other choice." He didn't look at me. "But… If it calms you… And if it brings you back to the Organization… His last breathe… He took it and whispered your name with a smile… So he wasn't this sad… About his death…"
"We are Nobodies. We can't be sad." Was everything I answered before standing up.
"You're insane to leave it!" Axel shouted at me.
"I want to find out who I am. So the Organization has to wait." I turned around and started to leave and Axel screamed suddenly.
"Xivy! Watch out!"
"You're here… This time… Not alone huh?" The man, my ambusher, charged at me.
I dodged and looked at Axel "-! Axel! Run!" I screamed at him and let my chain appear.
"Will you be alright?" Axel asked and I nodded. … In the next moment he was gone. Luckily.
"So protective… Though you miss you heart… In two meanings now…" The ambusher smirked at me.
"Shut up!" I swung my chain towards him and…
