Well here is chapter 11! This is probably my quickest update EVER! lol
I'm hoping this chapter will answer a few of your questions about Edward. Although, I KNOW it won't answer them all...hehe that's intended. Otherwise we might as well just call this story done...and we don't want that.
Although, this might answer a few questions...I know it'll probably piss you off.
But I hope you enjoy it anyway!
R&R!
EPOV
My life fucking sucked.
Karma was out to get me for sleeping with a 17-year-old girl. That's what was going on. That, and everyone around me were out to get me. My family knew something was up, but they couldn't exactly say what. father was hounding me with questions every time he saw me; it got worse when he heard that I took myself off rotation on Bella's floor.
I did try to explain myself.
I just didn't have any answers for him.
How do you explain to your family that your current fiancée has nothing to do with, that she wanted you to figure out a way to get Bella to waive her rights as the baby's mother? They loved Bella and hated Tanya. How would I explain to them what I was doing so that it wouldn't sound as awful as it truly is?
I had no answers for any of the questions running through my head. All I knew was that I was doing what I absolutely had to do to make everything okay for that little girl growing in Bella's stomach. Everything I ever did anymore was for her, and if I tried to explain what I was doing, I didn't think that anyone would understand.
"Dr. Cullen." A gentle hand patted my back softly. "Are you awake? You've been paged three times and you haven't moved."
I looked over at the woman standing at my side with a worried expression on her face. "I'm sorry, Kate. I've got a lot on my mind right now." I stepped away from her and gave her a small smile. "Did you happen to hear where they wanted me?"
Kate had been doing her residency at the same time I'd done mine. We became fast friends because we were the two youngest of our group and we had a lot in common. She was a beautiful girl, and she had the personality that complimented her looks. She wasn't beautiful like Tanya, who had the perfect body and supermodel looks. Kate had it all, beauty and brains. There were times we worked together that I had wished I had met her before I'd met Tanya. But I had met Tanya first, so Kate remained just a close friend.
"They don't want you to go anywhere this time. You have a call on line four." she gave me another soft pat on my back and walked away.
I watched her retreating form, because I'm a man and what man doesn't like a very attractive woman walking away from him. I heard a chuckle beside me.
"Really, Edward," Nancy laughed again. "Do you really think adding someone else to your little scenario would be a good idea? I think there are enough people involved already."
"What are you talking about?" I knew what she was talking about; I just didn't want to admit that I had been checking Kate out.
Nancy shook her head. "You have a fiancée at home, a baby momma on the floor below us and you're standing up here with lust in your eyes for yet another woman." She picked the phone receiver up and handed it to me. "Keep your mind on things that matter right now, Edward. You don't need any more bullshit on your plate. Use this phone and pick up line four. I have stuff to do and you're pissing me off."
I just stared at her as she walked away, mumbling to herself about idiot men. Nancy wasn't normally one to go off on a person like that. Everyone I came across today that knew about my situation seemed to do nothing but glare at me. I couldn't understand what I had done that suddenly changed everyone's attitude towards me.
The ringing of the phone abruptly ended my thoughts. Someone picked up the line on the other end. "Dr. Stephensen speaking."
"Hello, Dr. Stephensen. This is Edward Cullen. I was paged." I picked up a few folders and began flicking through the pages, just trying to keep my hands busy. For some reason, I couldn't put my finger on in that moment, I was nervous.
"Well, it took you long enough to get back to us up here." He chuckled. "I need you to go have a chat with your mother, son. You seem to have…uhh…angered her." He laughed again.
"My mother?" I asked confused.
"Please, don't ask questions. I have found out way too much about your personal life, Edward. You have gotten yourself into quite the pickle. But your mother…just go speak with her and get it over with."
Everyone was acting extremely strange today.
We finished up the conversation with him telling me where she wanted to meet with me before he practically hung up on me, but I heard him laughing loudly before the tale tell signal of the receiver being hung up.
I took my time getting to parking lot.
I felt like a little kid again awaiting punishment. I just didn't know what I was being punished for, and that scared me. All I knew was that the parking lot was a weird place for a meeting or whatever you wanted to call it, especially for my mother.
I found her car easily, mainly because she parks in the same exact spot everytime she's here. She was leaning against the back of the car with of papers in her hand.
I cleared my throat when I got close to her, not wanting to startle her by just walking up to her.
"Edward," she said as she laid the paperwork on the car and straightened herself. "I need to know what's going on."
"I don't really know what you're talking about."
"With Bella, Edward. Don't act stupid. You've been ignoring her for the past two weeks or so. She thinks she's done something wrong." She was speaking calmly, but I could tell she was angry by the expression on her face.
I stared down at the ground, not completely sure of what to say or how to explain the situation. "She didn't do anything."
"Then what's going on? Something is bothering you. I can see it on your face, and in how you act. I know something is going on." She took a step forward and put her hand on my arm. "Please, tell me."
"I just assumed that after Tanya went…"
"She doesn't even remember Tanya being in that room, Edward. She only knows that Tanya was there because somebody told her, but she doesn't remember." She paused. "Just like she doesn't remember being in the restaurant when she had the first seizure. Is that why you've been staying away? Because of Tanya?"
I moved and leaned against the car. Unable to make eye contact with my mother, I continued to stare at the ground. There was no way I could explain what was going on.
Bella didn't remember Tanya being there. That gave me a little bit of relief, but I had a strong feeling that the bitch would try to make an appearance in Bella's room again.
The conversation I had with James a day after Tanya had made her declaration cleared a lot of things up. There were things going on with Tanya and Victoria that I had no clue about.
"Edward, can I speak to you?" James asked as I was standing in the kitchen making myself some coffee. Tanya and Victoria had left to go baby shopping only minutes before.
Coffee was the only thing my body seemed to be able to handle since talking to Tanya. I was still trying to figure things out with her. I was angry.
No, angry didn't even describe it. I was completely fucking pissed off. How dare she think she could just take my daughter away from her mother? She had absolutely no right. No right to even suggest it.
I told her I wanted her to leave and that we were over.
She just laughed in my face and told me she wasn't going anywhere. I couldn't kick her out. Legally, this house and everything in it was partly hers.
I thought we were going to be married, so I was completely ignorant and we had put both of our names on everything. She didn't have to leave if she didn't want to.
I slept at the hospital the night before, but this was my house. My home. I wasn't leaving.
I was coming up with a plan to get her out.
I looked towards James and nodded.
"It's about Tanya," He paused and sat down at the table. "They don't see me as a threa,. Tanya and Victoria, I mean." He chuckled slightly. "They don't see me as a threat so they talk about everything in front of me."
I sat down in the chair across the table from him and listened to him tell me what had been going on behind my back the entire time.
I listened as he told me that for months Tanya had been to many different doctors, trying to figure out why she just wasn't getting pregnant. She had tried everything.
That was when James and Victoria came into play. He apparently wasn't supposed to hear that conversation, but he happened to be standing outside the room when they were talking. He heard everything, even about what happened with him and Victoria the night she got pregnant.
Victoria's baby, however, was supposed to be given to Tanya and I when he was born. We were going to raise James' son as our own.
A phone call from their cousin Irina changed their plans only months later.
It was the damned hotel clerk.
It should have dawned on me the moment I had seen her. She looked almost identical to Victoria, but it just didn't register because I was too tied up in Bella.
Granted I had only met Irina once, but I still should have known who she was. The moment Irina realized I had stayed the night; she was on the phone with Tanya. They took Bella's information from the computer and kept an eye on her, only to realize that she went to school with Victoria.
Victoria watched her every move.
When Bella found out she was pregnant, Tanya already had devised a plan to force Bella to hand over her baby to Tanya.
She was excited that at least I was going to get a biological child of my own.
She wasn't even going to tell me at first, but things got out of hand the day she went into Bella's hospital room. That hadn't been part of the plan. She was just angry with the whole situation. Bella was planning on keeping the baby and I was doting on the two of them.
Tanya hadn't planned for either of those scenarios.She and Victoria thought for sure that 'little miss goody' was going to give the baby up for adoption and go on with her perfect little life like that little bump in the road never even happened.
As I sat there listening to James, I was slowly coming up with a plan of my own to make them pay.
Laws had been broken, and people had been hurt.
They weren't going to walk away from this.
"Edward? Talk me, I need to know what's going on," my mother asked, bringing me back to the present.
I stepped towards her and enveloped her into a gentle bear hug. "Whatever happens, whatever I say or do in the next few weeks, I need you to not be angry with me. I need you to know that I'm doing what I absolutely need to do to make sure that Bella and that baby girl she's carrying are okay. I need…"
She pulled away and took my face in her hands. "What are you doing, Edward? What's going on?" she quietly asked.
I closed my eyes and pulled away and began to walk away. "I just need you to trust me, Mom, and know that I love that little girl already and that I wouldn't ever do anything to hurt her."
I didn't look back. I didn't think I could handle seeing the hurt and confusion on my mother's face. I knew for sure that if I did, I would break down and tell her everything.
There was no way I could risk someone overhearing, or my mother accidently letting something slip. She had been known to do that, so I just couldn't take that chance.
My daughter's life was at risk. Bella's life was at risk.
So I just kept walking and ignored my mother's pleas to come back and finish the conversation.
I slowed as I got to the door, because a flash of red caught my attention. I turned my head instinctively towards the flash, and was immediately glad that I did. I watched Tanya pull into the parking lot and park in the far back corner. I knew she thought if she parked way back there no one would notice she was here, and probably no one would have if I hadn't noticed her pulling in.
I smirked to myself and continued through the doors with a new destination in mind. My plan was about to be set in motion.
I slowed my pace, not wanting to rush myself, because I needed to time what I was doing just perfectly. When I reached the floor I wanted, I stood out in the open so that Tanya could see me. I pretended to be checking charts, but I was really writing a note to Bella.
She needed to know a little bit about what was going on and I prayed to god that what I was about to do didn't cause anything to happen to her or our daughter. I was hoping that when I slipped the note into her hand, it would alleviate any fear she had of what I was doing in that moment.
I caught movement out of the corner of my eye and moved slightly so that I could see who it was coming off the elevator without it actually looking like I was looking at them.
I almost laughed out loud at the sight of Tanya frozen in place when she saw me standing there. I held it back and pretended to not have seen her before I took a deep breath and made one last prayer before I turned and walked right into Bella's room.
When I laid eyes on Bella, I froze. She was more beautiful than the last time I had seen her. Her bump had even grown slightly. The smile on her face when she saw me lit up the room, and I wanted to do nothing but run to her side and tell her I was sorry, but I couldn't I came in here for a reason and this was the exact moment I had been waiting for.
I put my poker face on, which made Bella frown, and went to her side, just not how I wanted to.
I quickly slipped the note in her hand and kissed her forehead. "Please read this when I leave the room. I'm so sorry for this." I whispered to her quickly.
I stood up and backed away from the bed.
This was not going to be easy.
"What the fuck do you think you're doing?" I spoke loudly. "I thought I made it clear that I didn't want anything to do with you." I cringed when I said it. I had to force myself to go on as I made quick note of the monitors. "But you still have to whine to my mother. My mother, Bella, seriously? Leave me and my family alone. No one believes that's even my baby, so just…when you leave the hospital don't contact any of my family members again." I turned quickly, noticing my eyes were suddenly filling with tears. "You and your bastard daughter are nothing to me."
I bolted across the room and out the door, pausing only when I knew that I was out of Bella's sight. I didn't even check to see if Tanya had witnessed any of it. I just needed to get out of there.
The nurses at the desk eyed me curiously. Obviously no one heard what was said in the room. For that I was thankful, but I hoped that Tanya was standing close enough to the door that at least she heard. If not, then everything I had just said to Bella was for nothing.
Everyone in the hospital it seemed, was aware of the relationship I had with Bella, so I was glad they didn't hear how I just treated her. Things like that just weren't kept secrets in a hospital like this. I tried to compose myself as well as I could and gave them a smile and a wink as I turned and all but ran down the hallway towards the second set of elevators.
When the doors were closing, I heard the sounds I had feared most. The obnoxious noises that had become part of my nightmares and had began to wake me up in the middle of the night.
I heard the screams of Bella's monitors going off.
I fell to my knees and a painful sob escaped my body.
If something went wrong, I knew that it would be my fault.
If something happened to my beautiful Bella and our perfect daughter, the blood would be on my hands.
I would have no reason to live.
Well, there you have it. What did you think?
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