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Hallucinogens and Hallucinations

Sara was panting. She was seated on an aluminum chair and she had been injected five times already. She was sweating. One injection was mean, four more is just terrifying. She leaned back on her chair and closed her eyes.

Sara's POV

It is extremely hot in here. That and the fact that I was injected with hallucinogens five times are the reasons why I am sweating. Every time a hallucinogen is injected to me, it feels like somebody went around my brain to get information on what I fear the most…then combine those with my worst nightmares…then combine them with pain. It just hurts. One minute my body is ice cold then suddenly it becomes extremely hot. I leaned back on my chair and quickly recalled all that happened.

**Flashback**

After he injected me, I blacked out…but only for a while. But then, My body suddenly became extremely hot. My head suddenly became very painful, and my eyes immediately started seeing things.

I blinked and I froze. Surely, this cannot be. It was evening, and I was in a room I recognize. Grissom's bedroom. How did I recognize it? Once I went there to get him some clothes after Greg had spilled some paint and grease on him. Anyway…

I was there in Grissom's bedroom, and I saw my nightmare. Grissom was there with Lady Heather. They…were a family. They had a baby and Heather was pregnant. I cried, than I snapped back to reality.

My feet immediately became sore and my hands started shaking. But then, I succumbed into darkness.


I woke up and saw Balthazar. He laughed.

"Do you like it? Well, You better appreciate it…You're going to have more doses than you thought."

I tried to reply but then, He injected me with the hallucinogen again. I screamed. Once again, my head ached. My stomach suddenly hurt, and my back was aching. I was freezing.

I saw Grissom…with another woman. It was Sofia

"You were too late. You think that hiding as the Mystery girl could capture his heart? Of course, it did not. I beat you to him. And I captured his heart as quickly as gulping down water." Said Sofia as she and Grissom kissed.

I started to shout 'No!' but then I came back to reality. Tears were threatening to fall. But then, I blacked out.


I woke up. Balthazar was looking at me from a chair not too far away.

"This will make you regret bringing my brother to jail. Don't be too hopeful that they might find you on time. I covered my tracks. I was careful. I learned from my brother's mistakes. Good luck making it out of here."

He stood up, and walked towards me. Once again, he injected me, and I felt my head throb. It was like my insides were turning to ice. It felt as if my internal organs were disarranged.

I was there, in my old home. I saw my younger self. Younger Sara was stabbing her father, MY father, with a knife. I was the one who was stabbing him. Not my mom. ME.

This time, tears really did fall. I was really shaking. But then, I saw the younger me kill herself. Oh. My. Goodness. I was really thinking now if I really inherited the murder gene. But then, I blacked out.


I regained consciousness. Balthazar slapped me. It hurt.

"The slap was from me. The doses are for bringing my brother to jail." He smirked. Then he injected me…again.

It felt as if the world was spinning so fast. My feet were numb. My face was showing a frightened expression. The world slid out of focus.

I blinked my eyes. I was in a strange building. Like a warehouse. I was walking with the team towards the body. Grissom didn't go to work that day. When we were near the body, I let out a gasp.

The stabbed man was Grissom. I quickly ran away since I was afraid I would contaminate the crime scene. When I was far from the crime scene, I sobbed. I quickly looked at my surroundings to ensure that no one saw me crying. But then, I saw a knife. It was on top of a trash can. It may be the murder weapon, so I bagged it. I was willing to work as hard as I can to find out who killed him.

When we returned to the lab, I dusted the knife for prints. Then I tested it to see who touched it. When I saw the results, I was shocked. The results said; Sara Sidle. After seeing the results, the world slowly faded. The only thing I saw was darkness.


Something hurt…It was coming from my neck. I blinked. It was Balthazar. It was another dose. I closed my eyes. 'Would this ever stop?'

I wanted to puke. My head hurts. My back hurts. Hell, my whole body hurts.

I was standing in a room. I was holding a knife, and there were six bodies around me, all of which were stabbed to death. I recognized the bodies.

When I saw Catherine, I became sad. I controlled my feelings and willed myself to stop the tears from falling. Then, I saw Nick. A tear rolled down on my cheek and I wiped it away. When I saw Warrick, I felt as if I wanted to break down in that room at that very moment. Then, I saw Greg. Tears really did roll down on my cheeks and I wiped all of them on my sleeve. When I saw Brass, I was really shaking now. But then, I saw Grissom. I really cried this time, not even making an attempt to wipe away the tears. I lost consciousness. Then, I regained consciousness.


I came back to reality. I was shivering. I just held on to hope that they were looking for me. With that thought, I started reciting the multiplication table.

"Six times one is six, six times two is twelve, six times three is eighteen…"


A.N: Super hard chapter to write. Emphasis on the "SUPER"