hey guys, thanks again for the reviews, you just rockkkkkkkkkkkk!
So a lot of you guys seem to want them to have sex right now! You either want Jane to be ready soon or Maura to break her own rule and jump Jane's bones. Well too bad it's not going to happen yet…things are not that easy in life or in my stories :) there are things I want to explore before they make love, sorry…(or maybe I'll just wait until I reach 100 reviews! ) I want this to be perfect and special.
Anyway as I like to satisfy you guys this chapter is quite sexual, not in actions but our 2 girls have a serious sex talk!
ps : No, waffles in bed can't be considered as a date!
I also notice you like Jane and bass together so I will also develop that "relationship."
Previously:
"How does she expect me to spend the day with her so close to me, in bed none the less and only a few clothes on.
No Maura you are not fantasizing about ripping them off… She's torturing me and she knows it, she 's well aware of how
aroused and excited she makes me, but she still holds me so close to her that I'm sure she can feel my heart beating faster and faster.
This woman is a vampire, has to be I see no other explanation that could explain the power she has over me." Maura fantasized.
Chapter 11:
Sex talk:
"What did you just say?" Jane mumbled half asleep.
"I didn't say anything." Maura replied shocked and scared that she might have been thinking out loud.
" Alright then you must have been thinking quiet loud, because I swear I heard you say something."
"I was indeed meditating." Maura lied.
"Really?Don't you feel relaxed enough in my arms?" Jane asked trying not to be offended.
"Yes I do feel quite comfortable and relaxed in your arms, it's just I'm a bit tensed I suppose." Maura lied again starching her arms.
" I think I have the perfect remedy for that." Jane murmured as she started to kiss Maura's neck all the way to her collar bone, softly sliding her tongue on her Girlfriend's skin in the process.
"That is exactly what makes me nervous ." Maura confessed as she pushed Jane away.
"I make you nervous and tensed?" Jane asked surprised.
" Yes, you do..." Maura replied a bit embarrassed.
"Hey sweetheart, look at me, there is nothing to be nervous about ok? Everything is going to be ok." Jane said as she tried to reach out to her girlfriend that was now sitting on her bed .
" I know things are going to be ok, I'm happy with you, I truly Am."
"So what's wrong then?"
"Nothing is wrong, it's just being so close to you, being in your arms, kissing you, touching you, feeling your breath on my skin is harder then I had anticipated it." Maura sighed.
" You mean that it's hard because you're not physically attracted to me?"
" No It's quite the opposite : it's hard because I'm madly, intensely attracted to you and that where the problem is."
"I thought you had no issues being attracted to women?" Jane asked trying not to ask too much information at the same time . She could see how confused Maura was and she wanted to understand but she didn't want to push her too hard.
"I don't, It's just being in bed with you like that is extremely challenging for me, you don't know the effect you have on me."
"I think I'm starting to see it."
" It's hard Jane, I know you need time, and I understand that you're not ready to engage in a sexual relationship with me and I'm willing to wait but I can't help it : you drive me crazy."
"I'm sorry, I didn't realize I was teasing you that much, I just feel so excited and I like these new sensations I'm experiencing with you. I never felt anything like this before, I can't stop thinking about kissing you, exploring you, but you're right I'm not ready to make love to you yet . I apologize my attitude is unfair to you." Jane said sitting on the side of Maura's bed.
"Oh sweet heart, don't apologize, I know how you feel and how overwhelming it is because I feel the same, expect that I actually feel ready for it."
"How about your 10 dates rules?"
"After thinking about it I can assess that there is no need for me to wait that extended period of time to let you make love to me, you already know me more then anybody ever has and I know you well as well. We're almost like an old couple." Maura joked seeing that Jane was starting to feel insecure again.
" I agree, everybody we know think we've been secretly dating for ages."
"I know."
"Look Maura, I'm sorry, I told you I'm broken, I just can't ..."
"What? what is it that you think you cannot do?"
"I can't let you see me like this ,all broken. If we make love and I let myself go 100% you will see how broken I am. And you deserve better : you deserve a girlfriend who can let herself go 100% in your arms and also who's not as damaged as I am, I'm not that person yet, but I know with your help I will be soon."
"I understand, and I will wait until you're ready, in the mean time feel free to explore me all you want." Maura said as she sat behind Jane wrapping her arms around her to keep her from leaving.
Maura decided not to tell Jane that she wasn't broken in her eyes, she told her that many times already and she didn't want to be redondant. Jane felt broken, maybe she needed to feel like this , maybe she needed to feel like crap and fight hard to get better. Maybe the best thing she could do was to accept how Jane felt about herself and let her do things her own way instead of just contradicting her.
"That is not fair to you, I like the idea of playing seduction games, that way I can learn more where you like me to touch you and how you like me to touch you but this would terribly unfair , I would be playing with your desires."
"You can play with me all you want Jane." Maura offered as she kissed the back on Jane's neck.
"I don't know what I ever did to deserve a girlfriend like you."
"You're you and you're great person, you're a cop , you save lives, I think that's a good reason why God put me on you path."
" Good answer." Jane smiled as she turned around and passionately kissed her gorgeous and perfect lover.
" Feeling much better I see."
" Yes I do. Thank you for this, I promise I will do my best not to drive you too crazy."
"Don't worry I can restrain my hormones and desires until you're ready, now come back to bed." Maura said pulling Jane back in her bed.
" Alright I won't fight you on this. You know it's not that I don't won't to make love to you, I really do, I'm so attracted to you and when we kissed I'm so excited, aroused even, but I'm just not ready for that yet."
"I understand, take your time, when you're ready I will be as well don't worry, you won't have to ask me, you will only have to show me ok?"
" I guess I feel comfortable enough with you to be able to make my move when I feel ready for it. But for now on I have no idea what I'm doing and I want things to be perfect for our first night, I want to be in control and know what I'm actually doing to be sure to satisfy you"
"I know you will don't worry , if you can get me that excited by only kissing me on the neck, I cannot see how you could fail making me climaxing . But I'm a scientist and I know that this kind of thing can require extensive research and I understand your need to explore things slowly . But again your technique is already quite appealing and I'm sure it you will improve your skill quite rapidly. That's why after many consideration I agree to let you experiment on me even if it's frustrating."
"Thank you, babe." Jane said as she laid her head on Maura's chest. She could hear her heart bit fast, it was beating for her and that was the best sensation she ever experienced in her life.
Positive points : Jane is accepting Maura's help and she's willing to fight to be the partner that Maura deserves (even if she already is in Maura's eyes.) And Maura lets Jane do things her own way and I think that will help her self confidence.
Negative point : Once again Maura gets to be patient and understanding while Jane gets to experiment on her and drives her crazy! Yeah that is not fair. I don't know where that " experimenting idea" came from but I find it quite logical, I mean maybe not at their ages and considering that none of them are virgins but we all experience with our first partner : we start kissing first, then we touch through the clothes then under the clothes…and so on…. You know , so for me it made perfect sense that Jane wouldn't be able to have sex directly. Not to mentioned she's scared of letting herself go 100% and to show her "Damaged side" to Maura by doing that. Exploring step by step might give her the confidence she needs before finally letting go 100%, what do you think?Tell me if things are getting to complicated and if you can't follow me on this :)
next chapter: Maura will share some stuff as weel(childhood memories among other things)
