Brittany's POV
It's somewhat funny how love can be tricky sometimes. It plays your heart in many ways like it's the most pleasurable thing in the world. And the worst part is that you can't even blame the one you love, because you cause the problem yourself. They never asked you to like them, nor fall for them or even imagine a future with them. All they ever did was to walk in your life and change the way you feel about the world and themselves.
You realize the thing is serious when you can't stop thinking about the person, about what they could be doing right now and if they were maybe, just maybe, thinking about you the same way. If you have any of the symptoms, consider yourself screwed, because, happily or unfortunately, you got yourself in love with this someone.
I know it's difficult to accept in the beginning, especially if the person and you already share a close relationship. The fear of rejection may be too high so it turns the "admitting your feelings" part really difficult. You even try to deny it to yourself, so you can forget it. When it doesn't work out, you go for more urgent strategies: you force yourself to forget that person. The way to do it, well, depends very much on the person, but many will choose to use another person and force their feelings for them.
This is just the stupidest thing ever.
Forcing yourself to love someone you just like is like smashing and breaking your heart with your own hands and putting a brain in its place. I'm not saying it's wrong to listen to your brain, but we should give a certain reason to what our heart says, because it is the one that feels when you find the right person.
Your brain will be always searching for reasons and explanations to why you started to develop feelings for that someone and it will cause a huge feeling of doubt and insecurity when it comes to the person's feelings towards you. Your heart, on the other hand, only uses what it knows from the moment. It doesn't doubt the other's love, because love is the only thing it knows.
And I should have listened to my heart since the beginning.
I don't know what has gotten into me to think I would ever replace the space Alvin has in my heart. I mean, I was surely mad and disappointed in him, but deep inside I knew that didn't change my feelings for him even a bit. And I don't think anything ever will.
Alvin Seville is the one my heart beats for. Whenever I see him, I get all tingly inside and a good feeling runs through my body, making me feel relaxed and flushed with his presence.
We used to be constantly in each other's company, so you would always see us glued on the other. If I wasn't hugging him, he had his arms around my waist and my head leaned on his shoulder, our tails always playing one another.
But it wasn't like that anymore and I didn't know if it would ever be again.
Since James arrived, we've been spending a lot of time together, but only because the circumstances allowed us to. I didn't ask for someone like James to come around, but I was lost after mine and Alvin's argument before class and he came and found me. I was emotionally vulnerable and let the impulse of trying to forget Alvin with James take me over.
That was just the stupidest thing I've ever done.
My eyes started burning and I rubbed them to prevent another crying fit. What I did was surely ridiculous and hurt not only me, but Alvin too, so I was going to try to fix everything between us. I can't live with myself knowing the love of my life hates me because I tried to hide my feelings when he didn't even know they were for him.
I darted towards the stairway, making my stomach twist with anxiety, knowing Alvin would be up there, waiting for me. There was so much I needed to tell him and he was going to listen even if I needed to make him do it. He just had to understand I didn't do it on purpose to hurt him.
I jumped swiftly on the doorknob and opened it, giving entrance into our shared room. I rushed over to where two point of green and blue were and it surprised me there wasn't a red hoodie between them.
"Si, Theo, where is Alvin?"
Both chipmunks fitted my direction as if searching for something. "I don't know. I thought he was with you girls." Simon answered, shrugging and meeting Theodore's gaze. Now I was astonished.
"What do you mean?"
"He went downstairs a few seconds after you. I thought he wanted to talk to you, Brittany." It was the blue clad chipmunk's turn to talk again.
I felt all the blood leave my face and my paws get cold. Crap.
My sisters' gazes met mine and they could see the despair written in my features. Simon and Theodore seemed confused and searched our eyes for an explanation.
"What's wrong girls?" Theo asked.
Eleanor exhaled deeply. "We're about to tell you something, but Alvin can't even dream about it, Teddy."
"I believe that at this point he already knows, Ellie." My shoulders and ears fell. How could I've been so dumb?
Jeanette noticed my discomfort and wrapped her arms around me. I buried my head on the crook of her neck and hugged her tight while I listened to Eleanor tell his brothers everything I blurted down there.
The boys' eyes grew as Ellie deepened the history. I couldn't blame them, because I would have the same reaction if someone told me what my sister was telling them.
When my sisters finished, they didn't say anything. Surprised stares were all they were giving us and I was getting impatient, so I left the room to look for Alvin downstairs. The other four soon joined me and the whole house was quickly filled with our screams in attempt to find the missing - my missing - chipmunk.
"Alvin!"
"Alvin, where are you?"
"Alvin, please! I need to talk to you!"
"Come on, Alvin, show yourself!"
After what seemed like an eternity, but were actually five minutes, everyone came to the conclusion that Alvin was not in the house. I sank on the couch, defeated, thinking the worse.
"Oh my God, he listened to me and ran away. He'll never look me in the face again, I just know it!" I cried in my paws, hiccupping. My sisters came to my side to try to ease my fit while the boys were with Dave giving information to the police.
"Britt, calm down, they'll find Alvin." Jeanette tried to comfort me, but it didn't have the awaited effect.
"What if they don't, Jeanette? Then it's my fault Alvin is missing. He could be anywhere at this time of night and anything can happen to him!" I yelled between sobs.
"You have to think positive-" She started again but I cut her off.
"How can I think positive when the guy I love can be out there in danger, Jeanette?! TELL ME!"
"Whoa, whoa, whoa, easy there, Brittany!" Eleanor shook her head, increasing her tone. "Jeanette is only trying to help you! It's not her fault Alvin went off so you don't need to take your anger on her! Stop being so stupid, for once!" My brows furrowed and I glared coldly at her comment, receiving the same stare in response.
As much as I hated to admit it, this irritating being that just happened to be my little sister was right. I sighed in defeat, turning my head to meet Jeanette's gaze, that was looking down and rubbing her arm. It only made me feel more guilty for blowing off at her.
"Hey, Jean, I'm sorry for taking it all on you." I spoke softly, hugging her. "I'm just so worried about Alvin, but it didn't give me the right to yell at you. Sorry." I kissed her cheek and she smiled shyly at me, stroking my hair.
"It's okay, Britt. Just try to control yourself a bit from now on, okay?" I smiled weakly, nodding. She was right, I needed to calm down.
As soon as my smile appeared, it vanished when my worries came all back to Alvin. Where could he be now?
Alvin's POV
I woke up, rubbing my eyes and sitting straight. I had a strange dream where I ran away from home after I heard Brittany admit she loved James. I ran into him and we started talking until I felt a strong hit on the back of my head and everything went black. It felt so real that I still felt the pain from the hit. Ugh.
"You weren't dreaming, Seville."
The voice made me open my eyes suddenly. Did I say all that out loud?
"I know it must be hard for you to accept everything that happened. Gosh, I wouldn't ever wanna be in your shoes."
My brows furrowed in annoyance, recognizing its owner. I made an attempt to straighten my hair, when I felt my paws weren't moving. I started debating and looked behind me, huffing. Chains, seriously?
I shot James a bad look when all he did was roll his eyes and give me a small smirk. "You really thought I was going to knock you out and set you free so you could run away and ruin everything?" He faked a laugh. "I may be good looking, but I also have a great brain, unlike you."
I rolled my eyes and it pulled another smirk on the chipmunk's features.
"So you were really using Brittany this whole time." I fitted him intensely, while he paced around the dimly lit room we were in. "When you get your so desired fame and acknowledgement, you'll just dump her like trash so you can be on top as a solo artist and have the spotlight all to yourself." I continued, my voice fading away with each word, due to my surprise. The blue eyed munk clapped, as if I was a hero that just figured out his whole villain-like scheme.
"So you're not as dumb as I thought you were, Alvin. Congratulations!" He spoke up, emphasizing his irony. I couldn't help but roll my eyes for what was, like, the fifth time in almost three minutes since I woke up. "How did you figure it all out? Your super powers allowed you to read my mind?" He mocked again.
I lowered my head and spoke in a low tone. "Because I was just like you in the beginning." He looked at me a bit surprised, but I couldn't care less about what James would think about it. "But it was before my brothers and I even became a band. I have always wanted to shine alone, have all the attention to myself, be the media's center, but I realized none of this is worth it if you don't have anyone else with whom you can share it. You have everything, but you've got no one, so what's the point?"
My gaze met James' and he paid attention to every single word that came out of my mouth. I took this as a chance to keep going.
"Lucky me I learned it in the best way, because it wasn't long before we met the girls." A sincere smile appeared on my lips when I mentioned my friends that now lived with us for almost a year. "They're everything a band would ever want to be. They're united, charismatic, hardworking, beautiful and talented. My brothers and I learned to be better individuals because of them and I would never change a thing about everything we've been through." James had a hard expression and I presumed he didn't like where this speech of mine was taking us, but I ignored his looks every now and then, continuing.
"The Chipettes were the ones that made all of our days at the music career worth it. I mean, sure, our fans are always supporting us and we love that, but the girls live with us every second of the day, share the worst and the best moments with us during recordings, rehearsals, concerts... Brittany, Jeanette and Eleanor made mine, Simon's and Theodore's life worth it."
James walked up to me quickly. "That was a beautiful story, Alvin, but, unfortunately for you, Brittany doesn't feel the same." He gave me a sly smile.
I rolled my eyes, returning the smile. "You don't get it, do you?" I chuckled. "Of course she does. If she didn't, we wouldn't be the best friends we are today."
"How do you know she's being honest with you?" He shook his head, narrowing his gaze.
I shrugged. "I just know." My eyes met his and I winked. "Come on, it's not that hard to notice. Our fans even call us Alvittany because we love each oth-"
I didn't finish my sentence because my face turned to the left abruptly and my jaw was throbbing with the slight burning sensation.
Ouch.
Did he just punch me in the face?
I turned my head to him slowly with hate and anger written all over my expression. He was looking down before our gazes met and I swear I saw a fire burning inside those ocean orbs.
And that's when I got it: he didn't like it when I rubbed in his face that I had true friends and a true love while he was all alone. It would explain the looks he gave me when I was talking about the girls and my brothers. And the hit he gave me when I said Brittany loved me.
I snickered, cracking up shortly after. It seemed to call his attention and I saw through glassy eyes his brows furrow in irritation.
"What's so funny?"
My laugh died down a few seconds later. "Is JayJay sad because I said I have true friends and a love while he is all alone?" The taunting smile I wore was soon gone when his paw made contact with my nose.
Ouch.
"Shut up." I started laughing again and James rolled his eyes, grabbing my jaw with his left paw.
"I. Said. Shut. The hell. Up!" Another four blows made contact with each of my cheeks while the last went to my nose again. I bent my head, closing my eyes in pain, when I saw him clean a red liquid inside his shirt the exact moment I felt something slowly dripping from one of my nostrils. My tongue licked the blood and its metallic taste made me shudder.
A silent atmosphere down upon us until another munk I've never seen before opened the door quickly and ushered over to James, whispering something in his ear.
The blue eyed chipmunk looked at the green eyed one as if not believing what he just heard. He glanced at me for a few seconds and left the room with the chipmunk dressed in black.
My head was throbbing, but I could still make out their voices whispering behind the door.
"Are you sure about this?" I heard James' voice murmur hushed.
"Yes, boss! She is down there." So the guy works for him? And who are they talking about?
"Okay, you stay with Alvin and I'll go talk to her."
My eyebrows furrowed in confusion. Who was this girl?
"Do you want me to knock him out? This way you can talk more safely with Brittany."
I didn't hear the rest of their conversation, because my mind could only focus in two things.
What the hell was Brittany doing in here and how was I going to get out of this place.
XOXOXOXOX
So, guys, I'm deeply sorry for the delay. I swear I finished this chapter 4 days ago, but I didn't have a laptop to submit and post it. I still don't, but I found out how to do it through my cellphone XD I hope you like it and tell me what you thought. Review!
Answering Guests:
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Alvittany: Thaaanks XD
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