Most people left the room to let the information sink in, leaving Kaito and Saguru. They were just sitting on one of the red couches in the room in silence till the detective broke it, "How do you stay sane, knowing all this impossible information?"

The magician wasn't looking at him; he was just staring at the ceiling with an unreadable expression. "I don't know, sometimes I ask myself the same question. It's unbearable at times yet I can't let it show or else someone might notice. I can't let anything show, whether it be the paranoia, the borderline insanity or the scars I've gotten from being shot at, failed landings and failed tricks. I guess I should thank my parents for the makeup skills or else everyone would grow extremely concerned at the injuries that I sustain. Though I have to get up at 4 in the morning to make sure I cover all the scars when I'm not wearing long sleeves. I can't wear shell every heist, it weighs me down so I can't move as well during the heists. I'm lucky I haven't been fatally shot yet. Well… at least when I didn't have something in front of my heart that would deflect the bullet. After those kinds of experiences the craziness just increases with every new bit of information. My life has been nothing but craziness since I first found that room in my house, I had to wait a week after meeting Jii-chan just to get any of the story from my mother since she's off doing whatever around the world."

Saguru just stared at the thief. The detective grew even more concerned for the magician. Every time the brunette told more of what he goes through for this life, he wonders what could easily happen, and how the other teen could have died at any point over the past year. "Kaito… why do you do all this alone. From this meet up I saw that you do have people to help but you seem to almost always jump out into the line of fire alone. Why do you never ask for help?" the Brit's voice was thick with concern.

Kaito was taken aback by the tone but then put on a sad smile, "...Because I don't want anyone else to get hurt. Unlike most people I've been doing similar actions and ticks before on my own for my magic, so when I started this life it wasn't as big as a strain as it would for the normal person. Also… most people won't miss me if something happened, my mom only rarely visits and usually when she calls it's to help her with some of her leftover work. She even dressed up as my dad just to test me not knowing how much that would effect me so she wouldn't even notice if I was gone. Over the past year I've actually grown distant from everyone, including Aoko. Too many secrets… I still put up my usual act but now there are more walls around me. There are only a few people that I let through now…"

"Kaito… Do you really think of yourself as worthless? Everyone would miss you. Don't you see? Even now there are still people who truly care about you!"

The magician laughed like the detective had said something funny, "That's where your deduction falls short London gairi no tantei-kun," he said with a grim smile, "Over the past year I've been making it so that if something were to happen to me, the memory of me would just fade, no one would miss me for too long. As for KID, they will probably be a bit disappointed that the Magician of the Moonlight is gone, but they'll get over it like when KID disappeared the first time. Also if I die I have a fail-safe so enough information will be released to the police who aren't apart of the Organization so they can finish off what I've started, though I would want to do it myself."

"Then what about me? If I knew that you had died I wouldn't be able to stop counting the time that your heart stopped. I would be cursing myself for not being able to help you. Especially now that I know all of what is going on. I don't want someone to die of me because I couldn't make it in time again!"

The thief looked at the blond in a confused shock. He then spoke slowly as to not alarm the Brit, "Saguru, what do you mean again?"

The detective then froze, now realizing what he said. He looked reluctant to say anything but before the magician could take back his question the blond spoke up, "It's a long story…" Kaito then sat up and gave Saguru his full attention. The Brit sighed then started talking. "This happened while I was 10, I was on a trip with my uncle. It was a cruise over the Pacific. It was headed towards Japan and she was one to take the path less traveled. There were 1032 people on it. When we were far from the prost on the morning of the second day, a group of individuals took the ship hostage. They had cut communications and took any other forms of calling for help. The leader of the group also took away anything we could use to track time. He then grabbed me from the crowd, we were in the dining hall when this went down. I believe he had a vendetta with my father because it seemed he specifically picked me out. He had a stopwatch and showed it to me. He would ask me a riddle and if I couldn't solve it in time he would shoot one of the passengers. I had exactly half an hour for each riddle, and none of them were easy. We were trapped in there for 48 hours 37 minutes 56.41 seconds. I was forced to keep track of the time only on how many times the stop watch hit zero. 62 passengers had died and 27 people were shot in the head right in front of me. They had kept me in a pitch-black closet with no windows the whole time. I wasn't allowed to eat or sleep. When I had come up with an answer I would have to yell it through the door. If I had gotten it right then they would tell me the next one. But if I had gotten it wrong I heard the sound of a gunshot and the thud of a body falling on the floor. There were times during those days where they dragged me out and held my eyes open to watch as the bullet ripped through the victims. There were no diversions between targets; there was a 6-year-old girl up to a 74-year-old man.

We were eventually rescued after someone realized that the ship had gone off the grid and had gotten a team together to take down the group with the least amount of casualties. Due to that experience I had gained chronophobia, it took me years to recover from that but I kept the tick of keeping track of time to the obsessive amount."

Saguru had tears running down his face. "Kaito... I don't want to be too late to save someone again. And there's no way in hell that I would let you die. You said that there was no one who would miss you. If you were to die I would miss you every second and blame myself for not doing something more even if in the situation that it happens there was literally nothing more that I could do. I don't want to lose you." The detective then looked at his hands to see them shaking uncontrollably.

Kaito seeing this scene moved closer and brushed the tears away from Saguru's cheeks and held the detective's hands in his own. The Brit looked up into the magician's eyes, while the detective say eyes filled with concern and understanding the thief had seen in the blond's eyes a mix of emotions with the predominant one being fear. Kaito then put his forehead against Saguru's and stared into the Brit's eyes, holding his hands tightly.

All the detective could do was look into the hypnotizing eyes of the magician. He could see some purple in the thief iris that turned the blue into a deep indigo that somehow sparkled. Through those eyes Saguru was able to breath and calm down. They stayed like that till the tears had stopped. Kaito had pulled back a bit to see the detective fully. "Saguru, I want to thank you for trusting me enough to tell me that. It must have been so hard on you… I also want to thank you for caring about me… It had been years since I have been able to be this honest to anyone or letting them get as close me as you have. I truly grateful that you care about me that much and want to help, I just don't want you to get hurt because you were trying to help me. I would be in the same boat as you if situations were reversed and you where the one to die instead of me." His voice then dropped to barely a whisper as he looked down, "I wouldn't be able to live without you..."

The detective smiled at the thief. It was at times like these where he truly loved the magician, though he didn't want to tell him just yet. He would make sure there would be time for that, just not after a huge confession from both sides; we've had enough for today.

The Brit then spoke up, "I don't want to lose you either. Hey I think we should get going though, we're still in Koizumi-san's house if you had forgotten," he said his normal tone returning.

Kaito then looked around the room and proceeded to face palm. "Ugh, well time to get the hell out of here before Akako can use any of what we said against us also to say goodbye to the others if they're still here."

The two then walked out waving goodbye to the witch and out front they saw that the other cars were gone. They got in and started to drive away from the eerie mansion both were thinking that they were just the slightest bit closer after telling of their secrets.


First of all for those who don't know what chronophobia is, it is the fear of time, usually elderly people and prison inmates get it though other people can get it if they experience something traumatic as children or have been through a natural disaster. I don't know why the people I write are hurt so much, I didn't mean to do all of this going into the fic it's just what my muse told me. Though I don't think I stuck the landing of this chapter. Hopefully I'll get back to more fun chapters though I liked the little hakukai moment at the end, so hopefully more stuff like that to come. Also the reason I wrote it like that, sometimes you just need someone there next to you holding your hand to help you calm down. The deadlines I'm setting really help me actually write the chapters since I'm just a procrastinator, since I have a set date it actually helps me get the story out.

Thank you again to KingKagura for the review! Seriously any review from anyone will motivate me to right, whether it be a single sentence saying they can't wait for the next one or a full page telling me everything wrong with this fic. Also thank you to everyone who favorite and or followed this fic!

I know I won't be able to write anytime this week since my sister is getting married but I'll make sure I meet the 2-week deadline. Well until next time!