N/.A PLEASE READ! Last chapter and the one before it were one but they were to long so I spilt it. Then I added on too much to the last so I had to split that one! That's why the beginning of this chapter and the end of the last are the same. It wouldn't make sense without it and I couldn't keep it as one chapter cause it would be to long.

The clock had broken.

It was just one of those things.

Everyone knew.

And they didn't even

Have

To think about it.

I wish that

I could say the same.

I couldn't not think about it.

I sat there

All night.

Sometimes I read the book

In my hands.

Sometimes

I was just staring

At the pages.

I thought:

I'm an idiot.

I was only lying to myself.

This whole time.

I thought of the girl

Who approached me

At the Yule ball

"Looks like you're not so much different then us as you think sweetie."

The girl in my dorm

You went with to Hogsmeade.

"I feel so bad for you darling!"

And some of the those things

James said

About you

When we talked

Up at the astronomy tower

Sometimes.

"Why do you do this to yourself?"

He asked once.

"Do what?"

I said.

"You don't deserve him Marianne. You know that though don't you?"

He would say all the time.

Signature smirk

On his face.

One thing in particular he had said

A long while before.

Kept running through my mind.

"He's my best friend Marianne,"

"All I see is him with a million girls,"

"Behind your back."

"All I hear is of him snogging them in broom closets."

"Thinking you don't know."

I had replied.

"Whatever he does with them is for the entertainment of our fellow students."

Now I kept asking myself.

In spite of my

Usual judgment.

Is it?