A/N:

Here's another chapter for ya!
Hope you like it!


The next day I stood looking out the window in the guestroom when I heard someone knock on the door.

"Come in." I yelled. Rebekah then walked in, closing the door behind her.

"Hey." I said, turning to her.

"Look, I know we haven't exactly been on great terms since I said those things a few days ago, but I miss talking to you about stuff." She told me.

"I'm not even mad anymore, I'm just…Everything that's been going on…" I stuttered a bit.

"I'm here to listen if you wanna talk about it." She said.

I sighed and sat down. "I have no idea what's going on." I said. "One minute I'm ready to be back in a relationship with him again, the next I doubt it and say things I regret. I mean, I love him, I don't doubt that, but I'm doubting myself here."

"Have you ever thought that it might be better to just distance yourself from Damon for a bit?" Rebekah asked me.

"Definitely." I replied. "But I'm stuck here because of this freaking storm, so…"

"After the storm, maybe you could go back to New York with Jeremy and Anna, or you could just stay at Bonnie's or something if you want to stay in LA." She suggested.

I nodded. "Yeah."

"Remember in high school when you guys first started dating?" She asked. I smiled.

"And Caroline and Matt had just started dating…along with Bonnie and Jeremy." I said. "I used to wish that Bonnie and Jeremy had stayed together, but now whenever I see Jeremy with Anna…I can see he just how much he loves her. And now they're having a baby."

"Can you believe that Jeremy is gonna be a dad? I've never pictured him having kids." Rebekah said.

I ran a hand through my hair. "I don't know, I've always thought of him as perfect father material."

"I guess I did, too. I mean, before the drugs." She replied.

"You know, before I heard Alexis talk, I always pictured her with an Australian accent." I said.

Rebekah laughed. "Why? Just because of mine?" She asked.

"Yeah, pretty much." I said, laughing a bit. "She's just like you in every other way, though. The blonde hair, the blue eyes, her features."

"I wish she could grow up in Australia like I did. It's such a beautiful place compared to here." She sighed.

"Yeah. The US sucks." I replied. "I would much rather live in Australia."

I suddenly started laughing from a memory. "What?" Rebekah asked.

"Remember when Klaus and Elijah beat up Stefan right after you guys started dating?" I asked.

She immediately started laughing along with me. "That was hilarious."

"Is it weird that I miss high school?" I asked her.

She shook her head. "No. I think it's normal considering we had pretty fun teen years."

"I think it's funny how we all managed to fall in love an end up with our high school sweethearts." I said. "Ya know, except me."

"Who knows? You guys might still end up together." She told me.


After another hour of me and Rebekah joking around, she left my room.

And immediately after she left, my mind went straight back to what had happened the day before.

I just didn't know what to think about any of it.

I knew I loved Damon, but I didn't know how to love him.

I suddenly thought back to the time we first met and smiled.

I walked into History class on the first day of school with Bonnie by my side.

"Did you see what Katherine was wearing? She's such a slut!" Bonnie whispered to me, causing me to laugh.

I turned my head and noticed a guy I had never seen before. He was gorgeous. He had icy blue eyes and messy raven hair.

"That's the new guy, Damon Salvatore." Bonnie told me quietly.

I built up my courage and sat down in the seat beside him.

"Hi, I'm Elena." I introduced myself, smiling a bit.

He smiled back. "I'm Damon."

And of course I had to think about the what-if's of it all.

What if we never met?

What if he never slept with Katherine?

What if I had heard him out and let him explain?

What if we never got together?

What if I never went back to LA?

I had all these questions, and no answers…

Suddenly Damon walked into the room. "Look, I heard what you and Jeremy had said yesterday…"

I sighed. "I'm sorry…" I looked away from him. "I've been trying. I thought I was there but I wasn't."

"Elena, you have been going back and forth ever since you got here. One day you're with me and the next day you're not!" Damon said.

I stood up from my place on the bed. "I get that! But do you realize how hard it's been since I got back here? All of a sudden I had to face all the things I've been avoiding for the past three years! It's not that easy for me, either!" I replied, raising my voice.

"I realize that it's been hard for it was for me? I felt so guilty when I saw you again!" Damon argued.

"I hope you did!" I yelled. "You ruined a four year relationship for one night with Katherine freaking Pierce!"

"I tried to explain myself, but you left!" He replied.

"I left because I was hurt, Damon! I couldn't handle being around you!" I said.

We argued like that before. We had obviously bickered a bit when we were first together, but we never got into a screaming match like that one.

"And what were you going to explain to me, anyway?! Every time I've asked you about you just said you don't know!" I asked him.

"I honestly don't know, Elena!" He asked me.

"How can you not know?! You can't just ruin that serious of a relationship for no reason!" I yelled.

"I was drunk!" He said.

"As if that's an excuse!" I said. "Damon, I love you, and I've been trying, but it's impossible for us to be together right now!"

"Then maybe we shouldn't be together at all." He replied, his voice back to its normal volume. Even though the argument was sort of my fault, I never thought that I would hear those words come out of his mouth.

My heart broke at his words. "Maybe we shouldn't." I said, by voice breaking slightly as tears stung in my eyes.

We looked into each other's eyes for a minute or two, neither of us really wanting to look away. I finally blinked back some tears and looked away from his eyes. "You should go." I told him.

Without another word, he turned around and left the room.

It was all over.


A/N:

I really am evil, aren't I? (Don't worry, there will be a happy ending eventually.)
I know that was sort of a short chapter, but I tried my best.
-Nina