What should I do now? I have never kissed a boy before. I have no experience. I want to kiss him more but Brain 2 is already shaking uncontrollably and needs to go to a mental hospital due to overwhelming stress. Should I just look away and never speak to him again? What would be right? What was he thinking? Did he like me back or was he doing it just to be polite? They were both possibilites. There was no turning back now but where do I turn from here?

I just did what came naturally.

"You are always gonna be my love. Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo..." I just sang. Somehow, it connected us. It was all I could do without getting scared and nervous. I think he liked it. What did he want to do? Did he want to just sit and listen. I tear fell down my cheek. Where did that come from? I wasn't happy. Wasn't sad. Just nervous. He wiped it with his finger. I stood up. I didn't want to just walk out. Isn't that rude? He got up and we walked together.

I clutched my necklace. I felt something bad was going to happen, I knew something bad was going to happen. It involved Riku. Maybe it was princess code that that song was. Then what did it mean. Hikari means everything is alright, then First Love means... something went wrong. Then why is it called First Love? Did it... no. It can't involve Riku! Just believe that everything is okay, I told myself.

Everything was not okay.

When we were in Merlin's house on the first floor, I heard a creepily farmiliar voice.

Wait, Mikaila. Or... I will be forced to take out my anger on Riku.

I stopped dead in my tracks. Maleficent was coming.

Don't tell Riku.

Riku looked at me. "Mikaila, what's wrong?"

"You-" I paused. Should I tell him? "You go on ahead without me. I need one more minute of fresh air." I knew I was going to regret this, I just didn't want Riku to regret it more. Riku shrugged and disappeared onto the second floor. Just after he did, Maleficent appeared.

"You have been a good girl. Now, follow my instructions. You wouldn't want Riku to have an accident, would you?" Maleficent taunted me with Riku's life. I just nodded like I was her puppet. It felt horrible. King Mickey told me to take care of Riku when I was on Destiny Islands. I promised myself I would, too. Riku was going to stay safe. I was going to risk my life.

"Now, listen carefully . You are going to have tonight to take your things. Do not tell anyone of this plan or you know what happens. Meet me at the stroke of midnight." My face showed fear but I still nodded. I think that she liked that my face showed fear. She was smiling and laughing. I felt horrible. I wanted to throw up. My throat hurt. That always happens when I get in trouble or I am really scared. I have no idea why. It just always did. I was afraid, I guess. At this moment, I was definately afraid. Her long finger stroked my cheek.

"Good girl," she said, praising me like a dog. I wanted to bite her like a dog.

Riku was sitting down on the couch, waiting for me. I just fell to sleep with him. As far as he knew anyway. I couldn't sleep.

At 11:30, I slowly got up without waking Riku. I got out a piece of paper.

Dear Riku,

I really don't know how to say this. I wish I could tell you, I really do, but I can't. Something bad is happening. I have to leave or there with be consequences. Please don't come looking for me. It will only end up hurting you in the end. If you do ever find me before this is over, please don't do anything. Please don't try to take me away. Please don't try to save me. I started to cry, but continued. Riku... I don't know how to end this letter. All I want to say is, I am so sorry. More than you know.

You are always gonna be my love. First love. Hikari.

-Mikaila

I was crying. My face was covered in tears. I folded the letter and picked it up. I put it next to Riku where I was before I got up. I lightly kissed his forehead. "I am so sorry, Riku," I whispered. I went down to the first floor, taking a last look at him. This may be the last time I see him.

"Goodbye."