Chapter eleven

'Why didn't you ever tell us Harry?' Hermione said, but everyone could hear how hoarse her voice was.

'Give him a minute Hermione, Harry, come on,' Severus lifted Harry and they both sat on the floor. Harry sat between Severus' leg and up against him with one of Severus' arms tight around Harry's chest, while his hand was rubbing the back of Harry's neck.

Everyone watched as Harry's eyes closed tight, his fists clamped onto Severus' pants as small grunts escaped Harry's mouth. Then Harry grabbed hold of Severus' arm that had been around his chest and he bit down hard. Severus grunted a little, but kept rubbing the back of Harry's head and neck. Then with a slight push Harry dropped the arm as he fell unconscious.

'What did you do Severus?' Kingsley asked looking concerned.

'He's fine, he'll wake in a minute or two,' as Harry's hands slacked they dropped down onto his lap, then Severus pointed his wand at his arm where Harry had drawn blood. He healed it before wrapping his arms back around Harry, 'When Harry is losing it completely, biting helps, it's the only thing that helps otherwise he would have ended up punching everything he could. I've healed his hands so many times over the last couple of years, even healed where he used to bite his own arms. So I made him bite me instead of himself,' Severus pulled Harry's sleeve up, 'He did these when he was away with Hermione and Ron.'

Everyone stared at the all the marks on the inside of Harry's upper arm, 'Why though, why did he hurt himself like that?' Molly asked as she stared down at Harry.

'He used to hit the walls in my office, I made him stop. Then one day, I found him down by the lake, biting his arms, making them bleed. All he said was it made him feel better, the pain he felt from the bite was easier to deal with then the pain inside him, that's when I told him to bite me. But I learned this old relaxation technique, this couple of minutes that I put him out lets him calm down enough that when he wakes, he's fine. All this is going to take years before Harry will live a normal life. I spoke with a specialist healer, Harry's need for self-mutilation is due to everything he's gone through and if he didn't do something like this, he would just keep screaming in rage until his mind would just snap, it would end up damaged where he would never recover. I told the healer that I allow Harry to bite me and it seemed to help. He said that it might be the only thing that will give him the time he needs to heal, but even then he might never heal fully. It is getting better and he doesn't need to resort to this very often, just when something upsets him or reminds him of his past.'

'Isn't there anything that could be done to punish his uncle?' Angelina asked.

'I took care of him and his friends,' Severus said as he kept his eyes on Harry, 'They all developed the same problem of losing their genitals,' Severus felt Harry move slightly, 'He's waking.'

'Hmmm, Sev,' Harry murmured.

'I'm here, feeling better?'

'Yeah,' Harry stretched, then turned and kissed Severus before they both got up and sat back on the sofa.

'Why didn't you ever tell us Harry?' Hermione asked.

'I couldn't Hermione, I'm sure you wouldn't like anyone to know something like that. It all stopped when Hagrid came to get me that first year. He seemed too frightened that I would tell all us freaks as he called witches and wizards.'

'Well I like what Professor Snape said he did to them,' Ron gave Harry a smile.

'Yeah, I didn't know anything about that at first. Then one day I said I wanted to go back there and turn him into a rat or a pig, anything. That's when Sev told me what he'd done. I never laughed so hard in my life, thinking of them with no dicks.'

'Harry,' Hermione's eyes widened.

'What?' Harry grinned, 'It was funny Hermione. Then I used my cloak one day to watch him, he almost heard me when I started laughing. I left the house, Sev and I used to meet in this park not far from Privet Drive, I told him I saw what he'd done. Then I attacked Sev,' Harry grinned, 'In a good way of course.'

'A very good way, but right in the middle of the open, not something I was expecting but like always, you never let anyone or anything stop you doing what you wanted. So Minister, do you still want to perform that spell over Harry?'

'No, I don't need to, after hearing everything and how you've been helping Harry deal with self-mutilation, I can see there are real feelings there.'

'There are Kingsley and who would put up with me biting or hitting them all the time. Sev just takes whatever I dish out, then heals himself after. He has to love me to put up with that.'

'Why didn't we know you did that Harry, we never saw any of this?' Ron asked.

'Before I found out about the room of requirement, I went into an unused classroom and I hit the wall then I broke the window, but as I was hitting I was biting my lips, hard. I realised the pain I was feeling from my lip seemed to help, I could see and taste the blood, so I stopped hitting after that and just bite some part of me, usually my legs, toes, arms, parts I could keep covered easily. When I stayed here, I would sneak down into Mr. Weasley's shed to bite myself so no one would see me.'

'Okay, you both love each other, but what I don't get is how did you end up with feelings for Professor Snape in the first place. The way you two looked at each other and some of the things we all heard him say to you Harry, so how?' Seamus asked.

'That's really a hard question to answer Seamus. In the detentions I found myself watching Sev a lot, then the fantasies started.'

'Fantasies Harry, you wouldn't like to share those would you?' Charlie grinned.

'No he wouldn't Charlie. I'm sure your imagination could come up with some that took place,' Severus said.

'Took place, what, meaning they were just his fantasies or you actually did them?'

'We're not telling Charlie, so stop asking. Well one, reverse roles, but that's all I'm saying,' Harry chuckled.

'Oh, now that sounds like it would have been fun and kinky Professor Potter,' Charlie smirked making everyone either looked shocked or they laughed.

'You're right Charlie and you wouldn't want to get on his bad side,' Severus smiled down at Harry, 'But that's enough about our private life.'

'We should go though, we need to go house hunting.' Harry stood up with Severus beside him.

'Yes, we need to get out of that old house of my father's.'

'Even though we all know how you both really feel about each other, it's still going to cause quite a stir when this does get out. At the moment it is just rumours, nothing official.'

'We know Kingsley, but once everyone realises I'm in my right mind and Voldemort didn't do anything to me, hopefully they will see the truth.'

Hermione walked over and hugged Harry, 'I understand why you never told anyone, but when Professor Snape told us, I felt like cursing them myself.'

'That doesn't sound like you Hermione, but it makes me feel better knowing you thought that.'

'We should go Harry, we have a lot to do.'

'Yep,' Harry said goodbye to all his friends then the Weasley's, with Charlie giving him a feel making Severus pull Harry into his arms, 'Don't get him angry Charlie.'

'Just had to Harry, couldn't help myself. But I know, you belong to him, I can see it. But Severus, just tell me one thing, what's Harry like?'

'You know Harry, so I don't see why you would ask something like that.'

'That's not what I meant, he's just so damn cute I have to know what he's like in the sack.'

'Charlie Weasley,' Molly slapped her son's head, 'That is no one's business but theirs.'

'Molly's right Charlie, but,' Severus looked down at Harry, 'I'll say this, his inventive.'

'I knew it, Harry just seems to be good at everything. Oh well, I'll have to go find my own hero.'

'Ron, how do you control that brother of yours?'

'You don't Harry, we've all just learned to live with him. It's lucky we don't see him that often or we might hear exactly what he gets up too.'

'You probably would, anyway, bye,' Harry and Severus waved then stepped outside and apparated away.

'I can't believe how good he was after he woke up. It was like two different people.' Bill said.

'I've never heard of anyone hurting themselves like that though,' Molly said.

'It's actually common Molly, usually when someone has gone through a very traumatic experience, they self-mutilate. Some like Harry who bite, other's cut themselves, some even hit until they have broken their hands, some even hit their heads against walls until they end up unconscious. We keep a close eye on children that live in orphanages, usually they suffer after losing their parents. I watched Harry a lot over the years, but I never suspected he did that to himself.' Minerva said.

'Harry's very good at covering his true feelings. But things make sense now,' Ron looked at his old roommates, 'Why Harry would never dress in front of us, had showers before or after us and always kept his curtains closed around his bed.'

'You'll probably think of a lot of things that will make sense now. I should go and I might get a statement ready for when everyone finds out about Harry and Severus. This is still going to cause quite an uproar,' Kingsley nodded to everyone then left the Burrow but at least his concerns were put to rest now. He finally realised Harry and Severus really did love each other and they weren't going to let anyone separate them again.