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I was a little taken aback at what he had just shared with me. All this time I thought he just up and left me and didn't think twice about the hurt and pain he had caused me. Dimitri acted like it was really had been a mistake that day he had left. Like our night we had spent together meant nothing to him. He hurt me so deeply that I didn't think I could go on. He's been with Tasha all this time. They had built a life together and they looked happy and….

Some sense finally decided to make an appearance in my brain. "What about Tasha? You two have been together for five years."

He looked at me with confusion showing on his face and then recognition. He shook his head vigorously.

"Tasha and I have never been together. I was a guardian to her and nothing more. Ever. She and I are friends. She actually told me to talk to you. She knows about how I feel about you. She always had. When I left to guard her, she was confused about it as well. She didn't know how I could up and leave you. She knows how hard that was on me. She always insisted I speak with you and make you understand. But I couldn't jeopardize you like that. I …"

I cut him off. "What are talking about? What could have possibly made you want to walk away from me without looking back?" I was shaking. My nerves couldn't handle anymore. These past few days had been hell on me. And I felt like I was about to snap. He pulled me to him, wrapping one arm around my waist and the other hand tangled in my hair. He brought his head down and nestled his face in it taking big gulps of air. Like that was the only way he could breath. His hand that was around my waist was rubbing the small of my back, tracing small circles on it. Then it dawn on me. I jumped back and I startled him. I wiggled out of his arms and got quite a few feet away, so I could breath and get my head together. Too much information was landing in my lap too fast. When I finally found my voice I didn't even recognize it as my own. I sounded so distant, far away.

"Your leaving tomorrow?"

He nodded, "Roza I cant stay here and see you hate me. I would rather leave and let you live in peace. Maybe you.. maybe you will be able to find someone who deserves you. You need that. You deserve that. I thought by me being away from you, would be better on you. "

Tears started streaming down my face. "I don't want you to leave me again. I love you. But I do want to know this reason you keep talking about. The reason you left me. You're the one who took my heart and my soul. You're the one who walked away. Its not easy to watch you walk away and leave me out of control. Its not easy being…."

He moved so fast I didn't even have time to react. He pulled me into his arms and kissed me so deeply. A kissed filled with enough passion that I thought my knees would buckle on me and leave me flat on my ass. I didn't pull away this time. I kissed him back. Hungry and needing. Something I had been waiting five years to do. And now it was happening. Someone pinch me now, cause this is surely a dream. A dream I don't ever want to wake from. All the times that I had dreamt of this, it never felt this way. This was real. Alive and warm. I could feel his heart racing to the same rhythm as mine. I pulled back ever so slightly. Still keeping his arms wrapped around, my arm slung around his neck. I looked him dead in the eye.

"Its not easy being out of control. I cant go back to that life. I cant try to pretend that you love me again." My voice was low and husky, "When I was…when I was broken in two, it was all because of you. Its not easy when you need someone. I might end up lonely again. But once, you were the closest one to me. You left me in the cold, Dimitri." I spoke these words surprisingly normally. No broken voice. Even with the emotions swirling around in my stomach.

Its not easy being under the gun. Maybe I could really smile again. The kind of smile that I feel deep down. The kind that touches my heart. I would let him hold me again. Even if its only for a while. Even though I know that is only a little while. I will surrender even though I know I should run. They say time heals everything?

"I do love you Roza. I love you so, so much. You cant fathom just how much I love you. I have loved you since the night I laid my eyes on you. My soul calls to you. I know you can hear it. Your like a magnet with such a force that cant be turned away from." He was having trouble with his voice too. He bent back over and pressed his lips to mine once more. Moving his lips in sync with mine. I was breathing heavy and he was breathing heavier-if possible. Everywhere we touch, sparked prickled my skin. Goose bumps raised, even under the heavy coat I wore.

He pulled back and broke the kiss. Too soon if you ask me. He reached into his coat pocket and pulled out a crumpled envelope. It looked as if it had been opened and refolded quite a few times. He took a letter out of it and hesitated in giving it to me. My eyes were huge. What in the hell could a letter have to do with us? He looked at me with such intent. Like he was willing me to understand. He slowly reached out and handed it to me. I took it out of the envelope and opened it.

I started reading it at once. All this time I always asked why. Now it looked like I would finally get my answer. It read:

Guardian Belikov,

I was at the fight this afternoon and I saw you take Rosemarie Hathaway away to calm down after beating the shit out of Jesse Zeklo's. I followed to make sure Miss Hathaway was okay. I was concerned for her well being.

And what I found was surprising.

I saw what happen in the cabin and I have proof. I recorded the act on my cell phone. If you want to save her precious reputation you have to leave at once. If you are still on the grounds by midnight I will turn in the video of what I recorded. If you leave I will send you a copy and will not pursue this any further. The choice is yours. Make haste in this decision. Your time is short.

I read the letter, then read it again. All and all I must have read it ten times.

My eyes snapped up to Dimitri, he looked as if he thought I might not understand. But he seems to forget I am not the girl he left behind. Seventeen and impulsive. I had grown into a woman. A woman who knows what is right to for others. Especially the ones you love the most.

I nodded my head. " What the hell?" I was shocked. What kind of a sick person would do something like this?"But...but" I sighed. Now I know. It was hard to concept. But all in all it explains his motives. "I would have done the same for you if the situation would have been reversed. It wouldn't have been easy by no means." My voice was small, like that of a child. "But I would had done it. Cause I love you that much."

Relief surged through his face. I thought he might keel over. But as it was, he advanced on me again. This time I was the one to take charge. The sun was coming up in all its glory. The rays reflecting off the strands of hair, it looked like a halo in the making. I would be getting off my shift as soon as I made it back to the main gate. My relief was probably waiting for me to give him a status report of the evening. He could wait. I was with my love. The man who had my heart and he loved me just the same. It poured through his eyes.

I closed the remaining few inches and grabbed him by the hair, yanking him down to me. Lust filled my body. I could tell the same was happening to him and he wouldn't have hesitated one bit in taking me right then and there. But I wouldn't risk it in case someone happened upon us. I couldn't risk him like that. His lips were wonderful. Soft and urging. His member swollen to capacity. Oh yes, he wanted me. Bad.

I moaned deep within my throat, and that just seemed to make him grow even larger if possible. I slid my tongue through his parted lips and did the tango with his. He never faltered in step with me. He wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me closer to him. I pulled on his head wanting him deeper in my mouth. I slid my arms down to his broad shoulders, digging my nails into his neck. He moaned low and needing. I knew if we didn't break this kiss and soon, we were going to strip butt naked right here, right now.


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