Well, I seriously will miss writing these…
Okay, fine. Maybe I can't do this. There's gonna be a few chapters after this!
J'aimerais tellement (I'd love to) by Jena Lee.
Apologies: For any translation mistakes.
-Years later, Sometime after Iris in the first story.
"It's only one tear, just a reminder of the past.
From which I move away, but who do not cease haunting me.
It's only one blade that notches my thoughts.
I find my heart; your glance gives me desire for advancing."
I'd only seen him once before. But it'd only been in passing. And he hadn't seen me.
Now, he was staring right at me. Our eyes met and I found myself stepping closer. There was so much I wanted to say, but the words didn't come out. And in the seconds it took for me to reach him, everything I'd dreamed of saying just disappeared.
"Usagi," he said quietly, one hand instinctively reaching out to me. He stopped himself, a little of the old shyness still there. I couldn't help leaning forward and brushing our lips together briefly. There was none of the old brush that I loved. But there was a certain look in his eyes that I just wanted to get lost in.
"I'd love to tell you what my heart wants
But I don't have any more words.
I'd love to tell you that I'm not afraid anymore
But these words sound false.
Once again, I start over.
Baby, forgive me if I take a wrong step.
You know, I'd love to tell you what my heart wants
But I don't have any more words."
Seeing Akihiko again was a real surprise. But then, we did live in the same city so it was bound to happen a couple times.
I was almost lost for words. Then he kissed me softly and something just clicked. Usagi, my Usagi, was standing right in front of me.
"Usagi…" I wasn't quite sure what to say but somehow I ended up with, "Wow, you're not dead."
"What?"
"Well, you've been living alone… I imagined you'd be skinnier or something. Unless you hired someone to cook for you, but you don't really like people. I guess, maybe you aren't too bad. And it's not like you didn't ever survive without me before…" I sort of babbled.
He laughed and brushed a lock of hair from my face. "Yes, I'm still alive."
"Ah, I read your last book." Well, I was sure he'd written others since then but he'd know what I was talking about. The last one about us. The one where he mentioned seeing me again.
He nodded and I could almost see in his eyes that it had been pure torture, knowing I was happy with someone else. Then he broke the silence, "What's his name?"
"Shiki,"
"Isn't that a flower?" I could help laughing. It was true. The character ki was a plant with white and pink flowers. * "So, are you happy?" he asked seriously.
"Yes," it was hard to admit. But I was fine without him. I was happy with Shiki. Yet, somehow, I still loved Usami-san. "Well, what about you?" I had read his last book and there had been something very sad about it. He wasn't fine, I could tell.
"I'm okay," he refused to meet my eyes while he said it. But I didn't challenge him. Surely he knew by now that he couldn't fool me.
"Um… There's a Starbucks down the street. We could stop there and talk for awhile if you're not busy?"
"I actually have a meeting to go to. Aikawa will kill me if I don't show. Maybe some other time?"
We agreed to meet the next week. Afterward I watched one of the most important people in my life walk away. There was nothing I could do but wait until I saw him again. Hopefully, the week would pass quickly.
"My dreams fade, only time can help me.
But when you leave, I want to see you remain."
I ended up teeling Shiki about meeting Usami again. It wasn't a secret that I'd dated before. And Akihiko was a favorite author of his, even if he hadn't discovered his BL series yet.
The only problem: Shiki wanted to meet him too.
"Wait for me, I'll find the words.
I beg you, I beg you only for time."
Well, this is continuing. As you can see it's going to have both of them in it. Yay!
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