Ashley POV
I had a bad feeling for days things were changing and my feelings were confirmed the day at the restaurant when my mother was acting weird with the table she was tending too.
When we left the restaurant I saw that sad look in my mother's eyes that she'll have whenever she thinks about him. He being a man I've never met but heard so many great things about him but why with all these great things momma tells us about him, then why is she always so sad and miserable whenever she thinks about him?
Mom would never tell us when she's sad because she doesn't want Anthony and I to worry about her but she's not as good at hiding things as she may believe. Sometimes when we're busy playing and mom either watch teach or reading a book she gets look in her eyes like she's faraway thinking about something distant.
There's also times when I have terrible sleeping which has been frequently lately that'll end up walking down the hall to momma room but before she'll notice me I'll see her holding his picture crying and she'll be begging for his forgiveness. Seeing my mother like that hurt deeply and instead of going any further and making my present known I just go back to my room and wish momma wouldn't be so sad.
Momma also told us that one day we'll meet this man and he'll just fall so deeply in love with us because we were his own flesh and blood, she also told use that even though he's not in our lives she should never place the burden on him because he's an innocent that gotten hurt by the mistakes she made in the past. I may not know the extent of the mistakes but I know my mother is sorry and at times "her guilt eats away at her" at least that's what uncle Jasper said to Aunt Rose when he thought my brother and I were busy.
My mother may have a lot of issues on her plate but she raised us the best way she knew how. My brother and I go to one of the best schools for gifted children here in Chicago. When we're not in school, momma is helping us with our other interests that we may have. Even though my brother and I or twins mom always instill into us that we may be the same in certain aspect in life but always follow our dreams, strive for excellent, it's okay to fail at something just never give in to defeat, she lets us know it's okay to be an individual and most important our voice is the most important thing in life and never let anyone silence us; which she goes on by saying it doesn't mean to talk back to people or be mean but just never let anyone belittle us or force us into doing things we do not want too.
May people I know does not understand how my mother raises twins on her own but she takes everything people say with a smile and tells them thank you but we do just fine and we have all the help, love and support we need. Which is true because not once have our mother ever made Anthony and I feel unloved because no matter how busy or crazy things may be in her life she makes time us. There are days which are known as "Twin days" which are days design for just the 3 of us doing group activities that we plan on doing that we pick out of a fish bowl and "Twin days" general happen 2-3 times a week; and then there's days that are known as "Mommy and Me days" which are days design for just either my brother or I spending the day with mom all by ourselves without the other sibling present. Mom says the reason behind "Mommy and Me days" are to teach us to be individuals and that even though we may be the same its okay to be different.
I live for the days were its just mom and me not that I do not love spending time with Anthony but when it's just mom and I things just seem so easy and carefree.
For some reason though it's like I could always read my mother's emotions so well which is why last night when we came back from spending the day with Auntie Rose and Uncle Jas that I knew something was wrong. Mom was curled up in her bed and even though she was sleeping for some reason I could tell she was crying and it made me sad because I hate seeing her like this so I do the only thing I could do I crawled into bed and just hold her.
Anthony ends up joining me in the bed with mom and so does Auntie Rose and uncle Jas which confirms to me that something happen today to make her sad because when Uncle Jas and Auntie Rose starts comforting mom it always means something is eating away at her.
When mom wakes up she tries to put on a happy face for us but she has this nervous habit of playing with her locket that he gave to her whenever she's worried about something.
We all were suppose to have a Disney camp out in the living room but mom told us that her, Aunt Rose and Uncle Jas had to go out to take care of some very important but that instead of cancelling Auntie Ang was going to join us. To say I was disappointed by what every came up would be an understatement because this was a "Twin Day" activity and mom never back out on us before on days design just for us.
Auntie Ang watched us while mom was out and even though I enjoyed spending time with her I was not feeling well and was extremely worried about my mom because when she left she had looked so out of it.
Later on in the evening I ended up throwing up guess that's what I get for vegging out and being a worrywart. I ended up falling asleep in my sleeping bag only to be woken up after my mom felt my forehead to see if I had a temperature. I did not make any noises to let anyone know I was awake and shortly after everyone left my mom's cell went off.
Throughout the muffle sounds I heard something I would of never imagine my mother to say "Oh um hey Edward I um wasn't expecting to hear from you so soon"
Him? She was talking to him I wonder if this was the reason why she bailed out on "Twin Day." I wish I could have heard more of the conversation but mom ended up going to another room to talk. Okay so I'm a bit noisy!
I ended up drifting back to sleep but not before hearing what sounded to be my mother sobbing. Seriously I know mom says that he's suppose to be this great loving, forgiving and compassionate type of person then if that's the case why is my mom forever crying whenever his involve with something?
In the morning I was semi awoken by my mom cleaning and by someone knocking on the door. I heard a man's voice and my mom speaking in hush tones leading whoever it was into the kitchen.
Next thing I knew I heard something crashing to the floor and I rushed into the kitchen to see what was wrong. My mother and whoever the man was back were to me when I entered "Mommy what was that noise?"
Both my mother and the guy turned quickly towards me and I saw the one person I never thought I'll meet anytime soon. I just kept looking between the two of them and I saw tears in my mother's eyes that she seem to be fighting to make sure they did not shed in front of me. Why does this man always hurt my mother by making her cry?
I felt like shouting and telling him to get out and leave us alone…
Anthony ended up joining me in the kitchen now and I could see he recognized him as well and my idiot brother looked happy that he was here.
Mom had finally spoken up and asked us to go wash up before breakfast.
In the bathroom Anthony finally said something "Is that really who I think it is Ash?"
I just rolled my eyes before saying highly annoyed "what do you think?"
Why must Anthony be so happy be this and seriously am I the only one that see's moms pain?
We went in the living room to watch cartoons while waiting for breakfast to finish when HE decided to join us in the living room.
He came and sat on the couch say "so you must be AJ and Ashley?" I just simply rolled my eyes mumbling so low "no duh," I know I should be nice to him but this whole thing felt weird to me and plus he kept making mommy cry. Okay I'll also admit that I'm scared of what all this mean now because it just use to be just the 3 of us so where does he fit into all of this and how much are things going to change?
I heard him and Anthony talking about something but I paid it no mind I just kept my attention on the TV praying mom would hurry up with breakfast; he kept trying to include me into the conversations but all I kept doing was nodding my head. I saw mom from the corner on my eye watching us and her eyes kept going between him and me, well at least mom knows I'm not happy!
During breakfast I could tell mom was not please with my behavior towards Edward but apart from stories mom told us about him I truly do not know him so how come she expects me to give him my trust so easily to him. I just keep getting these really bad vibes plus I did not want things to change and with him in the picture now I knew change would eventually happen.
I know many of you may think my behavior is bratty but my mom means the world to me and I'm afraid with him in the picture I'll lose her.
I heard Edward and Anthony in the play room so I just stood in the doorway watching them; just standing there I felt like I was already losing part of me watching my brother bond with him so easily without a care in the world.
Edward had motion for me to come in back I just stood in the doorway unmoved because I felt once I let my guard down something was going to happen. I swear it wasn't for mom trying motioning for me to go in I would have just stood in the doorway.
Even as I entered the room I did not want to get any closer to them so I went to the cushions in the corner and just sat there.
I did not even realize I was crying until mom came to lift so I could sit in her lap; mom rocked me back and forth while Edward played momma song. Mom kept reassuring me that everything was going to be alright with time but when she spoke those words she did not even say it with much certainty herself plus it was like she was trying to reassure herself more than me.
When momma suggested he take us out to spend more time with him without her I lost it. I just held on to her tighter begging her to come with us but momma kept rubbing circles in my back letting me cry all the while telling me this will be good for all us and to go with him and behave for her.
When we had came back down stairs to leave with him I just stayed quiet and held on to mom tighter because all of this was just too new and too much for me to deal with right now.
In the car he had told us he was taking us to his house so that we could meet our other relatives but I didn't want to meet these people. Geez couldn't he had just taken us to the Zoo or the museum or something instead of throwing us in front of a bunch of people we do not know; and of course Anthony my traitor of a brother was thrilled by this.
Author Notes
Next chapter will be part two and with will continue on with Ashley's POV on the Cullen's(Oneparticular Cullen she's going to DISLIKE completely and it's not her Poppa)and someone else,
Follow by a brief EPOV before it becomes an all BPOV for awhile.
I want to assure you guys that with future chapters you may not like what you see but this is an Edward and Bella story but we're not at that point yet.
