"Please stop ringing" I mumbled under the covers as I hoped the person calling me would get the point that I was not going to answer the phone.
"Liana your phone." said David as I looked over at him. When did he get in? I reached over for my phone and noticed it was mom no wonder she never got the point that I didn't want to talk.
"Liana come to the club now" said mom and hung up.
"Morning to you too." I said as I closed my phone and sat up. I had two choices turn off the phone and go to sleep or just get dressed and go to the clubhouse.
I looked over at David as it seemed he had gone back to sleep as I got out of bed and got dressed.
"Where are you going?" he asked as he turned over as I was getting my purse. "I don't want you at the club something went down last night." he said as I just walked out of the room. Yeah and I wanted to have dinner with you last night I thought as I locked up and walked to my car.
~A~
When I arrived at the clubhouse I noticed mom's car was not in the parking lot, as I parked I noticed Luann was here so at least she may know something.
Walking inside of the clubhouse I noticed that it was empty as I spotted Luann sitting at the bar. It was way too quiet for my liking.
"Hey babe what are you doing here?" asked Luann as I sat down next to her.
"Mom called said she needed me here" I said as I checked my phone to see if mom had called me again.
"Same here, she might be back in a few. Do you know what's going on?"
"Not really, David said to stay away from the club."
"And here you are." said Luann as one of the girls brought me a coffee.
"Yeah I needed to get out of there for awhile."
"Everything going well with you two?" she asked as I really wanted to say yes.
"Shitty. Do you think David is capable of cheating?" I asked as I really did not know why that was in my mind at the moment.
"Well every man can cheat. Are things that bad?" she asked as the clubhouse's door opened as Jax's walked in.
"What are you doing here?" he asked as he gave me a kiss as mom and Tig walked in before I could answer.
"That's perfect as I'm taking care of everything you two are here gossiping over coffee." said mom as Chibs walked over to Jax as I noticed that there was someone laying on the chapel's table.
"You didn't ask for anything all you said was to come to the clubhouse." I said as she was paying attention to Jax as he was getting ready to leave.
"So what's going on with you two?" asked mom as she stood in front of us.
"Oh Liana thinks David-" I kicked her leg before she said everything. "Ow" she said as mom turned her attention to me.
"What is going on with you and David?" she asked as I knew she was going to get it out of Luann one of these days.
"There moving out of the apartment in a couple of days." said Luann as mom just walked away.
"Luann" I said as I hit her shoulder.
"Sorry she was going to get it out of me anyway."
"You know she tells everything to my father. That's the last thing I need so try to avoid talking with her."
"Yeah like that is an easy thing to do."
"What are we even doing here?" I asked again as I should really just go check up on the shop rather than trying to figure out what my mother needed.
"I have a feeling that this is a sort of lock down kind of thing." answered Luann. If that was the reason I was going to get out of here there was no way I was going to stay here.
"Liana it looks like David is outside." said Juice as he came and stood next to me as me and Luann looked at the camera he was pointing at.
"Oh shit" I said as I knew I wasn't supposed to be here.
"What?" asked Luann as she turned her attention to the cameras.
"I'm not supposed to be here remember." I said as I grabbed my purse as Luann grabbed my arm.
"You think he will buy it if I tell him you are not here?" asked Luann.
"We can try" I said as she nodded and went outside as I looked over at the monitors.
"So now what Liana he prohibits you to be with your family?" asked mom as she stood next to me as Luann walked back inside.
"I don't think he bought it but he left." she said as I grabbed my keys.
"Thanks I'm going home." I told Luann as I ignored mom and walked out.
On my way home I felt as if our relationship had began to crack when he asked me to marry him, he knew I was not interested in that. How would things have been if I had just said no. I probably wouldn't have him at all, and all I wanted was him not a house nor kids.
When I got to the apartment I saw that he was already here as I dreaded the walk upstairs. Things were changing and sometimes that is never good.
"Where were you?" he asked as I put my keys and purse on the couch.
"Had some things to do." I said as I took off my shoes.
"I knew you were at the clubhouse." I can just imagine what Luann told him, I should have just went out to talk to him rather than hiding in the clubhouse.
"Well that was one of my things that I had to do." I said as I was going to walk over to the room as he grabbed my hand.
"I told you not to go."
"Since when are we in a relationship where you control what I do? Beside I was with my family" I said as I moved away from him and walked over to the kitchen.
"Yeah apparently the only people who can tell you what to do right? There is a reason I did not want you at the club, it wasn't because I wanted to control you. Where are we going here Liana?"
"What are you talking about?"
"Ever since I have asked you to marry me it's been like there's this wall growing between us."
"Yeah and that wall is Charming, and to begin with David I never said that I wanted to be married."
"It has always been this way, now all of a sudden my job bothers you, and you did say you wanted to get married when you accepted the proposal. Just make up your mind Liana." he said as he walked out of the apartment.
~The Next Day~
I turned of the coffee machine as I grabbed my keys and left the apartment. I had spent the whole morning trying to get a hold of David and just gave up as Luann called me and told me that she was heading over to the club. Not the place I wanted to be but it was better than being alone right now, but I just had to stop somewhere before I headed over to the clubhouse.
"Hey what brings you here?" asked Tara as I was still amazed at how small Abel felt in my arms.
"Just came to see Abel" I answered as she closed the door, I had not been able to visit him.
"How do you do it?" Tara asked as I turned my attention to her as I had no idea what she was asking about. "How are you able to have a relationship with David and be okay with what the club does?"
"At this moment I myself can't answer that question." I said as I looked down at Abel and stood up as I wanted to go talk with Luann. I kissed Abel's forehead as I laid him back down and grabbed my purse and keys.
"Is everything alright with you and David?"
"Yeah just need to figure out some things, see you later Tara." I walked out of the room bumping into Jax on the way out.
"Came to see Abel?"
"Yeah was with him for a little while. Have you seen mom?" I was surprised she had not called me all day and at the same time found it very weird.
"She should be at the club, if she wasn't here with Abel."
"Alright see you later" I said as I gave him a quick hug and walked over to my car.
~A~
Arriving at the clubhouse I noticed it was full as I parked right next to Luann's car close to the garage. Before I walked in I tried David's phone and it went straight to voice mail. How did he expect me to tell him what I was thinking?
"You look like you had trouble sleeping." said mom as I walked over to her and Luann who were at the bar.
"Wow do I really look that bad?"
"No you look beautiful" answered Luann as she moved my hair back as I sat down and accepted the beer from sack.
"All I'm saying is that you look tired that's all." said mom and walked away.
"What her problem?" I asked Luann as I turned around to face her.
"That list is too long Liana."
"True"
"So you and David had a rough night?"
"Not really a night after I left here I went over to the house and we fought and he left."
"About?"
"If I want to be with him and getting married and moving to the new house and start having kids and all that."
"Are you still off birth control?"
"Yeah have been thinking about getting back on it but for some reason I haven't."
"Maybe it's a sign."
"Luann if we are going to talk about signs then I'm going with the negative pregnancy test I got last week, which means we are not ready for children. Everything was fine before her asked me to marry him and he bought a damn house."
"You're the one that said yes."
"That's what he said"
"Liana you have a man that wants to marry you and has bought you a house and treats you right and wants to have kids with you even when he knows how fucked up your family is. The last thing you should be doing is sitting here next to me, you should be out there living your life because we both know you don't want to leave David and you have the chance to be happy and not be like me or your mother."
"Wow" I said as I kept looking at her as she took my beer away. "You know you're right I'll be right back" I said as I grabbed my purse and headed over to the restroom so that I could freshen up and look for David.
~Gemma~
As I walked out of the kitchen I noticed Jax had just gotten back and was looking around.
"Whats going on?" I asked worried as something might have gone wrong.
"Where's Liana?" he asked as he kept looking around.
"In the restroom. Jackson what is going on?" I asked getting impatient as he didn't spill it out.
"We need to talk." he said as he made his way over to the kitchen.
"Jackson."
"When we got Cherry out I found out David is cheating on Liana with Stahl."
"Oh shit"
"Ma I don't know what to do with that shit." he said as he shook his head. This may be a way to get Liana away from David and more closer to us.
"You have to tell her Jax"
"What no ma you know this will hurt her. Fuck"
"Jackson this is about protecting your sister, we both know that she deserves better than that asshole that thinks he can get away with hurting your family. You're her brother and protector." I said as I walked out of the kitchen as I knew he would do right by Liana.
"Gemma what's wrong?" asked Luann as I sat down next to her.
"Well it turns out Liana's good man is cheating on her with that ATF bitch Stahl."
"Oh how did Liana take it. Wait when did she find out?" she asked as she stood up.
"Jax is telling her?"
"What no why Jax?"
"She has a right to know."
"Yes but it should come from David. They are going thru a rough patch, this is not what they need right now."
"Well then Hale should have thought about, he is the one to blame here."
"All I'm saying is that she needs to think clearly before she does something she will end up regretting." "What like leave him?"
"Gemma do you really think this is what Liana wants or is this what you want? All you'll end up doing is destroying her chance to be happy."
~Liana~
"Liana we need to talk" said Jax as he grabbed my arm as we walked into a room. This did not feel right, I was trying to call David to let him know that I really needed to talk to him but of course he was not answering.
"About?" I asked as he closed the door.
"I don't know how your going to take this."
"Just say it Jax." I said as the waiting was driving me crazy and I was sure I was going to start panicking.
"Me and Unser broke into the station tonight, I found Stahl and David in Unser's office. David is cheating on you with that bitch."
"Wait what?" I asked.
"I saw them, Hale was faced down on that shit." he said as every word seemed to sink into me as I felt sadness over anger. You know there is always when you think about what would you do if you ever found out someone cheated on you. This was not it I did not picture myself hiding my hurt I thought I was going to be strong and not want to just start crying.
"Jax I need to be alone" I said fighting back tears.
"Liana I wouldn't lie to you, mom knows she told me to tell you" he said as he grabbed my hands. Of course I believed him, Jax would know how this was going to hurt me.
"I'm fine can you give me some space Jax" I said as I sat on the bed. It was going to happen it was faith testing us every time. His job coming first every time and I the same, but this was the last straw we were over I didn't sign up for this.
"Alright I'm sorry Liana" he said as he let me go and walked out. As I heard the door closed I started crying as I felt every pain shoot through me. I wanted to throw things and at the same time I just wanted to hold myself and cry. I knew it had to be that bitch, but just ugh did I really expect this.
I walked into the restroom and turned on the sink as I splashed water on my face, even though I wanted to kill both of them at this moment I had to calm down and stop crying.
I took a deep breath as I looked at myself on the mirror. How the hell was I suppose to deal with this shit?
Okay I'm just going to go over to the station and deal with this. You can do this Liana just go fuck everything and go. I told myself over and over as I was unable to move away from the sink. As I turned off the water someone opened the door.
"Shit sorry" I said as Hap stared at me. I probably looked like a mess and he was wondering what the hell I was doing here.
"Do I have to kill him" he said as he looked at me.
"No" I said shaking my head as I began to wipe away my tears.
"Who do I have to kill then" he asked as I tried to get passed him as he blocked my way out.
"No one" I said shaking my head and was about to walk past him as he grabbed my arm.
I'm falling apart
Before I knew it I felt his lips on mine but not in a caring way but in a I want you rather than I need you. I kissed him back as he held me against the wall as I held on to him as he picked me up as I wrapped my legs around him as he walked over to the bed. This was wrong but felt so right.
I'm barely breathing
As my back hit the bed I opened my eyes as I found Hap staring down at me. I felt as if we both knew this was a mistake, but at this moment I really did not care and all I wanted was him.
With a broken heart that's still beating
I closed my eyes as everything I was feeling went away as he entered me. With every touch and kiss the pain went away and I enjoyed it for now as I knew it would all be back tomorrow.
So tonight
I'm going to find a way to make it
Without you.
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