Chapter Eleven

Bound To Happen

The moonlight floored into the master room, feeling the room with a glowing light. The curtains opened, forgotten to be shut before going to bed. The large balcony doors where safely locked, but it didn't keep the invading moon light from coming into the room. Aiden cursed himself that he didn't close the curtains. He lay on his side facing the assaulting light. It was preventing him from falling asleep. He glanced over at the clock; it flashed three in the morning in a lustrous green light. He could feel the lithe, warm body curled up a foot next to him. His surprise that the girl hadn't upped and left already to sleep in Teigue's room had surprised her. She had moved from the couch to the laying with her daughter in her full size bed down the hall.

b Although you're sleeping right next to me

Well, it feels like you are wide awake in a distant dream/b

Aiden knew that the young girl had spent most of the day with a certain blond. She didn't deny it and he didn't ignore it. He knew that they hadn't done anything too drastic because they both had the children. She didn't come home late, until nine. He had been sitting in the entertainment room reading a sports magazine waiting for her. He was honestly worried about her. She should have gotten home before the kids bedtime. Instead, the young mother was an hour late. She had quietly carried both sleeping children in the house as quietly as she could. Hearing the car pull up, Aiden had met her at the door and taken Ashden from her. He put the small boy up as she did the same with Teigue.

When asked why she had been late, she just waved it off. Aiden pushed her, even though he knew he shouldn't. His jealousy and fear was clouding his eyes from what he already knew. They got into a small argument again, this time in hushed tones so they wouldn't wake their sleeping children. Ashley had came out and said that they hadn't done anything, bSpencer/b wouldn't let it go that far. She told them that they had lunch at a local café. She said that Spencer had converted the second room into an Art Studio and they painted with the kids and worked on little things. They had swam and hanged out at Spencer's house. She had cooked dinner and they lay low the rest of the night. Aiden believed the girl; he knew that she would tell him the truth. There was nothing to hide.

b leading a life that is finally free

of these endless nights and countless fights that turn us into

who we hate to be/b

Aiden knew that his wife, the woman he loved, was in love with another woman. He knew that going into this relationship, but that didn't make it anymore harder on the man. He knew that one day this would happen, that his wife would find her love once again and soon leave him. He promised himself that when this happened he would be the respectful man and let her do it. That didn't mean it wouldn't hurt, especially now that they have built a life together. When they had gotten married, he didn't expect it to go this far. He expected someone to tell Ashley where Spencer was or the blond to come home sooner. He didn't expect the two would be happily married, leaving in a large, elegant home, and having two beautiful children together. If the young girl wasn't allergic to dogs, they would have that too.

Aiden had tried so hard to be the perfect husband and father. He tried so hard even though in the end, there will be no reward. His life had dramatically changed when he had gotten shot in the heart. While, it had actually changed when the blond girl had came to Los Angeles. If she had never came then Ashley would have never feel in love with her and she would still love him. He hoped that she would have loved him. Instead the blond bdid/b come and Ashley bdid/bfall in love with her. He had even liked the girl. When Aiden had seen that speeding bullet moving toward them, he had jumped into Spencer's way. He knew that his heart could take the pain of a bullet hitting it.

The pain of the bullet continued through out his life. His basketball career was over, due to the fact he was easily out of breath. So, instead of becoming a famous basketball star, he returned to King the next year as the coach. He also began working in the UCLA fitness department. The pain of not pursuing his life dream hurt him, but he had the girl. He married the young girl, and that made the pain fade over the years. The joy of his children being bored made the pain disappear.

He tried hard to please Ashley over the years, mentally and physically. She never asked much out of him, in fact she never asked him for anything. He knew that Ashley was an independent woman. She worked and she took care of the children at the same time. She had inherited the house from her father, so they didn't have house payments. They paid their own car payment, and she used her trust fund to pay the utilities. He was just there as her companion, someone who wouldn't leave the girl, someone she could lean on.

There was no doubt in the dark haired man's mind that he wasn't a wonderful father. He loved his children more than anything or anyone, including himself. It breaks his heart when he yelled in front of his children. He didn't want to intentionally do anything to disappoint or hurt them. It amazed him that he had all this love in his body for the two children. When they had Ashden, the love was overwhelming and he wanted to stay with his son all the time. He remembered how he would always check up on his son in his bassinet next to their bed. He just wanted to make sure the little boy was breathing. When he found out Ashley was pregnant again, he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to love the new baby as much as his son. Like most parents, this was a worry for them.

When Teigue was born, he was amazed how his heart instantly grew to love her just as much as Ashden. Aiden chuckled at the thought of his children. Staying up all night with them, changing diapers, and all that was easy compared to naming his children. Ashley needed original and out-there names. Aiden had wanted to name Ashden after him and Ashley simply denied it before it came out of his mouth. She met him in the middle with the mix of both their names. With Teigue, she had it already figured out and Aiden didn't argue with her.

To any other woman, he was the perfect man. He was a magnificent father, an astonishing lover, a brilliant husband. He was in all aspects of the word 'perfect'. But the man knew that he wasn't the one she wanted. He knew that he was just her safety net.

b And this is so difficult for the both of us

I know we tried so hard, there's just no hope for us/b

He knew that there was no hope of the future he had hoped would happen. He hoped that the blond would never return so that he could have his perfect family, his perfect life that he had been living the past three years with. He could never deny Ashley the happiness that the girl deserved. She had never done anything to wrong him; she didn't come into this relationship with lies. He knew that she only married him as her safety net, something to catch her as she fell. He believed that she had loved him in an earthy way.

Aiden slowly and cautiously got out of the bed without waking the brunette up. The cool breeze in the house had hit his bare chest as he padded across the cold hardwood floors to walk out of the room. He slowly walked down the hallway, passing pictures of the happy family. He stopped at the first door that led into his daughter's room. He stood in the door way. The door that was open had "Princess" nicely painted on it in large, purple, cursive writing. There was a night light on the table next to the bed. There was a lampshade on it that spiraled around the light and splashed moons and stars across the room.

He smiled at the sleeping little girl. She was cuddled up in a small, tiny ball in the center of the large bed with a small ruffed up dog in her arms. The child looked peaceful and content. Could he give up this privilege of always being here for his daughter? Could he give the right to check up on his daughter in the middle of the night to someone the little girl wasn't familiar with?

Aiden left the door way to move across the hall to his son's room. Like the little girl, the boy had his name painted on his door in bold green letters. The same kind of night light was turned on in the boys room, airplanes was flying all around the room. Aiden saw the small mess the boy had made that morning. There were his dinosaurs and blocks scattered around the room. He smiled at the little's boy. Ashden was spread across his bed, his covers kicked down to his feet. He didn't know if he could give this up.

b Well it's more than a shame that we lost to this game

All my walking, talking, sleeping, breathing -

nothing will ever be the same/b

Aiden moved out of his son's doorway and continued down the hall. He opened the large door that led into his office. He had to get something to drink. It was Ashley's idea to put a mini fridge in this office and the music room. "We're always thirsty," was the words that Ashley had spoken. Aiden grabbed a water from the fridge and took a seat in front of it. If someone had seen him, setting there on the floor, they would have thought he looked like the epitome of pathetic. He didn't care. He was content with setting in front of this small, white fridge and enjoying the tasteless beverage.

It was a shame that things didn't go his way. That he didn't get to keep his family. "They haven't left you yet, asshat." The man thought to himself. He knew that Ashley would leave him eventually. If she didn't, then he would make her. He wanted her to be happy most of all. He didn't want the girl walking around this house, acting as if she was happy. That would be a lie, and their marriage was not built on it.

He drank the rest of the contents of the bottle before getting back up and tossing it into a small garbage can next to the fridge. He padded his way quietly back into the bedroom. Ashley had turned on her side, facing the window. He walked over to his side of the bed where he could see her face. He gingerly took a seat on the bed.

b For what it's worth, I've always admired you

I always thought that we could make it through/b

He looked down at her. Her face was calm and content. She was still curled into a small ball, keeping herself warm underneath the covers. He moved a stray hair that had fell into her face. He always thought that this wouldn't happen. In the back of his head he thought they could make it through anything. When Teigue was born he thought that it was final. She was never going to leave him. Instead, the little voice that always told him it would happen was right.

He lay down in the comfortable bed. Aiden turned onto his side, facing the brunette. He wanted so bad to take the girl into his arms. At least one more time. He remembered when the young mother used to cling to him in her sleep. She had held onto him as if he was her life saver. In some since he had saved her from herself after Spencer left. When they had gotten together he never left her side. He was her support, her rock. He would wrap his arms around her lithe body and protect her from the outside world. He held onto the girl. Her need wasn't the only thing that kept his arms around her. He held onto her because at the time she was his.

b

I used to hold you like it's all that I had

Now begins the falling out, we are like a passing fad/b

He remembers when they first had Ashden. They would lay in bed with the small swaddled baby in the middle of them. They would talk about anything that would hit their mind. Aiden had loved the way that she had smiled at him. It was even better when him and Glen would sit and talk. Glen would tell him hat the young mother had begun grinning when his name had been mentioned. It was the 'honeymoon' year for them. They had just gotten married and Ashden was born. He remembered that he was worse. Whenever he saw, smelt, or heard anything that had reminded him of the girl, a smile would curl onto his lips.

bYour mouth would crack a smile if I were spoken of

'Till tonight you never thought

you'd lose this epic battle with love/b

She didn't move closer to him. She didn't even seek comfort of his body heat. She just slept there, a small unnoticeable smile on the girl's face. Aiden couldn't live like this. He couldn't keep going with the thought that his wife was in love with another woman. He couldn't deny the girl of the happiness she had so unselfishly gave him over the years. He wanted to be selfish. He wanted to be so fucking selfish. He wanted to be the one to have the girl in the end. He wanted to be the one to have the happy ending. He couldn't have this ending though, when he knew that she wasn't happy.

He knew that he cloud continue making her happy; continue giving her a wonderful life. But he knew she wouldn't be fully happy, that she would regret everything. He didn't want her to be regretful.

b Although you're sleeping right next to me

Well, it feels like you are wide awake in a distant dream /b

By admitting and realizing everything that he knew that would happen and that had never stopped, Aiden was freeing himself. Slowly, he was starting up the process to do the right thing and to starting his life anew.

b leading a life that is finally free

of these endless nights and countless fights that turn us into

who we hate to be /b

He admired the girl for her strength. She had gotten over Spencer leaving her. She had become a wonderful wife. She had to grow up fast and she never complained that her life was hard or disappointing. She was a wonderful mother to the children. He admired the girl for being who she is. He admired her for not lying to him. He admired her for her sincerity and for her passion. He would miss her also. He loved her. He can't lie to himself. He iloves/i her.

The time that they had been together had pulled them together. It had made both of them stronger. Time had helped build him the perfect life. It was a beautiful masterpiece. The children, the wife, the home, the job, the whole life was a magnificent painting that was now being smashed in front of his face. He knew that this would happen, and he couldn't even try to protect it. He couldn't prevent it.

b Now look what time can do

It took our masterpiece we built and broke it in two

I always believed in you

I always loved you/b

Aiden turned back facing the window. He pulled up the blankets on both of them, so they could hide from the cool air. He had tried so hard in this relationship to try to make it work. He tried so hard to be the one she loved. He knew she tried so hard for him to love him. He knew that she was trying so hard to deny herself of happiness. There was just no hope for them. It was useless to waste all this time. All this time she could be freely rebuilding her relationship with the blond, where she could freely try to get their relationship back and even better than it once was. He could be moving on, and hopefully he could find someone who would love them equally back.

b And this is so difficult for the both of us

I know we tried so hard, there's just no hope for us

/b

Tomorrow morning he will call Glen. He'll ask if he can stay in the spare room until he could find his own place. He'll leave a note for his wife. Aiden knew he couldn't tell her face to face. He knew that it would be too hard for him. So, the better option was to leave her a letter. Better yet, he would leave it on a video for her. It had been their way of leaving little notes to each other over the years. He would tell her all the things he is feeling. The only thing he will ask of her is to be able to see his children; he refused to not be able to see his kids. The sooner that he started this transition into the moving on process, the easier it will be on everyone.

b Well it's more than a shame that we lost to this game

All my walking, talking, sleeping, breathing -

nothing will ever be the same/b

Aiden slowly closed his eyes, sleep coming quickly upon him. The man turned around and gingerly laid an arm across Ashley's form. She didn't move away from him, but welcomed the heat. This was the last time he would hold his wife. This was bound to happen.

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