Chapter 11
First thought when I wake up is
My god he's beautiful
So I put on my make up
And pray for a miracle
Clutching her sheets tightly, Moze woke up with a start. She couldn't believe she had had another dream about him. From her position in bed she could easily see out her window. Her room was off to the side of the house and she had one of the most beautiful balconies. 'The best room in the house' her mom always said. The Mosely's lived in an old Victorian house that had been built quite a while back.
Their entire neighborhood was filled with homes that had been built way back in the early 1900's but nobody ever seemed to mind; the houses were beautiful. Looking out her window she could see perfectly into Ned's room. He also had one of the best rooms in his house. It was off to the side just like hers; their rooms faced each other.
When they were younger they would always be sneaking into each others rooms at night, but now that they were older they didn't do it so often. If she wanted to talk to him she would just call him or sneak a peek out the window if she felt it necessary.
When Ned and Suzie started going out she wanted to give him space. She was sure Suzie wouldn't have been happy if she was sneaking into his house late at night just to talk to him, plus she didn't ever want to walk in on something she wasn't supposed to see. She did not need to see any more PDA than she absolutely had too.
She had the urge to throw up when ever Suzie would give him a small peck on the lips. She couldn't imagine how she would feel if she had to see more. Moze cleared the thought from her head. She didn't have to worry about that anymore. Suzie and Ned were no longer together anymore.
She smiled happily to herself. As she looked out her window she could see Ned climb out of bed. He of course had no shirt on and a pair of checked boxer shorts. Man he was beautiful. With any other guy she knew it would sound cheesy, but with Ned it just seemed to fit. He gave a whole new definition to the word gorgeous.
God, She thought to herself. I'm so screwed. She knew Ned didn't want to be with anyone right now. He had told her so, but there was always a small part of her that wondered if he was still hung up on Suzie. Sure he had broken up with her, not the other way around, but she was the perfect cover girl beautiful on the outside but not so nice on the inside. Ned could be totally oblivious when it came to girls.
As completely lost in her thoughts as she was, she still couldn't tare her gaze from the window. If only she knew one day that all of this lust, dare she say love, be worth it in the end. The problem was she would never know unless she did something about it. If she told him how she felt maybe just maybe after all these years he felt the same way she felt. She knew it was a long shot, but a girl had to have a little bit of hope.
If she wanted something to happen she needed to make it happen. She pushed the covers off of her and crawled out of her bed, stifling back a yawn.
Without even bothering to close her window, Moze made her way over to her dresser. Attached to her dresser was a small but handy mirror. She pulled out her desk chair and stared at her refection for a couple of minutes. There was no denying that she was 'a pretty girl' but she needed more than that to get him to notice her as more than a friend. She wanted to feel beautiful. Pulling out her makeup from her dresser Moze stared at its contents. It was not every day that she put makeup on.
The last time she could remember actually bothering with it was when she was still going out with Faymen. Gosh that seemed like ages ago. She pulled out her foundation and began to spread it lightly across her cheekbones.
Moze smiled she already noticed a difference. She began to spread it across the rest of her face as she let herself fall back into her thoughts. Tomorrow was Ned's birthday; she had been working on his gift for quite a long time now. It was going to be the best birthday present he had ever received she was sure of it.
She grinned to herself as she moved on to applying her eye shadow and blush. She was going to look amazing when she was done. When she was through she was going to march over to his house and tell him how she felt even if it killed her. It was time he new the truth.
After finally applying all the makeup needed to perfect her look she admired herself in the mirror. It had been a job well done! Now all she needed was the perfect outfit to top it off. Sure she could be a bit of a tomboy but she knew how to put together the perfect look and that was what she was about to do.
Pulling out a Peach colored tank and a denim mini skirt, she twirled around in front of the mirror. It looked fabulous on her, it hugged every one of her curves just right, but there was something missing. She made a mad dash towards her jewelry box and found exactly what she had been looking for. It was a gold medallion that Ned had given her for her birthday one year. It matched perfectly!
He can eat his hear out! This was going to be perfect. Moze pulled out her cell phone and dialed his number quickly just to make sure it was alright for her to come over.
After the 4th ring it went to voice-mail.
Huh? She knew he was home maybe he had forgotten to charge it; he was never good at remembering things. Oh well. She was going over there no matter what. It was not every day that she looked this good. She was dressed to kill.
Humming to herself on the way out the door, she called out to her parents. "I'm going over to the neighbor's house I'll be back in a few."
Mr. Mosely arched his eyebrows but never the less said nothing.
"Alright, we'll see you later sweetie. Be back in time for dinner." Her mother replied.
Moze just grinned. "I won't be gone that long!" She exclaimed, giddily. If things went according to plan she wouldn't have to be there very long at all.
She opened her front door and walked out onto her stoop, checking to see if he was already outside. No such luck. So she walked across their yards and made her way over to his front porch. She stared at the doorbell for a while. Was she really going through with this? She knew she was taking a huge risk, but wouldn't it all be worth it in the end?
She let out a long sigh and threw all cautions to the wind as she finally rang the doorbell. She could do this no problem. Slowly the front door creaked open and Mrs. Bigby stood there smiling.
Relax Moze! It's just his mom. She let out another long anticipated breath and put on a cheerful smile. "Is Ned around?"
Mrs. Bigby frowned. "He actually just left. You can come in and wait until he gets back if you want. He shouldn't be too long." She responded sweetly.
"Oh no that's aright! Can you just have him call me when he gets back?" She asked politely.
"Of course sweetie, I'll let him know you dropped by."
Moze smiled and walked off the porch. She couldn't take the anticipation any more. There was no way she was waiting around at their house all day. As much as she loved his family it would just be to weird to be sitting there for god knew how long.
Now was not the time. What was she suppose to say, I'm waiting here so I can tell your son I've been madly in love with him since we were in diapers. Not the approach she was going for.
Moze flopped down on the swing that was sitting on her porch. Her family had had that swing for as long as she could remember. It was where she went whenever she needed to think. Of course this is where she would end up now.
"Okay," She said aloud.
I can always tell him straight out. I think I may have been in love with you since the day I first met you when we were 4 years old. No no and no! That sounded awful!
Ned, we have been friends for a long time and I have something I need to tell you. You have always been honest with me so I think it's time for me to tell you something that you should probably know. It doesn't matter if you don't like what it is that I am about to say, but I need to get this off my chest.
I'm in love with you!
There that was perfect. If she could say exactly that everything would be fine. If he didn't feel the same way they could always laugh about it later and they would go right back to being best buds. No big deal. She just needed to tell him and be done with it.
Moze heard the familiar noise of his truck and almost jumped out of the swing. This is it!
Racing over to his driveway she walked over to the driver's side and smiled up at him.
"Hey Moze, what's up?" Ned asked, giving her a movie worthy smile.
"Actually there's something I need to tell you," She spoke her voice shaking a little.
"Okay let me just get out of the car and I'll be at your complete attention."
Moze couldn't wait any longer; the words just seemed to slip out.
"Ned, you have always been honest with me so I think it's time for me to tell you something that you should probably know. It doesn't matter if you don't like what it is that I am about to say, but I need to get this off my chest…."
Just as she was about to say her closing line she saw Suzie Crabgrass climbing out of the passenger side of the truck.
With her mouth wide open she just stood there stunned. This was not part of her plan.
"Moze... Moze?" Ned practically shouted. "Earth to Moze, are you going to finish what you were about to tell me?"
"Um…. I can't…. I actually I have to go!" She said running back to her own house.
"Moze wait!" Ned called after her, but she just kept running.
She could not do this, not ever. Especially not with Suzie his Ex standing right there.
Tomorrow was his birthday, if she was going to go through with it she had to do it tomorrow before she chickened out.
First thought when I wake up is
My god he's beautiful
So I put on my make up
And pray for a miracle
A:N: I'm BACK!! Nashville was AMAZING!! But that's besides the point. I'm on summer vacation now so i can write as much as i want! :) So updates will be a lot faster! PLEASE REVIEW!! I worked exceptionally hard on this one and i hope y'all like it!
